“His anger his quite
bad, when(ever) he is at it”... that is all they say about
somebody, who is 'otherwise' a very lovable person!
What they are missing is,
while... the anger-spells constitute only about 6% of his waking
hours, or 4.5% of his total hours (these percentages are only for the
purpose of dramatization of the comment, and have no bearing on any
'research oriented' statistical findings of mine... but yes... we
can visualise, somebody getting angry once in a day, manifesting it
for some 5 minutes, and the 'lava' spread out and cools only within
the next 40 minutes or so!)... the missing-to-take notice of (and
adequately appreciating it), is that this same person is so peaceful
for the bulk of the 95% of the time (I allow a probability of 1% of
time for that rare-wonder-element!)...
Maybe, the poor fellow
doesn't manage to handle that peaceful-ness into a pervasive manner,
while others around pass by, as if they are just passing by the cage
of a hippopotamus in a zoo (it doesn't react at all.. so how long to
stare at it?)...
Some evolved beings when
they are around, even their calmness, peace is so imposing ... like
we suddenly confront a huge 'Himalayas' into its face! Fortunate
ones feel this peace of that evolved being ... being pervading too,
into oneself ...
Most of us 'carry' a
potential to emote in a few varieties of ways... Some are 'deaf' to
music... and all that they manage is.... like that joke of
Mulla-Nasruddin, who replied to a query about his tears, at a classical
concert.. The query was in two instalments: “Arey Mulla, aap, aur
yahan?” (You here, at a concert?), to which he merely winked...
and the next query, “Aap ke aankhon mei aansoo?” (You in tears?..
Music was so 'moving'?), and he replied: “Yes!!! I recognised it
so soon... Just a couple of days ago, when the scape-goat-for-meat
was separated from its herd, it could 'sense' that it would soon be
beheaded, and it make 'exactly' the same kind of
'long-note-bellowing'... mei..ae..ae... ae... etc... and this
vocal musician must have sensed his end too, out of that acute and
chronic pain in his abdomen” ... Trying to even feign emotions,
of which we do not have a potential, can land us in trouble!
Even kids, no sooner they
touch the age of 2 or 3, try to specialise into an emotion, that
seems to work for them, with the elders around! Maybe it is whining,
crying, long-faced-grim 'hangout'.. etc.. ('the crying-baby gets
the feeding..'... is the popular adage... but why? We respond to
only certain 'intense-emotions' of others? Can't we try to respond to
a very peaceful person, with the very same 'dynamic-yet-silent'
calmness? If not trying to nag him with a 'thank you for being
so-quiet'!)..
Our perceptions adapt
itself, to the emotional 'specialisations' that we try to get
engrooved into, (maybe inadvertently too), and then... it becomes a
kind of embedded-design, into the very way of our being.. and we
now struggle to even observe something as silly as mere
breath-watching! Our emotional orientations, having specialised into
some variety/ies.. tend to polarise us towards only
that-kind-of-perceptions... hankering (for pampering ourselves),
only into such inputs... An easy identification is perhaps, when we
discover our own 'attention-span' to be repulsive towards something
that we are 'logically-convinced' to be for our own-good! (That
swallowing of a vitamin pill, for example feels cumbersome, and we
put it off for the next day... 'already too late for bus' etc!)...
If watching one's own
breath feels too cumbersome... why not watch that of others,.. at
least when they just-finished with anger/running/tension/etc... the
breath pattern is so exciting, when we see that 'heaving' instead of
that nose, just taking in noiselessly, motionlessly.. the
free-air-around! (and we even ask.. 'why are you fretting and
fuming?').. Singers learn to handle that 'breathing-in' to be a
little-noiseless, when the microphone is too sensitive... but there
again that 'self-awareness' is diluted when the focus of emotion is
oriented to beget a 'wah-wah' from listeners of that recording!
What, if we allow the
situation to decide, what kind of an emotion is to be invoked, and
then we activate that 'software' to read that 'situation' (like an
intelligent computer, or a smart-phone senses the data and decides
whether to invoke a spread-sheet, a word-processor, or just that
'unknown-data' response!)... I wonder!
(Long ago, a teacher said,
“You can be a Yogi in two ways... like a flower, or even like a
stone”... It took quite a long time to convince myself that stones
do emote! It is just that we are 'stone-deaf' usually, to stones!)
In-variably-yours,
psn(3rd November, 2014)
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