superfluous apology

 superfluous apology 

We have come to love it so much that we are now really scared about listening to truth in any of its forms. 😜🤣

Just look at this possibility. We inadvertently clicked the “grievance” menu instead of the “feedback” menu from the ‘dropdown list’ of a customer portal, and wrote an appreciation there. We get an acknowledgement email in 120 milliseconds, which might look somewhat like this:

“Dear valued customer,

We sincerely apologise….( bla-bla-bla)....”

And a footnote: This is an automated reply.

😜.  ( Apologies AUTOMATED 😳…. meaning :”you are such a dumb fool, that even an automated-apology pacifies you! Psycho?)

A true incident in my life:

Just a week after I sat at a public counter as a novice, straight from home( zero training in “customer service”, so…..no plastic_smile training),

A customer of the bank barked at me. I had tried to point out some omission by him, in a document.  I kept quiet, looking into his eyes.

The manager summoned me aloud, and sent a subordinate to ‘request’ that customer too, into his cabin.

After briefly listening to the customers version, that manager got up, joined his palms(🙏) and told the customer:” sir, I apologise to you, on behalf of this clerk (me, psn)”

We both came out of the cabin. I went to my desk and the customer stride away, with his chin-up👍

After 5 minutes, that manager called me in, again! 😳

Manager :”you were right. He was wrong. His barking was inappropriate & uncalled for”

Me : “sir, then why the apology?”

Manager:”we are here to deal with his_money, not for mending his character”( lesson number 1, for me)

Me: “ Sir….then I should have apologised, why you????🤔”

Lesson number 2 now , manager : "which pleases him more? Manager's apology or clerks? I used an adverse situation to further strengthen his customer_relationship😜…. Did you see? He walked out ‘proud’..”

The joke was,

That customer surfaced at my counter 10 days later 🤣

Armed with”customer strategy” I rose to stand up, and lavished a “welcome sir, thank you for trusting me to serve you again, despite my mistake few days ago…. What can I do for you 😔🙏”

Customer: “ no no no…. I just came to tell you ‘sorry’ ….. I was not myself that day. Your words didn't sink into me properly, until I recalled it a day later, when I was relaxed. Please try to forget my bad behaviour that_day” ( 🤔  😳😳😳…. What should I say now, to suit ‘best customer service ‘? To a close friend, I know what_exactly to say. But a novice_yet?...  I nodded sheepishly, leaving him to fill in the blanks, for my loss_of_words)

3 decades later, I met a person, who possed a “spiritual guru” in him. He scolds, bashes, reprimands ( etc) his disciples quite mercilessly 🤣.  By a strange fate-or-luck, I was just one of the 2 fellows out of thousands of his students in spirituality, who didn't get a “chance” to apologise for my mistakes/miss_takes/whatever! Others, mostly, avoided being ‘vocal’ about the scope for their apologies ( it's their choice, so no comments from me🙏). Over and above that, something that others couldn't ‘help noticing’( over a decade of tutelage under him) was, he never refused or declined any request of mine🤣😜. I rarely had any occasion to be ‘vocal’ about my request! He reads minds too well😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Unapologetically yours, 

psn(12 Sept 2025)

Cruise mode

 Cruise mode

Mechanics has evolved enough to necessitate the coming of a phrase like “cruise” mode 😂

As I understand it, ( as a lay person), the alertness & awareness of the progress during the cruise mode, needs to be ‘all-the-more’ enhanced. 😜

Auto-pilot doesn't imply “forget about piloting” …. It only means “every cell of your body and brain can now-afford to focus at its peak-level on all aspects of the flight with greatest possible intelligent_alertness, having freedom from mechanical movements of your body🙏

Then it struck in me 🤔 

Hey! The ancients of satya-yug, were literally on a cruise mode, on their spiritual journey. TrethaaYug needed a bit of human intervention. DwaparaYug messed up a lot, leading into the chaos of KaliYuga that we are into now!🥺….  Even manual controls aren't really ‘working’. No bearings available to ‘read’ about where we are headed 😕. All we can see is people around are crashing into what we call as death! We stopped looking at the possibility of getting out of the aircraft, after a safe_landing, walking down the tarmac with a smile! (“Leaving the body, walking out at_will” is no_more a thing that somebody is going to look at as a possibility)

Hindu_way_of_life, known as ‘Sanatana Dharma’ was the manual, meant for cruise mode of flight into the Ultimate human possibility —-liberation/moksha/enlightenment 🙏

I am not trying to persuade my reader to get themselves educated into that manual ( cruise mode of living… or the ‘Art of effortless Living’. That's their choice 🙏👍…). 

I was only looking at what happened with my-life, during these seven decades, and was wondering as to “what am I doing now?”, when my mortal frame is handing over back to mother nature, the gifts I received at birth 😜…

A cruise mode….. is what I can describe, about my present life style past 70 years of age 😂.  I did whatever ‘best’ I could, all along, using all the hurdles, and chaos of the situation that KaliYuga offered to me, as an opportunity to grow faster, when each tiny step is a huge struggle, with every force working against me🤣🤣🤣. A memorable journey 👍. Enriching experience!  In all probability, those souls up there ‘somewhere’ keeping a vigil on me, might even_be feeling an envy, that these hurdles in-fact, intensified my spiritual growth 😜😜😜

Cruisingly yours,

psn(12th Sept 2025)

Communications network

 Communications network

In ancient Bharat, 

The SOPHISTICATION was inside own physiology (hardware  designed by mother nature)

Only the fine_tuning required a conscious choice, till it was turned into an EMBEDDED software, conveyed genetically 🙏 ( here again, invoking-of-software was a matter of own_choice 😜)

Using the hardware provided by nature had major advantages.

One significant example is, a thought goes to the recipient like today's ‘guided’ missile SEEKING it's moving_target.

A sample of its Unique utility : 

Oldies die in the wilderness of a deep forest, migrating there after the ritual called “shashti_poorti”, completing a half of lifespan of 60 ( those days 120 was average mortality rate)

Now the offspring needs to know the “date” of death of his dad, to invoke his blessings on anniversary. From a forest, a WhatsApp number? 🤣 ….  Thoughts travel ( impliedly, that Vaanaprastha_dad, knows well “here & now, I am abandoning this mortal frame, let me message to my offspring 🤔”

All the aforesaid non-sense seems ridiculous isn't it?

Personally, I started saying “Lemme see….may be it was possible“ when….

When….when……

I witnessed my gandpa’s younger brother and his wife communicated via guided_missiled_thought 😜 (I might have been barely 8 years old.) . A large ancient house. Lengthy backyard & frontyard. That grandma told me “kiddo, take this ‘kindee’ of water for your grandpa to wash his feet. (‘Kindee’ is a brass alloy vessel with a tubular outlet). 

I hurriedly reached the gate of front yard. He just walked in there !!! ( How did this lady KNOW???🤔) I quizzed that grandpa “how does she know, you are reaching the gate, when visibility from backyard is impossible?” He just chuckled saying “it's like that !”( I crosschecked it a few more times, during each of my summer holidays visits ….. to confirm the ELEMENT OF REPETITIOUSNESS, before shaping it in my mind, as a scientific Postulate.  It repeated 🙏😓😓😓).

35 years later…. 😜

A co-participant of a spiritual yoga-program suggested “hey psn, shall we try/test? Our teacher said that thoughts can be communicated!!!”. He added “you send a thought to me

 You are better at it”

He responded on a Sunday evening, by diverting from his errand(to carry jewels to his relatives far away on his motorbike).

He only ‘felt’, he should reach my home, where I was idling on a recliner chair😜. He confessed “something in me drove me to you house. No logic, no reasoning, no emotions, nothing. …. Now I recall, we had decided to ‘experiment’ 🤣… damn thing worked! Only tragedy is, no VERBAL format of your thoughts. But far-more FORMIDABLE than words🙏… don't do it again! It's not comfortable at all ☹️”

That was the ONLY one time, when I experimented it CONSCIOUSLY, and at will. 

I am thoroughly convinced about the flawless technology.

It doesn't matter, if it lacks appeal to logical minds. 🙏

Communicatively yours,

psn( 10 Sept 2025)

Setting up a Marker

 Setting up a Marker

Most of us ‘think’ only about a ‘goal’ and plan about chasing, reaching or tracking it.

Markers are Unavoidable for sportsmen, bowlers in cricket, because there is an authorised eye to ‘disqualify’ them, if they overstep that marker.

As a MEGA-example of true-sportsman-spirit, I felt unduly Lucky to find a TRUE story in my English text book lesson at my school, and it became a “marker” for the rest-of my-life 😜

The link for that story ( if the reader has tolerance for long narrative)....   https://www.bbc.com/sport/athletics/articles/cd1xlr5ewrro#:~:text=It%20was%20an%20instinctive%20sporting,athlete%20jogging%20arm%20in%20arm.

My school text book highlighted the ‘gesture’ by a German lad, who lost a gold, because of his sense of ‘fair-play’ 🤣. The better one, though a ‘black’ found a life-long friend and an indebtedness to him, that…. never_can_be repaid 🙏

As a kid, that text book lesson, ended up into ‘more than’ a marks-scoring exercise 🙏

That German became a Guru in teaching me a spiritual sense of,  what “inclusiveness” means.

Markers for me:

I was nervous about using EXACT markers. The reason was damn simple! 😜… The outside_situations of our life are NEVER predictable. 

So,

1)school timings 8:45 am ( assembly) my marker used to be within 8:15 am 😜…cushion of ½ an hour. Never I was “late”! ( At workplace, I reached an hour earlier. But couldn't escape that mocking remark from the sweeper_lady who pronounced me “you are Late_today” when I reach 55 minutes earlier, instead of usual 60 minutes ‘before’ time. I humbly ‘acknowledged’ her taunt🙏 ( my_marker, she was referring to, and therefore she is an unpaid-Audtor, shaping me ‘towards’ discipline/perfection 🙏)

A friend in State Bank of India, spinned money, using my ‘faked punctuality’. We plan a movie. I tell him:” I will be there at 6.00pm/18:00 hours” I note upto the center_second needle of his_office_clock. I adjust my marker to sync with that clock. Arriving 10 minutes earlier at the Gate, I walk in 3 seconds to_6 pm . He noticed it a few times, and offered a ‘bet’ with his colleague seated next. He “Exact 6, psn will be at the door, Bet?” The other jumped in “₹10… I bet,  nobody is that_punctual. We are “Indians” 😂”.  I walked in when that fastest needle of the clock touched “12” on the clock at 6 pm, unaware of this ‘bet’ 😥.

My friend, that evening, said ,”PSN our tickets were paid for by Mr x, today. We have 6 rupees for snacks etc during interval too😜”( an abuse of my ‘marker’...I felt inwardly 😭)

When it came to “taking spiritual lessons, the programs, intensive practices for 7+ years etc, the private+personal ‘design’ of the software I had as “my_markers” took away a huge ‘load’ off_my_FRAIL_shoulders 😂. Goal chased me ( often using my spiritual teacher).... instead of the usual “we chase our_goals” 🙏

I dunno….if I managed to ‘persuade’  my reader to take atleast a casual_look at his own markers 😳😓😓😓

Markedly yours,

psn(9 Sept 2025)

Honesty without transperancy

 Honesty without transperancy 

Honestly is good, but transparency in honesty may create embarrassment for a few😜

A joke ( true incident)

1962 war 

Our school's Principal echoed the "call' of the prime minister to contribute for 'National Defence Fund".

He told us in the assembly at 8:45 am "collect whatever you can. Coins okay. Money order to NDF is free in post office, by gourmet order"

The same evening, I went around the neighborhood of my home. Uncle & aunt of the same house I requested "small coins okay". Thus a long list of names, with 5 or 10 paise against each name.

My dad had said "come to me in the last"

Dad looked at the list, counted the coins, converted it into rupee-notes, and added his own ( 4 or 8 annas, not sure🙏)

Total was ₹ 4.65

Princi surprised at 8.30 am when I submitted the list with ₹4.65

He decided to announce in the assembly "one boy is very prompt. He collected ₹4.65. with a list. For his age, it is admirable"

In the evening, I showed the list to all the donors ( I had to convince them, I didn't swallow their five/ten-paise.

Joke : one uncle( childless) said :" If I knew, you will SHOW-AROUND that list like this, I would have given ₹1/- 😥" 

At that age, I didn't understand why he said this. ( But after reaching 10th, I understood my stupidity. I should have shown only "Gave ₹4.65 total amount to Principal"(princi acknowledged on copy of list🙏)

Secretly yours,

psn(30 Aug 2025)

online conversion of hurdles into opporChutney

 Modi is perhaps the only leader who speaks about “converting hurdles into opportunities”.

I am not any where near Modi to even appreciate him loudly 🙂

I had a rare occasion to suggest, “hurdle into opportunity” during my days of volunteering (1992–95) as a ‘back up support ‘ for freshers in yoga programs.

A lady “sir, I am a housewife with lot of work in the morning & evening, to look after my family of two kids, hubby, and parents-in-law. Instead of supporting, they all have turned into critics already, saying “who will do the cooking, washing, cleaning etc, if your yoga business is in the morning– evening hours?😡”

I am zero in house management. Incompetent to give ‘tips’ 🙏

Instead, I thought, “let me cook up a bogus story, and clandestinely infuse a concept, NON-INVASIVELY( medicos try non invasive, non intrusive examination of physiology 😜)

I told her:

“ Madam,

Your query is 100% genuine, practical & real.

I am not good at giving solutions. Instead, let us go through a BOGUS fictional story, invented by me, and I pray, you may feel INSPIRED to figure out the solution for your problem, by yourself 🙏

Story:

Imagine, you are a teenager, Good at sprinting 100 metres race, and selected at district level, and given 3 months to prepare for state level selection of 200 metres race. You are stinking_rich. A driver takes you to the “tracks” each morning at 5 am for a 3 hour practice, and at 4 pm for 2 hours training. At the end of 3 months, you are short of just 2 seconds to reach old records of 23 seconds for 200 metres.

Imagine, a tribal kid, impoverished, poor, but accidentally a competitor from his tribal hilly region. He too, ‘hopes’ to practice 🙏

His hurdles..

1)no track near his hill to practice.

2)his mom says “you can't go beyond my visibility range for your nonsense ( running 200 metres to-and-fro in vain). “

3) the immediate 200 metres from his hut is full of rocky boulders, pits, and uneven slope!

That kid, due to his tribal innocence, decides to give a try👍

He too managed to measure his-200 metres after 3 months….. 30 seconds 😅🤣 

He knows, 23 to 25 seconds is ‘good’ to participate in selection rounds. But, having ‘invested’ 3 months, daily 6 to 8 hours, he ‘braces’ himself for a defeat at ‘trials’ not without going for trials.

Trials

You did as ‘clocked’ on those tracks already 

That tribal kid 😳😳😳 21 seconds! ( Absence of rocks, pits, etc on groomed-track felt like chewing Halwa( a soft sweet dish🤣). 

The timekeeper equally surprised, STUPIFIED!!! ( unofficially, the kid & timekeeper both decide a private re-run for fun. That kid betters by ½ a second 😜)

Story over. ( My inspiration for manufacturing this bogus story was a true incident. A tribal lad, holding last van of a goods train in African jungle, noticed by a British officer, was picked up for olympics. His long-strides to keep pace with goods train helped him win a gold. His German competetor helped him to walk back from white marker, to leap from exact-marker, unmindful of losing to a better-fellow-competitor! )

Madam, an example for “hurdles can-be an opporChutney too! Matter of Perspective only🙏”

That lady, a moment later “okay 👍… I will wake up ½ an hour early, and sleep ½ an hour late. Thank you sir 🙏 “

I felt glad. My mind whispered silently ”exactly what we-too-were doing. Use sleep quota hours for spirituality“( any way MeditaShun reduces sleep_requirements)

Covertly yours,

psn(30 auGust, 2025)

Namaskar bijness

 Desi design : seeking blessings by touching the feet of a fellow elder by age.

The main criteria: whether there was any "elderliNess in that elder?" That criteria got extinct 😜

[27/08, 2:49 pm] PSN: My personal concern was, when I touch the top of the head of a kid doing the ritual of vandanam/namaskaram, 

I should be "response_able/responsible"....not a mere "show bijness"( ignorant of EVEN the distinction between anugraham & asheervadam 😭)

Something "positive" needs to be transmitted to that "innocent" kid ( reasonable, isn't it?)

Subtle spiritual energy, preferably 😥🙏

I had to strive for it. Slog .

That kid is-not going to question me, if I get_away with a stupid meaningless touch, as-if I really 'blessed' him 😂 ( I am accountable to my atma/spirit/karma/whatever. None others concern me. A purely personal affair 👍🙏).

( There is a negative aspect as well. Traditional belief is : if that namaskaram accompanies a voluntary_surrender, which is rare, then, I acquire the karma of the fellow bowing/prostrating to me😓. I needed to learn to pass on that karma elsewhere 😜)

Karma is a sort of energy flow too. If I bow to an undeserving fellow, just because he a more aged donkey than me, I acquire his negative energies 😜)

[27/08, 2:53 pm] PSN: In epic stories,

Heavy symbolism is loaded.

Rama had to take the form of a 'normal' human being. But the loophole was, he can 'acquire' the energies of evolved fellow's. Thus, Rama is found doing 'namaskarams' to all & sundries, with utmost humility 😜. Ravana doesn't 'bow' to anyone 😥

psn

27 August 2025

Water effects

 A friend wrotted( wrote to me, a forward he got)

[27/08, 9:05 am] friend:

 I did not *apply for anything*.

*No one recommended me*.

Yet, I was *gifted this miraculous body*—

*Without an interview, without merit — pure grace*.

*Blood flows ceaselessly from head to toe*,

Every *heartbeat a silent drum of life*.

I don’t know what kind of *divine technology powers this system*,

But the *heart never tires, never rests, until it's time to go*

Two eyes, like cameras of a *thousand megapixels*,

Capture the ever-changing *beauty of this world*—

Colours, light, emotions—etched into memory.

A *tongue that performs ten thousand taste tests with precision*…

*Skin, a living sensor, feeling heat, cold, love, pain*—

A miracle of sensitivity.

A *voice box* that *expresses thought and emotion*

Through sounds of infinite variety. And *ears* that decode *every frequency*—

From whispers of the wind to the laughter of loved ones.

This body, made of *75% water*,

Holds firm, no short circuit no leakage. Despite millions of pores.

*I stand tall, unsupported by anything*.

Rubber tyres wear out on roads,

But the *soles* of my feet carry me through a *lifetime*—

Still holding strong.

What an *astonishing, divine creation*!

Nothing *man-made can come close ever*

You are the Giver, the Operator, the Designer.

Every memory, every thought, every ounce of strength and peace_—

All come from You, O Sustainer.

This is Your divine play,Your masterpiece.

Let me not just exist, but participate

In the selfless joy, the divine rhythm of Your Creation.

Bless me with good sense and pure awareness.

May I never forget even for a moment

Let gratitude be my constant companion.

Let awe fill my every breath.

This is not just a body — 

It is a temple of Your presence🙏🏻 🙏🏻 🙏🏻

[27/08, 9:43 am] PSN: A freak that I am....

I decided to hold the terminals of my battery powered voltage_meter... Using my finger tips.

Turned the switch to show 2000m( milli-something, of voltage). It showed 5 to 12 wavering, unsteady touch on red & black terminal)

Now,

I wanted to CHECK the reason for "आपो उप स्पृश्याम" chant 😂

Smeared  H²O( water) on the palm and fingers, just a little wetness, nothing more. 

With this "moist" fingers, फिर से, held the terminals.

The meter display now shows 36+. 😜😜🙏🙏🙏

साला 😡 

यूं ही नहीं, हमारे ancients.... बीच बीच में पानी से खेलते थे 😳😳😳

Input devices के लिए 

gratitude in your 'forward'....

persuaded me to tell you about my सर फिरा experiment ( हालांकि, That voltage tester इतना exhaustive device नहीं है, to reveal "all the secret reasons of our chants🙏😭)

Effectively yours,

psn(27 August, 2025)

Stiff neck

 Stiff-neck 

😂

Very few of us are born with a defect, which prevents us from turning our head sideways, at will.  When our neck becomes stiff( some unfortunate medical condition, spine malfunction, often) we need to turn out body above waist, to enable the head to turn sideways and allow eyes to ‘view’ something 🙏

I heard that Sunflower has no stiff-neck like other plants and trees. Flexible neck( stalk of that flower), allows the ‘sensitivity’ of_the_flower to keep_receiving the Positive rays from sun, throughout the day 😜 ( we know, sunflower doesn't need yoga-asanas to maintain flexibility 🙏😜).

We humans are under a compulsion to choose “which way to think & act”. Our “potential” for sensitivity goes dead, remains dormant, retains its capacity or….. keeps_Growing_too, as per our Choices 🙏

Simplest available EVIDENCE of ancient wisdom is…… we bow to the Most_energetic celestial body available to_us. Sun.  And the ‘best’ time is during the 4 meeting points of day and night 😂.  3 of them was ‘practical' for familied/gruhastha folk. Hence the term “triKaala-Sandhyavandan”.  ( We have a choice…. to be like a sunflower or a stiff-necked flower)

More discreet ones decided to use a natural “antenna”  which keeps accumulating PLUS reflecting towards earth, whatever kind of energies it ‘gets’ from……EVEN  far away celestial bodies.  Moon 🌙 

Among the other bodies, planets around the sun emit energies which affect us in some way. Moon, like a dish_antenna, reflects such energies. Powerful stars also emit their subtle energies. The sum total of all these emissions from out outer world, became a science by itself ( astrology, astronomy) for the enlightened desi saints of ancient Bharat 🙏 ( Yes, we can choose to ignore or accept this).  Lunar_calender got it's added significance ( alongside Sun, not ignoring it), and therefore, a concept like “moon represents the Mind”, in astrology 😂😜).

Becoming UNAVAILABLE to strong external influences, ( unavoidable negative energies) became a skill ! Spiritual bijness monopolised this skill 😜. Not that this skill is unavailable to non-spiritual people 🙏 . A choice again.

Stiff-neck.

I find, tensed people having their neck muscles “stiff” most of the time. After a certain point, it turns ‘default’ stiffness. Dunno why they CHOOSE to ignore own_neck?  ( A little massage can relax neck muscles. Head ‘feels’ relaxed for a few minutes at least 🙏😂).  Forget that STIFF-competition from that (flexible_neck_wala)sun flower🙏 . Own head is valuable, isn't it, with 4 input_devices located there?

Your choice 🙏 ( today, Vinayaka chaturthi, not advisable to be available to reflected emissions from moon. )

Inflexibly yours,

psn(27 auGust, 2025)

Loneliness

 Loneliness 

Oldies feel it more.

Not that the youngsters are rid of it. Just that, they are yet to confront it, because there is something else to keep their minds busy.

I wondered “can my_Mind can invent problems” 😜……. 

I tried “logic” in the exclusivity of my_emotions. 

Why did we miss that loneliness while inside a toilet or bathroom?  Oh! If I ‘know’ that there are three more waiting outside, to use that toilet after I come out, I can “feel” being pushed/jostled right inside the toilet, though alone and locked up!😓

A soldier keeping a watch at the border, alone, in a bunker, in pitch dark, doesn't feel lonely…. He knows, a whole platoon is waiting to hear him whisper into the walkie-talkies, if there is a firing from the other side. So? 🤔. That same soldier  can create his_loneliness post retirement 😜…. It must be my_mind, failing to experience and extended_inclusiveness, while alone 😳, which “breeds” that loneliness 🙏😓

Desi ascetics confine themselves into a cave to practice meditation, for years, being all_alone!  

Ancient Bharat had coined a phrase “vasudaiva Kutumbakam”( did they expect me to EXPERIENCE this phrase, which was to extend the universe into my_family?). Those ancients even managed to invoke the presence of ancestors, in a very subtle way, using powerful spiritual chants!  Egyptian mummies were kept embalmed to keep_out that loneliness in living ones? Dunno!

Deep sleep insists that I miss EVEN my own presence, if I wish to restore my mind and body to their normal health each day😜 ( sleep is the only state, that OBVIATES company to keep loneliness away😜🙏)

Inclusiveness, seems to be the daily_dose of medicine, to be felt CONSCIOUSLY, especially during old age, to avoid loneliness.  Otherwise ‘fighting’ loneliness while alone seems a vain attempt 😥 

Inclusively yours,

psn(20 Aug, 2025)

A.I. dream

 A.I. dream

I (badly) had a (Good) dream…

Badly affected.

Good-ly enjoyed.

A.I. is the in-thing now 🙏😭

I dunno ‘how to RESTORE the earlier version of humble-gooGirlSarch’ , after it became AI enabled🙏😥

So Garbage in, garbage out( GiGo) happened with my dreams too 😭

My dream :

( no need to ‘throw’ a suspense like movie/serial makers who declare later “it was a dream”)

Some western scientist decided to use me as a guinea pig, for his experiment (probably my 800+ blogs worked AGAINST me, when he decided my OI (human, Original Intellect) to be most-perverted, and ideal thing to ‘experiment’.

Kidnapped, sedated, I was boxed in a metal container and opened in that AI lab. 

2 chips were implanted in me 😭🙏

1.a tracker( of course, AI enabled) for that lab to tag me

2.an AI chip ( ultra sophisticated, cost effectiveness under ‘test’ to replace the robot_design and it's cumbersome mechanical parts).

Then I was let_loose back in India.

I felt persuaded by strange thoughts, flowing in at millions_per_NanoSecond speed 😳( thought, I would swoon, but didn't. Only that “my_own” mind squeezed itself, like a street dog which confronted a full grown bull-terrior.)

I decided ( not me, my AI chip), to go shopping. The salesman got baffled at the break-down of product details, cost components, GST-cheating, etc in a second, and humbly requested me to leave his shop.

I tried a vakil next. I ‘posed’ as a witness of opposite side, and asked him to cross-examine me. He got SCARED at the revelations I reeled out, pointing out all the weak points of his client.

On the road, I met a desi_scientist( only 1 thesis , that too a copy-paste, for his PhD 😜). He escaped into a by-lane. I didn't like to chase him, as I felt ‘pity’. Yes, my mind happened to retain the ‘faculty’ of self-pity, DESPITE that AI chip inside me😜.

Roadside cricket. Young kids didn't mind me trying the bat a few times. They got SCARED of losing the ball, and asked me to bowl. Their desi_wicket sticks broke. I left that place.

Some private TV fellow’s camera spotted me. That anchor forgot what_he_asked!!!! He blurted “hey! You sound like the latest Google_search! 🤣🤣🤣"     ( ROFL).

His laughter shook me out of the dream.

The joke is…. I scrambled to the mirror at the wash basin to check my “face” 😂.  Nah! Face isnt gonna reassure me that I am naarmal/normal.  I felt confused.

First time in my life, I needed “extra minutes” after-waking up, to reassure me, it was a dream. ( Only toddlers keep crying for 5 more minutes, after waking up from a ‘bad_dream’)

I am off to a psychiatrist, just to ask “any way Sir, to PREVENT an AI_enabled dream¿ ???”( I hope, he doesn't get scared😜)

Dreamily yours,

psn(19 aug 2025)

A teaser: If, by any stray_chance a western techie gets a freak idea to try an implant of AI chip, 

He confronts a problem: How to by_pass a human mind?

He may be good at program coding. 

But, for design of that software ( Bypass surgery), he "may" have to seek help from a ....

desi, half-baked spiritual_Nut (like me😜).

No joke, to bypass a 'mind' 😓

Did we realise?

 Did we realise?

We often used the word “realise” without realising it's true significance 😜

‘i realise that you are right/wrong about what you said about me!”( Really ‘realised’ or merely understood/grasped/etc?)

A “realised being “( AI enabled Google search) :      "Realized being" refers to an individual who has attained a deep understanding of their true nature, often associated with spiritual enlightenment or self-realization. This state involves a shift in consciousness where the individual transcends ego-identification and experiences a sense of unity with the universe or a higher reality. It's a state of being free from the limitations of the mind and its associated suffering. 

unquote:

🤣

Whatever we “realise” …. very reasonably, it ought _to_be, the ultimate level of knowing about ‘that’ thing isn't it? 🤔🙏

Real_iced_ly yours,

psn(18 Aug 2025)

Mridangam student from USA

 Mridangam student from USA

I was fortunate to meet a few like me, once in a while.😥

My aunt lived at small village "nelluvaya"( famous Dhanwantari temple).

A mridangam teacher lived close by and was a regular visitor to my aunt, as a family friend.

Once an American landed there, keen to learn mridangam from this illiterate malayali 😜

( Fees wasn't any issue. ) But this mallu did everything within him to get rid of this incompatible foreigner. He was a contended soul, with no temptations for $ 

Somehow, mallu had to agree to teach. 

Now, left with only one "weapon" -----heavy, tiring homework, mallu asked his disciple to practice just 4 beats for a month ( don't show your "face" to me, till you can do like this/me----demo)

That guy returns on 6th day, demonstrated that 'beat' exceptionally well 😳

A translator was there. American said "well, I had no other work! Entire waking hours, except eating, bathing and toilet... spent in practicing"

Next level was "meant" to take 2+ months.

This guy came back in a week again 😥. 

Now, the mallu understood what he is "against". A deep bond got forged. ( I was told....that American didn't need 2 years to grab, whatever his Guru could teach. He left, seeking higher level teachers. )

busily yours,

psn(11 aug 2025)

Epilogue: I had a family to look after. A job with responsibility of cash-keys. Couldn't afford “all the waking hours” of intense practice of what I “loved” to do! ( Therefore, a compromise —do that “little a day” with high intensity. )

Prologue: ( a bogus story 😜 It's a “fashion” to mock and ridicule Hindu-epics, when the underlying symbolism seems tough to imbibe,🙏, therefore call it “bogus👍”) The story: Narada boasted to his deity “am I not your Best-devotee?” Vishnu said “nope!😥 A farmer down there, in the”Human world” is better than you”. Narada rushed to verify that farmer. The poor farmer was ploughing his small field by himself, toiling hard, barely able to make both-ends-meet. Busy whole day, eats megerly & sleeps tired. Narada reported”I checked. He chants you name just thrice a day—before ploughing, before lunch, and before sleeping at night…. I chant 24/7 “. Vishnu said “okay, take this oil cup, walk thrice around this small temple and come to me. Not a drop should spill”. The coconut shell was full of oil, with upper-curvature holding extra oil above the edge, due to viscosity, molecular affinity etc. very tough to “hold” it without spillage. But narada had to “walk” thrice 😭. He “managed” somehow, without spilling a drop of oil. Vishnu asked”how many times did you CHANT my name while-walking around thrice?”..... Narada: “😡 nonsense. I had to focus 100% on the oil-cup, to avoid spilling. How can I chant???” Vishnu: EXACTLY…. That poor farmer managed to chant THRICE, despite his family burden, poverty, etc. isn't he the “better” devotee???”

Design of human life

 Any new gadget we sight upon, fascinates us at once and we get nudged from within to find out "what is this?, what is its purpose? How do we use it( in its best possible way?)?" etc.

When 2 look-a-likes in the story of "Prince & the pauper" exchanged places for a few days, that pauper"found" the "use" of the Royal-Seal as 'useful to crack nuts'!!! ( His perception had only a limited range).

Human life ...... Most sophisticated gadget EVER.  🙏 ( If this piece of 'life' doesn't fascinate us enough, we end up using it to "crack nuts'" only😜)

Ancients of Bharat, decided to pass on the legacy of their prices less discoveries, related to Human form, its highest potential etc...

Therefore they summarised it in words ( & also transmitted it genetically, when they "saw" in their wisdom, that humans cannot be trusted upon for their "minds" whereas, they can do very little messing up, with their 'genes'). It is "thus" that our IRRELIGIOUS Hinduism got preserved in its "available" form.

Mahavakyas (4)

Prajñānam Brahma, 

Aham Brahmāsmi, 

Tat Tvam Asi, and 

Ayam Ātmā Brahma. 

Verbal grasp is useless. Experience of these 4 is ultimate wisdom 🙏

About the "genes"....  Only perception beyond sensory level can possibly help to wake up those genes to reveal itself 🙏 

DesignAtedly yours,

PSN(10 August 2025)

For what?

 For what 

(purpose)?

😂

Whether somebody is a philosopher or not, this question keeps occuring in our minds, aloud sometimes, and incessantly as a back-office-function.

We do try to seek answers, ……but compromise quite often with a mere response, which may not convince us as an “answer”😜

Right from kid age, this question keeps nagging us. 

A kid has no “convincing” answer for questions like “for what, or why should I go to school, wear that “uniform”? .... “obey” what that fellow called”elder” dictates? Do that homework (just to make the “miss” happy?), while it does not matter to me personally/individually?

The kid “fails” to ask himself, “why/for what, should I PLAY?”( A few lazy kids simply ignore a chance to play, probably because those ‘elders’ find it more_suitable if the kid sits quite 😜( less supervisory_nuisance.).

Once that kid gets arrested in its mind, into a thought that,  certain activities are just_there in the life, to be done without “asking” for_what/why of it. ( My “silly” question “why do humans_alone have to EARN for their food?”... doesn't reach the processor that assists the mind. Long ago, such questions are classified as ‘superfluous’. )

Purpose of “life”? ( Out of syllabus, long ago😜…. Whereas, “for what is a SYLLABUS, for every damn_thing?” helps us to keep away from “for what—about everything else, other than basic_survival needs.”( For those, who don't have to bother about basics, it is just_fun all their life, with risks according to the money/muscle power!)

After retirement, “what NOW?” surfaces only in a rare few😜( others have enough of unfulfilled desires, which bypassed the”what for?” ….very clandestinely!)

Emotions helps us to ‘get rid of’ the logical aspect of “what for” about our activities that we “choose” to do, without looking for answers.

Scope of “what for”?  It varies according to the ability to perceive the “next level of WHAT_FOR?(purpose).  Something like a better player in Chess, being able to think 2 moves ahead, for each_choice of his immediate move😜. 

As a rare instance, the person called Shri Narendra Modi ( PM) recalled his_kid_age question “for whom do you LIVE?”( same question “what for”, looked_at, a bit more comprehensively😜). He “took this question toooo_seriously in his life🙏.  A “blanked out” phase of some 7 years in solitude ( as a spiritual seeker, under some Guru) occupies the chronology of his biography! His phase of life under the public glare( as a CM, then PM) evades even the best brains in politics and economics, about the_what_for of his actions which are highly unpredictable for all those around 😜. 

At least, the “what for” of this blog might have occurred to a reader by now! 🙏😭😭😭 

Ancient Bharat gave more importance to “liberation” ( the ultimate one) than all the other possible answers to “what_for / why for?” questions ever_conceivable by a human mind 🙏.  Subtlest form of matter, only next_to_nothingness, therefore forms the purpose, for the  pursuit of liberation from “what for?” The spirit that animates as life, within us🙏. Spirituality deals with the spirit.  The whole ‘edifice’ leading towards the super-structure called “ultimate wisdom”( enlightenment) therefore, decisively answers the “what for” of life 🙏 

Ever for you,

psn(6 Aug, 2025)

SatSangh

 SatSangh, a desi concept 😜

Effect of people around.
Classic example, of work place atmosphere.

While at Amravati,
Within my colleagues, we could notice a subtle difference amongst us, in terms of overall efficiency.

Mega surprise came to me, when I was sent to 'clearing house'( usually SBI conducts a meeting place in their premises) where a clerk from each bank brings cheques drawn on other banks, and takes back  from all others, cheques drawn on his bank.

We had to list out the total amount "owed" & "receivable" to & from each member bank.  Net amount is shown as "credit/debit" in each such sheet. SBI clerk lists the 'net' amount listed in each sheet in a summary sheet, adding it's own net as well.

If totalling etc is accurate,  that summary gets "balanced" ( give & take totals Match).

But, during "manual" accounting,  a perfect match is rare during the first attempt 😥.

With 50,000 cheques changing hands/banks, few errors are inevitable!

here was the noticeable difference between clerks of different banks 😂🤣

The percentage of number of errors was very high among few banks, while very very low among few others.  There was an average level too among 80% of banks.

Any staff from my bank was among top 10% , for least/zero errors at any time. ( Work_culture NOURISHED the accuracy & efficiency!)

For me, this became a huge_source of LEARNING and a DIRECT EXPERIENCE, about the influence & impact of a sub_community within banking_community, on each person..... spending 6 to 8 hours a day for his entire "service" of 3 to 4 decades of job_for_salary 😂🙏🙏🙏

I could easily "see", that employees hailed from the same cross-section of citizens of society, belonging to different religions, castes and creed. And yet everyone benefited from a work_culture that is UNIQUE to each corporate entity🙏 ( TATAs lead the way for decades, as far as work_culture is concerned. Only tiny businesses do better than TATAs, and might constitute less than one percent, AGGREGATELY)

if this 'concept' seems reasonable,   not_withstanding even_the mega evidence that a banker's clearing house has nothing to do with religion, caste, creed or politics(😜),.....
then.....
It is easier to understand why,
IRRELIGIOUS Hinduism
Could_not_be wiped out,
Despite centuries of.....
invasions of ALL kinds, to demolish it, to wipe it out!

Secret:  ancient India/Bharat had geniuses ( spiritual giants called "rishis" ) who mastered the art of "embedded technology " and "Genetic engineering" and therefore could plant the software called Hinduism, into the genes-itself! ( They knew, 'minds' are not trustworthy....and therefore the_genes!!!😜

Like it or not....
Carry & convey it through generations!
Yes, it is in a 'sleep mode' in the genes of today's Indians among majority of the citizens. At times, a few spiritually_evolved ones do_try and wake up the software in genes, and we see volcanic_flares of it here_&_there !

Worst thing about the carry_forward is, the souls too, carry this software as an insurance, in case an entire 'living genetic samples' get EXTERMINATED🙏🙏🙏😜😜

Hinduism is like a contagion, existing in 'cloud technology '  a figurative way of defining its perpetuity.

Perpetually yours,
psn(1 aug, 2025)

Benchmark

 Benchmark 

A very irritating word, when we ourselves are ‘expected’ to touch or surpass it in that relevant field of human excellence.

As a kid, I used to be naturally tempted to vicariously teleport myself into far past times of the epic stories, like Ramayana, Mahabharat 😜 ( I used to “visualise” myself as a “kid-citizen” . I was such an idiot, I could have as_well visualized being at my dad's age!🥵. A constricted mind can visualise only_thus. Think_BIG wasn't in my Syllabus 🙏)

The “support” system that I am receiving as a kid of the 20th century was dismal , when I looked at Ramayana/Mahabharat days. Between the 2, the name_itself suggested that Ramayana is a better choice 😜. Mahabharat, the ‘title-itself’ is used today to denote a mega war, of words, even within families 🤣. When a tiny speck of wisdom walked in, I discovered, “Ram rajya” is not-at-all about the “fellow called Rama”! His life was tragic🙏🤣 …. The BENCHMARK set by the “society as a whole” was best🙏🙂  A name was needed to “refer” to THE PEEPALS/people, of that_time….  Hence the tragic hero's name ( ofcourse, Rama is a character to be a ‘benchmark’ for going through ‘hell’ in our lives, and yet remain steady 🙏)

Today,

Who is responsible for notching that “benchmark” a little higher? ( Was my_personal koschan/question ⁉️….. not worth, discussing this with ANYONE around me😭)

Then, I concluded….. “Let me keep doing my_best!”( That's all one can do, at any ‘given' point of time 😜….

Not that, there are no_benchmarks in our society 🙏. When my son decided to SHIFT to a ‘better’ इschool, after 7th, he asked for “plain trouble” 🤣… His ‘ranking’ slid down to 11th or so! But he noticed that, the support from the “character" of his classmates was a much more valuable thing. The mere company (bla-bla between kids) replaced the “strain” of parenting CONSIDERABLY🙏( ofcourse , I do have_to concede, our efforts till his 7th, started sprouting when nourishment was rich around).

As parents age, today…..the same ‘good & dutiful’ kids, now married, with kids, find it difficult to get_along with their aged oldies, under the_same_roof 🤣….  Sense of gratitude, duty, ‘moral responsibility’ etc is still there,🙏, but the ‘functionality' is sought_to_be from a ‘safe_distance’ only!😜( Neither the oldies, nor their children BOTHERED about any “benchmark” in the relationship of this phase of life. It is only getting worse with each “next” generations!

Benchmark set by us, today …is a matter of personal choice!

( As a society, there are a ‘few’ samples still available. Israelis, as a nation,.... parsis, a microscopic community are an unreachable samples for others. I heard that Japanese are so_loyal to their employers, that, even 4 generations work under the same master, ignoring the lack of recognition, even in monetary terms!

Certain BENCHMARKS, can be carried_forward, as an ACHIEVEMENT ( even if we failed to ACCOMPLISH anything noteworthy, in this lifetime 😜) Spiritual arena 🙏….  I must concede, my pursuit of this spiritual benchmark was owing to my far_past! Difficult to ‘convince’ anyone. But, my experience says “by ruling out all other possibilities, far_past is the only-possibility”.

Usually,  the benchmark we set for ourselves, turns burdensome for worldly items of life….. tortuous for spiritual practices 😓…. but only till we transcend that “breaking-point”🤣…. After that, it is joyous to live by that_benchmark.

BenchingLy yours,

psn(31 july, 2025)

Focus

 Focus

Not concentration. Just a focus.

A lens of a camera reflects a blurred image of its focal length doesn't match the distance between the camera and the object sought to be focused upon.

Our eyes are “short_sighted” if the focus of far away objects is blurred. 

A squint eyed person uses a slight tilt to improve the focus of the “pair” of the eyes, on an object.

An expert shooter closes one eye, only when a gadget called a gun, rifle or revolver can substitute for the lack of “judgement_of_depth” of the object, with just_one_eye!

Focus of our mind? 😛 

( Our mind itself is its yardstick, to measure it's own focus-quality! )

A true joke! 

I decided to bestow the best in me at that point of time, as a ‘gift’ to an youngster, who was close to me in many ways! Value addition was my objective, and I had decided to do my best_ever 🙏

That youngster was going to face the first competitive exam of the life! Plus_two….. ironically, an exam designed to filter the qualified ones only, had turned itself, functionally, into a competitive one, to eliminate even the qualified ones, for the selectivity_criteria of next level of literacy called ‘graduation’. Number game. Higher cut-off marks, merit, etc.

Focus, as a quality of an examiner, became a decisive factor when slogging, hardwork etc was confined to the limitations of time called “24/7”.

I spoke for an hour and a half.

That youngster kept staring at me for the entire 1½ hours, hardly-even blinking the eyes. 

Later, soon after that youngster had left my house, my sister, a witness to the whole ‘drama’ let out a huge laughter and teased me saying “did you notice? Everything you said just passed above the head of your ‘victim’ . That youngster managed to keep the eyes riveted on you, without allowing anything you said to enter the head😜!”

She was 💯 % right! I could realise that! One of my ‘most miserable failures’, despite my best efforts. 

The whole night, I had to focus on my disappointment, to recoup my composure to normalcy. Next morning, I blogged that talk of previous evening to that youngster. As a rare gesture, ‘divinity' whom I address as “maya Madam” gifted me with unimaginable rewards for that blog. A total stranger read that blog years later, re-read it several times for a few days, testing it for its efficacy beyond doubt, to verify if it was this blog, which caused him to reach a state of being, where his mind was of no consequence at all 🙏 😜. He took another few years to tell me, about what my Blog did to him, describing his efforts to make sure that it wasn't any coincidence or chance( scientific reasoning stipulated “an element of REPITITIOUSNESS” for any experience to climb the ladder of postulate, theory, concept and law¡😜). His hesitation was because he knew, that, what happened with him was unbelievable! But I assured him that I was quite familiar with that ‘phenomenon’, due to my years of spiritual practices and quest! ( I deliberately omitted mentioning the traditional name of that ‘state of being’ to afford him climb up further. That name might boost his ‘ego’. And ego stagnates any Spiritual growth 🙏).

Anticlimax 

Defocused eyes, and a gaze into nothingNess, is a powerful tool, in the spiritual traditions of India that is Bharat, since the ancient times 🙏. 

Please relax your “focus” if any by now 🙏

Focusedly yours,

psn(27 july, 2025)

Teaching skills

 Teaching skills

For my personal understanding, I observed my teachers at school, and could notice that they can be classified into 3 broad categories. ( This type of classification has nothing to do with any popular, authentic, or official, kinds of classification. In fact the ‘best’ teacher as per my_personal imagination might NEVER fetch even a tiny speck of recognition….. forget about a “best teacher award”😂

1)this teacher does just a job( for wages). Nothing more. If any student learns something, call it a lucky kid🙏😜😜

2)this teacher is a ‘bit’ concerned about whether a few atleast are able to understand. ( Reality is those few are anyway going to learn with or without a_teacher. Any batch of 50 kids will contain about 4 to 5 kids who learn a bit. This teacher can even ‘brag’ 20 years later that “these 5 were MY STUDENTS 👍” , and these 5 will also ENDORSE this teacher 😜. No mention about “why the other 45 remained dull”

3)My favourite type🙏. These rare+few teachers feel “my responsibility to make sure, that kids learn”( salary is a mere CONSEQUENCE, not their only_purpose for teaching). They ask questions to randomly picked kids across the classroom, to “find out” whether they ‘taught' well? They repeat the lesson if 4 out of 6 kids are unable to answer. Each class is an “examination” for this teacher, whereas for their students, the exams are only 6 times an year. 

The teaching skills….. the way I see, is inversely proportional to the “level” of toughness of lessons 🙏. ( An LKG teacher needs HIGHEST level of skills to teach 13 to 26 alphabets of English, 1 to 10 numerals, rhymes etc. A PhD teacher needs only GnawLedge, and has to give ‘bits’ of hint, about how to Gnaw bits of ledges of undiscovered forest of trees of knowledge…😜)

My bad luck! I came to know, how worthless I was, when I agreed to Volunteer for providing ‘backup’ support to freshers who went through a basic a spiritual program. I was supposed to ‘show’ them the right way of doing certain spiritual practices. Over a period of more than 5 years , I experienced the ‘trials and tribulations ‘ of the ancient Guru's, who were setting rigorous standards for accepting a disciple. And I could ‘visualise’ the highest humanly possible levels of good_teaching skills required only_for spiritual teachers😓😥😭

( The silver lining of my turbulent phase of volunteering was…. I formulated a guess_work of the ‘syllabus’ of ancient Gurukul 😜🙏… 4 items in that syllabus, but it is treated as irrelevant today👍)

Dumbly yours,

psn(19 july, 2025)

Inherited Karma

 Inherited Karma 

🤣

Average minds of present day would ‘repel’ at the very mention of this phrase.

If the mind can afford to merely “look” , then understand, possibly_grasp, and only_then try to disagree, or agree, this phrase can serve a utilitarian purpose 🙏

Did we not inherit our human frame?( We were not a dog, who approached an AI-enabled digitaly_driven 3-D factory to get our frame converted …..dog—>human !

Medically, we can also concede, inheriting certain chronic_type of dis-eases, or at least a vulnerability to it( weak heart/lungs/liver/pancreas/stomach….vital organs 🙏

Karma? Not really a convincing item.

Look at affinity towards nervous stimulants like coffee, tea, tobacco, alcohol etc.  kids born of a lineage of addicts, will need more restraints than others, to keep_away from its temptations 😜….  It's a ‘karma', which is a bit easy on our logical brains, to digest.

“Difficult to convince” category! Subtle but very strong.  Family traditions, languages, culture etc. A mother tongue has the ‘potential’ to creep_in, into a child ill-fated to be left at a foreign land, and lucky to visit the land of his biological parents after adulthood.

“More difficult to convince “ category….. acquired karma's, if strong enough , can permeate into the progeny to become an inherited karma😜🙏… genetic engineering 🙏

A true kshatriya would need lesser intensity of training than a true Vysya ( say, an Agrawal, a dedicated business_community) …..when both these join army with the same age, in the same batch.

Again, a “true” Agarwal, even if illiterate, has a greater potential to prosper in running a business, than a well_groomed MBA gold medalist from other non_business community! Hardly any ‘beggars’ among Agarwals🤣.    Here, the ‘Agarwals’ are morally OBLIGED to maintain_awareness(not mere remembering is enough) that….Shri Agrasen was a KING, not a businessMan😜. He was enlightened, and hence CAPABLE of transfusing potential of Vysya-Dharma, a very sacred quality,  into his disciples/followers/progeny. 

“Toughest to get convinced”.....Acquired karma, sustaining for ages, is evidenced in the chants of a janeu_dhaari_pappu, recalling his rishi_lineage_roots, while seeking blessings from an ‘elderly’(+COMPETENT to bless–person ), after prostrating to him/her. Rishi might have been himself,  a shudra_caste by birth😜. But he acquired spiritual karma lasting for eternity 🙏

Acquired karma, sought to be infused( not transfusing), got SOPHISTICATED and came to be known as “nuptials” a ritual, done during a congenial time( nothing but “setting” lab_conditions for ‘seeding’ 🙏).

“Initiation” is yet another classic example of “seeding” a subtle spiritual karma, into a fertile recipient, at a right time, after supplementing that recipient with sophisticated preparations for best_receptivity of the seeding. Hopefully, this seed_karma would bear the fruits of “highest human possibility”.

Kaarmically yours(🙏),

psn(7 jul2025)

Debugging

 Debugging 

A very crucial & vital component of any “functional” aspect of life. ( Once in a grave, it is a grave_situation🙏 not the_time for debugging)

The whole process was given a comprehensive name, when a human mind “created” an intelligence that can “function” with least possible dependence on its ‘creator’. Self-learning machines, we know! It learns through refinement, a process involving debugging too🤣

Human beings were trusted with ‘intelligence’ to learn on their own. They being a ‘superior’ variety of intellect, were endowed with capabilities to interact and network, like the intelligent networking of computers today, which are evolving(6 G right now)

Accepting of a ‘bug’ in our functionality is the first step, without which, debugging is superfluous 😜.

In the ancient days, a better intelligence was responsible to debug a lesser one. Though ‘each individual’ was well_equipped to debug himself!

In a bank, since the “stock in trade” itself is money, every piece of paper is “money” 🤣. It is “realising” this….that a structure was put in place to PERFORM a Q.A. of every transaction recorded by a clerk. Officers( better intelligence) check each voucher for Quality_Assurance🙏. Debugging is a mere consequence thereafter.

Teachers (ideally, ought to–)use tests & examinations to assure themselves of their Quality_teachings reaching a student,  only as a supplement to their “real time” Q.A. in the class, WHILE teaching a new lesson.

A good chunk of routine still remains to be debugged in our life😥 

Thought_proccesses are no_exceptions to the process of QA plus De-bugging 🙏😜

I noticed a few cultures “recognising” this needs( QA & de-bugging)

Confession in Christianity is a precious aspect ( whether a person ascribes “due” reverence to it is subjective 🙏)

In Hinduism, a very complex software was in place. And a bug-free program was constituted to do the de-bugging. Today, it is a disfunctional routine, like somebody “ritualistically” operating a light-switch, on and off, unaware of its purpose, and therefore ignorant of absence of electricity/bulb, doing the job of illumination ( pra-jothi-ayat) 

( Example: a lamp debugs ‘sins/errors’    दीपो हरतु मे पापं दीपज्योतिर्नमोऽस्तुते

Link : https://shlokam.org/dipajyoti/  )

When the annual de-bugging became a disfunctional ritual( during renewal of a thread/UpaKarma), the women folk devised something like a ‘silent de-bugging’ known as sumangali_prarthana, which also has turned into a mere ornamental embellishment in a disfunctional ritual of switch turned on-off, to  fused bulbs😜

Today, 

The ENTIRE software of QA & de-bugging, is constricted+ confined to earning Profit out of some remunerative_activity….. nothing to do with ‘evolving into a quality human‘ (only stray cases occur, where a ‘freak’ pursues it akin to reinventing_the_wheel 🙏🤣…)

A bug, I remain 

Yours🙏

psn(25 june, 2025)

Silly doubts

 Sheer apprehension about 'how long can a blog be?'  persuaded me to shift to another page. ( Otherwise, my stupidity in asking silly questions to others might end only when I am brain-dead😭) earlier one was "silly questions"

1)we breathe (by default, unless we 'take a fancy for doing it CONSCIOUSLY)

Do our lungs actually say to air "Welcome, dear O² enriched air" or, does our lungs gasps for air, in dire_necessity?  

An asthmatic struggles only to inhale, why? If it were about elasticity, even exhalation needs a 'struggle' isn't it?( We squeeze out the toothpaste tube! Ah! Latest tubes are one_way elastic😜 like bribe_TAKERS. they struggle to give bribe willingly)

2)why is it that this phrase “inteligent choice” is used very rarely, now-a-days?( A negative Example 😭 : in the banking industry, during 1995, bulk of employees & management, alike, chose the PF against Pension as a right_choice, paisa_wise😜.  Later, wisdom dawned. Pension proved to be better. Both parties resisted against each other, about a “second time for CHOOSING”. A deal was struck for a price. Employees surrendered a FAT sum to opt for penShun😜)

Does really the intellect NEEDS to be allowed to make an intelligent-choice, instead of our DEAR MIND?

3)why do we patronise, pamper and nourish “HURT”? ( Words CANNOT cause injury, except when it is hurled at us with authority+power, like a termination order, unjustified judgement by a judge etc…. )

Injuries are inevitable at physical level, but hurt is entirely our_creation, ain't it?🙏

4)why don't we use the choice we have to ‘try' and transcend our basic defects?( Sorry, an irritant question this is🙏).

A fisherman asked a saint, seeing that saint rescuing a scorpion the 3rd time, though it stung the very hand( of the saint that rescued! Pain of sting, the hand trembled, and scorpion fell into the flowing river……

The saint looked into the_innocence in the eyes of that poor fisherman and chose_to answer:”well, it is the nature of the scorpion to sting, and it is now in my nature to save. Both of us are acting according to our_own_nature” ( my take from this story: I CAN change even my embedded software ( basic nature), but I need to decide to try😜🙏)

5)why do we brand/label any question as “tough/out_of_syllabus/stupid/irrelevant/etc”….. just because we don't know the answers?

( I asked a B.Sc. with physics _main “can we find AC type of electricity occuring naturally?? And that person got angry😭…. Lightening is natural, not man_made and carries an electric charge of minimum 17000 volts😓….  Such natural AC? Wrong to ask?🙏😥)

6) a quarrel-some doubt 🧐 

Why is it that both,    the deity himself and their devotees are a stark-contrast to each other, in their appearances, paraphernalia, rituals, display of grandeur, wealth etc? Shiva and Vishnu. ( the “why” of it is the irksome thing, not the agreement about the contrast! 😜)

7)What kind of thoughts get rooted about us, in the minds of those with whom we interact in our life? ( If, there is a ‘belief’ in the perpetuity of some like “soul, atma, rooh, etc, that would also ‘carry’ such IMPRESSIONS about me, and accordingly, bless-or-curse me isn't it? 😜) . Among all kinds of opinions, judgements, assessments, assumptions and presumptions etc about me, ONLY the Residues matter isn't it? Not the fleeting thoughts, of temporary relevance?

While alive, it is their thoughts about me which vibe around me🙏😓, for good or bad😜

8)what can be a “scientifically” valid reason, for being a very ETHICAL person in life?( Not quite an easy or simple answer. Why does it make sense ? how can it make sense, to “live” by values in life? 

“Dharma”, dhaarmic_life is a term popularised since times immemorial 🙏. 

And today, look at the “nature” of the individuals who denounce Sanatan Dharma 😜. Why are they irked by existence of those who choose to live a bit_ethically?  

Clarity can be ONLY via understanding about the scientific_utility/advantage of adherence to ethics. Advantage to exactly_WHO inside us? Body, organ called brain, fictional/subtle entity called mind/intellect, or, the subtlest fellow called “being”?)

9)Can we use discretion Judiciously, unless our sense of Discrimination has been used at its Best¿?( Judges in a court exercise discretion rarely, but we use it all our waking hours, unawares_probably😜. Our thoughts?)

10) is it true that, the organ brain serves 2 masters? 1.requests from neuros, stomach etc, 2) mind's dictates ? 

If true, which is better? 1) overload the brain with our whimsical mind, or 2) prioritise the 'health' of our brain with 'some' sensibility in mind's commands to the poor brain?😜

Handling Appreciation

{ A disclaimer:

This write up is PURELY for entertainment purpose.
A part of the narratives pertains to my experience.
Anybody, EVEN inadvertently/unawares/subconsciously lending any kind of concurrence to the concepts hereunder, does so ENTIRELY at his/her risk and responsibility.😔

The purpose of this disclaimer rests on the principles of 'negative-psychology' (whatever the hell, it is)}

Appreciation scares me a bit!

My phobia. Can't help!

Wrong appreciation, i knew what to do?  Just dump it, after making the 'right kind of noises' like "so kind of you, .... thank you....  kind of you"(bla-bla)...  it doesn't pertain to me . Simple!

Negative appreciation:  A bit dangerous , but am forewarned by the processor in me called "brain". By default, it invokes an embedded program/software "why was this in a negative style?(that appreciation) ....  And I instantly dismiss it . No further action needed.  Example: Once, i was asked to 'calculate' manually, the arrears of wages-revision, arising due to 'retrospective effect agreed upon. it entailed complex calculations, involving choosing of right 'formula' for components of basic-pay etc. in short, the probability of 'human error' was within some 5000 arithmatic calculations, using only primitive pocket calculators , 40 years ago. Errors are BOUND to creep in.  But the checking official replied to my query (sir, how many errors?) with a remark "I think, I couldn't CHECK PROPERLY. I didn't find any error 😰" ( i knew......  negative appreciation!  I didn't have to emote.)


Positive and genuine appreciation:  Maha dangerous (for me! If it gets into my head, it turns counterproductive)

In one of my past births, 
I was a dog. 
a good breed (casteism by God, here 😊)  
I was picked up and trained into a police dog ( that breed could sniff well)
An emotional bond grew between my Master (cop) and me!
one day, I decided to 'say a thank-you' , like humans.  He was stupified! But, he kept it secret.
He passed on a part of the appreciation he received for an investigation, keeping the cash-component with himself, but asked me privately : "Doggie, name a gift, and it is yours!👍" 
I felt elated. Ego crept in me. I said "Master, you know I can sniff damn well, better than you-humans. why not gift me a 'quality' perfume?  If imported, still better 👌"
He gave it. He even helped me to get it sprayed all over my hairy body. Liberal dose.....  That day, I could-not-sniff the sweat, blood or any 'evidence' left behind by the CRIMINAL.  Zero productivity. That cursed/damn perfume kept dominating my 'sensitive' smelling glands in my nose.
I was demoted, sacked.  I became a 'street-dog'....

I woke up suddenly with a sad-jerk! (What? just a dream?  or is it that God-ji used one of his dubious ways of 'educating' me, about my past birth, and the precious lessons?.  dunno!)

But, I got my lesson :  Let not a genuine appreciation get into my head! Just move on! The other person is merely displaying his potential in recognizing merit. He evolves by acknowledging me.


Doggedly yours,

psn(20th June, 2025)

Magnanimity, an illusion

 Some good friend tried to appreciate me🙏😥

I think I ended up indirectly-discouraging him😭🙏( my-bad)

Quote 

[20/06, 9:39 am] friend : It shows your magnanimity🙏

[20/06, 9:57 am] PSN: I agree 🙏

( Magnanimity --or-- humility.....both are very "popular" qualities 😜.... It can 'fetch' even -votes 🙏...

So, netas "try" to show it. Nothing wrong 🙏 it is marketing department, for survival)

But ....my 'personal' view is(,🙏)...

Both are only consequences of some other qualities.

Like,

Cold is due to absence of heat

Darkness is due to ABSENCE of light.

Similarly, both these are due to Presence of 'few' other qualities 🙏

Wretchedly yours,

psn(20 june, 2025)

Random thoughts

It is time , I thought, things that I held as 'values' within myself, for all these decades, should get scrutinized by others who possess a much sharper sense_of_discriminination than me! ( A preparedness to get get corrected).

Whereas, if by any chance, a reader decides to try it out, he should come to no harm at all🙏 ( to ensure this, I try to confine my blabber to only my personal experience, based on element of repetitiousness.)

I keep adding, as and when my brain wave might persuade 😜🙏

1)मैं अगर किसी को ‘मानता‘ हूं और वो और किसी को,  तो वो किसी और को जाने परखें बिना ही,  मैं भी मानने लगता हूँ 🙏

If I happen to revere someone,  and he reveres someone else, then I too have reverence for that_someone too, without waiting to know or evaluating that someone else 🙏

2)when innocence is led by awareness,  wisdom is a mere consequence 

3)any kind of refinement envisages some kind of self-imposed discipline 

4)If there is utter clarity, plus, deep acceptance, about 'what-can-be' expected from today's people(even Hindus), such person is free-from shackles of all kinds 😀

4)Transparency promotes trust.... trust when invoked, nurtures reverence…..

5)Unleashing the potential of a "mind" ....

is not a tiring excercise,  if we bothered to maintain the health of our mind😜

I don't know,  if it qualifies as a concept?  Between the body and a mind, the distinction is, body ages despite maintenance,  whereas a mind, if maintained-well, can defy aging 🙏😜😜😜

6)Loneliness or isolation is inversely proportional to the inclusivess capability we grow into!

7)if we are keen to know about our genuineness in our quality called involvement,  the litmus test is, our innovation_quality is maintained_actively_in_readiness.  But without inclusiveness, involvement cannot survive 😜🙏

8)of you ‘find’ that the person standing before you is able to accept truth(about anything) EFFORTLESSLY….then, know that…..you are staring at the_Highest_form of COURAGE, functioning 😜. ( I strongly suggest, please try to mince-meat/tear-apart/mercilessly-criticise this observation of mine🙏. Blind acceptance might deprive you it's benefits if any, PLUS it might deny me a chance to apologise for making a stupid statement. Win-win idea😜🙏)

9)if, we are keen to have just one single idea to hold on to our life, which obviates the need to adhere to numerous 'good advices' my experience is "just keep refining myself in every thought, word and deed" through my life.  The best finds me, instead of me chasing the best😜 ( desi Guru's keep looking for only DESERVING candidates. Historical truth)

10) getting along peacefully with someone locked alongside us, inextricably, is undoubtedly a challenging task.

In my attempt to render myself “harmless” to the fellow alongside me, I found myself ending up being also_USELESS to that person 😜🤣. ( Obviously, when a distance is affordable, I do better 🙏 I don't EXIST, in their experience 👍)

11)Knowledge and wisdom CAN precede or succeed innocence, but innocence cannot be OBVIATED at all, for ultimate liberation/Mukti/moksha/whatever 👍🙏🙏🙏

12) Parenting was different until a century ago, since thousands of years.

The ‘values' (taught)were enough, to resist hacking 🤣. Basic OS was those Values 🙏 

Today, fire-walls are not working, and latest OS is Never BUG-FREE 😭. VERIFY thoroughly, this statement and then agree! Discarding it is an easier option, just ‘delete 👍’

12-A) Value-BASED education ( till 200 years ago in Bharat ( not Literacy 😜)

Those-values, which are COMPATIBLE with human physiology 🙏. ( Details, I omit deliberately)

13) Right kind of choices are possible only when the intellect is free from the dominating mind(a mere sum total of experiences, and its influences)...when choosing is the urgent need of the situation 🙏

14) Reckless, random, incoherent and unbridled thought_processes when awake, are indicative of our tendency to mimic our dream_state where, brain doesn't process and intellect remains unavailable 😜 ( not a ‘good' sign!)

15) Parenting is utmost crucial upto 5th year of a child, simply because, the Very Nature of this formative-years is going to work as an EMBEDDED software for the lifetime of that kid, and hence vital. ( The paradox is “if we don't know the difference it makes, there won't be any difference for that kid” 🙏😜)

16) Bharat is(was) Shraddha/श्रद्धा culture, compared to ‘freedom’ culture we Aped today 🙏. 

Reverence is the nearest available word, though grossly inadequate to capture its true sense.

When shraddha is at its best, intellect is at its peak, riding on awareness & alertness, both at its best!

( Imagine walking around, inside a large house  networked with a maze of criss-crossed wires, uninsulated, carrying a high charge of 11000 volts of electricity 🤣 one careless movement, is fatal 😥. Now, remove that ‘fear’ and then visualise the intensity of care, caution, alertness and awareness of walking around a reverential person, or a consecrated place like a temple or home. This is just a symbolic example to help visualization of how_receptive WE should be, to benefit from such reverential people, place or things🙏)

For a super_perfect utilitarian advise, a verse in Gita, is a trillion times better than what I tried to ‘suggest’ here using my primitive life experience 😓( श्रद्धावान लभते ज्ञानम…..)

17) honesty unto oneself is a Nasty business, but a few fools undertake it, and innocently cause envy into others, by displaying a pleasant aura due to it!( It seems somebody tried to “educate” a sculptor re-doing a tiny statute to be placed at a height of 30 metres on a tower of some church or temple, saying “see…nobody is going to notice that tiny_flaw on the previous one there, from such a height. Why waste efforts re-doing it?”

That sculptor: “but I know, there is a flaw there🙏😞”)

18)while knowledge of law cannot be expected from common man, Jurisprudence SHOULD NOT BE avoided by common man, especially since Jurisprudence doesn't require literacy 😜( proof: in all departmental-Enquiries, no enacted law is forced upon. No LLB is needed to be an enquiry official, presenting official or a defense_representative🤣. ideally, therefore, any dept-enquiry has better scope to do-justice than a Supreme court even. Courts only_administer Law. Any “justice” is purely incidental 😜🙏🙏)

19) That inclusiveness, envisaged in the cherished greatness of sanatana Dharma, through its words “vasudaiva Kutumbakam”( universe is my family), got chopped off, because of today's social norms “don't interfere in my life” 😜…. I will vote for a Jihadi, or even yield to his love jihad, my freedom, you_get_lost!

I became an indifferent fool, fearing that interference into my next kin, friend, fellow citizens 🙏. ( No cure, so endure😜🙏)

20)for Any debate to be a “healthy” one indispensable requirement is, both sides need to be equipped with a matching level of inputs relevant to the subject of debate.

(Evidence: Aadi Shankara conceded when asked “what do you know about a married life?” and requested a week's time to experience the relevant data, came back to win the debate with wife of first pontiff of shringeri mutt)

21)the flip_side of desi spirituality is, as long as a person keeps refining oneself spiritually ( only to one's own possible _best, no benchmarks), there are evolved beings hovering around, to support mightily, unbelievably, and certainly! 

Traditional evidence about a “Guru” seeking a disciple, is the proof 🙏. ( My personal experience, though of great value for me, about this, need not be taken cognizance of🙏). Tough thing is, to ‘keep refining oneself’ on a daily basis😜( flop side).

22)I don't know if this can find an appeal, just_enough to examine honestly🙏

The criteria for becoming a full_fledged Brahmin is only if there is an Experience of 1st of the 4 Mahavakyas "pragyanam Brahma" ( preliminary stage of a noteworthy evolvement for a human)

Mere Name tag as a "Brahmin" serves only an extraneous purpose, not related to its purpose 🙏

23)Grown up Children'demanding' from parents their "freedom"(today)

sadden stupid parents🙏😜

A responsible jailer gets MORE freedom than the criminal leaving that 'jail'! 

A jailer commits sucide(prisoner is not responsible) WHEREAS, a prisoner does it? Jailer gets questioned FIRST

24)Trust has to grow on its own. Forcing others/ourselves, onto or from, is futile. Inclusiveness at its deepest level is the manure 😜. When ‘trust’ is mention-worthy, the society or nation scales prosperity as a byproduct of spirituality 🙏

25)Dress related obscenity, embarassment, revulsion, etc is only due to the mind-set, whereas, traditionally, an apparel was ‘meant’ to serve, not the minds of an onlooker, but to suit the situation, occasion or event. ( Until 200 years ago, Hindus of Bharat Preferred only unstitched clothing, and used their ingenuity to drape it skillfully 🤣)

An englishwoman did quiz Ramana Maharshi about his loincloth-only. He addressed her mind's genuine-quest(ion) and said “you have no-probs, leaving only-your-face uncovered isn't it? Well, for me it's my entire body! But I wear a full dhoti when I walk through a village. Here on a rock, at this desolate mountain top, I need just a loincloth🙏”

26)femininety, at its subtlest sense is not about a female gender, but it is about the closest_possible proximity to the Shiva ness/shivatatwa, in a spiritual sense! If, perception is affordable, a look at the countenance of spiritually evolved people will reveal their femininety, grace etc 🙏 ( Females are naturally gifted with an overdose of femininety_also, which , they today demolish with concerted efforts, to compete with the logic in their male_counterparts. Obviously, the logic fails them often, when they need it most😭

27)the efforts needed,

to build a “character” 

is

inversely proportional to the support received from our surroundings 😜

( try to demolish this, and do_tell_me, if you succeeded 🙏)

28)"I cannot choose the best. The best chooses me" wrote Gurudev in “stray birds”. For this, I need to strive for ‘self-refinement’(आत्म-परिष्कार ) in every activity of thought, word and deed incessantly 🙏. ( It seems to work for me😜)

29) for communism to work well, the politburo needs to be brainy, patriotic incorruptible etc.

Ancient kerala, rishis were politburo. King was today's CM. It worked for thousands of years. Today's Kerala, if one member of politburo is accidentally honest, they make him a CM( king)😂. He obeys and takes all the blame as well🙏👍

By default

 By default 

All our ‘habits’ are by-default functions in us🙂…. (If a response is like “ Nah!😡,”... then, even-denial is a ‘default’ item in us)

Joke : getting rid of unwanted habit 

H A B I T (remove “h’, trying bit_by_bit)

A  BIT ( remains.  remove ‘a’ now)

BiIT ( remains.  Try again. ‘b’ this time)

IT …., (it remains 🙏🤣…. Ready to give up)

Please see, 

Our sense of insecurity pursuades a good number of “default” responses in us. They become a second nature. Habit, concentrated is ‘default' or ‘second nature'.... 

A few of us find it difficult to get_out_of it🙏

We find it effort full to accept or speak truth ( even when we “want to” 🙏 ) because,  second nature doesn't require conscious effort. Doing opposite of ‘habit, default response or second nature’ needs conscious-effort EACH time🙏😭

At least among our trustworthy people,  is it okay to take efforts CONSCIOUSLY, and resist things like ‘denial, telling lies, etc’???

( A personal secret/weakness of mine 🙏…. My spouse complains , “not safe to tell you any secrets! By default, you blabber the truth 😡” …. I accept this allegation, but it suits my spiritual bijness, though it caused material loss)

A Major defective of default-habit in me is…..  intense-involvement in doing even a routine_mundane_nonsense!🙏😭 ( Denial,  refusal, terminological_inexactitude/lying, etc need my conscious effort! Too late to reverse my commercially unviable habits).

Shifting into opposite of any habit is a choice, but not quite easy, though simpal😜

Consciously yours,

psn(25 May 2025)

Aging of Mind

 Aging of Mind

Strange idea isn’t it?

Well, aging generally refers to body when we say “I am aging”. Mind doesn’t really ‘age’. It is an abstract concept of ours, widely used, because of the experiences we go through, store, and even remember to recall during every kind of situation, emotional phases etc.

Is it not true that our faculties related to what we call as our ‘mind’, seems to sync with the aging of the body?

How to retain that ‘sharp’ mind of ours, no matter what we choose to do with it.

I thought, my experiences in certain areas where we do-share some kind of commonality, might be of a tiny value addition to others. ( If I like eating brinjals, I know, i cannot ‘expect’ every reader to think of my narrative about usefulness of brinjals and they should start liking it too! No point trying to add-value by singing praises about something that cannot be common)

Mind, is common to all humans. And it can be ‘expected’ that all of us do-like to keep it ‘young’.

Some situations in our lives end up ‘fatiguing’ the minds at a very young age (some kind of disappointments, some kind of non-fulfillment of desires etc.)... In such cases, the mind ages suddenly! They decide to ‘some-how’ go through this life, and resolve to live a very routine-mundane life. I guess this attempt might rejuvenate even such young bodied ones with a prematurely aged minds!

Those of us who managed to get away with our stubbornness's, adamancies, etc. during young age, with a sharp mind, would find the need to tone down these negatives in us to remain ‘relevant’. Eccentricities are tolerated only when it belongs to brilliant ones :)

Innovativeness helps the mind to retain its abilities. Unless there is some kind of intense-involvement in what we do, or like to do with a situation, innovation starves without its fuel.

If this idea is wrong, please stop reading any further.

After retirement, I saw that I could afford to slow down the pace of my life! Situation is not going to slow down to oblige me :) so, start a bit earlier to reach the deadline with youngsters around!

This slowing down (of doing things, thinking, calculating, conjuring :)) etc very naturally allowed me to focus better in my activity, physical or mental. My involvement got additional strength, with better focus. And involvement persuaded my alertness and awareness at my activity to keep myself on the ‘look out’ for a better way of doing the same thing ! Joy got started seeping in. When I am on the ‘look out’ for something, boredom is unable to gain entry into me! Innovation was something that I could never pull out of my self, my mind, or my pint-sized brains. It had to just ‘occur’ (like my meditations :)) and I didn’t try to look out for ‘innovation’ each time, though maya-madam decided to be liberal to me, as a reward for doing something with zero-expectations)....
As a by product of the sequence of these guidelines I had set up for myself, I found that my mind’s faculties have slowed down its aging. If ‘memory’ and its failing seems to us as a component of the mind, well.... I am no exception. I too tend to forget things, as I age! But, when i decide to remember something, that ‘focus, involvement, etc’ takes over from the auto-pilot-mode of aging memory:))

What I would suggest is....
try to focus a bit more on very routine and simple tasks that we do, despite our age! If possible do it a bit leisurely, very consciously, and get-involved! If this doesn’t work, there is nothing to lose! We did a very routine job in a better way. So, drop this idea if it doesn’t work. It worked for me too well right from my kid age! The-best advantage I got out of getting involved was, I kept that ‘boredom’ at a safe distance.
Best wishes,


innovatively yours,

psn(23rd May, 2025) 

A dishonest disclaimer

 A dishonest disclaimer.

Yep! 

I am honest about it ( that….my disclaimer is dishonest).

I was like this…..

I was into a maddening pace for 5 plus years , volunteering as backup support for freshers in a spiritual program. ( 5 hrs for 6 days a week, entirely for others…. seems like madness😜)

One among few freshers who lingered long_enough to notice this consistency in madness, asked me “sir, why do you spend so-much of your time on freshers ? You could have evolved faster, spending time on yourself?”

A disclaimer: I gave a dishonest answer which has advertisement_value 😜

I said “look….. by chance, if Godji decides to throw me into heaven after my death, I need a few familiar faces there_too, to say a ‘welcome’! Hell is no problem👍 familiar faces will seek me to exploit me perpetually 😜”

He was convinced 🙏

But I was dishonest! ( I grow faster, while propping up others on my shoulders, for_free😜)

Ain't  my disclaimer honestly_dishonest? 

Dishonestly yours,

psn(8 May, 2025)

Spiritual crisis?

 Spiritual crisis

At once a paradoxical practicality.

The paradox is we never become aware of it, till we reach a point in our lives( lifetimes,  if believable to a reader) when, no other form of crisis can affect us emotionally 😜 ( require proof?  Search for “aapat-Sanyasam” which was available until at least 1½ centuries ago in Bharat).

At my workplace, 4 decades ago, a boss stupefied me by his dynamism! He was a whirlwind throughout his office hours!  ( my guess is, if he depended on somebody for help explicitly, it was me🙏…. I could easily remain ‘aware’ of his activities from 9 am to 6 pm daily, at office, for almost 2 plus years, so my ‘guess’ is an understatement🙏… I am certain). I asked him once “sir can we not prepare well ahead of few certainities atleast, before they happen?” ….  He said, “well psn…… as a race, we Indians are addicted to “crisis management” ….it is no more a choice! We deal with a situation only when it turns into a crisis”.  An unforgettable lesson for me 🙏.  I understood the corollary instantly! 😜…  a mind can never_allow_us to recognise spirituality as a ‘need, forget about its becoming a crisis! Crisis manages us, whether we are good at crisis-management or not!

I was an exception!  Right from my kid age, nothing else mattered to me, except some vague, abstract, seeking in me. Since I couldn't even verbalize it, I never could share it with my elders( in our kid-age, we  only tell our parents/elders, our desires! They grant or reject it, but we know that we ‘asked. I didn’t know what_to_ask! 🙏😭). It is  entirely a different matter that, there were quite a few who knew, I was thirsty for it, and their “timings” were flawless😜….

I keep trying to persuade those around me to buy something which, I know for certain, they aren't interested in, and will never be interested in. Obviously,  my MRP is zero! And bargains are in minuses 😜… i spend myself into them for free😜…  Harmlessness, is an indispensable pre-requisite, for those who are trying to market spirituality! 

Harmlessy yours,

psn(25 April, 2025)

Customised spiritual tools

 Ancient giants of Bharat were thoroughly professional in perfecting a customized spiritual tool for each of their disciples. Often such tools used to be a brief chant, prescribed via an initiation. But there were additional tools, which were meant for functional applications as well. Goal was invariably only one--liberation!

Sometimes,  this concept of customisation works even with a dumb idiot like me, when situation is favorable 😜 ( there is an adage "ख़ुदा मेहरबान तो गधा भी पहलवान.... When God turns benevolent,  even a donkey turns into an invincible wrestler")

Recently, someone wrote "I am wondering....... complexity and complicated...two words! 🤔( and so on...)"

I recalled a person, 'uniquely_close' to me.  ( quite soon, we both could 'drop' the 'dependence' on our mutual relatives_wala bonds, to remain_close to each other 😜....  we transcended the fact that we are brothers_in_law, mutually🙂.

Once, he spelt out his problem_about_problems😜

"Yaar, how do you deal with confusing situations,  where both options 'seem' appropriate, despite their contrast to each other?" he quizzed! 

I found the 'situation' to be just right👍... we were walking towards a temple, which he wanted me to 'see'!  

Now, that 'walk'  took away my need to ensure that he is focused, alert and_yet_relaxed😜

I said, "simple boss!  Forget the COMPLEXITIES of each option. No need to complicate it with your_confusions!"

His focus sharpened enough to interject with "phir kya karoon? ( then, what should I do? )"... not waiting for my deliberate_pause, which was to get his attention 😳

I said in slow_motion 😜 "just look at both the options, to check whether they are life positive or life negative  it will work fine for you👍"

Before I could continue with how to deploy this 'patch algorithm' he again exclaimed "fantastic yaar! You made it damn simple! 🙏😜"

I continued, "see.... the possibilities are, both options, you might_find to be 1)one of them life positive 2)both life positive 3)both life negative 4) etc..... now you can choose any, using this litmus test, or opt_out to hunt for that proverbial 'Plan-B' like our cunning politicians 😜🙏🙏🙏"

( my guess is, he found this tool handy till his last breath 🙏🙏🙏)

I can't 'speak' about his_trust in_me🙏.... too-sacred, though Nothing secretive/private/personal/confidential/etc about it!

Testily yours,

psn(20 apr., 2025)