Bhishma is perhaps holding
a record about that!
....
The first time, when I
heard the great epic of Mahabharata, I was an idiotic and ignorant
kid... so that childhood 'innocence' was in 'good-stead' with me....
It is so obvious, when the
first idea that stuck to me, when I was told that Bhishma had been
given the chance to choose his death... was... “Hey, he is
destined to die ONLY BY SUICIDE!!!”!!!
...
(It took a whole spiritual
journey to inform me that any evolved person can choose to walk out
of the body at will, not needing to mutilate it in anyway, like the
kids smash the toys, when they do not find the 'switch-off-button'
and the noise of that toy irritates them! We adults treat this body
as 'OUR OWN TOY' perhaps, when we mishandle it, abuse it, each day,
to our own fanciful desire-fulfilling-uses!)...
...
This Bhishma ji (my
childhood way of looking at it)... demanded 'special quality water'
even when he had decided to quit shortly... it was the first ever
'mineral water' mined by a drilling master none-less-than Arjun-ji!!!
He asked for special pillows... creating records of sorts! ( I
did not muster enough courage to interrupt the story narrator... my
feeble great-grand-father's youngest brother, who never assumed any
knowledge other than 'factual reporting' like our junior-most
journalists!... he would simply turn to other side and slip off
into sleep at such nasty questions, about Bhishma's character!)_
...
Now, years later, I was
reminded of my child-hood-mind's those quixotic thoughts, when I saw
a unique query about “Best suicide”!
...
I would not really
'persuade' somebody to read about suicidal ways! Reading my blogs
might already constitute one such!... so, I just mention it as a
quote, below the closing 'psn'...
yours dyingly,
psn
The question:
Best ways to commit
suicide?
i was a high school
student and yesterday my result came...i got 80% and the marks are
okay with me, even good....but my parents are not satisfied...my dad
said to me all sorts of things which hurt me very bad...also i had
four close friends and i always there for them leaving everything
else behind...now the result came all of them have awesome marks
except me....though i love them a lot and don't wanna do it but i
keep resenting them...it hurts me....i am a disappointment to
everyone....i'm just tired of hurting my parents, my
friends.....whats the best way to commit suicide....????
Additional Details
first of all thanks for
your answer....it is really appreciated....but i don't know if i can
stand it anymore.....i just i feel so alone....i have lots of friends
and i'm mostly there for them...but when i need them none of them
takes my call....i grew amid much criticism n have a fragile self
esteem....i don't have any confidense in muself...n only thing i love
avout muself is my poetry but no one else like it...i have been
daydreaming since i was in 2nd standard and now i want to quit but
cant...my condition is so worse that i get surprised even at ordinary
things like sunrise n sunset cause live in my imaginary world....i
don't recognize my face my smile...i've lost myself....i love my
friends but at times i feel i'm too clingy and annoy them n that i'm
a burden....i'm a diaster at everything....i don't know why should i
live.....
My answer:
I appreciate the 'spirit
of competition there too!!!'
The seeking is .... about "Best ways!!!' not the "easy-ways" ...!!!
...
Well the 'Best' way is to keep doing 'our best in life' always, all-ways....
That way, the way to become best is already cleared... When we do our best, at all times, we improve at an incredible speed over a period of time!...
Nature adores those who strive to be best!... Nature will make our death too "THE BEST"...
Please see, when "best" people die, naturally,... people around always say... "HE LEFT US SO SOON, too soon... etc " (as if he had a hand in his death!... so the best suicide!)
Best ... wishes,
The seeking is .... about "Best ways!!!' not the "easy-ways" ...!!!
...
Well the 'Best' way is to keep doing 'our best in life' always, all-ways....
That way, the way to become best is already cleared... When we do our best, at all times, we improve at an incredible speed over a period of time!...
Nature adores those who strive to be best!... Nature will make our death too "THE BEST"...
Please see, when "best" people die, naturally,... people around always say... "HE LEFT US SO SOON, too soon... etc " (as if he had a hand in his death!... so the best suicide!)
Best ... wishes,
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