Discovery of the self

Defence preparedness...!!

It is not available as yet, when it comes to our internal stupidities...

The way we 'elect' our decision makers is ample evidence of both, our stupidity in abundance and the abundant-lack of defence preparedness about it! (A very large part of needless loss of life owes to stupidity of decision makers, when we look at Indo-china war of 1962)...

When the Patton Tank famed for its bullet-proof body, got defeated, the soldiers got their due share of appreciation (maybe in a wholesale-deal), but the people who innovated the technology in a record time, and made this 'conquest' possible remain unnoticed, not just un-sung!.. Nothing prevented us from remembering them, applauding them, compensating them with possible-token-benefits... But the decision makers happened to patronise 'stupidity' which they so abundantly represent, of the voters, by the voters, and for the voters! Evidence of this is to be deduced from the speed with which the display of these 'tanks' was abruptly withdrawn! The victim's body can carry bits/particles of the weapon of murder ... (this is the forensic-science-prescribed theory).. The victim, the tank, when started receiving too much attention from not-so-casual looking admirers, the stupidity got discovered! Very much like the spiritual tools, the 'head' of the propellant needed a material that can resist a deflection and deformity from the material it intends to penetrate.. Mind deflects most of the primitive spiritual tools! The basic concept being kept in tact, the Master devices newer and newer materials to resolve this deflection/deformity weapon of the mind!...

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The granny gave an unsought-for explanation!..

“He likes to read only news papers” she said, 'and not even toys interest him so much' she added (that was in case I am not so-much-impressed with her declaratory first-half..!!)

'Yes I can see' , I responded.... and added, 'that way, two things become obvious!.. He is so sure of what he 'knows-now'... and secondly, you do not have to bother about disposing old or even fresh newspapers (wait until it dawns on him, that distinction... I told myself!).. nor do you need a paper shredder while he is around'... (that 'paper shredder' bit, she couldn't grasp so easily, but consoled herself, that it had more to do with disposal of paper rather than disposal of her 'judgement-about-that-baby'...!!)... And I continued my observation as if I was viewing discovery-channel, while the granny got busy pounding the betel nut (the betel nut was a 'bill not acceptable in its present form' by her tooth less craving-for-betel-leaves mouth!)... her composure seemed to say, 'Ah... you try to learn from the kid—an outsourced way—but me, ain't I the producer's producer of that kid?' (that was the only qualification-certificate she needed to carry around that place, to have things, her-way!)... Jai Ho!

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An elderly relative of mine, (related through my spouse), who had spent some 60 odd years, 'seeking' and was now so thorough with texts and scriptures, happened to stay overnight...

He insisted that we lay our beds nearby each other... It suited me well... It was the peak of my spiritual practices, and the 4th Saandhya-kaal, the meeting points held significant traditionally (two of them when day and night meet, and the other two when the day and the night peaks!),... that 4th saandhya-kaal was what I used to eagerly wait for, and his desire to have a 'sine-die chat' while the lights are not a problem, nor is the body's posture (lying down... he was a chronic and acute asthamatic!!!)... The chat was obviously matching the experience of mine, with theory of his-data-bank! He helped me to understand better about what was happening with me! (Almost like an automated search, experience-sensitive-search—not just word/case sensitive—and also assisted by a 'pdf-file reader' with an audio-video enabled monitor! Focus was effortless! Just listening with eyes closed, and watching one's breath! The very variation in the tone revealed the level of focus I had to adjust, while handling its slider within me! An experience within experience!

Surprise awaited me the next morning! He chose to miss the usual tablets, and that puff-inhaler, to wait for its early symptoms, which announces the choice of intensity of the assortment of medicines he carried in a large plastic box (light weight, the plastic container!)... I looked puzzled, and he seemed to await for that puzzled expression to make the “best of his observations ever!” (health-wise, it also turned out to be the most precious of his observations.. his health..)...

He said, “At least during the past two decades, I never slept so well...!” (and then he proceeded to explain, as to what constitutes a 'good sleep'... starting with dream-free sleep, enhanced rejuvenation of cells, restoration of nervous strength, drop in metabolic activity, etc... all this was from his 'well-read-memory' while the conclusions were based on experience of drop in symptoms of his ailment! He drew a deep breath, and said, 'See! It is so effortless right now!'...

He allowed the observations to sink-in-me, for a while and then asked the difficult question.. difficult to answer, not to understand the question itself.. “what did you do?”...

I went blank! He was very good at listening (even the 'blank'... He had attended several of lectures by eminent speakers like Shri JK-ji, ... silent speaker like Shri RamanaMaharishi, and the tough speaker like Shri Chandasekara Saraswathi (the only one of the few pontiffs, who are 'said-to-have-seen-it'!).. and others of the same breed!...

So, he explained further.. “I was looking at myself, my physiology, the things that I ate recently, the rate of medicines-intake till last night, the anticipated after effects to be expected, not disregarding the rate of travel during the past week, etc... and ruled out the positive effects of all these, while the negative effects had-to-bear-fruits!... By the process of Neti-neti... all the pointers seem to be directed towards you!” It almost felt like a public prosecutor effortlessly handling an open-and-shut case, just producing evidences, and 'showing' that arguments seem redundant!

“...Maybe 'through-me'....” was all that I could manage to offer as a counter-defensive! (Our law provides for insanity as an alibi, when all else fails!).... It worked!!! He did not choose to delve any further...

But I was left with a puzzle! That..... initiated a unique kind of self-search, and led to a distinct style of self-discovery! It served a unique purpose... it gave amazing insights of wonderful kinds! It 'educated' me on possibilities which are intangible to senses/sensory levels of perception.. it revealed to me that astrological studies are 'also' meant to tell us how to turn negative factors in our favour!.. It revealed to be, why certain people become unavailable to certain kinds of negative energies, while yet another set of similar people insulate others too (maybe consciously or otherwise... the uninsulated electric wire 'shocks' and electrician and a layperson alike, when contacted... the wire itself is innocent to the extent that it does not carry a fuse wire somewhere nearby it, to enable itself to short-circuit the energy it permeates!)...

It was only during our next meeting that I could manage to show my reverence to that elder, loading every bit of gratitude that I could gather out of me!

The next mission was to look at that tiny shrub we know as 'touch-me-not'...!!! And mercifully, it was in abundance in the land which 'naturally' patronises tantric sciences too.. We know that land also as 'God's own country'!... Certain places create a very congenial ambiance there for the 'process' of discovery of self (its potentials!)...

And so, I discovered that the baby who tears up the newspaper is just in a great hurry... We as adults, need not tamper the evidence always, and mutilate ourselves, in so many ways, further messing up our body, mind, and our future too, in the very process! (If we allow, a guide can step in... otherwise, we are the owners of the choice, always,... anyways!).

Psn (19th January, 2014)