Death as a teacher

 My close kid_age friend had lost his wife about 2 weeks ago. Today i received a very personal message from him, describing his inner experience of these 2 weeks, culminating into something quite intense during the recent_most day.

I felt so overwhelmed by reading it, that i wrote something in a reply_response. 

Even my response is quite personal ( in nature) and hence I am sharing it without quoting his part of message.

"Awesome message ( सच कहो तो शब्द नहीं है मेरे पास, घिसे पिटे "awesome" जैसे के सिवाय 🙏!  It is a psychological problem yaar. The "feeling" is fresh, whereas the word used to describe it is worn out..... otherwise, the word is quite powerful enough 🙏)

I had a gush of thoughts, as i went through each of your sentences here.

My immediate response is.....you responded admirably well, to the process called "death", even as a witness 🙏. ( I say this with a responsibility......which cannot be *_expected of, from a normal average person of even PhD level_* ... Because, i did something which is done by very few. A powerful meditation, meant to give a very personal experience of death_itself....is underwent by me some 500+ times over 5 years plus( weekly twice). In combination with certain rigorous spiritual practices, which *_enhances our sensitivity_* to very subtle, imperceptible experiences, was also an accompanying factor 🙏.... I volunteered for some 5000 freshers, who were exclusively dedicated to evolve into spiritual path. These were just 10% of those who attended the programs.... खुद होकर, खुशी से, special class attend  करने वाले जैसा………their sincerity is almost ascertained जैसा!

It is with this background that I was reading what you wrote here.....

What surprises me is.....

i hesitated to write many of the thoughts that kept occuring to me for some 5 days after you broke the news of that pious lady( kalpanaजी, ). Pious is in a scientific sense, ..... meaning, a certain level  of reverence being shown towards a companion by a person. It enhances the emotional sensitivity to best possible levels in a human being 🙏.... Usually, adversities invoke such enhanced levels of sensitivity to subtle emotions  though ....it need_not_be so 🙏.... 

Yes, death is a release....( may not be liberation/mukti itself for all... Mukti is possible even when alive😜)

Life.....is better understood via death 

( this is evident from the way the ancients "treated" death through the rituals & traditions they instituted and assimilated into our way_of_life called Hinduism 🙏 ... This is my living experience when i witnessed death of my dad in 1983, and then my sister's in 2014. I could also clearly experience the enhanced level of sensitivity in the second one🙏...   Instead of sharing my experience, i could persuade an observation from an independent observer who was with me for 3 days after my sister's death. His observation was a sort of confirmation of my experience 😜.... He was a bit astounded by his own words, which came sporadically, and spontaneously 🤣😜😜🙏...

I have reasons to believe that Kalpana ji has given you a priceless parting gift, whose value is  bound to keep increasing till you time arrives 😂.... It is in the very_nature_of things....that such deep relationships ( rare+fortunate) never go without its rewards Gratitude swells in our hearts, only if+when we realise it's value🙏!

( I had the good fortune to discuss about our father's death, that process,.....with my sister quite often 🙂.  There was a unique advantage, in that.....i naturally stepped into my dad's shoes, after my dad departed, and i had the responsibility of my unmarried sister for the rest of her life. A few incidents associated with her death are a bit difficult to 'believe' for any  logical mind, but too many to be dismissed as coincidences 😜....... I am omitting mention of those.)

On the way to school, i pass by a church on "Chapel road" a slope.... And whether it is morning or evening....if there is "body" kept there for prayers.....i walk in , go as close as possible to that body, and stare at it silently, with a blank mind😂........in all ignorance+innocence. Little did i know, that i was inadvertently going through a powerful and ancient spiritual process of being at meditation , a process of  synthesis with a corpse at the funeral ground 🙏🙏🙏... I realised this only after learning about spiritual processes , past my middle age. 

As a very close kid_age friend ( the speciality is.....our bonds are forged during our innocence 😜........ Not quite easy to set_such lab_conditions), i am feeling gratitude to mother nature, when you consciously chose to share your very personal experiences thus 🙏,

 (Personal.....is different from words like "secret, private, confidential, etc")"

Unquote.

PSN ( 26 aug 2023)

Recognition

 Recognition 

Ironically,

when it comes to human-relationships, we seek recognition from others, when our concern out to have been about deepening our own abilities to recognise things around us better.

A diamond doesn't even wait for any recognition of its worth.

A coconut tree, that sprung up on the desolate shores of a tiny island, when the sea waves pushed a ripe coconut to that place, simply yields nuts according to the available nutrients. It doesn't look for recognition of its potential to yield 300 good nuts per year, if properly manured etc.

Teenagers look for recognition of their inclination at something that tries to flourish ( some hidden/latent talent). Whereas the structure of our society binds them on to a railroad of a pattern, on 'like it or not basis', this is your routine now on.

Expectations of getting a recognition, has come to affect the attrition rate among talented techies. The beneficiaries of attrition are those who deserve only benching 🤣

My experience with being_recognised, was very useful in understanding the basics of 'human mind', and when it culminated to a situation where, "getting recognised" got inseparably enmeshed into a two way problem, i thought 'this is the peak of recognition_problem at its highest_intensity".....Let me describe this rare situation. A person sitting eyes closed for meditation, has no way to know whether his meditation is worth being recognised for its minimum_pass_marks..🤣… And, a person observing him, has no tangible tools to evaluate that meditation and then to_recognise that meditation for its due level of worth 🙏😰

I decided to learn, how_to_recognise a person at meditation, for his level of meditativeness. It took a decade to learn it. But recognition as an abstract quality decided to bless me uniquely 😜

Whatever i got recognised for, in me….. usually ended up as a means to exploit me, for others.

Example: my wife returning from a wedding of her neice, unpacked and spread out 5 packets of cookies( deep fried in oil, hand made items, with shelf life). It was a custom to offer one pack of 5 items to each invitee to a wedding, belonging to 'close people' list.  But 5 packets? I stared at my wife . She explained " oh! That's because, my cousin decided that you are not yet having any ailment or chronic problem like cholesterol, BP, sugar, hypertension etc despite old age…. all other invitees of our age declined this junk items citing medical_condition….so she dumped it in my bag, citing your ability to eat junk 😜" Huge recognition for my health 🙏🙏🙏🙏.

Workload at workplace for me was due to recognition of two disabilities in me. One, i don't refuse work or protest overload. Two, i stretch myself to 'limits' when adequate work is available, and thus kept growing at my abilities to absorb more load. Ultimately, a breaking point came, where i cheerfully decided to quit, and enjoyed premature retirement 👍. Logic and reasoning failed the set of bosses who forgot about reasonableness of exploiting somebody's amenability.

When do we recognise the real worth of being born as a human being???

When are we going to recognise the complex human frame we got, and the flexibility of our mind with its freedom to shape itself the way we choose? When do we recognise the truth that we can decide our future, despite the influence of our past on our present?

Oops! Recognition is getting subtler here….

Cognizantly yours,

PSN (23 aug 2023)

My silly koschans

 My "silly koschans"

I am fond of asking very silly questions 🙏

Mostly related to "ancient way of life in Bharat, misnamed as Hinduism"

Sample: " why is it that the sanctum sanctorum( garbha gruha) of temples is deliberately ill_ventilated? That priest, spoils the ventilation further😜….burning camphor, oil lamps etc most of the time he does Pooja, and shuts it's small door as soon as he comes out?.. yet he looks fresh😳🙏" ( ancient temples were on huge land spaces, massive construction with great heights, STUPENDOUS labour. Just_that main room is small, stuffy, dingy, etc and yet doesn't cause 'health issues'

Sample:"Godji birthdays are on moon phases( human death anniversary also on moon phases), whereas, our birthdays are are on birth star days.why?"

My "silly" koschans.....😜

( The why……. about it 🙏……my own mind conjured a silly_excuse🙏😰😭)

These kind of questions, improves the explorative skills of a person.

The emotion of vismaya, wonder is nudged often...😜

The discoveries thereof enhances the trust and confidence in our ancient wisdom unshakeably 🙏

Needless to add, perception deepens, learning skills get sharpened. Obviously, stability in emotions improves, when we are needed to relook at it with an equipoised mind, non-prejudiced mind, a calm and still mind😜…(with any luck, the sense of discrimination might even_reveal the correct answers🙏… mystic answers are always from….. within 😜😜😜)

If all this is really true, am i wrong in asking such "silly" questions please?

Am i not contributing to enhance the latent human_qualities in my audience?

Silly being of yours,

PSN (3 August 2023)

Investing Trust

 🙂

I am embarking upon something that i am not sure, of my competency to talk about.

( In ancient India, people knew clearly, whether to open their mouth or not, to sermonise.... Usually, only very highly evolved people in spirituality try to advise, suggest, or sermonise. The immediate advantage of such stringent standards was trust level in the speaker was AWESOME 👍)

In my case here, the probability of someone taking it beyond an entertainment value is very unlikely. 

Yet, since i was bestowed with precious feedbacks of near-miracle instances by a few readers, i confine myself to adhere to those ancient values of "speak only if you are competent enough"...

I have ample experience of having tasted the results of having experimented with

having invested in others, my trustworthiness. I keep offering trust wherever I can afford. The nature of ....My job..... provided me ample scope to offer my trustworthiness to the customers and colleagues in equal and unlimited measure.

All i had to do was take conscious efforts to live up to their trust in me.

I did it....

The results were incidental and consequential, and yet of  immense worth 👍

It is the 'results' that is likely to interest the readers, since the present day minds, being commercially inclined to keep asking ' what is there for me, in it? Why should I?" 

The health benefit is at the neurological levels 😜 ( try it and then decide, instead of asking me to mention it. Each set of nerves are distinct and unique, just as the complexities of physiology)

Psychological benefits are improvement in interpersonal relationships.

General benefits are, the ambience around us, ( the so called aura we carry,) remains bright and positive 😜

Longterm benefits? Easy to guess... You learn the worth of abstract emotion called trust.... You learn the use of already _available sense_of_discrimination 😜... Not easy to use discretion about who is eligible to enjoy your trust.( For example, somebody who decides that you are a KAAFIR, is unlikely to avoid abusing your_trust 😰)

Trusting somebody else is damn risky 🙏🙏🙏

Excersize caution....

Offering trust is 👍.... Worst case scenario is, we get exploited once🤣. Cut off that pipeline to that fellow who abuses your trust. Simple.

Testily yours😜

PSN ( 1st August, 2023)