Tiny karmas

 "Take care of the pennies, and the pounds will....take care of themselves"

Goes the saying 😜

Quite encouraging isn't it? 

"I CANNOT wake up before_sunrise"

Somebody says stoutly...🤣

It's a sample of a tiny_karma.

Is that person willing to break that karma?
Or, does he call it "मेरी मर्ज़ी,  मेरा freedom,  when to wake up... तू कोण है  बोलने वाला? "( my wish, my freedom....who the_hell are you, to advice me?)

I appeal 🙏 " गुरु,  इसको freedom नही,  मजबूरी कहते हैं 😰"( boss, this is helplessness,  not freedom)

If he yields,
I suggest "सिर्फ एक मिनट जल्दी उठो,  कुछ  दिनों के लिए " ( just try waking up 1 minute earlier, for a few days)
And then, he himself increments it to 5 minutes earlier than his kaarmic-bondage-timing of waking up 🙏

Before long, he might wake up 5 minutes earlier than the alarm in smartphone to "dismiss" the message "alarm in 5 minutes"😳

What i found as a challenge, during 2006 was, a question from a phoren_Madam from USA "how to get sleep? ( doctors please don't reply, sleeping pills don't work for me)"
I tried. ( yahoo answers ....open forum. Any one can try an answer , and the asker picks  "best" answer in 3 days or extended 6 days.
Six days later that Madam picked mine, as best. But sent me a private message "hey! I had asked for only_sleep, but your answer gave me peace_of_mind too, god bless you" . Whether our Godji is going to pay any attention to such trifles or not.... my reward was she could break a tougher "karma" of hers, and she now has the freedom to sleep, and become peaceful at-will 😜

I earned my freedom of choice to help even_others, if they are "willing" to dissolve their mini_ karma.

Big ones, "not my job" says my limitations/my_karma, right now👍

Freely yours,

(psn, 3o dec, 2024)

Tail piece 

Imagine my shocking_surprise, when I discovered that "begging for their food was not a helplessness,  but a choice, for ancient mendicants of Bharath mahan 😳 ( I tried a combo of 2 mudras plus 1 kriya, taking 4 hours, and did it 3 times a day. Means? 12 hours a day. The "need" for conventional uploading of edible food via mouth, got OBVIATED 🙏😳😳😳. "Oops, " I told myself,"it means man can go without food for any long. Not even hunger, forget starvation, ...is going to nag him😜... that explains, the "how" of deep hibernation of 6 months by ancient ascetics was possible, transcending biological limitatins/a _karma too!😜)

Knowing self

 A beautiful question came up from one of my acquaintances. 

Who the person is,      doesn't matter.

The mind, that COULD-COME-UP,  to asking such-a-question is.....for me..... is precious.....a reward in itself🙏

Question :"Having known me via my thoughts only could you please tell me how wide is the knotty circle of karma around me ? …. Desires have dripped for material things but emotional attachment and seeking comfort in it are still there and that makes me wonder did I really manage to break free even one knot or not."

( i don't even have to mention the reference of a blog of mine, which persuaded the "rise" of this question.)

My response:

The "genuineNess" of this question
Versus
the healthy traditional practice followed by 2 prominent plus very ancient experts.

I have been bogged down by these two----genuine quest and established practice( for very strong reasons).

While that_genuineness persuades me with all its strength to disclose( whatever little i know, assuming that my knowing in this aspect is true/correct/flawless) .....the strong reasons( which i delved into, after great labor and steadfastness) for non-disclosure  dissuades me.

I received help from a teacher( who is DAMN GOOD at having "dealt" with very-similar situations) when I pondered over "how he dealt with-me, when .....my_genuineness was mine, and hence strong too.....and the question was also mine (and therefore, well thought out too😜).

2 occasions,  when I asked him. First one was in 1992 too primitive, when I look at the second one, today.
Second one was a tougher one, deep enough to constitute_itself into a kind_of litmus test for any wise plus spiritually evolved being. The reply is too sacred, and so, I shall merely mention here, only the question 🙏 "why is it that ....when I think of asking you a question, the urge to ask disappears as soon as I present myself before you to ask?"( this question had replaced the "set of other questions" singularly😜🤣🤣🤣

"I want to ask you something" preceded this question, and he generously offered "yes! Please ask"

Via thoughts....
Knowing (somebody)this way, is far_more comprehensive than the results of a pair of youngsters(lovers) claiming "we knew each other pretty well, and therefore decided to unite for life, not waiting for any sanction from our parents or anybody"( then, why the hell do majority of your_type of pairs end up quarreling and racing towards a divorce? 🤣🤔🤔🤔.... they "realise" that their tools  to know or  and yardsticks measure that knowing well fell short miserably 😜😰😰😰)

ख़ैर,
Knowing the "mind" is proportional to knowing the past_karmic_residue of any person. This knowing( as you wonderfully picked it up) differs from an independent observer to the observed.  Standing on  the edge of a wheel spinning fast, affords very little scope or clarity, compared to standing on the hub. Standing a little-away from the wheel affords "needed" clarity.

It is here that....meditative-practices come handy. 🙂
Hub of the mind is itself tough to reach. Standing just beside the mind is great fortune, and a meditative-state🙏

Coming to our-question. "How wide is the knotty circle around me?"
How tightly is each knot? ( more pertinent, isn't it? ).

Large balls of several knots are easier to untie perhaps, when a single knot, with a fragile loosely spun cotton thread, presents a problem like "is it better to cut it? The knot is wet, making it near-impossible to hold the entire thread firmly😳... strands of cotton get pulled out when I try to grip one thread and pull it gently😭"

So,
Let the knots or size of  knotty ball/s, tightness of knots be any thing. Working at each knot is in our hands. Intensity of eagerness to untie it decides the speed of untying. The "range of speed" is between a moment and several lifetimes.

Trust and trust alone decides, as to "how much of external help are we going to allow to that helper?"

A "human" birth is rare and precious----- was the time tested traditional belief🙏.
An opportunity to use "choice"(which is unavailable to unborn minds or other life_forms into which somebody/being gets-born🙏.

If properly utilized, this choice can become our best+reliable guide to "show"us  what needs-to-be known🙏

Unknowingly yours,

psn(29 Dec., 2024)

Spiritual energy

 Quite a subtle thing to grasp.

Something like, the "bulb" of a torchlight cannot hope to see-by-itself, the brand name of batteries sitting inside its belly. A torch made of transparent material can, we may argue🙏... then, I am forced to counter-argue, quoting about the power inside the batteries, which empowers that bulb to see every object around, except its own intangible "source-of-power". Help the bulb, unscrewing it from its seat and bring it out to see, the "light" is gone now, to see....

If, we can look at everything around as energy ( different forms),

We can find scope to look-at thoughts too as energy.

A 10 horsepower engine can "drive" that vehicle, using complex power transmission mechanism. Same car can be blown away by a powerful stormy wind, or a tsunami wave. So, it is just a question of concentrating plus giving direction to energies. 🙂

Thought energies are quite tough to get bundled up ( very unstable, loose etc😜) and still tougher it is, to "give" it a direction😳

If somebody can take up the task of undergoing rigid penances,  austerity etc, then that person wouldn't be "helpless" against a negative force ( rishi-curses taking shape, whereas, we-commoners, shrieking vocally our curses, and our anguish going 'unheard' by mother 'nature' ..... can it not be due to  the difference in enormity of "thought energy"?  Those rishis, were required to re-work, to rebuild those energies lost in curses)

We come across rare instances, where a person "stares" a little longer at a table-spoon and it "moves" a bit, or....at least shivers slightly😜... ( only fictional stories show the spoon "bending" at its narrowest neck 🤣🙏)

Nature doesn't respond to the way we-like to think-of-it. It merely adheres to "cosmic-laws".  The ancient name is sanatana dharma. The "utility" of this sanatana dharma is to progress towards ultimate liberation, whereby, we are released from the innumerable tightly wound knots of unfulfilled desires and negative acts of our-past .....requiring newer births for each set of karmic-bundles! 🤣

Whilst stuck inside an air-tight knot ( of a karmic bundle), that mind is busy trying to untie/fulfil its own mess.  A choice is there, to loosen up a "little" within that tiny available space, by squeezing the tiny desires a "microscopic-bit" in size... and then use that freedom-of-space, to untie small knots nearby. 
We can start our journey, only from where we are right now.... not where we "like to be" ...  we might "like to stand outside our knotty bundle of karma and untie it from outermost circle first! Not possible, if I am stuck in its center. Probably a guru might help a little! He stands outside and can 'view the SIZE of it.  I am a tiny microbe in the tightest knot at the middle of that huge ball of karma, with no visibility about its outer circle. All I can do is, create a comfort-zone at the core, and imagine that "i am free now!". Sooner or later, I grow, in size, when the cravings for more-comforts spin around me, and the choking noose tightens😜 ...
These examples are only illustrative, and not exact. 

Energizing myself intensely, I can break the knots fast, or untie it "slowly"... a choice.

Energetically yours,

psn(28 dec 2024)

Thoughts

 

Inception

Movie

Fiction

Heard of it?

Quote
 The film stars Leonardo DiCaprio as a professional thief who steals information by infiltrating the subconscious of his targets. He is offered a chance to have his criminal history erased as payment for the implantation of another person's idea into a target's subconscious.
Unquote

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inception

Do we not find a striking-similarity in the story of the book "initiation"? ( Elisabeth Haich.....Google it)

😜🤣🙏🙏🙏

Ancient rishis are "said-to-have-been" adept at this technology.

Of course , hard to believe.

Futile to "force" somebody to believe, simply because,  beliefs don't work. Experience does.

Only our "intellect"( not the-mind) can say "let me see".
Let-me-see,   keeps the door open for a possibility to know, if-at-all something is worth knowing, really exists 😜

I had sufficient experience to support my acceptance.

The teacher quoted a credible evidence to help me open-my-doors, of "let me see". He said "a teenager girl standing at the  bus stop knows, that someone is staring at her, without needing to look back and see..... youthful boys indulge in staring at the girls from behind them, and that girl might "feel" a strange itch on her bare neck/back! The age is such, the stare is quite intense!"

Now, a coPassenger of mine in the spiritual program suggested (1992 or 1993, perhaps) to me "hey, let's try this thought_business! You send me a thought, and let's see,  if I can respond..... you are the better fellow, between us"
I thought of-him on a Sunday evening( holiday for both of us.  We were bank clerks).
In half an hour, he came to my home. We didn't exchange a single syllable.  He sat quiet for 30 minutes and said "I am going" . I nodded! At the gate, he turned back his head to add "let's not try this again. I was on my way elsewhere,  carrying gold ornaments, and by now, my relatives might have become tense at this delay!" ... I nodded-agreement.

This "type" of occurrences happen in a "freak" manner with many.  But the element of  repititiousness is indispensable for a scientific-mind to look at it as a postulate, then theorise it, and conceptualize it to coin it into a scientific law!🤣 . ( right now.....for me....it is a "yes! It works for me" kind of thing).

"Thoughts are still-physical, though too subtle" , advised my teacher. I accepted it from my experience 🙏

Thoughtfully yours,

psn(25 Dec., 2024)

Wisdom

 

Wisdom

Not me, mine, or from, by me etc

Just a brief story from my school days (6th standard).

In all my kiddish_ignorance( not innocence 🙏)
I asked my maths_teacher " teacher, superlative degrees should be used prudently, said our English teacher. So that better performances can be called "graded" as good, better, best! You already gave 100 maths for my 'all answers correct, in my exam answer paper?... what, if I improve my handwriting, legibility etc?🤔"

"Fool," she said " first of all, only minimum legibility matters in maths-paper. Not handwriting etc.  7 and 1 shouldn't look alike... but, when you ask like this ( here, that_wisdom .....I cherish, in my memory).... superlative degrees are not really confined to one aspect/manner of appreciation, if the admirer is wise.    i can add a 'good/very good/very-very good/etc' to that 100 marks! Don't bother about my task of giving marks. That's my job..... yours is only about your-doing your-best😡"

I got a new concept 🙏
Multi-pronged ways of appreciation is possible, like a wide-spectrum of anti-biotics capsules😜... wrong diagnosis of a virus is taken care of👍👍🙏 ( let the patient suffer needless side-effects😭).

Gullibly yours,

psn(24 dec 2024)

How we attribute values

 

How we attribute values to some person, thing, place  or concepts, abstract  or not..... depends mostly on our own perception. Exceptions can be because of our trust in somebody else whose perception we trust.

I shall avoid adding my own theories to it, due to my lack of confidence in elaborating the subtleties involved in linking attributing_values with our perception.

Instead,  I shall quote an easy-to-grasp example, and leave the choice of perception about it to my readers 🙏

Example : we look at two similar images of a person .
Both the photographs are hanging on the wall, and belong to the same person and both are showing that person wearing a garland of flowers.
Only one difference 🙏
One photo is of the person himself wearing a garland.
In the other one, somebody has placed a garland on the photograph, and the person did not wear it while being photographed.

A small kid needs to be "told" about the difference between photograh of the person-wearing a garland, and the photograph of the person being garlanded 🙏
( we grown ups, know the difference,  due to convention).

Knowing a person, place, or thing, and knowing a concept, with in-depth perception, decides as to how much value we attribute to that .

Attributively yours,

psn(23 dec 2024)

Art appreciation

 I am incompetent to “speak” about “how to appreciate art.

Readers who are looking for that ( how to appreciate art) can save their time, by refusing to read any further 🙏

What has this ability to do with us? ( appreciating an art?). This is what I tried to look at!

I observed, when I looked at various peepals( desi slang for “people”).

I saw, I beheld, I observed, and then I perceived a few oddities.

1.Not everybody was alike, in appreciating a magnificent “view” of huge mountain range, suddenly in front of us, when we get down from a bus, halted briefly to cool its engine, at the top of a circuitous road climbing up.

2.Not all of them respond with equal measure of emotional expression to a musical concert ( especially those carnatic/ hindustani classical ones, where the vocalist keeps repeating the same line for too-long. A few become impatient within, enough to throw a facial-expression declaring “when is he going to stop this stupid-repetition, and get to the next line of the lyrics… 😡?”)

3)not all of my classmates managed to continue looking at a 4” tall carved statue at ajanta caves (1965 or so, my school days, as a kid. It was “ex-cursion” not just a-picNic trip! ). Only when that guide told us, “ 3 generations are said to have worked on this tiny statue. To reach its level of beauty” a few among them “tried” to turn back and decided to “invest” a couple of seconds-more!😜 to see “really? What's so great about it?” वाला look! 

4)despite being an outsider to a “gang(adda) of kids” elder by 3 years to me, I got “admitted” into them, only-when I remarked about the subtleties of a work of art ( hindi movies, and deeper diagnosis about the direction, dialogue delivery, camera angles, editing etc). Just 3 of them were very keen about the subtler aspects of art displayed in the “commercial” hit-movies. Those few were able to “appreciate” few talents in even-a-commercially FLOP-MOVIE like “Bhuvan Shome”  https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&opi=89978449&url=https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bhuvan_Shome&ved=2ahUKEwiy29Xwgr2KAxUcSmwGHY8sAaoQFnoECCAQAQ&sqi=2&usg=AOvVaw1MH-vEpSI_TKGHMyHCFrU_  despite its national-awards! In fact “award movies” were not commercial-hits 😳😶😶😶 a glaringly exampull/example for me as “lessons to learn” in spirituality 😜😜😜

5)not all were similarly “moved” during a Yoga-class/program. The feedbacks were emotionally touching from a few only. The people who managed to pursue, needed a further fine-tuning in me, to “learn” about the “why? What inspired/motivated/persuaded them to intensify their practices? “ well, it was my journey of next 7 years of hyper-active volunteering to provide back-up-support to freshers, aggregating some 5000 people spread over 8 to 10 years. Obviously,  I did collect “gems” of learning, when my failure rate was 99.97% in motivating a “spiritual pursuit” sustainably🙏🙏🙏

My observation : art appreciation might need some-kind of emotional sensitivity in a human being! ( a computer does not “sense” an added device like a mouse, pen-drive, printer etc, attached to it. Here, the sensitivity is restricted to ONLY a logical compatibility in its binary programming 🙏. A.I. robots can “sense” logic well, not an emotion.  If a “canvas” looks like a random spray of different colour-paints, even humans who are logically-talented might say “spoiled with spray of colors. Where is the painting in it called “art”?”)

Art-appreciation courses ( even brief crash-courses, ) do not seem to take off, really…… despite several “start ups” sprouting in Bharat mahan,  during the last decade! Probably, emotional sensitivity needs to be nurtured, nourished and taught STRUCTURALLY in our modern educaShun/education imparting buildings 😰🙏

Shall I display my audacity here( in quoting  a example?)?  Bharat is known as a spiritual destination.  “Fine-arts”, ….  counting  64 of them as “lalit kalaa) are also unique to  Bharat 😜.

Connection?   A demonstrable example! Penny-counting and miserly merchant burst-into a legendary composer of devotional music, all of a sudden, when spirituality dawned into him, during a torrential downpour on a mountain top,  in the darkness of midnight ( so goes the story) fine arts peaked, when spirituality spewed its molten lava of a sleeping Volcano in him, suddenly….🤣… melting the logical-limitations of miserable-miserliness in him till first half of his lifetime. ( apologies for quoting such an example 😅 🙏… sage PURANDARA daasaa. His songs are a material for life-time worth research into one part of desi music. Or, just sing them as a bhajan and soak in its spiritual-contents … your choice😜)

Artistically challenged,  yours,

psm(23 dec 2024)

Learning from rituals of irreligious-Hinduism

 Learning from rituals of irreligious-Hinduism

Highest possible learning for humans is related to spirit-within, and the process is spirituality.

The purpose is quite abstract, by its definition.  Yet, this is the-only-purpose which keeps chasing us. The goal is ultimate liberation. And striving 'towards' the goal is the purpose of learning spirituality.

Rituals form the tools of learning. They are quite comprehensive, and complete in itself. These rituals, fine-tuned over thousands of years, have managed to become quite inclusive enough, to accommodate all-possible kinds of human minds. It is the mind, that determines how we navigate through our lives. Right kind of mind steers us clear of all possible hurdles on our way. Hurdles created by the situation & also those by ourselves! 

Therefore, it is obvious that the rituals get customized over years to suit unique minds, whether these minds are able to remain individualistic, or whether they 'seek' perpetually,  some kind of polarization towards other like-minded humans.

Typically, the rituals classified into 2 major types, cater to polarized mindsets known as gruhasthas, and the other, to cater those minds which insist on retaining their individuality, the non-gruhasthas, popularly  known by several names like sadhaka/ascetic, sanyas/mendicants, brahmacharya/truth_seekers.....etc.

There are two ways of understanding the rituals, meant for everybody.

One, the "how & when" of adhering/complying to these rituals. 

Two, the "why" of these rituals.

Why-of-the rituals helps us to internalize the persuasion,  motivation and the inspiration to be able to hold-on to rituals fastidious. But the grasp of the "why" needed a high_quality of intellect, un-obstructed by the mind. External sources of learning the "why" are situation-dependant. Situation,  includes an intellectual called a Guru.

Whereas, the "how & when" of following a ritual, leans on experience,  for the grasp of "why".  Intensity of carrying out these rituals, are inversely proportional to the time required for that "experience " to dawn in the seeker of "why".  

As a very typical example, the path requiring utmost intensity happens to be the "bhakti/devotee" route. The other two paths are action oriented, and dissolution of past oriented, known as kriya & karma, which are easier options for lesser resolute minds.

The path of "why" necessitates an intellectually evolved being as a prerequisite.  Accordingly the popular name of this parth is called gyana/knowledge oriented.

Today's mind on an average, needs an admixture of all these for, in order to reduce the chances of getting swayed from the "goal" of ultimate liberation.

The modern mind hastens to insist on understanding the "why" of any ritual, before accepting to "follow" any ritual.  Logical tools of providing redundant comforts for a normal living, ( known as technological advancement----reaching as far as even-outsourcing of human-intelligence to an A.I. robot) has.....created a situation where, the seekers of "why" of the rituals deem it redundant to possess the intellectual skills needed to grasp the why! Logical minds refuse to adhere to following any ritual, using that "how & when" of it in exclusivity of knowing the "why" of rituals!

The root of all these "created-complications" & needless-confusions is.....trust-deficiency in we-humans. And this trust deficiency is increasing in both dimensions----qualitatively & quantitatively.  Logic has been incrementally failing to replace this deteriorating trust, due to its inherent limitations! Logic, cannot cross over its inherent limitations. Trust, as a quality is unavailable to logical-evaluation. And therefore,  whatever eludes an evaluation,  escapes the ability for trustworthiness.

Testily yours,

psn(20 dec 2024)

Post script humor

Forest king tells me " idiot.... why do you sweep the floor and brush your teeth daily? I don't do either👍"

Now, I seriously look at these 2 ( sweeping, brushing...) a bit seriously!  Hitherto ...I was doing it ritualistically.

When my grasp deepened a bit,

I do flossing also, when required, after brushing.

I do swiping also, when required,  after sweeping the floor ( of course Lion has a huge forest, as its home---sweeping is impractical)

Side benefits of Breath Awareness

 See,

Breath awareness by itself,

( initially) might seem like an interruption to our daily routine.

 Only till we are adept, at effortless breath-awareness.  Just as, a beginner "needs" his total-focus on road, steering wheel,    anxious-focus on right foot to alternate between brake & accelerator... etc.... once it becomes an instinctive muscle-memory,  that car-driver "finds" his ability to focus becoming "better" on any-conversation with any other passenger😜...  very few "manage" to notice this incremental focus between their-own driving moments and potato-couch moments🤣🤣🤣... mind "looks out" for an opporChutney to run far-away from where we are parking our-body,😰.

A teacher repeats often "hey! Where are you? Be here, in the class"... if she-too were CONSCIOUS of the _implications_ of what she is saying in 'be here' .....at least she could have evolved over years.  Few kids use biting of their finger nails, rolling the edge of a paper, clothing, collar etc, just to 'be-here'.  If a movie is 'too-gripping', few-in-audience start biting-nails, fudging with clothing etc....just to arrest/rivet their minds focus into the movie😳...

Why not learn to do it "relaxed"???? ( spiritual bijness prospers inside, with breath awareness 🙏)!!!

Mere lip-chanting of mantras/slokas, etc didn't help a poojari in a temple,      despite his PROXIMITY with Godji🤣      isn't it?

Aware, yours,

psn(19 dec 2024)

Get the-hell out of my way!

 Get lost you..... *&^%$#@.....

Getting lost ( without losing myself) 🙏😰

Needs wisdom ( unlike our pre-loaded & embedded softwares like smartness, cunningness, cleverness, etc)

Wisdom takes time ( unless we are gifted with fearlessness at-birth. Birth-qualities are past_dependent---karma)

If, somebody isn't really keen about the nonperishable stuff inside him, I have no business to meddle with his time🙏.... so, I lookout for unspoken words like "i am busy , not my priority right now, can be more-practical?... some other time please? (Etc)" to my communication ( I don't converse hollow, for the sake of socially-being acceptable)

Gestures speak louder, "get the hell out of my way".

I had-to-learn to quieten myself, without compromising on 1)my evolvement, 2)effectively communicating, like the unearthly-beings 3)becoming a demonstrable examples 4)remaining available still...to those who are carrying a potential to evolve, though-unawares 😜 5)etc( long list).

Alone on a desert, a tool ( 2 mudras, and a kriya can help me survive without food, sleep or oxygen to breathe----but that wouldn't be necessary this time🙏. Bharat mahan hai👍 it can still accommodate spiritual-freaks today, without coming in the way of others! Aghoris are HUGE evidence).

Blogs are quite impersonal. 

I needn't be totally quiet. And a few can reach blogs, even after I am dust.

Dynamic state of non-doing, helped my pursuit. It is a kind of meditation.  With practice, its practice gets dropped off! 😜. One turns meditative!

Not that I wasn't warned. I needed time to grow into that bare-mimum wisdom needed to grasp the advise in 110th verse of 2nd chapter by Manu, in his smriti .....to wait for solicitation to blabber🙏.

Now, I am becoming better and better at "getting lost"( not being in the way of others.  I don't EXIST,  anymore,  in their experience 🙏).

But I am able to maintain my physical health despite age-related disabilities ( I am labeled as "good at being a domestic servant ". A good handyman,  a good errandboy,  joker, sweeper, washerman/laundered, gardner, etc etc... I do better, at whatever I keep doing often! Even as a bank clerk, I was innovative for 3 decades. Mind works for me, not the other way, MOSTLY. I ain't infallible 😜).

Old age homes are living monuments for evidencing this "get the-hell out of my way" shrieks from younger people 🙏. ( I merely tried to get-lost gracefully, sophisticated-way, and imperceptibly. 

Those among whom I obliged by getting out-of-their-way,  might read this accidentally, can try to find a way to pardon me, for something inexcusable I did unto them🙏.

Out of the way, yours,

psn (17th Dec 2024)

Eating edible stuff raw, uncooked

 Somebody sent me an image of 5 different kinds of edible leaves 

and asked "can these be eaten raw?"( the idea was to maximize its nutrition value 🙂)

My reply

Quote

See,

Eating anything "raw" depends on the EATER, not the leaves 😜

Humans, as eaters.....have a "choice"..... about......how well to "tame" the stomach walls, which secretes different types of digestive juices! ( as an example, i happened to eat 36 small sized bananas, after a heavy hosted-lunch at office .... a lady grumbled a whole kula/bunch of banana going waste, and I retorted "just count....I can do something about that wastage". She counted. Her admiration was "jaw dropped " countenance,  not verbal.  I didn't feel any discomfort later🙏... dec 2000, it was......  VRS send off party.)

Pakwatha.... ripeness.... is the key word.

Is this edible ripe enough for me? To eat? ( animals have a uniform pattern. Goats omit "aadalodagam ila"...."ആട് thoda ഇല"..  humans, differ widely.  I can eat "raw" leaves, not all-those around me🙏)

So,

Test it in "safe quantities"..... increment it very gradually! Let stomach "decide", not the doctor. 

Of course, "known to be poisonous " leaves, use the experience of elders/wise_ancients. Whereas, edible leaves, use own experimentation 🙏.

I suggest "minimal steaming"( a minimal compromise with its dilution-of-value.... again, Pakwatha is the "key"----- ripe enough for me)

Exhaustive reply should help to decide on all edibles, comprehensively 🙏

Edibly yours,

PSN ( 17 Dec 2024)

Post script:

As a negative exampull.....

Toor-dal ( pigeon pea) gets mashed in pressure cooker ( high pressure & higher temperature ), but doesn't ripen-enough to digest( pakwathaa,  पकना), and

therefore,  causes gas-trabal/trouble.

Wood stove is boringly-painfully-slow, and dal doesn't  break-down. We mash it forcibly, for taste, gravy, etc. But highly ripened, with maximum-possible retention of nutrients. No side-effects like "gas"😜 ( test it ONCE on lowest flame, small quantity,  open vessel cooking, then agree🙏)

Teaching myself

 Not quite easy....😰

"After college, what?" Was the "topic" among my classmates, during the end of our degree course at college.

All of them dived into "good job"....etc.

Except me.

I was trapped into "who will teach me, hereafter?"

I ended up into how to do this  "teaching myself!" ( no more of outsourcing of teaching).

I had to look at what to learn, how to learn, and then how to teach-it to myself!  Self-learning didn't seem to suffice. The process of "teaching" seemed more comprehensive, when I saw that  teachers taught me and my learning was better.

And thus, started the "game" of asking-myself, those silly-questions.

The "question" replaced the teachers-way of giving homework, tests, grades and marks. 

I started deepening the questions .

Why do we omit grasp of concepts when we come across definitions of certain things, abstract or otherwise? 

Why does certain ailments like jaundice, varicose veins etc need a live-herbal medicines of Ayurveda, when allopathic medicines are unavailable at all? 

Why do people converse without any communication ( texting or chatting), when the basic purpose was supposed to be of some-kind-of value-addition during any verbal-interaction?

Spiritual arena was mostly "figure it out by yourself" basis, when the Guru seldom "taught" like at the school. He merely describes "how a spiritual practice is done?". Rest is a discovery process😭. We have to evolve,  in spirituality!  No spoon-feeding. No copypasting.  No exams, evaluation,  marks etc. 

Yours, teacher & taught,

PSN (15 Dec 2024)

My incompatibility

 Why I am  incompatible with most ones around me?

As a part of my self-inspection(a bit different from traditional "introspection ") as an ongoing process, I happened to look at the aspect of incompatibility of others, as a hurdle for inability to "maintain" their respective relationships( friends, aquaintants, relatives, whatever), with me. I am difficult to deal-with. I omit the exceptional few, who refuse to dump me😜. Those few shouldn't be discussed for sacred reasons.

I don't give in easily,( if I can help it😰)
to
1)emotional blackmail
2)irrational reasoning( a comprehensive term to include both, logic and emotions, based on human values)
3)my irrational "desires" temptations, and the sorts(a list)
4)situational compulsions, where the situation warrants only a stupid compliance of illogical social customs not based on dharma ( especially stupid-adherence to even-sound-rules, where the purpose of rules is not facing any hazard)
5) long list ( generally based on my experiences with adherence to cosmic laws, popularly known as SanatanaDharma. I thank evolved beings for this clandestine blessings they showered on me)

Why i am so adamant about not trying to compromise? I look at long term visions of my "being" rather than this temporary life span😜🙏

I trust in nature to nudge me when I fail ( obviously,  no human frame is ever infallible😭). Nature does verbalize, at times, through humans, and I attempt to evaluate the verbal forms using the available intellect, by politely requesting the mind "please listen positively, and then decide upon compliance 👍". Mind quietens, mostly!

I still am, yours,

psn(9 Dec 2024)