ReAssurance

 Reassurance 

I would never have dreamt of sharing this personal experience of mine.

Even now, I am almost sure, that this piece is not going to be of any ‘value addition’ to a reader🙏

But, we all seek some kind of re-assurance, sometime or other, not even knowing wherefrom, how or when it is going to come?

I discovered even when I was just a kid, that I am a very odd type, when too many people around concurred about the oddities in me. The tone and presentation assumed a shape, to make it seem like an abnormality ( instead of ‘oddity’). This, added to the uncertainty about my finding any kind of ‘reassurance’ about my oddities.

I was asked to ‘pray’ at a temple. I could not. ( An odd argument stood in my way🙏. I could neither compromise with my_argument, nor could I think of ‘articulating’ it to those who asked me to pray 🙏.   Everyone prayed, so no scope to question them. But no answer either, to my silly koschans to myself, like “if….God has the 3 C’s as they say/glorify about God, omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent, why should He wait for me to pray for granting me his charity?”)

I didn't get angry at someone doing something ‘wrong’ unto me. This was a very serious abnormality 🙏. A psychiatric disorder. Often, I get beaten up for a mischief I never did😜🤣… ( reason is, an unskilled thief, criminal gets huge popularity than a perfect one. Obviously, most crimes get attributed to the imperfect fool who gets caught too often.).  I was harmless in my mischiefs. So, I didn't try to ‘hide’ it. The ‘label’ became like an engraved title. My defect was, I used to ‘attribute’ the nature of inflicting a punishment on me, as something like ‘that is how they are!”. An ant bites, mosquito bites, scorpion stings. This elder too is of this_nature🙏…  The off-shoot of this defective way was, I don't wail, complain, protest, etc when a punishment causes injury. I don't feel ‘hurt’. Pain is very much there🙏

Perspectives differed with each individual. I was bogged by the element of “Vismay” ( wonderment, in English) at this difference in perspective 😥. Can't ask anyone about it. No idea, how to coin/frame the words, to articulate or convey my query, “why do perspectives differ with each Elder??”

1992 . I attended a spiritual program . “An Art of EFFORTLESS Living”.  The teacher suggested a list of how to deal with situations ( the mind_related aspect of it.). Once the way we ‘perceive’ a situation gets fixed in a way compatible with cosmic laws, everything else about ‘how to Live’ falls in place 😜.  Almost like some miracle! One piece of a jigsaw puzzles placed correctly and 99 other pieces just fall into its right place by itself!😳😳… 

My experience of this program was : “Hey! I had been all_along, only_this_way…!!! . The joke is, everyone around looked at me, as if I am a bit abnormal!. And now, here is somebody ‘enlightened’, who is “re-assuring” me, that I am abnormally-NORMAL!!!”

The tools and techniques attached to this program, felt like a ‘natural' thing to do as a routine! Like, we breathe naturally, isn't it? No conscious effort needed🙏😥

The best part of this program ( my oddity again, of course), was…. the ‘seeking’ on the outside receded. It grew inwards.  The money I used to spend on travel, as a part of this ‘seeking', started to get accumulated. 😜.  I didn't have to ‘save’ for the rainy day, CONSCIOUSLY 🙏. My old age is reassured financially, since I live quite ‘normally’ like other life-forms—- a need_based spending, not a wants/desire based squandering 😜.  If someone criticises me, either I will have to rectify a wrong in me with gratitude or…. it's the ‘nature' of the other to criticize me without any reason 😜🙏

See, I had already mentioned a disclaimer “no value addition” for a reader. Just a write up, about an odd, freak co_human 😜🙏

Oddly yours,

psn(28 Nov 2025)

A joke:  there was an odd colleague who ‘loved’ to sit next to me for 6½ hours daily. His request “give me any seat next to PSN, wherever he is seated, (as a part of rotation of duties excercise every 6 months ), or ….give me any seat, and allocate the next seat beside to PSN, which he too won't mind”

He used to steal my work ( vouchers I post in ledgers).  I too started stealing his work. Then he used to lock his table-drawer, while going for lunch/restRoom. The boss mocked:”locking your purse?”. And he took out his wallet, placing it on the table, said “not worried about my money. I can leave it here in the open. I lock my vouchers🙏. PSN steals it😭”. Boss stared at me😳. I shot back:”Sir, he started this stealing bijness. He steals. I merely responded. He locks. But I don't 🙏”

This colleague proved to be an oddity🙏. Like this proverb “fools rush in where the angels fear to tread!” Angels around avoid me, a freak. This dear_fool of mine, hovered around me, very Foolishly 🙏🙏🙏

My priorities

 My priorities 

🤣

Like almost anybody else, I too struggled to “get my priorities Right”, for decades 😭🙏

Then it dawned on me!  There can_be one item, in a list of priorities ( relevant to a human being), which is exclusive of all other priorities 🙏 ( meaning, this solitary priority doesn't ever conflict with any other priorities 😜.).  Damn good 👍, I told myself. 

Now, I am able to think about shifting the very foundation of my other_priorities. 

“Let the situation decide my priorities 👍🙏. I am bloody well a part of that situation 😜. That's all & that's it “.    Not that, I have accomplished this positioning of myself 😥, but, for sure, I am at_it most of the time! ( It took me decades to design and structure this software about my_priorities. It has been working well to the extent I am able to be aware of it 🙏 

What to make of it ( my experience) is entirely a subjective matter of each individual reader 🙏. Obviously, I can be of any practical help, only when there is a genuine SOLICITATION from others🙏.  Otherwise, may this blog convince a reader, to refrain from wasting their time on any of my blogs in future. I owe this freedom to my innocent readers🙏

Innocently yours,

psn(27 Nov, 2025)

Age 100

 Age 100

(24 nov 2025)

I received a forward today:

[24/11, 9:51 am] FORWARD: 

At 100 -Shatamanam; Life Feels Larger Than Personal Stories. Reaching 100 is not about the number of years. It is about reaching a state where you see the bigger picture. You realise that most things you worried about were not worth worrying about. People you loved mattered more than anything else. And life was always held together by something mysterious and kind. At 100, one becomes less of a “person” and more of a presence.

Essence

Our rishis did not celebrate age. They celebrated the inner shifts that age brings.

* 60, Priorities change

* 70, Peace becomes strength

* 80, Presence becomes healing

* 90, Ego becomes quiet

* 100,  Life becomes complete

Age is not declining. Age is distillation.

Thought for the Day

Growing older doesn’t reduce life. It refines it into wisdom, softness and grace.

🙏🙏

MY Response 🙏

[24/11, 10:10 am] PSN: 100 of a person has relevance to others around, not self ( due to the impact of ' Reverence ' culture/ shraddha)

For myself the ideal life span is 120( 2 cycles of the years of 60 each. )

60 is middle age( of 120). Now I ought to be compatible with nature, like the rest of all the creatures who are compatible at birth, not seeking a "protected environment called Society") and hence vaanaprastha 🙏. If, juniors around 'feel' that I can communicate my experience to them, they "choose" to honour me with a ritual Shashtipoorti, and plead "please stay back to guide us" . If that guy was found useful, the juniors honour him at the next few levels that he has_to_DESERVE, viz/namely, 70,84 and 100 .  84 looks odd, because it symbolises 1008 phases of moon by that age, where this guy is a super_specialist in imparting TECHNIQUES of handling all the phases of moon( waning/waxing) in such_a_way, that....the mind is capable of wading through the storm, navigating the_way the atman wants, not like water bodies/mental patients 🙏😥. ( Example: MULTI_sail ships sail the way that captain wants, no matter which way the wind is blowing)

Evidence: gruhatas, use "tri_Sandhya" where as the 4th saandhyaKaal/12 am, is used by ONLY a rogi/bhogi and Yogi, for different reasons/purposes, of their own needs😜

psn

Placing trust

 Placing trust

😂

Whom to trust? How to trust? How_MUCH to trust? Why to trust(😜)? Where(situation) to trust?

What is trust?( Contra_distinguished from ‘belief' 😓😥….  Why do we have a ‘BLIND-belief’, when…. A belief itself is invariably blind?😂)

I don't want to remind ‘about’ faith and confuse any further 🙏

“A wise enemy is better than a foolish friend” ( a saying/adage) 2 examples to explain.

1.Rama instructed his brother Lakshmana to undertake a ‘crash_course’ in administration ( IAS cadre) from Ravana ( an enemy, about to die in a few hours, fallen fatally wounded in the war against Rama), in a story “Ramayana”.  Trust placed in a wise enemy 🙏 

2. in A fictional story, a king placed trust in a monkey ( foolish friend), and slept after a heavy lunch. Mid_day_siesta. The friend, that monkey, was extremely loyal🙏. A fly was buzzing on the face of that king. The monkey waived away that fly, non-stop busily, to allow the king to snore peacefully. Then the fly ‘sat’ on the king's chest👍. Monkey felt “a chance to get rid of this nuisance (fly), and picked up the heavy sword of that king, lying beside, slashed at that fly, seated on the king's chest👍.  Now, the king is NEVER going to wake up😜.

We ‘place’ trust in the hands of a stranger, quite helplessly, often. That auto_driver without verifying his driving licence, our ‘life’ in his hands, we place. A doctor. A vakil. Our children we place into the hands of a teacher, 6 hours daily, for ten years 😜. 

Bank's acquire a Fidelity Insurance, against a cashier 😓. ( Most cashiers are not aware that the bank's trust in them is insured 😜).

This happened to me: the doctor prescribed an injection. The nurse outsourced the task of poking the hypodermic needle to a sweeper ‘boy’ . He poked the needle, pushed the medicine, and walked off . I stared AGHAT 😳😳. I went to the chief doctor “ Sir, I am not complaining 🙏. Please understand. I am reporting for your benefit only. That nurse is delegating her_task to a sweeper boy. You are an MBBS🙏. Even I can visualise the consequences if…..a) that injection was meant to be intra-venous? b)I was a chronic diabetic with poor clotting of blood? c)my  7 layers of skin were stiff, and the muscles were stiff, needing a vigorous rubbing at the injected hole, to spread the medicine quickly? d)the piece of cotton was INDISPENSABLE to avoid infection through the punctured hole? f)etc”....   That doctor realised, he has lost the battle, looking at my weaponry itself 😜…. irrefutable arguments! He mumbled a “sorry + thanks”.  This doctor misplaced his trust into an irresponsible nurse 🙏

Perception levels are critical and crucial, when we try to ‘guess', while placing a trust in the other. 

Spiritual giants, when trying to impart their experience, demonstrate the HIGHEST human POSSIBILITY in picking a trust_Worthy disciple 🙏 … Other 4 or 5 types of teachers can afford to dilute a little, the norms of trustworthiness of their ‘students’( not disciples😜… A student needs studiousness, where as a disciple needs discipline of highest_order🙏

Testily yours (😥),

psn (22 Nov, 2025)

Unison within us

 Unison within us

Like “charity begins at home”, Unison factor also, I think, starts within me🙏. 

There is distinction between each limb, organ, muscle, etc in my physiology, despite similar ‘features’ of a few ‘pairs’ like eyes, nostrils, ears, hands, legs, lungs etc.

Psychologically, physiologically, biologically or even spiritually, the ‘pairs’ are paired splitting vertically.😂

A joke about ‘brain’ I came across was “my brain has 2 sides, left and right. The left has nothing right in it and the right has nothing left in it”🤣🤣🤣…. Though just_a_joke, it happens to point towards femininety and masculinity, emotions and logic, where we humans struggle to persuade them to work in Unison 🙏😥😥 ( spiritual bijness aims at achieving this unison).

Like any kid, I too wondered. Only that, the items I wonder about are a bit off-track. One such was “🤔🤔 how does this bus_conductor manage legibility in numerals, when he scribbles the ticket number in the tiny boxes of his “trip-sheet”?? 😳.  The bus is moving. Standing itself is unsteady for me, though I hold the bars to avoid falling. This man, stands with his hips rested on the top edge of a nearby seat, uses left palm to hold the sheet, and his right palm holds a pen, to scribble the numbers !!! Flawless shapes of numerals. 🙏😳😳

I tried it at home, while walking gently. No writing pad, and only a fold in the sheet to avoid the point of pen piercing a hole😜. I failed!

Then it dawned on me! Look at him ‘carefully'! He joins the 2 edges of his palms. Elbow loosely held, shoulders loose, hips loose. These ‘loose’ items serve as shock-absorbers! Allow a fall to collapse loosely, and lesser chances of fractures, ligament tear, twitch in nerves etc. The palms work in Unison!!!

I tried this now👍. I can even ‘dance’ while writing. 🤣🤣

Emotions don't obey any logic.

Logic doesn't even “know” what an emotion is.( A.I. or robotics reached a dead-end, without any grasp of emotions 🙏)

Within us, we oscillate between logic and emotions 😜

Spiritual techniques are deployed to invoke the logic and emotions, at will, and very CONSCIOUSLY! ( please see…

 Which of these is malfunctioning in the inmates of mental health home? 🙏) And yet, we miss the training into emotional stability in our school syllabus 😥. ( Even well qualified teachers are unable to steady their emotions within them, often 🙏).

Once “Unison” is fully functional inside us, within us, we can think of establishing a unison with our best_partner in our life( relationship might be different each time… parents, kids, spouses, friends, colleagues etc).

Ancient Bharat had reached peak levels of UNISON, and therefore the baffled invaders of all kinds, rulers, businesses, religious invaders etc. This mystifying unison in diversities of all imaginable forms, is ‘today’ referred to by the word “Hinduism”. Stupid word🙏.  “Irreligious Hinduism” might dilute the stupidity. The scientific word is “sanatan dharma “, because it is the adherence to cosmic laws, which facilitates unison. Diversity is at our very roots🙏 if we look at our physiology.

Evidence of technological supremacy is : a scientific methodology is seen in fusing the emotions and logic in the male and female using charged energy emitted in fire, to chemically bond a pair for life time. The ritual is a wedding with fire as an invoked deity 🙏.  A superficial pairing would have sufficed for mere procreation, like the ‘live-in’ style today 😜.  Only if we are keen about the HIGHEST HUMAN POSSIBILITY, such sophisticated and super_scientific technology is required 🙏.  Chemical reaction involves heat, we know 👍. But swapping the emotional and logical capabilities within a pair( spouses), adhering to the natural design of better Dexterity at it( emotions in female and logic in male), might require self-imposed Discipline of subtle and unique kind 😜🙏🤣🤣.  Purpose and priorities while pairing a male and female was classified sensibly and scientifically in the ancient Bharat.  Now, this science itself has become almost extinct. That's why, even a religious wedding seeks “legal” divorce 😜

Unisonly yours,

psn(19 Nov 2025)

Stink versus fragrance

 Stink versus fragrance 

Dunno why 😰

I take a fancy to raise very stupid doubts 😭🙏🙏🙏

Assuming that, scientifically, both the materials are equally potent to spread/pollute/affect/whatever…. the air that we breathe in a closed room, which of these 2, stink or the fragrance, is going to be sensed in a greater measure by us???  

Don't bother to research 🙏

A kid is admitted in a class where 25 students are good/positive/helpful/kind/etc & etc.  Rest of 15 are naughty, troublesome, etc. Which group would impact this kid? 🤣 Not difficult to guess. The minorities would impact. Whether this kid yields/resists either of these 2 diverse groups, is highly SUBJECTIVE. But objectively ‘negatives’ inflict more!

Good money drives bad money out of circulation ( accepted fact,🙏).  MrX has 2 currency notes of same denomination, one is badly soiled, and the other one is crisp, fresh, and new. He will pay( get rid of) using the soiled one, and keep the good note, if payment is for only one piece_worth. 

( I was a fool, and would keep the soiled one, so that it doesn't CIRCULATE further and get torn, especially, when I could deposit or exchange it at my work place, a bank. Bank gathers soiled notes and sends it back to note issuing guys, RBI in India, to incinerate it. This oddity of mine had a spill_over effect 😭. When I volunteered as a backup for spiritual programs, I encouraged freshers to dump their soiled_thoughts upon me🙏. I listen patiently, and if they seek any solution, apart from the emptying of their garbage, I also speak🙏. Otherwise, minimum offer is, they feel light👍, anti_heavy, not lumens_light😜… spiritual buffs can transmit biolumininescence too!)

“Good people suffer more “ isn't it?🤣. ( Imagine the plight of a miserable fellow, 100% honest, working at the ‘usually’ corrupt govt offices like municipality, courts, income tax, police, etc? His isolated_honesty is a nuisance to others 😡. Whereas “a single rotten fish can spoil the whole basket of fresh fishes” they say👍 ….who “they” are I don't know, but everyone accepts this adage)

How to preserve anything that is good,..... a fragrance, honesty, positivity, circulation of good currency, etc… is the question 🙏 ( “habits die hard” 😜.  Meaning, or IMPLYING, there is no such thing as good_habits. It is merely a “usage” to refer to ‘conscious’ practicing of positivity list_of_items)

Positively yours,

psn(18 Nov 2025)

Epic stories

 Epic stories 

🤣

The best part of the desi epic stories ( like Ramayana and Mahabharata) is, even a kid ‘feels’ easy to understand, interesting and enjoyable repeatedly 👍

The “example” in my primary school’s maths text book was always easier than the set of 10 others given as “excercises” at the end of the lesson. My classmates agreed with my misconception “author is a clever fellow, he picks easiest “sum” to use as his-example, and dumps all the tough ones on me 😭”

Only when I grew up, ‘lived’ vicariously through those epic stories, I realised that the concepts hidden in it are of UNFATHOMABLE depth🙏….

I even “tried” to find out whether I am the only-fool around to feel like this? I asked a few queries like….

a)did you know, the numerals designated as “mystic” in maths, is seamlessly interwoven in the 2 epics, Ramayana and Mahabharata?( 8 & 9)

b)did you know that there is a very fundamental difference between the two heroes “Rama and Krishna”, as narrated in the two epics?

c)do you know, the sharp contrast in their very ‘format’( design, structure, software) between the two ‘avataars’ of Rama and Krishna? And for a very very good reason?

d)what is the uniqueness in Rama as an incarnation, which is not there in the other 9 forms?

e) ….. like these, few more, “etc’s”

🤣 I picked those ‘aspects’ which the narrators( for a heavy fee) omit to describe or dwell upon 🙏

I couldn't find anyone “happy” about even listening. ( As if I was indulging into the sadism of asking them to look at the end_product of a delicious dish, in the toilet and asking them to explain its composition 😭🙏) 

Anyway, I didn't regret my ‘crooked mind' asking stupid koschans like “why did that maths book’s author reserve easy problems for himself as examples in text and dump the burden some ones on me, for excercise?”  Life is the excercise and epics are the examples🙏

Exemplarily yours,

PSN(17 nov 2025)

CopyPaste versus innovation

 CopyPaste versus innovation

A new situation arises.

Today's mind is already busy, looking for CopyPaste solutions to solve the situation. 

Place any damn thing in the pressure cooker, just allow a dozen more whistles to blow! That damn thing gets mashed👍🤣🤣. ( We shut the doors to the information regarding: consequences of eating undercooked pigeon pea/toor_dal, over years, misconstruing the mashed pulse to be also_well_cooked.) 

Programmers very routinely CopyPaste earlier 'codes' of a different software, if they sight the slightest similarity in the GiGo expected in this-new-software ,😜

Physics class in 7th.

Dispersion of light. That glass prism example. CopyPaste the words, get a decent “cut_off” marks, do well in the commercial world, forget about the dispersion of light ( nobody was ever asked to explain it after going to a ‘higher’ class, college etc. exception is: genuine PhD with research, very quietly re-visit the particles of charged energy called light, and realise what they missed in 7th class at school, despite Full_marks for that bit_koschan/question 🙏😓

What about more subtle forms of energy? 🙏. 

Ancients, happened to plant “ability for Reverence “ as a prime_need in their kids. 

Consequence? Other needs of material words receded to a back_bench. Wants & desires( usually the manure for negatives, seldom got a vacant space to occupy in the mind). That kid is now in a state of readiness, to identify, recognise and realise the subtlest gross form of energy “prana/life” and evolve further.  He becomes adept at looking, seeing, observing, beholding, and perceiving the reverential people around him( dispersion, dissipation of pranic energy out of spiritually Evolved people….. getting noticed easily 🤣😜🙏🙏🙏….  We today, use the less popular, lesser efficient “Kirlian photography” to explore something, that could_have been a factory_fitted accesory, part of original equipment, body!😜🙏.  So? Worth learning the “CONCEPT” of dispersion of light,....a light example for that tender age😜🙏)

Originally yours,

psn(16 Nov 2025)

Dreamy life

 Life is a dream.

Yes.

And a dream is unreal ( it's a virtual reality, yes too)

While inside the dream, no escape from its reality.

We can't stop the dream, nor can we realise it, while inside it😓

"inextinguishable" by us 🤣

There is a subtle difference between these two dreams.

The power of discrimination 🙏

While inside life, we can 'realise' it's true nature experientially.  Till then, mind can only 'conjure' ideas about it, and get further stuck into it, more inextricably 😜. 

Once that experience dawns, the dream of life gets resolved into an ultimate freedom, with a beautiful choice too. Enjoy continuing life, or just drop it to merge into the very source of it🙏

Dreamily yours 

psn (13 Nov 2025)

Sanatan Dharma Virus

 Sanatan Dharma virus

Even today, the word Dharma is in ‘vogue’ ......but……but….. our minds have forgotten to ASSIGN the correct_attribute, which was CONSCIOUSLY assigned in our ancient Bharat 🙏

1.“Do you think this place is a dharamshala? 😡😡” (A popular expression, which a growing child would infer, as a negative word, to be used to scold someone exploiting some benefit as a “freebie” 😂)

2.Dharam_kanta ( a shop where an accurate weighing ‘balance’ is used, where anybody can ‘check’ the ‘real’ weight of things purchased, especially GOLD ornaments, where, even a milligram less matters!🙏”

3.Dharam_sankat 😂 How can a sacred concept ‘become' a SOURCE of sorrow/difficulty( sankat, sorrow? ).  The usage is when someone is morally compelled to go against a loved person 😥

4. ( Few more such….. so, “etc, etc”)

When a mind REGISTERS such uses of the word “Dharma”, how do we expect our mind to ‘appreciate’ the Sanctity in the phrase “sanatan dharma”? ( The software inside our mind working in a “background” is bound to Dismiss the importance in the concept latent in the word Dharma.

Obviously, Dharma relates to laws which are not MANUFACTURED by a human mind 🙏. It is beyond man_made laws & rules. “Nature” works/operates as per what we tried to ‘label it as Dharma'( unwritten set of concepts pertaining to the whole brahmaand/universe). The purpose of man-made laws are for some kind of orderliness in the society.  

Example: “We” laid a rule like “do not throw a banana peel on the pathway”. This, helps/prevents us from the consequences of disobeying nature's Gravity laws!😥 . We skid, fall and break a bone, stepping carelessly on that banana skin. 

Gravity is applicable only where the components of what constitutes a planet, aggregates collectively, it's own nature of polarising other molecules towards itself, in proportion to the mutual affinity within those molecules! A deep understanding of the nature of these molecules, paved the way to energise...those loosely packed molecules to increase their mutual affinity and comply with gravity in a greater Measure 🙏 . Chants, riding on certain kind of thermal_energy, enabled another kind of energy in the form of ‘vibes’ to induce “rain”. The ‘key’ was, the chants were composed in a particular set of sounds which were discovered to be in CONFORMITY with Quantum laws 🙏. Sanskrit is the language for generating such powerful vibes🙏. The COMPLEXITY involved in acquiring a thorough_grasp on such highly intricate technology has…. perhaps……dissuaded the modern mind from exploring/reviving the technology. Instead, we seek comfort in dismissing it( the technology) as a blind_belief. We don't mind the HIGHLY expensive alternative of cloud_seeding, using a polluting machine like aeroplane 😜. ( Judicious excercise of discretion depends too heavily on “best use” of power of discrimination, already available in humans as an embedded software 🙏)

A joke now!

An elderly lady surprised me this week, standing at gate, begging "please do some DHARMAm"...😳

( Oops! "Dharma" she said🙏. For a moment, a joke occured, though I didn't spell it out to that innocent, harmless lady🙏.  To an arrogant beggar, I can try saying "sir/Madam,  my Dharma is dengue virus, malaria virus, as per my elected neta. I shouldn't spread that virus to you 🙏... It is tamilnadu")

Very rarely (nowadays) a beggar at gate uses the accurate ancient word "Dharma" for begging 🙏(" please do Dharma", the beggar would say!🙏)

It is 'the' Dharma/duty, of a 'have' wala to share with the 'have_not' wala, something out of NATURAL resources ( it belongs to the society, not any individual). A beggar asks for food as a Dharma( ancient times, no currency involved, and I can't manufacture food, nature does it 🙏)

psn

(11 nov 2025)

Offering Trust

 Offering Trust

🙂

Am I trust-worthy?

Such stupid koschans/questions don't come alone 🙏😭😭

They bring along a host of unwelcomed irritants. 

 Like, a)Why should I? b)what if I get exploited? c)what about reciprocity by the other? d)how do I handle the inadequacy of recognition from the other e) bla-bla 

Endless spate of negativity nourishing thoughts😥

Then, a teacher asked :”do you nurture a coconut tree only because it yields nuts, or does it yield nuts BECAUSE you nurture it?”

Okay, gotcha 👍…..but, I thought (asking my stupid koschans was disallowed in that session, so I just ‘thought'):”heck! The tree stands there quietly, so also does a tiffin box at a crowded place!😥.  Gourmet warns me “do not touch UNIDENTIFIED objects like a tiffin box, at public places, it might explode!”( this is what we did to ourselves! Spreading mutual mistrust. As yet, I can trust that tree🙏😓)

But, the story didn't end there. “Tree” became an example ( humans, as example of ‘trustworthiness’ is, of late, a bit in short_supply😜)

Lesser ‘explained’ concept about that coconut tree, is what was going to get into me as an embedded software 🙏

The art of reversing. 😜🙏🙏🙏

“Being, becoming and having” ( instead of the stressful, troublesome, hypertension-causing, and defective way of “Wanting to have, and therefore struggling to become and therefore ‘being a person, of a particular way” 

That's it 😂 

Being yours,

psn(10 Nov 2025)

Post script ( only for those, who are interested to read further)

My understanding:

2 ways of living:

1). I like to ‘have’ ( a long list… money, comforts, respect, recognition, power, fame, ofcourse health, joy and that damn thing called ‘peace of mind'). In order to have all of these, I slog to ‘become' something. Having become a “so & so”, next tougher thing is to keep maintaining myself as ‘being of some type's! ‘.   I invite endless problems in life.

2). I decide to ‘be’ in a particular way! ( That's what that damn coconut tree does. No matter if someone takes care of it or it is destined to get stuck on the shores of a desolate island, it has decided to ‘be’ a nut_yielding tree🙏.  If nobody cares, it yields lesser, smaller and impoverished nuts. If someone cares, out of his_need, it yields more quality nuts. Tree has zero tension. Only the caretaker takes the 100% burden of care, stress, tension, etc,etc 😂

Simple, crisp and clear 🙏. I am going to be “like this”!  It is upto the other to bother to know me correctly, the way I am. No matter if I rot and perish, or….I am patronised out of the other's need, choice and love🙏.  Tiffin box is not bothered whether it explodes or gets refused + defused after a long time. A diamond lying burried a kilometre  right_beneath that tiffin box, undiscovered is also not bothering. Tree gets noticed 👍

( Side effects surprised me!  😳😳😳. MayaMadam, mother_nature, recognised me!!!  The tiny speck of 0.0001% of synchronicity that crept into me over decades of practicing the second one, “being—>becoming —->therefore having, works flawlessly, infallible!  Spirit, the life energy ticking in me, decided to share its own joyousness with ‘me’, the fellow stuck into an_identity, and waiting for moksha😜…..😳🙂. 

My_____that is it___now!)

Chanakya was just a ‘nobody', found crushing the ‘roots’ of a thorny_shrub on the road, so that it won't grow again and injure travellers 🙏. He was ‘relocated’ to the king's cabinet of ministers. If unnoticed, still he would have been the ‘same’ Chanakya 👍

Our Yardsticks

 Our Yardsticks 

Sage Patanjali ( author of Yoga Sutras) demonstrated the worth of his_yardsticks, when he valued the ‘time’ of his readers, belonging to posterity 🙏.  The two opening verses are the evidence. First one defines the concept and purpose of the book ( just 2 words😂, and interpretation by later Giants, runs into pages!). Second one provides a litmus test. It decides whether to continue reading or to trash it🙏

We as ordinary people do not think of evaluating our Yardsticks ( parameters) while using it to evaluate, measure  and judge others, things and situations. ( I tried to visualise a funny situation, where I am asked to judge a vocalist of classical music, without realising that I am stone deaf😂. The deception about my deafness might have been due my dexterity at lip_reading🙏.  Now, my yardstick is lip movement. And when that vocalist touches the peak of high_pitch of a note(aalaap), I would write down “that speaker struggles to utter even a mono syllable 😓”

The famous novel ‘Hotel’ by Arthur Hailey ( if I remember right), highlights the Yardsticks used by ‘staff’ when a rich man, tried to search for a proper fellow to head that huge hotel, by evaluating the Yardsticks possessed by staff, to judge their customers. He dresses himself poorly, feigns sickness, etc. Staff try to ‘avoid’ giving service, apprehending the inability of that ‘poor’ to pay the bill. Hero, takes risk, but with prudence and caution. Hero is a junior staff. The poor+sick visitor buys the hotel and appoints this hero as the boss.

Japan, I heard, uses “empty mind” as a crucial parameter to appoint a very high profile business head for its global corporates!

Trust and perception LEVELS decides the level of ability to discriminate and thus the FINE_ness of our Yardsticks. ( A vernier caliper can measure a fraction of one tenth of an inch or centimetre. But mind trying to ‘measure’ abstract values, concepts, trust, love, affection, reliability, in others, things or our own potential…. the Yardsticks aren't always ‘steady’ 😂😜

Spiritual Yardsticks???

Damn simple ( ofcourse not at all easy).

Just the intensity & focus of ‘life energy’ in us at any given point of time. 

Immeasurably yours,

psn(9 Nov 2025)

Post_script_teaser:

I asked a few ‘high profile’ recruiters of ‘plum jobs’, who can afford to be outspoken with me with their answers 🙏

“ What exactly do you look for, in a prospective candidate during your 6th round of interview? Paper credentials, experience, etc are already verified well. 👍. Okay, a hint : the ‘thing’ that you OUGHT_to look_for, is the same thing needed to be looked_for, while ‘deciding upon’ a life_partner/spouse 😜 “

Rarely, I get a PRECISE name of that yardstick. Only thereafter, the koschan/question arises, about the efficacy of that_yardstick 🙏

Examples, use of "sense of Discrimination"

 Examples, use of Discrimination 

“I ain't no_good “( indiscriminate use of english 😜), at teaching “how to use the sense-of-discrimination at its best. Only a Guru can teach! I am only an idiot 😭 

Example 1). Accidental use.

( To regale my readers this one)

Movie villain ( Ajit) refers to himself as “Loyen”, desi accent for Lion.

A fellow leaves a ‘hint’ while dying(“who is the culprit for my death”), which the hero reads it as “NO 17”! 😳🤔🤔.

Clueless “what can number seventeen means???”

Then a scene.

Villain throws a lavish party.

His name “LION” is displayed in a rotating neon_sign.

Hero is watching ( blank mind, hence ‘intellect’ got a golden opporChutney to function 😜).

That ‘LION’  got_seen as ‘NOI7’ when rotating neon disc turned upside down, each time🤣🤣 ( hero exclaims “Eureka” this villain did it!!!) exampull of accidentally using discrimination.

(Real life ‘loyen’. A school mate wrote to me today. He jointly organised a blood_donation at Hyderabad. 100 donors came. He is a member of “Lion's club”🙏. A “Loyen”, desi word. I wrote “100 lives going to be saved”.  Sense of Discrimination about “what best can I do with my leisure, post retirement?” . a Loyen/lion contributes for blood donation 🙏. )

Example 2) CONSCIOUSLY using it:

CopyPaste ( quote)

Kabir, a mystic poet in 15th century India, wrote in one of his couplets (in Hindi),

"Guru Govind dou khade, kaake laagoon paye

Balihari guru aapki, Govind diyo milaye."

Translated:

I face both God and my guru. Whom should I bow to first?

I first bow to my guru because he's the one who showed me the path to God.

(Unquote)

God is superior to guru, yet…???(how to use deeper sense of Discrimination, to bow firstly to the “vital” source of enlightenment?)

Example 3) absence of ABILITY to use “already available sense_of_discrimination”

( Again, a CopyPaste of a famous story)

राजा और रंक (Prince and the pauper)

The pauper, exchanging his role with a prince who looks EXACTLY like him…..

“finds” the best use for that heavy_metal_clad ‘royal seal’ …..to be good for this purpose only : “cracking nuts” 😜😂🤣🤣.

He couldn't distinguish it as “royal seal” to issue a royal Charter/command!😳

Ignorance, looks like innocence here( if readers can distinguish between the two words😜)

I shall be thankful to my creator, if a reader finds it worth, to learn ‘how to use in a more_better way, the sense of Discrimination 🙏. Logically, I know, my blogs don't inspire much😭.

Ignorantly yours,

psn(29 Oct 2025)

My maths teacher

 My maths teacher.

What if I requested you to visualise sitting in your 7th class at your school, and suddenly a new teacher for your maths walks in escorted by the “princi”?

It happened to me, exactly.

The next few moments baffled me! The principal said “this is going to be your maths teacher now! You are very lucky to get such a teacher. He was teaching to post graduate students in a college. ( My eyes widened and my thoughts were “Whhhat¿? Am I ‘hearing’ it okay?”) Let me warn you, any complaint from this teacher, against any student, I will not even enquire into the complaint, but will make sure that the T.C. will not allow him to get admission into any other Good school”( precise words 😂… govt. Schools are open to any kid, not ‘good' schools)

This introduction served a ‘sacred’ purpose for me, though I wasn't mature enough to realise it's sanctity. The “worry” part never scared me, because of my chemistry then😜

This teacher never USED the text book. Other teachers might have only obviated the REFERENCE to a text book, but couldn't manage to avoid the “use” of its contents!

He caused ‘hardships’ to all the students, when the examples & homework stuff was extempore.  I was an oddity. I loved his classes🤣. While a frown precedes on the faces of most others as he walks in daily, eagerness sprouts afresh each day into me🙏

Let me quell the suspense in my readers🙏

Why did he quit teaching post graduate students and opt to teach 7th class kids?

Because,

Our society had indulged into the stupidity by then, of using very negative kind of “standards of measurement” used as tools and yardsticks for evaluation of an intellectual, highly spiritual and unimaginably dedicated teacher.”  Obviously, he failed.  Use a crooked scale to check a straight line, and that line will “fail” the test. The ugly bends in that scale will “give admissible evidence “ that this line is not alongside the scale 🤣

Each lecture was a “seminar “( if we care to examine the true meaning of the word ‘seminar’) . I don't know about others. But I found myself looking at the concept of concepts ( concept formation) when he initiated us into the”abstractions” of algebra. 🙏😂. 40 years later, I understood effortlessly ( thanks to this teacher, for laying foundation of concepts into me) when a retiree from the highest mathematical reasearch institution in India, a legend in his field, said to me, in a private chat “maths turns into a “language “ transcending it's nature as a ‘science’ after a certain level of study and deep research”  

I could “see” 40 years later, that this teacher of my 7th was in sync with the methodology of Rishis of ancient Bharat ( all the Rishis were invariably, mathematicians of the HIGHEST order🙏). 

I don't know, if the reader is able to “see” a striking semblance? A student of ancient Gurukul gets the “best” teacher possible, at the age of 7.  And here, I got a teacher, qualified to teach final year of postgraduate in maths. Only the numerals are same “7”. Otherwise, the age is too late for me, by 6 more years😭, since pristine intellect fades a little by then!

Several dozens of instances, and incidents related to this_teacher remains fresh in my memory, which can adequately substantiate the fact that he was a teacher ‘par-excellence’. ( Very soon, he was allowed to teach higher classes too, thanks to 2 other excellent teachers in maths, who cheerfully became a catalyst and communicator to the management about the worth of this genius🙏)

This is one of the rare occasions when I feel painfully aware of my inadequacy in doing justice to a blog. I don't have the ability to admire and appreciate this teacher to the level he deserves🙏

Inadequately yours,

psn(25 Oct 2025)

Keeping a watch

 Keeping a watch 

 "how could you know that the sun has just set?" Asks the heroine in the movie  'Koshish', to a blind man, sitting on sea shore.

Blind says "I can smell"

( We don't have to become a blind, to learn how to smell. 😜

Question of just deepening our perception, using the same sense organs. Eyes can read "aura" if we are willing 🙏)

😂

Normally, I don't engage into prying into things that do not concern me (mind turns into a politician, when we indulge thus 😂)

Somewhere in 1993, I felt that I am seeing a dark shade prominently around a co-participant in my yoga programs. He was intensely keeping a 'watch' on me, my unprecedented growth into practices 😂. The teacher would have given 'hints' to him and another participant, both seniors to me in the first level)

I told him " I think, I see a dark shade around you. Makes sense to be more alert, atleast while driving your motorcycle 🙏" ( he didn't seem to take it seriously)

Third day, he came rushing and asked breathlessly "how is that shade now?"( He was in a hurry to leave, as well. Usually, he visits only when 'leaving hour' is flexible)

I looked at him, eyes defocused.

"A bit dull, but not yet faded out"

He said "I barely escaped a fatal collision, entirely the fault of the other😥..... How did you know?"

"I still don't know, how I knew!"I said, "it showed itself too prominently 🙏, and the dark_shades are said to be associated with something negative 😜... I just guessed"

 Keeping a "watch" is an excercise, a tool, prescribed by evolved spiritual teachers, since ancient times.

Once a seeker approached a zen master. And did a "🙏"

Zen called the chief disciple and instructed :"keep a watch on him. He will work in the kitchen" (the entrant didn't need any lessons or practices. He was now the seniormost disciple, with just a "waiting period" to explode into enlightenment 🙏😜😜😜...  Keeping a watch on him was the_most important excercise for that hitherto_seniormost student!)

Watchfully yours,

psn(24 Oct 2025)

Nature's blessings

 Nature's blessings 

All we need to do, to become eligible for receiving nature's blessings is to undo our wrong choices to the possible extent. 

Benedictions, on the other hand, are always subject to the scope for our receptivity. Irreversible actions shut off this scope.

It is in order to reach the core of nature's basic nature, the thought of exploration arises in a human mind. The purpose is to synchronise our choices with that of nature's design, structure and software. Transcending our thought-process was the only way that appeared to be obvious, when all other life forms were naturally in synchronicity with nature 😜.  

And therefore the suggestion by a great master “yoga chitha vruthi nirodha” ( synchronicity, alignment, merger is cessation of the REPETITIOUSNESS of mind) and then, he proceeds with description of time tested tools. Though quite subtle for our sensory levels to perceive, a possibility to access the reachable core form of nature's basic structure is ‘life’(energy) ticking inside us. But the real core is far more subtle, and unmanifest in its form. 

If, our choice is to remain ‘stuck’ to our unaudited & wrong choices of thoughts, words and deeds, then, nature is prepared to wait 🤣. It has a whole ‘eternity’ of time available, to wait. We keep further complicating our ‘errors’ , facing the consequences of wrong choices, and missing the experience of joy innate in nature's design structure and software 🙏.  The same Master, conveys nature's message as a prelude to that suggestion “athah yoga anushasanam”( And now {that nothing else worked, welcome to} the discipline of synchronicity, alignment and merger{with nature},). 

It is not that we are far away from nature due to our erroneous choices. Nature is a part of us, as much as we are a part of it 😜👍🙏

Just that, we keep missing the experience part of nature, when the focus of our life_energy remains stuck into the thought process called Mind. ( We keep “just thinking about nature, and related bla-bla” all the time, and keep missing it😂.  No matter how much we ‘think’ about a tasty dish which we never saw, felt or tasted, we can never get to know about it, till we experience its taste. And once we taste it, thoughts about it becomes redundant 🤣).

“I love nature” is a popular expression, which we don't try to question 🙏. Who within us is exactly “loving” it ? Body, mind, or the spirit?  ( No point elaborating the subtle distinction in these experiences by these entities, because argument, discussion, debate, agreement, conceding etc is confined to only a ‘mind’). For the purpose of humor, let our mind try saying “I love nature” when trapped in a storm, cyclone, volcanic lava, debris of an earthquake, jaws of a huge shark etc 😜. These all are very much “nature” too! ( On a serious note, the ancient tradition of “vaanaprastha”, forest_dwelling at mid_age of 60, was just this, 🙏…. “I love nature and I do_mean_it, come what may 👍” 😜… they don't articulate it. They ‘live’ it. 

Naturally yours,

psn(18 Oct, 2025)

Visualization skill via perception

 Visualization skill via perception 

I am not at all competent to ‘talk’ about the skills acquired by ancient Masters of Bharat, when I look at the magnitude of their skills, sitting meditatively, and delving deep into the mysteries of this universe.

( They could foretell with precision upto 1 “vighati” 1/60x60x60th part of 24 hours, the occurrence of an eclipse!). 

More credible evidence? ( Needed?)

Water climbed by itself some 800+ steps at the Golkonda Fort( Hyderabad), Naturally! 

A few engineers of British era BROKE those mud pipes, ( to substitute their lack of skills of perception & visualization) when their CONSTRICTED curiosity tempted them to see the “inside” to find out the technology. ( I was saddened, even as a kid of barely 12 yrs, when the guide explained to my school boys, on an excursion, how this plunder happened 😭). Probably, today's LAPROSCOPY instrument would have saved the design of mud-pipes, though its secrets might have awaited a much more evolved mind, to reveal itself 🙏

Another example is “paan-Chakki” near Aurangabad (Maharashtra), where I got an opporChutney to fathom the ‘reach’ of the minds of a wandering mendicant who devised a way, to intricately, seamlessly interweave 4 chapters of Physics, in designing a structure of mud-pipes which still fetches river water 10 kms away and delivers it from a height of 10 feet or so. 

Trudging the pathless path, sprinted across, by ancient minds, is a task full of uncertainties unimaginable! 🤣

Instead, I got placed on a track, which was designed to help me to evolve further into the faculties that are related to sensitivity, beyond the sensory levels of perception 🙏. This pursuit happened to grant me a unique kind of insight, which I had no way to evaluate or validate, except by sharing it. 

While the living humans around grant scarce audience to the concepts I present, certain indescribable energies ( formless ‘beings’/minds) seems eager to hold my tiny finger and lead me into those forests of mysteries 😛. I wasn't quite sure if it was appropriate to drop a mention of this. But age prompted me to ‘go ahead, blabber👍’ ( 🙏🙏🙏😛😜🤣)

All I look forward to, now…

is to vacate my place, leaving it a ‘bit’ better than it was, when I occupied it!

A blabberer, yours,

psn(16 Oct 2025)

Stagnant Focus

 Stagnant Focus

🤣

Focus itself, is a herculean task of late (fast pace of life)

And to ‘talk’ of its stagnation? 😭

But, if ‘learning skills’ mean anything to us, we do need to look at focus a bit deeper.

Skilled tasks need better focus.

My life experience (samples purpose only)

a) At work place, a superior once asked me to do something very inappropriate. Just to oblige a customer who fed him with ‘gratifications’ (graft).

I refused. (only ‘reasonable’ orders of a superior needs to be obeyed. I had no weaknesses which could be exploited, hence no fears! 😂  I stayed bold!)

He growled “Don’t think I can’t do that job myself. I can do any clerical work, but you can’t do my job”

I didn’t have to ‘think’ of a reply : “Very true sir! For that matter, we both can do a sweeper’s job, but he can’t do a clerical or your job! But between both of us sweeping the floor, you might keep on sweeping the floor, while, I might invent a ‘vacuum cleaner’ after few days of sweeping!!”

Red-faced,  he proceeded to do that unethical task by himself. 

He missed my point.  Focus shouldn’t stagnate even at a menial-looking task like sweeping floors, if we like to keep evolving.

b)Somewhere during 1966 my dad granted me permission to learn ‘typewriting’ (those manual and mechanical machines, where the finger tips hammer the keys). He didn’t want me to end up as a typist in my life. 

A very strict instruction “ Do not aspire for speed, ever.  In typing, speed is an inevitable consequence, not the purpose. Accuracy will abandon you for ever, if you focus on speed while learning” 

I had to change 6 ‘typing institutes’ because the owner of the 5 previous ones didn’t like me spending days/month on stupidity like “a,s,d,f,g,f.... ;,l,k,j,h,j” (called budget). The sixth fellow didn’t care what i did.  He focused only on monthly ‘fee’ of Rs.6 (then)

After 6 months, a couple of months of sentences like “the quick brown fox jumps over a lazy dog” (a to z)

I started of at 25 wpm :))  

My dad had learnt typing. But was using his skill very rarely.

One such unforgettable occasion was when his manager told : “ I am going to Head office by flight. No time to ‘draft’ that vital and important letter. Bring it directly to the airport. Use a taxi car. I will pay for it.” ( He briefly told dad about the ‘matter’ and dad said “please sign at this place here” on a blank printed-letter-head paper.” That manager stared in disbelief!  The signature is usually at a place where the ‘body’ of a letter ends, and below the words ‘yours faithfully,’ with a “manager” typed below the signature.)  

Dad had very little time. He typed it. That signature stood where it had to, though the structure was built around it, only after  😳.  Later, he counted the words. Time, he knew since  he was racing against it :))  He said “ it happened to be 72 wpm” with a ‘matter-of-fact-only’ kind of expression. 

I bookmarked this incident, which I never witnessed, but my dad’s narrative is, as always, flawless, owing to the bed-time stories we squeezed out of him, as his 3 kids!

(my take= type writing can expand its scope of newer skills in it if we are better-focused while learning)f

one funny thing I noticed (pertains only to me, a ‘half-mad’ fellow). After learning typing, my mind started “chanting” the spellings of each word that I ‘write’ with my ‘hand’ and using a ‘pen’ 🤣🤣😜

That was new!  Otherwise, hitherto, spellings were just a practice of kid age, despite the mismatch of pronunciation & its spellings in English 🤣

I started looking at more possibilities, when spelling each word became a possibility, afresh, each time. Slowly, phrases, sentences, why.... even concepts started preceding what I think+write, not while ‘copypasting’.

Toughest challenge ever.

Focus during breathing.  Keep watching that ‘stupid-breath’. 

It begets mind-fatigue at supersonipartc speed 😜🤣

And, ancients spent decades practicing to focus better and better, and...better their own breath!!!

Gautama Buddha did the ‘known’ part  of research best at breath-watching. 

Awesome results!  We not only become better at focusing on breath, but our ‘focusing skills’ grow phenomenally !!! ‘Stagnation’ stagnates far behind, when breath-watching evolves.

Stagnantly yours,

psn(13th Oct, 2025)

Yours Foolishly

 Yours Foolishly 😂

That's me!

Make no mistake about it🙏

Those who had the curiosity of peeping into my status ( stature) on WhatsApp would have noticed it ("Chappadachee" Trash-Can (Chappa, trash)😝 My Baptised Name!(2-in-1 उल्लू+उल्लू का पट्ठा👍)

Only a fool would try ethics (like honesty, outspokenness, adherence to rules, etc) today. And he earns the title “fool, who does not know how to survive 😭🙏)

Honesty etc adorns only people like M.K.Gandhi. His fame obviates any scope for scrutiny of political dishonesty he nourished carefully 😜 . And he benefitted too. No prisoner managed to EXTRACT an expensive diet like him🙏. Goat milk only👍. And he got obliged by the British, for their political benefits 🙏. A single Goat yields very little milk. So, several kids of few goats paid the price of malnutrition due to the adamancy of this Maha_aatma🙏. ( For medicinal purposes, in ayurveda, a little goat_milk is for Survival 🙏)

For Aam adami, honesty is foolish. Our dishonesty uses a make_up with, “What was a luxury decades ago, is an absolute-neccessity today!”.

Shringar for a bride, decades ago, became a necessary-make-up( quite expensive too 😜) today. And the groom knows, what kind of a face to-face in her, days later, sans-makeUp🤣

Earning for a “living” is no-more a dishonesty ( the teacher, in my spiritual program, STUPIFIED me when he said, “centuries ago, food happened for free for humans too! Today it is still  for “free” for all other life forms! Only humans need to work_for_food. Few animals/birds only hunt, not work!).

We can't afford honesty about our comfort zone, when we climb vertically, in our graph, about our dependency on gadgets😜. We say “no longer a luxury item. It's a necessity now👍🙏🙏🙏.” ( A.I. technology will eventually turn this attempt/scope/tool  even, to look at our dishonesty, into a Redundant thing . 🤣….  A dweller on Sun doesn't ‘need’ a word like “light” so, darkness remains unknown to him🙏)

I heard a joke in the epic story of Ramayana. Somebody suggested to Ravana “Hey! Why not dress up like Rama, and abduct Sita?”. It seems Ravana got infuriated and barked “do you think, I can't think about this idea????😡 F-o-o-l, the moment I change into “a Rama”, the very idea of abducting Sita would Evaporate out of me !”  ( Even a Villain, during the epics_era could afford honesty 🙏😭…. Karma is governed by a “form too”!!!

( I got flattened by my innate urge into spiritual bijness. As yet, dishonesty doesn't work in spiritual bijness. So, I had_too embrace a formidable stupidity in honesty_unto_self!  My frugality keeps my dishonesty with others, like …. I say to a sure-defaulter “sorry boss! I don't have the ₹100 right now, to lend to you 🙏😭”)

Foolishly yours,

psn(11 Oct 2025)

Discipline

 Discipline 

🤣

An elusive word.

It evades a comprehensive grasp of its underlying deeper concepts implied in it, when we readily ‘fall’ for its superficial harshness and dismiss it's depth, calling it ‘a shallow trick’ used by the other to tame us into subservience😥🙏 ( Army discipline, school discipline, work place discipline, lane-discipline… countless such discipline frustrated ‘a’ mind to such an extent…..that…. now we loathe that bloody word, and tend to divert the true sense of another beautiful word ‘Freedom’ 😜. Ugliest sense POSSESSES us, Enslaves us, when our mind shrieks “ I wanna a Freedom from Discipline” 😡😡😡)

Discipline of SCIENCE! ( Not an unknown phrase, but seldom looked at in exclusivity of freedom_seeking mind🙏😜). Maths_discipline, is a Must for sensible pursuit of any human_activity 🙏)

I am no exception to the ambience of today's mindset, surrounded by folks who assume that it is “natural” for a repulsion towards that surface_sense in discipline.

Intellectual discipline is possible only when a mind adheres to the sanctity of mind's discipline 🤣🤣🤣

What about SPIRITUAL discipline? ( only MY problem, so I won't tamper with your “freedom from Discipline”)

A school_teacher , a parent, of today, is in a great hurry!😥. No time to “educate” a kid about the NEED for any discipline, forget about implanting the Concept of it🙏).

Other life forms do not Need to understand about “discipline”. The embedded software obviates any scope to tamper with “natural” nature in it. It lives and dies in a disciplined_way!( Evidence???? All life forms —not under captivity—die quietly, disposing their carcass by themselves, in an eco_friendly manner😜… try disposing the carcass of an elephant domesticated, and its very cost will convince us🙏).

I am now, loving self_discipline a “bit”. Not that I really evolved 😭…. At my age, 70+ now… nobody is keen to discipline me!😥. No audit for my mind's miss_takes !

Disciple of yours, 

( Disciple is qualified in discipline 😌)

psn(11 Oct 2025)

Irritating tail-piece 😜

If I were to ‘pour’ mercury from one glass jar into the other, is it not EFFORTLESS? 🤣 ( OIL is a messy_thing for the same task ! It sticks to the old jar, etc)

Hindu way of life( which we abandoned today) was a software designed to implant spiritual_discipline in…..even-a-kid, quite effortlessly 🙏🙏🙏. Bed_time stories from an Evolved grandpa/Mrs grandpa, was enough, to clandestinely infuse discipline. Kid glorified the divine qualities in Rama/Krishna, and tries to emulate “Dharma” in his wakeful activities! 

Snag is, even story telling, needs a CUSTOMISED_discipline 🙏

When mind gets 'engaged

 When mind gets 'engaged'

Disengaged.

9 Oct 2025

A wonderful person responded to a comment of mine ,🙏

Quote 

[09/10, 11:21 am] that wonderful: 

Disengaged 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[09/10, 1:25 pm] PSN: I am glad.

You seem to have understood the significance of that choice of mine( dis_engaged).

Engaged, when it refers to 'the' mind in a spiritual sense, I prefer to CopyPaste your phrase(😜🙏) "tip, of the iceberg". 

( Age, adds to the tiresome job of 'typing' അല്ലെങ്കിൽ, easily 45 minutes of concepts related to 'engage' of mind🤣🤣🤣

( I ask myself "has this girl got adapted my style of arrangements of words? And, so soon???" 😳🤔)

[09/10, 1:31 pm] PSN: I will continue to "envy" that divinely gifted singer , Madurai mani iyer  🙏🙏🙏

A legend destined Mani as "when he sings....the Devi of swara scrambles to keep pace with him!!!!" ( Astounding tribute🙏)

Whereas, I plead, implore, beg etc to goddess of learning ( not literacy, education.... "Learning itself") "Madam, allow me to recall an apt word🙏" she does once in a blue_moon 😂🙏)

Engagedly yours,

PSN

Freedom for prana

 Freedom for prana

The life energy called PRAANA , is like an electric current ( not an exact example).

Body, mind and intellect are distinct devices ( in order of subtlety too)

How energy is going to work, depends on which device is made_to_work.

Using electric energy, a grinder grinds, a processor processes, and a stove heats up with its coil glowing Red🤣

If the mind manages to become a "boss" the body simply obliges the mind, overriding even its limited cellular intelligence and intellect sleeps blissfully 😜

Invariably, all the yoga-based acrobatics are directed towards taming the mind 🙏 ( and any-benefit accruing to the physiology is merely incidental.)

By chance, if a yogic practitioner manages to tame his mind, the intellect gets a "chance" to do it's work in an inversely proportional  ratio 🙏. Wisdom is inevitable when intellect has 100% freedom 😥🙏

Energetically yours,

psn ( 7 oct, 2025)

In the ancient times in Bharat,

4 different types of people specialise in assessing the "pranic" power in the person consulting them ( quality services 😜🙏)

1) family preceptor/guru

2) ayurvedic physician 

3) family astrologer 

4) if available, a naadi expert, a combo of astrology+physiology 🙏

Varna concept

 Varna concept

Varna, conceptually, a classification, is in synchronicity with the innate nature of  each life form .

Present day politics ( evil design of invaders to destroy the minds of dwellers of Hindu_land, which they succeeded 🙏), cleverly, deceptively, kept the CONCEPT hidden.

With all the life forms, the classification is CONFINED to its physiological structure. Hence, SCOPE for distortion is hardly any ( example of EXCEPTION:  energies at sringa_hill, and Tunga river, caused a snake and a vulture to TRANSCEND it's own nature! Spared +protected the life of its own food, which was another life_form. Another example of EXCEPTION is, tender neem leaves behave very uniquely, if eaten during Brahma-muhurta. Second one, I accidentally discovered, and later voucher by very elderly experts in ayurveda 🙏).

When it comes to classification of a humans,  it STARTS with...... within humans ITSELF  😜 .

REASON? we are 'a' being ( life form) of.... volitional consciousness 🙏

Then, 

we look at 'factors' which are 'fundamental' to the causation of mutual distinctions 🙏.

Brains, gave 'names' to these factors 🙏

Sattva, Rajas, & tamas. ( these are MICRO elements, basic to EACH human, at core level AND also are in unique combination & proportions. 🙏) It is significant to note that AYURVEDA, uses this classification for BEST possible respite, relief, cure and EVOLVEMENT too 😜… along with astrology, quantum laws and human -physiology.  Sounds ‘scientific'???? 🙏🤣… Explore & ReDiscover it 😓

Two ways to grasp, understand & TEST this concept, before proceeding to DEAL with it, (if at all---or---only if.....we are able to discriminate the 'necessity' of indulging in it 😜😜😜), is available . Either negate it with an open mind to eliminate all other possibilities, or..... if fortunate/blessed-enough to invest TRUST, use the already available sense of Discrimination, INTELLIGENTLY🙏🙏🙏🙏

( IF, the foregoing has-even a 1% appeal in us, 😜.... there is a possibility of understanding the 'why' in Gita, that author declared that He wrote the software of Varna classification 🙏....  Names like 'brahmin, Kshatriya, Vysya, & shudra' will stop confusing us 🤣🤣🤣🤣...   Otherwise, let's continue the    annihilation   of human race 😭)

Humbly yours,

psn(2 Oct 2025)

Curse of oldage

 Curse of old age

Ancients had transcended this curse, by deepening awareness, and adding buoyancy to it. (Awareness works only when afloat )

I may 'forget' now, owing to age. 🙂

Aged ones forget useful things and forget having repeated nagging worries 😂 (enough to irritate the 'few' who had_desired to help the oldies out of mercy/pity)

During youth, we manage to curb our own habits which nag others and display_more our 'helpful' abilities . 

Many don't realise that helpful/pleasantries' in us aren't habits. It's always 'conscious' actions😜

Whereas, the negatives are like second-nature.

With aging, conscious ones recede and habits dominate  😜

( That's how,  hitherto 'good' natured parents/in-laws seem to turn 'ill-mannered' now)

Result? 

Youth decide : I still love them. But, 'practically' better to fund them at an old-age home😥

Buoyantly yours,

psn(27 Sept 2025)

 Intensely Boring

I am wrong 🙏

It should be “most boring” 😜🙏🙏🙏

But, I liked to stress on my intensity with most boring ‘routine’.

It started like this..,..

A teacher in my 4th ( I must be just 10 yrs or so), at the last session before the year was over said “you all are going to get promoted to your next class, 5th.

there is no promotion for me ( a smile 😊)”

My ½ mad mind started its second track of inside_audio : “ dat's tru!!!! That poor teacher is”ill-fated” to keep repeating the same stuff to every batch for years🙏. How boring her routine must be?🤔🤔”

At that age, mind jumps to ‘next’ thought 😜

No question of “still water runs deep” wala proverb to display it's functional swaroop/form 🙏

But that thought ( wonder_element in it) stayed and kept visiting me like an annual ghost( my grandfather’s ghost is ‘welcomed’ annually, by my dad, I knew from the shraadha ceremony, a ritual at my home).

At workplace, I decided to try ‘like that teacher's( for fun only)🙏

Try to be intense in writing passbook for bank's customers. ( I borrowed a thought from my seniors, not waiting to know from my_experience, when they prophesied “passbook writing is a wretched and boring routine, but we are paid to do it ( with that ugly facial expressions 😠😓😰🥶🥵 etc)

With no scope to expect anything out of “paid COPY-PASTE job, ledger–to–passbook”, I kept intensifying CONSCIOUSLY 🙏

( Awesome rewards! But I won't ‘bore you here with those rewards’)

Next level of confronting boring task😜

At around 40, I volunteered to help freshers with backup support at a yoga centre, with what I learnt in my program earlier.

I bettered my teacher, who repeats only once every year, the text lessons, she might have felt to be a boring_routine for_her!

How to do, pranayams—daily_repeat,  for 6+ years. How to do 3 guided meditations, twice a week repetition for same 6+ years 😜

I was “in” for a pleasant surprise!

These DAMN_boring subtle practices started its job inside me . It became noticeable only after a ‘boring 4 years long time 🙏” 

After those 4 years, becoming ‘intense’ got automated. Default software.

That automation infected too badly, any damn thing I think, say or do 🙏😓😭😭😭

( Didn't I reveal the secret about why “I am the most DETESTED person to my close ones? Physical proximity in ‘close people ‘ not emotionally close ones🙏)

Boredom got bored of me 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Boringly yours,

psn(25 Sept 2025)

Feasibility and viability

 Feasibility and viability 

Is it feasibility or its viability which persuades us to use the words ‘viable and feasible’ quite interchangeably and unmindful of its  intrinsic sense? (🙏😜)

Operation Sindoor: viability wasn't a serious issue for few super power nations. Only feasibility was.

Whereas, for Bharat, viability was doubted by ‘big’ nations, and feasibility was ‘out of question’

Modi, as a PM, ignored the viability aspect, but slogged for 48 hours without sleep or break, to churn out this operation called phase 1, Sindoor. The magnitude, the scale, the effectiveness, unprecedented levels of precision + logic_defying brevity of hours too, will CONTINUE to stupify Military geniuses all over for a long time. Feasibility as a concept personified, decided to surrender to the combined patriotic might of the 3 armed forces, fuelled by Modi's unbridled grant of freedom to the army 🙏

Emotions don't yield to logic. Therefore, these two terms cease to confuse an emotionally_driven mind, intensely charged with highest positivity like patriotism, inclusiveness ( vasudaiva Kutumbakam) etc🙏

When a mind is the decision maker, about a spiritual pursuit, probably ( my guess), both ‘feasibility’ and ‘viability’ dictate their supremacy effortlessly. Emotions, if at all it tries to be charitable, only fights against ‘air’ with its sword, in futility, and the unseen adversary of emotions, laughs at emotions!

Once, the spirit awakens, both these fictional entities vanish, just as light never gets to “see” it's natural adversary, called darkness😜🙏

Non-feasibly yours,

psn(21 Sept 2025)

Gifted people

 “Gifted” people 

Each one of us is “gifted” with atleast one thing, in the strict sense of the word. 

Life is a gift. Not something that a female womb can manufacture by the conscious efforts of the Madam who ‘gets’ pregnant. ( It is entirely an other matter that we ignore any commonly occuring gift🙏😭

Gifted poet.

Effortlessly composes a poem, extempore. In fact, when he ‘becomes’ deeply emotional, that gift turns his verbal-thought-process into a poetry🤣 

I came across a story where, a commercial movie director ‘exploited’ a gifted_lyricist into composing a song 🤣. Tune had to be ‘set’ to suit the lyrics, for a Change 😜🙏.

He invited that lyricist to a ‘wet’ party(drinks) where he would suddenly confront a lady of his platonic_love, decades ago. She too was unaware of that ‘chance’ meeting of her ex-love!! The emotions surged volcanically. The poet, said “chalo ek baar phir se, ajnabi b’an jaayen hum donon”( “come on, let's both turn into strangers once again!”... To re-live those moments of platonic_love). The director had already”arranged” for a shorthand writer to take down the song-dictation🙂. A famous, ever green song now👍!!!

(non-poets like me express it as “I have no words to express my feelings” instead of accepting the truth “I am not gifted”😞 

Original equipment. That's what a gift is. Sixth finger at birth is of no commercial use. Probably that person can “show” open palms vertically to mean a “eleven” while we can display only ten. (I wonder ‘what will the Aadhar software do, with the fingerprint of sixth/eleventh finger’s impression? 🤔 ख़ैर, जाने दो 🙏 )

Nobody had to “push”/nudge me into spirituality. Even I had to ponder/wonder for 3 long decades “why am I like this?( Criticism for my oddity about my thoughts which got articulated, and invariably irritates all those who were not-gifted with born_deaf physiology 😜, made/compelled me to “look” for only_something_Wrong with me🙏). Only when I bumped into a professional, who could talk the way i_used_to_think, that “looking for a manufacturing defect” got completely reversed😜….  Effortless pursuit, then on. The timetested ancient tools seemed ‘gifts’ for me to play-with, joyously 🤣( a kid, if gifted with a toy that makes him joyous, doesn't bother EVEN about hunger in his stomach, and keeps playing with that toy. That mom searches for rare moments when the kid would open his mouth a little to push the tiny morsel of baby_food!🙂). I even wondered about Gifted Masters who could ‘sight’ gifted spiritual seekers, by merely sensing their vibes(quantum mechanics, being the gift_of_experience, here🙏.  Whereas, I had to SLOG, in an unprecedented direction( for a decade), to ‘deserve’ a coveted gift, my teacher had!😓. He could ‘see’ if the meditation is REALLY happening in a person sitting squatted, eyes closed. All of them “look alike”, squatting cross-legged, eyes closed !. No way to make out that ultra-subtle difference, which they-themselves don't know 🙏😭

How to discover that hidden/latent gift in us, other than the_best_ever Gift of a life_with_a_human form, in us????

The only way that I came across is,  to fully use that sense_of_discrimination “gifted” to all humans born with “volitional consciousness”🙏🙏🙏.  

Giftlessly yours,

psn(21 Sept 2025)

Atheism

 Atheism

Google(search) says: Denote refers to the literal, dictionary definition of a word, while connote refers to the implied or associated ideas and feelings a word suggests beyond its primary meaning. For example, a rose denotes a specific type of flower but connotes love, romance, or beauty.  

If the foregoing is acceptable, then…. The word “Brahma” is used as connotation and denotation, both!😂

People often_think of only_the denote, in the personified_form(a deity with the attribute of a human form with 4 heads, 5th one got chopped off!) in Brahma. They miss the “romance” in ‘brahma”, referred in the primary one of the 4 declaratory truths ( pragnanam Brahma)

The base of Hinduism is the 4 declaratory truths. It stood the test of time, welcoming atheists of all-sorts to deny it ( these 4 truths are not any kind of connotation or denotation, like the word “God”. Worst disadvantage is, these 4 are experiential truths, unavailable for a grasp through communicable words or emotions 🙂)

Atheism finds its existence only in the lack of experience of connoted_verbal_forms, referred by theists.

Honest atheists need courage, in its highest form. Historically, spiritual Gurus are EVER on the ‘lookout’ for genuine atheists. Genuine or honest atheists are measured by the INTENSITY_LEVEL.  Courage becomes their ‘tool’ to lead them into liberation/moksha! Courage ( to be a staunch, honest, genuine and powerfully_intense atheist) happens to be more formidable one, than all_other_tools in spirituality 🙏. 

Convenience of being an atheist is ironically 

the_most_popular form of fake_atheism 😂

Escapism works in the connotation of fake_atheism, and is very effective in confusing non_intense_theists. ( Popular quotes by famous political_atheists works as powerful ‘tool-kits’ to convert gullible folks to ‘believe’ into their atheist-ideology( not even worth as a ‘philosophy’; just_an ideology 😜).

Dishonest atheism suits cleverness, cunningness and all such PARASITICAL traits. They bring disrepute to genuine atheists( who adhere to Ethics, better than believers🙏).  Almost like, imperfect criminals who get caught, cause a disrepute to highly skilled criminals, who demonstrate that crime can also be perfect👍( only the ‘karma’ of a crime is unavoidable, in a perfect crime. Otherwise, it's a win_win thing😜). Whereas, unlike a perfect_crime, a perfectionist in atheism is faster than believers into the Ultimate human possibility, that is Liberation/moksha 🙏…( a true atheist, is an atheist for his personal reasons, not to propagate it 😜. He might even ‘pose’ like a believer, to avoid embarrassing his near & dear ones🙏)

I don't know if….

Theism connotes only a ‘belief’ and doesn't imply a living experience of those 4 truths. In which case, the liberated ones TRANSCEND the classification itself, as theists or atheists. ( Example: DNA test has obviated the ‘need’ to be a theist about Mr. X , being my biological dad😜.  Likewise, I ‘know' I have a pair of hands, and I am typing this with it, so I don't ‘need any belief's that I have two hands! Genuine seekers, that_way, turn as Ex-theists, once they ‘experience’ these 4 MahaVahyas🙏. )

Aadi Shankara established the 4 mutts, not for propagating any theism, andf…….not in the least, to engage into mass_conversion from atheism, BUT only with the purpose of making the 4 truths better_reachable to all the humans ( no matter what they believe or disbelieved in🙏)

Ex yours,

psn(17 Sept 2025)

CopyPaste a Wisdom

 CopyPaste a Wisdom 

A historic example of USE of sense_of_discrimination 🤣

In Indian army,

soldiers hailing from North(Hindi belt), laugh at Mallu soldiers who "settle down" for the humble "rice_water/chawal-ka-paani", kanji...

Mallus gulp this mockery too, quietly ( they were 'brought up' that_way..... What to do???😥)

1962 war against China.

Rations couldn't reach soldiers at the mountains. They pleaded "at least Bullets?🙏🙏🙏"( My NCC ustaad narrated his own experience 🙏)

Mallus offered Charitably 🤣 "you can have the rice. Give us just_the_kanji 👍"

Within 4 days "WISDOM" dawned on Non-mallu soldiers 😜😜😜

Kanji helped to fight back "fatigued_starvation" f-a-r better than plain_cooked_rice, stripped_off it's STARCH.

( Par_boiled rice, is an age_old_practice, in Kerala..... whether they are stubborn Hindus, or flexibly_converted_christians/muslims! 😜...  Starch becomes better digestible, in parBoiled rice, though the cooking _time&fuel is costlier than raw rice 🙏)

Today's mallus aren't that_good at using discrimination. Their CopyPaste benedicts them🙏

(My 'take' : at least copy paste a tradition which withstood the test of time, if it looks harmless to do, not waiting for the 'scientific' reason to DAWN into me😭... Life is too short, and my sense of Discrimination  awaits a teacher who can teach How_to_use it best? Even B.Ed/M.Ed colleges don't teach the teachers this🙏)

Outdatedly yours,

psn(13 Sept 2025)

superfluous apology

 superfluous apology 

We have come to love it so much that we are now really scared about listening to truth in any of its forms. 😜🤣

Just look at this possibility. We inadvertently clicked the “grievance” menu instead of the “feedback” menu from the ‘dropdown list’ of a customer portal, and wrote an appreciation there. We get an acknowledgement email in 120 milliseconds, which might look somewhat like this:

“Dear valued customer,

We sincerely apologise….( bla-bla-bla)....”

And a footnote: This is an automated reply.

😜.  ( Apologies AUTOMATED 😳…. meaning :”you are such a dumb fool, that even an automated-apology pacifies you! Psycho?)

A true incident in my life:

Just a week after I sat at a public counter as a novice, straight from home( zero training in “customer service”, so…..no plastic_smile training),

A customer of the bank barked at me. I had tried to point out some omission by him, in a document.  I kept quiet, looking into his eyes.

The manager summoned me aloud, and sent a subordinate to ‘request’ that customer too, into his cabin.

After briefly listening to the customers version, that manager got up, joined his palms(🙏) and told the customer:” sir, I apologise to you, on behalf of this clerk (me, psn)”

We both came out of the cabin. I went to my desk and the customer stride away, with his chin-up👍

After 5 minutes, that manager called me in, again! 😳

Manager :”you were right. He was wrong. His barking was inappropriate & uncalled for”

Me : “sir, then why the apology?”

Manager:”we are here to deal with his_money, not for mending his character”( lesson number 1, for me)

Me: “ Sir….then I should have apologised, why you????🤔”

Lesson number 2 now , manager : "which pleases him more? Manager's apology or clerks? I used an adverse situation to further strengthen his customer_relationship😜…. Did you see? He walked out ‘proud’..”

The joke was,

That customer surfaced at my counter 10 days later 🤣

Armed with”customer strategy” I rose to stand up, and lavished a “welcome sir, thank you for trusting me to serve you again, despite my mistake few days ago…. What can I do for you 😔🙏”

Customer: “ no no no…. I just came to tell you ‘sorry’ ….. I was not myself that day. Your words didn't sink into me properly, until I recalled it a day later, when I was relaxed. Please try to forget my bad behaviour that_day” ( 🤔  😳😳😳…. What should I say now, to suit ‘best customer service ‘? To a close friend, I know what_exactly to say. But a novice_yet?...  I nodded sheepishly, leaving him to fill in the blanks, for my loss_of_words)

3 decades later, I met a person, who possed a “spiritual guru” in him. He scolds, bashes, reprimands ( etc) his disciples quite mercilessly 🤣.  By a strange fate-or-luck, I was just one of the 2 fellows out of thousands of his students in spirituality, who didn't get a “chance” to apologise for my mistakes/miss_takes/whatever! Others, mostly, avoided being ‘vocal’ about the scope for their apologies ( it's their choice, so no comments from me🙏). Over and above that, something that others couldn't ‘help noticing’( over a decade of tutelage under him) was, he never refused or declined any request of mine🤣😜. I rarely had any occasion to be ‘vocal’ about my request! He reads minds too well😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Unapologetically yours, 

psn(12 Sept 2025)

Cruise mode

 Cruise mode

Mechanics has evolved enough to necessitate the coming of a phrase like “cruise” mode 😂

As I understand it, ( as a lay person), the alertness & awareness of the progress during the cruise mode, needs to be ‘all-the-more’ enhanced. 😜

Auto-pilot doesn't imply “forget about piloting” …. It only means “every cell of your body and brain can now-afford to focus at its peak-level on all aspects of the flight with greatest possible intelligent_alertness, having freedom from mechanical movements of your body🙏

Then it struck in me 🤔 

Hey! The ancients of satya-yug, were literally on a cruise mode, on their spiritual journey. TrethaaYug needed a bit of human intervention. DwaparaYug messed up a lot, leading into the chaos of KaliYuga that we are into now!🥺….  Even manual controls aren't really ‘working’. No bearings available to ‘read’ about where we are headed 😕. All we can see is people around are crashing into what we call as death! We stopped looking at the possibility of getting out of the aircraft, after a safe_landing, walking down the tarmac with a smile! (“Leaving the body, walking out at_will” is no_more a thing that somebody is going to look at as a possibility)

Hindu_way_of_life, known as ‘Sanatana Dharma’ was the manual, meant for cruise mode of flight into the Ultimate human possibility —-liberation/moksha/enlightenment 🙏

I am not trying to persuade my reader to get themselves educated into that manual ( cruise mode of living… or the ‘Art of effortless Living’. That's their choice 🙏👍…). 

I was only looking at what happened with my-life, during these seven decades, and was wondering as to “what am I doing now?”, when my mortal frame is handing over back to mother nature, the gifts I received at birth 😜…

A cruise mode….. is what I can describe, about my present life style past 70 years of age 😂.  I did whatever ‘best’ I could, all along, using all the hurdles, and chaos of the situation that KaliYuga offered to me, as an opportunity to grow faster, when each tiny step is a huge struggle, with every force working against me🤣🤣🤣. A memorable journey 👍. Enriching experience!  In all probability, those souls up there ‘somewhere’ keeping a vigil on me, might even_be feeling an envy, that these hurdles in-fact, intensified my spiritual growth 😜😜😜

Cruisingly yours,

psn(12th Sept 2025)

Communications network

 Communications network

In ancient Bharat, 

The SOPHISTICATION was inside own physiology (hardware  designed by mother nature)

Only the fine_tuning required a conscious choice, till it was turned into an EMBEDDED software, conveyed genetically 🙏 ( here again, invoking-of-software was a matter of own_choice 😜)

Using the hardware provided by nature had major advantages.

One significant example is, a thought goes to the recipient like today's ‘guided’ missile SEEKING it's moving_target.

A sample of its Unique utility : 

Oldies die in the wilderness of a deep forest, migrating there after the ritual called “shashti_poorti”, completing a half of lifespan of 60 ( those days 120 was average mortality rate)

Now the offspring needs to know the “date” of death of his dad, to invoke his blessings on anniversary. From a forest, a WhatsApp number? 🤣 ….  Thoughts travel ( impliedly, that Vaanaprastha_dad, knows well “here & now, I am abandoning this mortal frame, let me message to my offspring 🤔”

All the aforesaid non-sense seems ridiculous isn't it?

Personally, I started saying “Lemme see….may be it was possible“ when….

When….when……

I witnessed my gandpa’s younger brother and his wife communicated via guided_missiled_thought 😜 (I might have been barely 8 years old.) . A large ancient house. Lengthy backyard & frontyard. That grandma told me “kiddo, take this ‘kindee’ of water for your grandpa to wash his feet. (‘Kindee’ is a brass alloy vessel with a tubular outlet). 

I hurriedly reached the gate of front yard. He just walked in there !!! ( How did this lady KNOW???🤔) I quizzed that grandpa “how does she know, you are reaching the gate, when visibility from backyard is impossible?” He just chuckled saying “it's like that !”( I crosschecked it a few more times, during each of my summer holidays visits ….. to confirm the ELEMENT OF REPETITIOUSNESS, before shaping it in my mind, as a scientific Postulate.  It repeated 🙏😓😓😓).

35 years later…. 😜

A co-participant of a spiritual yoga-program suggested “hey psn, shall we try/test? Our teacher said that thoughts can be communicated!!!”. He added “you send a thought to me

 You are better at it”

He responded on a Sunday evening, by diverting from his errand(to carry jewels to his relatives far away on his motorbike).

He only ‘felt’, he should reach my home, where I was idling on a recliner chair😜. He confessed “something in me drove me to you house. No logic, no reasoning, no emotions, nothing. …. Now I recall, we had decided to ‘experiment’ 🤣… damn thing worked! Only tragedy is, no VERBAL format of your thoughts. But far-more FORMIDABLE than words🙏… don't do it again! It's not comfortable at all ☹️”

That was the ONLY one time, when I experimented it CONSCIOUSLY, and at will. 

I am thoroughly convinced about the flawless technology.

It doesn't matter, if it lacks appeal to logical minds. 🙏

Communicatively yours,

psn( 10 Sept 2025)

Setting up a Marker

 Setting up a Marker

Most of us ‘think’ only about a ‘goal’ and plan about chasing, reaching or tracking it.

Markers are Unavoidable for sportsmen, bowlers in cricket, because there is an authorised eye to ‘disqualify’ them, if they overstep that marker.

As a MEGA-example of true-sportsman-spirit, I felt unduly Lucky to find a TRUE story in my English text book lesson at my school, and it became a “marker” for the rest-of my-life 😜

The link for that story ( if the reader has tolerance for long narrative)....   https://www.bbc.com/sport/athletics/articles/cd1xlr5ewrro#:~:text=It%20was%20an%20instinctive%20sporting,athlete%20jogging%20arm%20in%20arm.

My school text book highlighted the ‘gesture’ by a German lad, who lost a gold, because of his sense of ‘fair-play’ 🤣. The better one, though a ‘black’ found a life-long friend and an indebtedness to him, that…. never_can_be repaid 🙏

As a kid, that text book lesson, ended up into ‘more than’ a marks-scoring exercise 🙏

That German became a Guru in teaching me a spiritual sense of,  what “inclusiveness” means.

Markers for me:

I was nervous about using EXACT markers. The reason was damn simple! 😜… The outside_situations of our life are NEVER predictable. 

So,

1)school timings 8:45 am ( assembly) my marker used to be within 8:15 am 😜…cushion of ½ an hour. Never I was “late”! ( At workplace, I reached an hour earlier. But couldn't escape that mocking remark from the sweeper_lady who pronounced me “you are Late_today” when I reach 55 minutes earlier, instead of usual 60 minutes ‘before’ time. I humbly ‘acknowledged’ her taunt🙏 ( my_marker, she was referring to, and therefore she is an unpaid-Audtor, shaping me ‘towards’ discipline/perfection 🙏)

A friend in State Bank of India, spinned money, using my ‘faked punctuality’. We plan a movie. I tell him:” I will be there at 6.00pm/18:00 hours” I note upto the center_second needle of his_office_clock. I adjust my marker to sync with that clock. Arriving 10 minutes earlier at the Gate, I walk in 3 seconds to_6 pm . He noticed it a few times, and offered a ‘bet’ with his colleague seated next. He “Exact 6, psn will be at the door, Bet?” The other jumped in “₹10… I bet,  nobody is that_punctual. We are “Indians” 😂”.  I walked in when that fastest needle of the clock touched “12” on the clock at 6 pm, unaware of this ‘bet’ 😥.

My friend, that evening, said ,”PSN our tickets were paid for by Mr x, today. We have 6 rupees for snacks etc during interval too😜”( an abuse of my ‘marker’...I felt inwardly 😭)

When it came to “taking spiritual lessons, the programs, intensive practices for 7+ years etc, the private+personal ‘design’ of the software I had as “my_markers” took away a huge ‘load’ off_my_FRAIL_shoulders 😂. Goal chased me ( often using my spiritual teacher).... instead of the usual “we chase our_goals” 🙏

I dunno….if I managed to ‘persuade’  my reader to take atleast a casual_look at his own markers 😳😓😓😓

Markedly yours,

psn(9 Sept 2025)

Honesty without transperancy

 Honesty without transperancy 

Honestly is good, but transparency in honesty may create embarrassment for a few😜

A joke ( true incident)

1962 war 

Our school's Principal echoed the "call' of the prime minister to contribute for 'National Defence Fund".

He told us in the assembly at 8:45 am "collect whatever you can. Coins okay. Money order to NDF is free in post office, by gourmet order"

The same evening, I went around the neighborhood of my home. Uncle & aunt of the same house I requested "small coins okay". Thus a long list of names, with 5 or 10 paise against each name.

My dad had said "come to me in the last"

Dad looked at the list, counted the coins, converted it into rupee-notes, and added his own ( 4 or 8 annas, not sure🙏)

Total was ₹ 4.65

Princi surprised at 8.30 am when I submitted the list with ₹4.65

He decided to announce in the assembly "one boy is very prompt. He collected ₹4.65. with a list. For his age, it is admirable"

In the evening, I showed the list to all the donors ( I had to convince them, I didn't swallow their five/ten-paise.

Joke : one uncle( childless) said :" If I knew, you will SHOW-AROUND that list like this, I would have given ₹1/- 😥" 

At that age, I didn't understand why he said this. ( But after reaching 10th, I understood my stupidity. I should have shown only "Gave ₹4.65 total amount to Principal"(princi acknowledged on copy of list🙏)

Secretly yours,

psn(30 Aug 2025)

online conversion of hurdles into opporChutney

 Modi is perhaps the only leader who speaks about “converting hurdles into opportunities”.

I am not any where near Modi to even appreciate him loudly 🙂

I had a rare occasion to suggest, “hurdle into opportunity” during my days of volunteering (1992–95) as a ‘back up support ‘ for freshers in yoga programs.

A lady “sir, I am a housewife with lot of work in the morning & evening, to look after my family of two kids, hubby, and parents-in-law. Instead of supporting, they all have turned into critics already, saying “who will do the cooking, washing, cleaning etc, if your yoga business is in the morning– evening hours?😡”

I am zero in house management. Incompetent to give ‘tips’ 🙏

Instead, I thought, “let me cook up a bogus story, and clandestinely infuse a concept, NON-INVASIVELY( medicos try non invasive, non intrusive examination of physiology 😜)

I told her:

“ Madam,

Your query is 100% genuine, practical & real.

I am not good at giving solutions. Instead, let us go through a BOGUS fictional story, invented by me, and I pray, you may feel INSPIRED to figure out the solution for your problem, by yourself 🙏

Story:

Imagine, you are a teenager, Good at sprinting 100 metres race, and selected at district level, and given 3 months to prepare for state level selection of 200 metres race. You are stinking_rich. A driver takes you to the “tracks” each morning at 5 am for a 3 hour practice, and at 4 pm for 2 hours training. At the end of 3 months, you are short of just 2 seconds to reach old records of 23 seconds for 200 metres.

Imagine, a tribal kid, impoverished, poor, but accidentally a competitor from his tribal hilly region. He too, ‘hopes’ to practice 🙏

His hurdles..

1)no track near his hill to practice.

2)his mom says “you can't go beyond my visibility range for your nonsense ( running 200 metres to-and-fro in vain). “

3) the immediate 200 metres from his hut is full of rocky boulders, pits, and uneven slope!

That kid, due to his tribal innocence, decides to give a try👍

He too managed to measure his-200 metres after 3 months….. 30 seconds 😅🤣 

He knows, 23 to 25 seconds is ‘good’ to participate in selection rounds. But, having ‘invested’ 3 months, daily 6 to 8 hours, he ‘braces’ himself for a defeat at ‘trials’ not without going for trials.

Trials

You did as ‘clocked’ on those tracks already 

That tribal kid 😳😳😳 21 seconds! ( Absence of rocks, pits, etc on groomed-track felt like chewing Halwa( a soft sweet dish🤣). 

The timekeeper equally surprised, STUPIFIED!!! ( unofficially, the kid & timekeeper both decide a private re-run for fun. That kid betters by ½ a second 😜)

Story over. ( My inspiration for manufacturing this bogus story was a true incident. A tribal lad, holding last van of a goods train in African jungle, noticed by a British officer, was picked up for olympics. His long-strides to keep pace with goods train helped him win a gold. His German competetor helped him to walk back from white marker, to leap from exact-marker, unmindful of losing to a better-fellow-competitor! )

Madam, an example for “hurdles can-be an opporChutney too! Matter of Perspective only🙏”

That lady, a moment later “okay 👍… I will wake up ½ an hour early, and sleep ½ an hour late. Thank you sir 🙏 “

I felt glad. My mind whispered silently ”exactly what we-too-were doing. Use sleep quota hours for spirituality“( any way MeditaShun reduces sleep_requirements)

Covertly yours,

psn(30 auGust, 2025)