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Friday, September 13, 2013

Confusing Addictions!

Please!
It is not about 'confusion' at all....
It is about addictions...
And only then, about the confusion too, that we try to 'get-addicted' to!

Getting into groove.. is a sacred concept, when we allow it to retain its sanctity...
Once we get engrooved, if we seek to 'sleep' on the upper berth, drawing comfort from the 'thought' that this 'groovy-train' is going to take us 'all-by-itself' to our destination... no matter even if we sleep beyond 'our satation' (station)... then we get stationed into yet another addiction! Nothing more!

I read 'good-spiritual-blogs'... d-a-i-l-y... (“I got into the right groove”... now it is the job of those stupid blogs to do something... I cannot be bogged down into 'maintaining-awareness' about it.. that is the 'stand' taken while deciding to sleep on the upper berth of the spiritual train... 'good-masters' is that upper-cozy-berth! Now, even that TTE is a dis-turbance... 'turbulance-like'! Only until he perhaps announces, 'saab aap galat tarrain mei chad gaye ho!' Wrong train? “Oh! I forgot, both the trains meet at either side of this stupid plaform at this station... at the same time!... train is right... only the direction is wrong... No problem! Next birth.. err... next berth... oh! Kan-fused!”


I can only wish... but no stature to ask... Mr.Krishna tried his best to first announce in the preamble of each chapter, or at least at its end.. what it was supposed to 'contain'... People expected each verse to 'convey' (while the verse can only contain)... the truth!
(How can I find fault?... Already it is 18 chapters long... listening to a lecture so long, just standing, donning that 'heavy-metallic-armour' is no joke!... If He were to convey what it contains, it might easily require 18 lakh-crores of 'something' (See, I am even addicted to talking in terms of 'scam-scores'... lakh crores... not just 'karod', corrodes... etc..!... Companies need to run! Big stake... so no chances.. 'explanatory notes are going to 'convey'... what the legal text is 'only allowed to contain' in its 'Notice for AGM'.... not really practical on a war-field, with a Gita-text!... Recently, I saw and even 'felt' the pain! It was the momentous-moment!... The bride awaits... the groom just 'waits'... the priest has to lead the chants... the groom will just manage to groom-past what he manages to hear..(like we run the comb to groom the hair)... and the tie the knot! But 'addiction' took over! This priest-ji had recently decided to get 'en-grooved' into restoring the past glory of Hindu culture! No better occasion he said (he decides, he is law-unto-himself, on priestly-matters!), no better occasion, he said to himself, 'Everybody HAS to look at me.. I am the Zubin-Mehta for once, here..' and thus thinking, he paused to give a lecture about the sanctity of the knot! Nobody dare 'cross' him... (even other wise, others are able to see the bottom of it... only that the “it” here is the horde of photo-insensitive-team, the video, still people who 'covered' literally too, the whole event !)... But there is a 'mike' who does the job.. So the herd is 'aebal-to-heard' through loudly-espeekar... ! (Those who are not-unable-to-heard-due-to-because-of-since-they-are-unable-to-hear-even.... deaf... are perhaps the only fortunate ones!)... The sermon caught up...!
It so happened, this bride is 'well-built'... might be 80+ (metric-system).. and the dad, on whose laps she is ritualistically supposed to be parked, is a frail old man, manages to hold on to that shaky folding-chair (photo-logistics... the camera man decided the least-visible-equipment)... But one good thing... it is now beyond the dad to shake her off that easily... she is 'engrooved' into awaiting, and the body is just parked like the vacant bogies on a railway siding! )... As if my prayer on behalf of that en-burdened dad got 'heard', somebody whistled... shrill note it was... the priest saar diplomatically melted into a closing chant which rhymes with an end not of 'Jai'.. and the knotty-knot happened soon!

We get 'addicted' to being jostled into crowds each day!... Somebody tried to 'addict-fy' even the resilience of Mumbaikars, when life-happened-as-usual, the next day after a blast, and a few of them revolted!.... (I remember, I asked a commuter of Mumbai local train, 'How do you manage this travel in such a crowded train every day?' ... He smiled philosophically, and said, 'Aadat ho jaata hai .. sab-kuch'... No scope for me to talk about the 'subtle' magic of Maya-Madam, where addiction comes camouflaged, and he is 'engrooved' for ages to come, to allow Maya-Madam, to take up more important things! Now that we are addicted to scam-news... exploitation-news... and mega-addictions.. Maya madam has submitted an application for a long-vacation-leave from her 24 X 7 duties... This time she did not even suggest a 'reliever-substitute'... Addiction is the automated robotic-intelligence-software instead!


( I am perhaps relevant... only as long as I wear 'confusion'... when it is worn too often, and then gets worn off, I too get weary, and then it is time to get engrooved else where!... confusion, evades addiction... so I try to guess... even in movies, the hero's intoxicant-effect seems to evaporate when 'confusion' confronts him!)

Addictively yours,

psn (13th September, 2013)

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