Integrating internal intellect (I.I.I.)

 Integrating internal intellect (I.I.I.)

no point elaborating a concept, which is ‘unlikely’ to find an appeal in today's typically lesser_attentive minds 🙏

A silly example: suppose in a dense forest, we are about to relieve ourselves ( nature's call, either urine or ‘shit’ 😓. Apologies for being indecent 🙏).... and suddenly we sense a threat_perception. We run, as fast as our legs can carry us away from that ‘threat’( snake, wolf, jackal, leopard, tiger, bear, lion …. anything of your choice 🙏)

After reaching a safe place, we “realise” that our cellular intelligence situated in the adjoining areas of the exit points (designed and structured to expel the waste matter accumulated) had cooperated/coordinated with a sense of inbuilt design of integrating with our intellect which normally ‘attempts’ to assist+communicate with our mind_only.

What if….

We strove to make this ‘integration’ possible, by CONSCIOUSLY practicing it, and making such coordinated functioning possible at_will, by choice?

Is it not going to perform much superior functions, to progressively undertake more and more complex tasks? 😜 Obviously, it ‘calls’ for a discipline, physical and mental, way beyond the ‘bare survival instincts and related needs’ 😜

Cellular intelligence driven by a very subtle networking ( desi lingua “pranic nadis”) does the role of seamlessly interwoven networking between uniquely abled + intelligently located organs of the human body, with its own uniquely embedded software of cellular intelligence, muscle memory etc, with a highly responsive alertness, 24/7. 😜

I can think of a very simple desi name which is used to refer to such evolved humans 🙏… “Mystics”.  Such Mystics enjoyed the patronage of tribals, far more than civilians, for the simple reason of proximity and familiarity 🙏. Mystics tend to linger in the forest. Tribals dwell there.  Mysticism used to be regarded as a sophisticated science and learning was restricted to highly disciplined aspirants.  

( As usual, my seemingly preposterous assumptions, are with a support of a tiny speck of stray, randomised experiences which occurred to me, spanning over a few decades, and emerging with an incremental_pattern over a long span. I never thought it ‘worthy’ of any mention, hitherto, simply because I had no way to ensure any ‘value-addition’ to a rare_few_readers, among the bulk of entertainment_seekers🙏.

Obviously, I did_take into account the ‘element of repetitiousness’ needed for a scientific temper/mind, though I have no way or means as_yet to demonstrate it, at will 😓🙏.   

All I can think of, with all the possible humility in me is to thank MayaMadom who allowed me an occasional glimpse at the popular saying “ खुदी को कर बुलंद इतना कि हर तहरीर से पहले खुदा खुद बंदे से पूछे बता तेरी रज़ा क्या है” (roughly translates as : by your self righteousness, attain such heights that the creator of thy destiny asks you “what is thy desire? for it is thine  that will prevail”.... We sync with the cosmic laws so_much that, we become a part of its functionality, in full awareness 😜) …. streaks of freak occurrences, constraining a bit of attention towards its pattern.  Freaks don't matter anyway 😜🙏

Anyway yours,

psn(30 jan 2026)

Dependence

 Dependance

Beautiful concept.

We depend on how well we depend on the better_dependable Values, to minimise our dependance on factors which are less dependable, for a meaningful life 🙂

If the foregoing is dependable for its reasoning, then, we now turn to examine the types of dependency we lean upon😜

Self-dependance

Interdependence 

Independance 

Non-dependance( freedom)

For irreligious Hinduism to work for us, it depends on how well we learn these 4

1.how to learn

2.how to deepen perception 

3.how to stabilize emotions 

4.how to use the sense of Discrimination 

( Unlike other ‘religions' where ‘belief' is enough and dependence is outsourced to ‘numbers’ only, Hinduism defined it's dependancy as “Dharmo rakhshati Rakshita”.  Try viewing dharma as Cosmic laws, and it may synchronise better 🙏)

When the very basis of our very_existence is owing to some dependance, of some kind, the question of total non_dependance is irrelevant.

This physical frame depends on external factors for its functioning.

Minimising this dependance, gives us a relatively greater freedom, from uncertainties of the availability needed for the resources needed out of such dependence. 

2 examples 

1.An extreme example:

Undependable example is mine😓 I happened to discover that a combo of 3 yogic practices, obviates our direct dependence on ‘food’. ( The same practice can obviate dependence on sleep and the air we breathe, but I didn't pursue the practice to reach+verify that level🙏. Historical evidence was enough for me. Certain ascetics, preferring to continue their present mortal frame, to dissolve their past karma, instead of learning to live afresh as a baby( LKG of life😜), devised this practice to go into deep states of hybernation( no food, sleep, or breath) for a minimum 6 months, and then come out of that state to continue ‘next’ phase of work.

I revived this practice, and could see that I didn't need any food intake for 8 days( first 2 days out of 10 days was needed to ‘reach’ the non_dependence🙏). What baffled me was the experiential discovery that I had never tried this practice during this lifetime, whereas, doing this practice at a fruitful level needed atleast 2 decades of prior training 😥

Today, the present day minds have come to conclude that ‘financial’ independence is the fulcrum of other dependencies of all kinds. Relationships started depending of financial dependancy😥. Emotional interdependence lost its value. What we call as morality, ethics, inclusiveness etc are totally dependent on our emotional values like truth, integrity, loyalty, love, patriotism etc🙏.  

Why doesn't ‘spirituality’ find any appeal in us? When do we decide to turn towards our core_dependency, our ‘spirit’?  Sage Patanjali needed just 2 words in Sanskrit to address this question when?😜.  The opening sentence of his monumental work (yoga sutras), with the 2 words ‘atah yoganushasanam’( translation: and now, the discipline of yoga)! A fellow who has finished all his ‘games’ over several life_times, and having thoroughly got convinced that nothing else worked, finds these 2 words perfectly relevant to him😂

Shall we look at how we depend on external factors in our lives today? 😜

Just for fun 🙏 ( please don't depend on my sincerity beyond this sentence 😓)

1)we vote for scam netas blindly, and depend on their honesty to make our lives easy!

2)we depend on memorizing/copying the school lessons without learning the concepts and expect our degrees to work effectively and efficiently at workplace 

3)we depend on outsourced agencies to substitute our parenting and expect our children to care & love us in our oldage.

4)we depend on gadgets to minimise the ‘use’ of our body and expect our body to maintain its ‘working conditions’ even after we age😜. 

5) we depend on borrowed wisdom, instead of borrowed experience and expect the borrowed wisdom to work in our lives😂 ( intellect is rarely invoked…. we almost forgot how to invoke our intellect, uninterfered by our negative emotions 🙏)

6) we depend on chemicals in man-made medicines and expect them to cure us, whereas they manage only to give us symptomatic relief or to suppress the pain_response needed to warn us of a malfunctioning in our body😥 

7) etc…. Like, WE DEPEND ON COPYPASTE AND FORWARDS, and expect a genuine response of true_affection from our recipients 🙂 ( We end up only  adding junk_data into the storage location in minds and gadgets of both of us. Zero value addition. 99% of such forwards are deleted when mobile handset shouts ‘no storage space ‘!)

Trust is an indispensable element of dependency.  The quality of trust we offer and receive, decides the quality of our life. ( USA decided to print “in God we trust”. Dollars as a medium of exchange between non-dollar nations, did earn enough for USA, until recently 😜. Now, the quality of trust seems to be getting questioned 😥🙏)

Unexpectedly yours,

psn (29 Jan 2026)

Monkey bath

 Monkey bath

Due apologies to my honourable prime minister 🙏

Title is distorted.

But, my spouse, a non-Hindi madam, very keen that I shouldn't miss the talk of a great noble politician, reminds me and her pronunciation seems like “monkey bath”( for Mann ki baat)

( I am even doubtful if monkeys do take a bath for human_like_reasons).

Anyway, Mann ki baat ( #मन_की_बात).

Is very special for me, and unique too🙏

A Pucca politician, speaking to his voters, for 1800 seconds, without ‘touching’ politics…… 🙏 ( please visualise Trump or Putin trying to replicate it 😓.)

A top politician, giving very very valid, precious, authentic and easily verifiable reasons for EVERY Indian to feel proud of his nation,  AFRESH every month 🙏….. did any one else do it hitherto? Etching, engraving history of contemporary achievements in our minds/memories, fetching stupendous events from obscure corners of Bharat 🙏. No easy task. ( Till now, media of all types, history of all types was feeding only “negativity” of Bharat all the time 😜.  The rare few achievements didn't matter as numbers, especially due to repetitions. Imagine a ‘politician’ helping us, (to feel really_proud of our birth_soil,)instead of a historian)

Changing the mindset of entire citizens, to become patriotic, is an unenviable task, which no politician will dare to Risk_his_vote bank.  This PM keeps reminding me of my DUTIES ( not rights) in the Indian constitution 🙏.  Should I not be grateful to such a great politician???  Just imagine, if…..by some miracle, EVERY CITIZEN becomes 100% duty conscious, who needs a machinery for ensuring my rights????  Your_rights=my duties 👍🙏🙏🙏 damn simple!

Generating…..Duty_conscious countrymen is a very laborious and slow process 🙏.  Especially, when basic_human_rights are denied due to a 7-decade-rule by corrupt regimes( whichever political party 🙏). This PM is building a legacy, to be inherited by future generations 🙏.  ( Usually, politicians bother about doling out crumbs only during election, and to last only till they grab power!)

After listening to 100-plus episodes of monkey bath( apologies…. It is mann ki baat मन की बात), if I can “see” a pattern in the contents, there is no reason why any other fellow citizen can't see it 🙏. Literacy immaterial 👍

I am not trying to canvas for any votes.

I am getting, what I missed in my SCHOOL-education 🙏. ( History up-to-date,  reminder of duties as per Indian constitution, inspiration to feel proud of my own dear Bharat 🙏) .  Any spiritual seeker ought to begin with gratitude to own mother—Mother_India, Bharat mata.

Jai Hind 

a humble citizen 

(psn…24 Jan 2026)

Disengage the mind

 Disengage the mind 

🤣

Funny title, I concede…

And, an effort in vain, when we want to do it.

When we didn't even wish, boredom disengages the mind 😜

I don't know, but I can wonder, if the BP patients might find their alarming numbers getting it slightly lower when they are under a grip of severe boredom 😜 ( I am not blessed with high BP as yet, 😥…and therefore cannot experiment it by_myself without causing a needless_boredom on the readers reading this🙏)

I am neither blessed with boredom 😭, and it might be appropriate to call me a freak, on this_count😓

Now, you can guess why such freak blogs emit from me occassionally 😜👍

I underwent a guided meditation, in which one of the prescription is to CONSCIOUSLY create tension in just one part/limb of the body and then relax it 🤣 . I thoroughly enjoyed this exercise 👍 . My monkey_mind loved the process👍  create_tension, when people around are taking tablets, capsules , pills, drugs, medicines ( dunno, why each are different!) etc, to avoid_tension 😳

Monkey mind🙏

I decided to try it at office, in the midst of hectic busy work, while trying to locate errors in a maze of numbers ( figure work), being a Bank_clerk! I was surprised. I didn't have to ‘tense’ my face!😳 I could ‘notice’ the neck muscles and the head about it already tensed! So, relaxing it was the only ‘needed action’ 👍. I relaxed my neck and head CONSCIOUSLY. ( My practice at the guided meditations came_handy, 😜…having done it a few hundred times!!! ). 

The surprise was, the mind got disengaged from the stupid_needless_thought “I must locate the error!”.....  That's what I am doing,! Why then chant it like “I must find it, I must locate it”????  Now, my mind is better focused at ‘looking' for it. 

It worked 🙏 

I could locate( what I was looking for) a bit easier, maybe a little earlier too… but, for sure, I needed to spend lesser CALORIES 🤣.

Monkeys are fuel_efficient 😳

Any time ( at a zoo or elsewhere) I could observe, monkeys sit utterly relaxed. Their fingers and wrist just hang, unlike us who hold it stiff, all_the_time! We step on the accelerator and the brake simultaneously 😓, quite unawares. More fuel is required to move.  Monkey mind, I think I needn't feel embarrassed to concede. I relax, the next moment, I finish a muscular movement at any physical task. Only the ‘thought' needed a break, stepping onto ‘brake’ pedal, so that the fuel of my calories isn't getting wasted🙏

I don't know if it can work for others ( readers). But if it works, psychiatrists, pharma guys get a reason to curse_me 🤣. Illegitimate curses don't work on me👍🙏. And for my age now, physical assaults don't matter much👍

Try?

Whenever, we get a space of 3 seconds….

First second, focus on any part of our body ( facial muscles is the easiest, with eyes closed till we count 3)

Second second…. relax the part( face) CONSCIOUSLY 

Third second: forget the whole thing 😜 ( I know, this may sound ridiculously simple, but remember some wise guy's proverb : Simple isn't always easy😭).

Nothing to lose, except a little blood pressure 👍

Gains? Your most priceless gadgets, our own dear body, gets a bit of love & care, it had always deserved 🙏

Stupidly yours, 

psn(24 Jan, 2026)

Postscript: once we get used to disengaging the  mind, we are armed with a power to get rid of garbage in our mind isn't it? ( Less luggage, more comfort — railways wrote it🙏)

Do we know to Bless?

 Do we know to bless?

Boss,

अगर मैं,

हिम्मत जुटकर पूछूंगा,

To an elder who placed his right palm on my head "बड़े मियां, गुस्ताख़ी माफ़ 🙏, लेकिन आप के ( मेरे सिर पर)स्पर्श द्वारा, कुछ हुआ क्या, जो आशीर्वाद से ताल्लुक़ रखता है?"

He 'needs' to have an experience isn't it? I may be a insensitive, non_receptive येड़ा 🙏😂

This ritual has a tradition of 1000's of years 😳... All cannot be stupids to continue it for lakhs of generations 🙏.

( About 15 years ago, an elderly couple came to give invitation for wedding reception at a local hall. Wedding was at far away place. The lady requested me "please bless my son & the bride"

I asked "how? 🤔. If you want me to 'touch' his head, it's easy....but for a blessing to happen *_due to that touch_* ....😥"

She knew me. She told her hubby "let's stop the distribution for Today" and turning to me "please....🙏" and sat down ( normally, in a spree to hand out invites, standard dialogue is "no time to sit,🙏...lots of cards to go around!").... I told her my own experience of subtleties 😞🙏... 60 minutes it took)

Blessing, desi way, had a wide spectrum of choices 😜….  Broadly, wired & wireless. Wireless had more types, like LAN, wifi, bluetooth, WAN, tower, satellite etc 🙏 

Submissively yours,

psn( 21 Jan, 2026)

Being Practical

 Being Practical 

“Are you being Practical???😡😡”

This is the main issue very often in our inter-personal relationships. 

The details of “what is practical”, differs vastly with each situation 🙏.

Only a deep and complete understanding of “dharma”( a sanskrit word & name for a scientific concept called cosmic laws) can guide us Flawlessly 🙏.  This kind of grasp is impractical unless we “attained” moksha, Jeevan mukti, ( in simple terms “Enlightenment”🙏)

Hurdles in becoming “practical” is something we can atleast “try” and make out daily lives a ‘bit' easier 😜

1)Giving up our own personal desires, wants and likings, is the most prevalent and most common hurdle.  

2) Our personal desires can be controlled or governed by logic or emotions.  Logic can Never understand emotions and, emotions are unavailable to logic.  Enough for an internal conflict???

Examples: 

A desi tradion of ‘kanya daan’ is 100% illogically designed 😂😜.  Ideally, we ought to ‘become’ inquisitive to ask ourselves “ then why the _hell did this custom & related rules prevail successfully for milleniums???😡”

Why should we ask_at_all this question?

Don't ask!🙏 ( Logical response!)

Intellect is better inclusive than our logic. (Intellect is aware of limitations of logic.) Emotions are an inalienable ingredient of this entire cosmos🙏. Only the intellect can hope to evaluate the worth & relevance of emotions in any scientific phenomenon. Rishis were at the peak of intelligence. Hence they formulated and prescribed the rules of functional aspects of kanya-daan. Zero scope to ENFORCE these laws (please see, any practice, tradition, law, ritual etc, if based on emotions, can_never_be_enforced 😜🙏🙏🙏)

Exactly why, the kanya-daan concept and its related traditions and rituals are falling apart progressively with each day🙏.

Consequence? Except in cases where emotional compatibility is excellent, relations between spouses are falling apart. If logic is too powerful, the relationship hastens faster towards a divorce. An alternative to ‘only_logical_based’ relationship, for marriage is a ‘Live_in_relationship’!

Attrition rate of present day is due to increased patronage towards a ‘live_in_relationship’ ( logic in exclusivity) at workplace 😂.  ( Why should I be loyal, in the absence of a commensurate_compensation? ….is the logical question, which has no logical answer).

Domestic relationship– Versus workplace relationship. ( An example).

Logic_based rules are unenforceable in any home, simply because, the base of relationship is emotional, non-commercial and beyond logic. A wife can be a boss at office, but bossing at home cannot sustain 🙏😜. Marriage has to metamorphise atleast into slavery, in such cases to survive. And if physical survival is the topmost priority of the hubby, he simply doesn't mind misnaming his slavery as “marriage” to suit the ‘social norms’😜

A very PERTINENT question, “why does it always have to be…only a female that surrenders???😡”

A practical reply ( to stubborn minds) is : please do not surrender. Fight unto death 👍 ( if stubbornity can stand aside for the intellect to ‘look’ there is scope for a lasting reply. Till then, breakup of relationship is inevitable 🙏)

At home, a mind which is fatigued by ‘non-stop-logic’ at workplace ( techies, typically talk to the monitor_only, and the monitor tolerates ONLY logic, not emotions), seeks ‘some’ emotional outlet ( not_inlet …mind you 😜).

Both the spouses techies, and one_way_traffic_only??? Sustainable? Outlet only, no inlet?   Can't last long 🙂. Look at divorce rates around tech_cities.🙏

Commercialised_minds seek short-cuts for emotional satisfaction/gratification/satiation 🙏.  Whereas, even emotions, to sustain, needs a strong sense of reasoning, emotional _reasoning 🙏 ( a bla-bla-bla response to a sensible question, info, comment from a family member, merely to satiate an emotional thirst, doesn't work. The spouse, kids, siblings…shout back”can't you talk sense????😡”. )

Wedding gatherings, is an excellent outlet for releasing the ‘steam’ of pent-up emotions 😜….  Hours of bla-bla, utterly meaningless conversations, works amazingly! Those who can't talk at-all, without logic, ( often males), use the area reserved for ‘drinks’ at the marriage party! Switching off the logic too works🙏👍. Problem is, liver gets damaged 😭

Enough of my Bla-bla-bla 🙏

What is the clue? ( Solution is a choice)

Inclusiveness is the key! 

Inclusiveness sustains relationships. Unfortunately, no logical answer is possible for why_be_inclusive. 

Ultimate practicality of inclusiveness is ‘blackhole’. There is no questioner at all, anymore 🙏 

Simply yours,

psn(21 Jan, 2026)

Post_script punch

Two advises:

1) when rape is inevitable, better enjoy it👍 ( mass appeal, and hence popular)

2) Rajasthan Thakurs to their spouses: burn our kanya girls, then burn yourself. We males will apply on our forehead, the ashes from your burnt bodies, and use the emotions of your sacrifice to Chop off as_many_heads as possible, of the invading JIHADIS, who outnumber us at the moment 🙏 ( zero appeal to this advice, yet ....a documented history and the source of 'sati' sampradaya 😜🙏🙏🙏)

If there is a bhagwan ( really 😥) whom will He give pass_marks? ( Unfortunately, no logic for a query :"why should there be a God at all???😡". Either experience God or be doomed to be an atheist or a blind believer. Both are qualitatively same🙏)

West enjoys practical jokes.

Witness( victim): my lord. I was raped by this young novice.

Judge (🤔): why do you say a "novice"???

Lady: beCause my lord..... I had to show him how to do it 😓

Freedom from parenting

 Freedom from parenting 

The "trend" is ....

Oldies ( assuming to be wiser than other oldies around), advise : we must give FREEDOM to our children and grandchildren 🙏. 

( I rejoice 😜, when such advise it thrust upon me, even very_ informally, by any responsible oldie around 👍

I respond : "Done!!!"( I simply translates as :"I am no more responsible for that fellow any more! A jailor is damn_free, when there are zero inmates in his prison 👍.  " Lowest/mildest/simplest responsibility. Highest responsibility is as_a_guru 🙏)

Desi way of parenting used to be very sophisticated 🙏…. It used to start in the womb, when the baby is 5½ months plus.

Kid in the womb gets familiar with pranava resonating in the mother's womb 🙏. ( ashtaVakra 'developed' 8/ashta deformities/vakra, while in the womb. The resonance he was 'force_fed' was not in 'sync' with correct semantics of pranava resonating 😜---- a symbolic story, 'meant' to persuade us to delve deeper!)

( Am I violating verse 110 of chapter _2, of manusmriti? Supplying unsought data?😭🤔)

Violatively yours, 

PSN(19 JAN, 2026)

Post script 

As per tradition,

The eldest( by elderliNess, not age alone) steps_into_the_shoes of a departed elder🙏

Subrogation is stepping into the shoes.

( My grandpa was 'conferred' with the subrogation rights, by 3 of his brothers elder to him by age! Not a common feature, beCause, Hindu_way-of-life ensured buzurgi/elderliNess to run concurrently with age!

I am so fortunate, my siblings ( of my "larger family" stripped me of such moral responsibility, when they declared their independence_from_me. 😜.

I don't need a vaanaprastha to seek seclusion/hermitage/solitude etc in this age/kaliyug, at my age of 70+🙏👍

Potential of music

 An honest disclaimer: I am a zero in music. 

Hence, this is more of an attempt to request "please see, if I make sense 🙏"

Most of us remember at least one small line of a song. We didn't work 'hard' to memorize it. Yet, we keep humming it ( without the lyrics) whenever we like🙏

I tried to look at the basic components of any line of a song ( from what I heard about music)

It has the combo of 7 notes ( meaningless alphabets like, sa,ri,ga,ma,pa,da,ni,sa

A pitch ( level of sound form)

Spacing between two notes.

Arrangents of these alphabets (😜 permutations and combinations)

( Maybe a lot more "factors"...)

Suppose these 4 are written down in a text format, and a kid of primary school is asked to memorize it for a 'test' next week? He struggles to reproduce it😜

Instead, teach him the 'concept' related to decoding a line of a song, into a written text form, and ask him to appear for the same test/exam? He doesn't need to 'memorise' the entire paragraph of 4 lines each, with 'junk_looking' characters 😜. He enjoys singing, and writes text instantly!

( I heard that the poem "waves of beauty"( soundarya lahari ) by aadi Shankara is a "time capsule"( with all the knowledge till that point of time in a micro_chip) retrievable with a software ( a chart showing the alphabets used to represent formulae in physics, chemistry, maths, astro-logy/nomy....and several other branches of sciences¡ 😳

The key is to know what an alphabet represents in each science) German scientists seem to have decrypted many of its secrets. One example I heard was a formulation from pollen grains, used to restore the memory of spies 'brainwashed' by russian army during WW2, let loose back to Germany as "mad" fellows!!! 3rd verse, describing pollen grains of flowers inducing chaitanya/life 🙏 

One thing I tried was to add a rhythm to any text lesson tough for me to memorize for any school exam 😜. I used the rhythm to correlate the stupid, useless,insipid text to recall it in the examination hall.  I learnt the 'trick' in a 'feel_of_it' way. I add an element of 'emotion' to something 'dry' and difficult to memorize 😜

Slowly, I learnt to 'invoke' some emotion to learn anything. It worked. Then I bumped into something very steady+ stable. 😜...   Intensity when emotionaliZed CONSCIOUSLY, it serves multi-purpose tasks🙏. It helped me to walk on spiritual bijness, when others just crawl and slide back, most of the time!

illogically yours,

(psn 16 Jan 2025)

Human communications

 Human communications 

Other life forms need to use very subtle techniques to communicate 🙏

We humans can ‘speak’.

We evolved into creating languages 🙏

The “use of language” turned highly subjective, due to the fact that “human is a being of Volitional consciousness”( we exercise a choice, whether to confuse, abuse, hurt, insult others, using a language, or to dedicate ourselves to offer Value addition with Each_use of a language.

A British author and cartoonist George du Maurier, defined a language very humorously 🙂

Quote:

"Language is a poor thing. You fill your lungs with wind and shake a little slit in your throat and make mouths, and that shakes the air; and the air shakes a pair of little drums in my head . . . and my brain seizes your meaning in the rough. What a roundabout way and what a waste of time". 

Du Maurier was a late-Victorian era writer known for novels such as Trilby and Peter Ibbetson, and for his work in the satirical magazine Punch. His quote is often used to highlight the perceived limitations of verbal communication compared to other forms, such as gestures or non-verbal cues. 

Unquote 

😜

And think of the profound wisdom of our Desi_ancients ( 🙏 rishis)!!!!

They used a language, SANSKRIT like a very powerful tool 🙏

It's proper use can invoke powerful energies, from a CONSECRATED piece of stone, whether such consecration was natural (swayambhu/jyothir) or by evolved humans(praana_praTishta)🙏

Sanskrit is an interface to download core_data, core_software related to the core of creation itself, as also the seamlessly interwoven form of basic elements in nature.

Sanskrit is in CONFORMITY with quantum laws 🙏( this statement is enough to define its power comprehensively 🙏)

I ain't that_fortunate to learn Sanskrit ( though I managed a working knowledge of ½ a dozen man-made languages 🙏.). But I did manage to try out the efficacy, using powerful combinations of alphabets, like mahaMantra 😜👍. The vibes, from my primitive, crude and indept voices were enough to persuade a family member to request me “hey! Your chants are emitting powerful vibes, causing my nerves to shiver🙏. Entirely my_defect. I have been using steroids for my asthma since 5 decades. My nerves are too weak. Hence the reason for feeling it ‘unbearable’. Please pause for a while. “......  I paused. Thereafter, I chant it only as a ‘free sample’, harmless dosage😜( now, that family member is no more, so I can use it non-injuriously😜).

The joke is, one sanskrit chant (A-U-M, ॐ) can be “spoken” powerfully, EVEN by a person born-Dumb 🙏 ( basic sound forms of universe…..even a few animals can produce a,u,m 😜🙏)

Communicatively yours,

psn(11 Jan, 2026)

My imaginary Sins

 My imaginary Sins

😜

What does it feel like to commit uncommon kinds of sin?

( As long as it doesn't cause any loss or damage to anyone, it seems okay 👍)

My spouse said, during her early days when we got wedded, “I became a teacher for 4th class kids. But very soon I realised that I am not good at teaching. I decided ‘I have no right to spoil the future of 50 kids, being unable to really “teach” them the concepts, I must quit. Salary can come without harming others too!’  But, I wasn't let off immediately. The school asked to quit after_the_term. (Her confession inspired me to imagine myself sinning too! 😜)

My imagination ( hence, confession can be religious too, not compulsory to use my irreligious Hinduism 😓):

If,

I were a teacher for 8th class in physics, 

I would ask a simple question like :"I look through my window. It is drizzling. But I like to see the rain_drops in the air. I am looking at a white coloured wall on the opposite side, but I am unable to see 'rain_drops' . Suddenly the door of that house got opened and a little darkness was seen through that door. Now, I can see a few rain drops against the darkness of that open_door. Why???"

😂

( Any kid explaining the "why" of seen/not_seen , both.....has understood+ learnt to apply the lesson "refraction of light" etc, related to chapter 'light'.🙏.

If none of the kids answer, I go to the Chapel, and do a confession to the Lord "O'Lord, I sinned! I didn't teach physics properly! Please try to       find_a_way to forgive me for my unpardonable sin, as a bad teacher 😭🙏"

End of my imagination 🙏 

I started wondering, 

A kulGuru is ill-fated, compared to a normal ‘Generalised’ guru ( traditions are such😭)

Example: shukraCharya is guru for the cluster( kula) called Rakshasaas! 

Any number of times, true to their innate nature, these demonic fellows keep insulting their Guru. Shri shukra_ji, true to his vows as a kula_guru, cannot abandon his disciples ( villains). If asked to”get lost” he moves away, only to take back his job at their request & “sorry sir, won't repeat a get_out” repeated very soon😜

Add another burdensome rule : a Guru decides upon a student, unlike 5 other inferior types of desi_teachers 🙏. And, a failure of a student, is deemed to be a teacher's failure! Pure misery😓😭

( I decided: at least for a teacher's sake, I must SLOG to learn 🙏. My slogging yielded side_benefits—-i improved a bit, even in spirituality 🙏).

Sinfully yours,

psn(11 jan, 2026)

Intelligent networking

 Intelligent networking 

Disclaimer:

My opening sentences, few of them, are entirely my wild_imaginations only🙏 Any semblance to towering_reality of computer science is purely coincidental😳

Fictional part

A network provider faces competition. His lab churns out an intelligent, page aware, situation aware, interactive networking software which is cost_effective also👍

A sample: a voluminous data needs to be delivered across a rough terrain with very poor networking, low bandwidth and unreliable connectivity. This scientist conjured a ‘routing’ software which ‘guides’ the datapackets with a header which can tear apart the volume it carries, marking each bit uniquely with intelligent data_bytes, which can park themselves at the dynamically nearest proximity, in such a way as to be able to incessantly reassemble themselves ‘intelligently’ so_as_to_be seemlessly interwoven with flawless integrity. 

When repeater_towers are positioned at a place where terrestrial connectivity is infeasible, that tower provides a way for throwing up the data packets towards a reflector placed in a geo_stationary object up there. Here, the bandwidth is ridiculously low, vulnerable to huge distortion of waves travelling downwards, in order to facilitate low cost leased_rent. The distorted rays scattered down can be captured by towers at a distance (crossover_targeted_destination), where even the owners of those towers don't suspect the illegitimate “usage” of their reflectors, owing to subsonic bandwidth used for the scattered data from sky. That's where another strong tower equipped with “intelligent” sewing, knitting and weaving software reassembles  the datapackets for further transmission 👍🙏.  Spy-networking might be a realistic name for this commercial cunningness!

End of fictional part.

Networking among ancient rishis:

100% software oriented, ( unlike ours, which still_depends on “some_kind_of” hardware 😜)

Consecrated temples, uniquely energized, positioned at weird places like unscalable mountain tops( makes us wonder “which Fool has built a mammoth temple here, unreachable for devotees to reach?”) . ….. Certain rituals planned when mega stars like “ardra nakshatra “ are in an orbit to multiply&magnify all the messages back to the mystical form of an ellipse, in sync with shape and form of galaxy/milkyway, namely ….those shiva_linga_structures strewn all over Bharat ( propitiated uniquely on ardra_darshan day annually 😜).

Certain highly trained ascetics, generating powerful”carrier_waves” during Brahma muhurat hours( local time, 4 am to 6 am), to carry the encrypted data kept ready by hovering minds ( body_less, Wandering souls) to be uploaded on the energy waves😜.

The entire data is downloadable by any one, ready to become receptive 🙏. 

One such recent and demonstrable example, documented in a published open_software is…..when a pontiff of Puri mutt ( a shankaracharya), downloaded Vedic maths from “cloud”, sitting in a forest for 7 years or so! His competence is available in a format which is an Admissible_Evidence👍🙏. He created an all time record of academic brilliance by scoring the highest marks in all the subjects, appearing in an academic examination from Bombay or so( a remote exam_center). The book was published by “indological publications” new Delhi. The preface mentions the biodata of the author!

I did a very crude experiment, with a simplistic sound form, formulated into a Vedic chanting , giving out a very fuzzy & seemingly_unrealistic meaning like “Let noble thoughts come forth from everywhere” the syntax is “aano bhadraah krtavo yanthu vishwataha” . It worked, and still is working. Only problem is, I am unable to be in a steady+constant synchronicity with the required bandwidth 🙏😭.  Of & on, I get the data🙏. ( But I am a dependable evidence for that ancient technology. Wiring is required at subtle levels to use me like a guinea pig, in a testing lab😜).

Demonstrably yours,

psn(10 Jan, 2026)

The good, bad & ugly about memory

 The good, bad & ugly about memory 

A decade or more ago, I took up a question on the internet platform “Yahoo Answers”. The question was “what is your earliest memory?” 

I liked the question.

How do I pick the “earliest” one among those belonging to my kid_age, when the concept of age, date or chronology was yet to creep into me? ( This Was my first hurdle 😥)

Anyway, when I proceeded to dive deep into the past, a memory surfaced 🙂.

I recalled a struggle to move forward, using my arms upto my elbow, to reach out to the vastness of a shiny black surface ahead of me, pushing myself hard, using my left arm to pull myself forward, while the right one was just planted firmly under my chest to help the left arm. There was a success. The ‘surface’ was moving backwards below mentioned, but the target ahead kept increasing 😥. 

 I had to deduce, as a little grown up boy, to make out of this memory, that I must_have_been swimming on the floor…🤣.   I felt amused, at the limitations of the “impressions” and the info, offered by this piece of memory 🙂.

1.The visuals, helped me to ‘fix’ the probable place, time and activity.

2.The emotions experienced helped me to ‘fix’ the nature of the ‘situation' I faced😜

Armed with the analysis, I answered factually, but mentioning my ‘diagnosis’ separately to enable the asker to distinguish between facts and assumptions related.

My assumptions, as far as I am concerned, are also related to the facts with “data_integrity”...🤣.  I used both types of logic. Identifying the similarity with later memories related and using the elimination_process of other related possibilities.

I was below 8 months of age( I was reportedly able to walk unevenly at 10½ months itself 😜. The span of knee_walk must have been very brief, though no memory of it could be recalled)

Floor, because it felt too cold. Black and shiny, because it was black_oxide, very old and ill-lit. Light was from a solitary glass_attached tile on the roof. No electricity till the next 16 years. Either my mom's or my dad's birth house, since both had that large halls, which seem ‘vast’ for a baby with a limited range of vision🤣.  We place a toy a bit nearer to the baby when it doesn't respond to crawl towards it😜. Crawling was the ‘activity’, which means, it a ‘safe’ inference that it ‘ought_to_be’ my Earliest memory. ( Incidentally, mine got picked as the best_answer😂)

I am fortunate to be able to ‘recall’ quite a good number of stored data items, of my kid age. ( Very recently, I happened to tell a classmate “ you were the Expert among our classmates, who could sharpen a lead-pencil best🙏. We were in 4th standard (1960). And I had determined to learn it looking at you, which I did 🙏” He exclaimed “hey, man….what do you Eat, to have been able to nurture such a sharp memory???😳😳😳”.  I knew, he can easily Recall it, being good at that Job👍, though others had no deep emotions related, to remember this fellows ability!. My emotion was my conscious choice to strive towards acquiring that ability, using a Guru who demonstrated it, once in every 40 minutes 🤣. Teachers change every 40 minutes and subject_change was…..only a consequence, as_per my stunted kid_age_logic😓.

Mere logic related to any incident, fails to get a ‘prominent’ location in our storage hard_disk—--is what I deduced. 

Emotions, which are at a minimum requirement, for the process of “recall” to “access” that prominent location cell of memory storage chip, is indispensable.

Good emotions are dim and faint, beCause, happiness is internalised usually, and therefore the memories related brings only a blurred image of audio/vidio.

Bad ones are due to negative emotions, and obviously we externalised the “cause” of mismatch of ground reality with our expectations, desire etc. images are clearer, and better focused/zoomed-into the source of mismatch, like abuse, spanking, collision, pain_inflicting_object, etc👍. 

Ugly ones are a bit complex😜. We added our stupidity of conjured negative emotions to it, and recall a fictional horror story👍. It could even be a horrifying dream😜. A “dejavu”( whatever it means 😥😥)

I embarked upon learning “how to store so_sensibly, that I can recall at_will, what I ‘like’ to remember 🙏.( Futile to elaborate, since I don't know if it can work for others🙏). But I acquired the ability to recall meaningless numerals, alphanumeric forms etc effortlessly.  I saved the efforts of ‘writing’ an amount like Rs. 2,35,45,671.39 by learning to retain it in my “cache_memory” till I walk back to my table, 50 steps/2 floors away, to see if it matches with what I arrived at, to balance the book of accounts 🙏.  Page numbers of ledger accounts of frequent customers, I recall easily, at it saves my energy flipping pages of bulky ledgers. Ability to store+recall without any induced-emf was tough ( here, emf is my_accronym— emotional motivation force🙏….   Electro-Motive-F, etc😜)

Alas! I met my Waterloo, when it came to retaining a spiritual experience. The screen goes blank🙏😭😭😭.  Couldn't even ‘devise’ any tool😥. Had to be contented with the ‘contentment’ yielded by those experiences 🙏. ( After-effects, side-effects of spiritual experiences, seem to offer a Lollipop “buddy, your storage+ recall of all other inconsequential worldly ‘drama’ will be better than before 👍”. But the charm of this drama is fading away with spiritual bijness 😭)

Memorably yours,

psn( 10 Jan, 2026)

Why Gurus seem secretive?

 Why Gurus seem secretive?

There is a popular short story in Malayalam.

Four blind men try to feel "how an elephant is?"

Their description:

First one holding the tail describes what he 'touched' 

Second one touches the leg and says "elephant is like a pillar of 1 feet diameter 

Third one described it holding the trunk "a very thick but  tapering flexible hanging branch"

Fourth one it's underbelly "a curved ceiling, heavy "

None of them reached the actual"elephant " 🤣

Spiritual practices are like the elephant (beyond reach of a Single practitioner, experiencing it like one blind fellow 🤣 . ) Even the "combined" description of all the 4 blind is not going to 'reach' the accuracy 😜.

There have been"rishis" who spent their whole life, in perfecting JUST_1_yogaAasana, like VajraAasana🙏.  

Wise Gurus, seldom indulge into pegging the mind of their students into their own limited experience of doing a practice 🙏

( I have learnt this concept, the Hard_way....🙏.

The most sophisticated type of KapalBhaathi yielded unexpected response from a spectrum of birds, when I touched 3000 repetitions per session, steadily incrementing the number over 11 months, starting with 25 times🙏. I discovered that birds could sense the "frequency " of energy waves emitted during the practice 😜. My stunted 'idea' of 'sound' tore open its shell of limited understanding 🙏. I also realised that, the same practice 'holds' many more mysteries, unthinkable for me to reach/unravel, during this lifetime 🤣.)

Discretely yours,

psn(9 Jan, 2026)

Mind's Fullness

 Mindfulness

🤣

Apologies ( for the icon of laughter 🙏)

But, I found myself trying to “keep my mind EMPTY” as much as possible 🙏😭

( Damn thing seems to work)

Oh yes! The ‘true’ sense of it( mindfulness) is a noble goal👍🙏.  “Trying to be mind-ful” of what our mind is doing with us, most of the time 👍 A very good thing🙏

Only that, our desi ancients “dealt” with the minding_the_mind in a different way 😓. They researched with greater intensity and discovered what_works_better! I merely copypasted their experience, instead of re-inventing the wheel ( technology) afresh🙏. Meditation is all about “mindfulness! Problem is, meditation strives to keep it empty, not full 😜

Whatever”occupies” our mind most, becomes the ‘leader’ of our life!

I want to lead a “good” life👍

Here starts the problem 😜 

I try to plan the design for a good life!

Today, money seems to”decide” a good life. Money invites a ”security“ , quite obviously 🙏. Chasing of money+security becomes a consequence. 

Now, the consequence Occupies our mind all the time 😜.

Whole life, we chase money & its security. Everything else, including relationship, becomes “relative” to it. Aged dad & mom being no more of use for my primary goal( money & security) become a burden😓. I compromise, spending bare minimum to keep the security alive( society might disturb my_security, if I TOTALLY abandon those two rotten vegetables 🙂. So, oldage home.

Promotion is a sub_goal. For that….I need to slog! Slogging feels burdensome. If security ( goodwill, is a security) is manageable, I bribe, I appease to get promoted, escaping from the slogging.

The sense of security constricts our inclusiveness. Kids try to copy only ‘what appears to Work’ for their parents . We perpetuate our_goals  plus the chase_technology👍( inadvertently though).

Defensiveness is a consequence of our chase for security. 

Just try the consequences to become the goal, and the goal might become the consequence.

Nature can give us a realistic & practicable example.

Coconut tree.

Do we nurture it because of nuts or does it yield nuts only_because We_nurture it? Which is the consequence? 

A doctor loves to save lives. Money becomes an Unavoidable consequence. People Develop trust and repeat visits! ( Whereas, money as a goal breeds corruption in that doctors mind🙏. Money occupies the mind as a primary goal, and no “space” to focus on diagnosis 😜. ill fame, disrepute, mistrust guaranteed 🙏👍).

Spiritual pursuit as a goal, compels us to drop off whatever seems a hurdle in its way.😭. As a consequence, chase and the tension related to chasing after material comfort, tools and gadgets accrues by itself, if the situation warrants, and therefore, the efforts are barest minimal , namely survival. All the other life forms chase material things only_for_survival. 

We look at “peace” as a goal, and it's consequences engaged us in an endless chase! If peace is viewed as a consequence, we discover that peace was already in us as a basic nature👍. Our chase disturbed the peace. A baby or a bull, both are utterly peaceful if well_fed😜. A money chaser despite a full stomach, faces indigestion 😜.

Once a mind gets “filled” with “good life, comfort, security etc” as a goal, the chase becomes an irreversible consequence 🙏. Struggle of chasing this goal becomes a full time job.  Coconut tree is assured of a “good, comfortable & secured life” without any need to chase these🤣. It simply complies with nature's design of yielding nuts. If no human is around to nourish it, that tree yields lesser nuts. But still it is peaceful, comfortable and secure, as per nature's plan accordingly 🙏

A very “typical” and easily_verifiable example is Mr N.D.Modi 🙏. His goal of life (as per his own words) is “Life for others, not for himself”( dedicating one's own life, selflessly…..is a consequence of this goal). He “got” money as an earned income, ONLY after he became a combo of MLA+CM.  politics chased him. PM’s post chased him. Z_category security, free housing, high class food, 24/7 exclusive medical attention etc are all CONSEQUENTIAL perks😜. Bulk of all other politicians struggle endlessly to ensure, retain these perks. Modi's secret eludes their grasp. Bulk of his words are Without Any Politics 😜. No other politician was targeted Ever_before, like he is, today🤣.  His_goal is not easy to be copypasted 🙏. ( It didn't matter to him that he was unnoticed for first 4 decades of his life. He yielded very few nuts, till 40 or so, in terms of “serving others”. Voters accidentally nourished him. He yields nuts in “billions of tons—-worldwide😥🙏🙏🙏”.

Aimlessly yours,

psn(8 Jan 2026)

Power of collective thoughts

 Power of collective thoughts 

What we call as ‘history’ is a sequential collection of events which are very significant, prominent and looked at as a lesson for the progeny (future generations).

Then we classify human-history( related to cultural aspects of humans, leaning towards emotions) and the materialistic history ( evolution of sciences of all kinds, which we name as “physics, maths, architecture, industry, agriculture etc) which records the stages and states of handling material life.

It is the human history which sways according to the power of collective thought-power of humans, their minds, and their aspirations 🙏

A joke:

A master hypnotist  was demonstrating his skills to a large audience in a packed hall. He was swinging an antique pocket watch holding it by its chain. The audience were really under his hypnotic spell👍. Suddenly a link in that chain broke loose, being an old watch of his great_great_grandpa😂. The watch fell and broke. That hypnotist broke his_own Chain_of_thoughts, due to the sentiments attached to his pocket watch. He exclaimed “Oh Shit!”.

It was reported that the hall needed shut_down for an entire week, to get it thoroughly cleaned 🤣

When an entire society decides voluntarily (as a result of mass_spiritual_evolvement) to adhere to basics of ‘life’ which are in synchronicity with the core_basics of the creation of this universe, the thought_processes of even a routine_life acquire the requirements of constituting what we know today by the name “satYug”( an era of Truth). Only divine incarnations qualify a significant mention in the history of that_era.  During our present era, if a solitary individual ‘lives’ like a normal average civilian of ‘satYug’, he becomes a rarity, and therefore becomes an eternal legend of the history of the ‘present' era(KaliYug)🙏

If any worthwhile achievement is desired at the present, all we need to do is to focus our thoughts collectively towards the desired goal, as often as we can, and as_intensely as we_can🙏. Not quite an easy task, when our thoughts, words and deeds are getting diversified at a maddening pace, due to our chaotic lifestyle today🙏.  Intensity of any_thought is the first victim of high_speed chaos.  Pain is perhaps the only emotion we experience ‘intensely’ today😥🙏.  Among the ‘positive' emotions, the element of “wonder”/vismaya, is almost extinct among grown up's 🙏. Whereas in a baby, it is “wonderment” which is most_intense, most of its waking hours 🙏.  Chaotic lifestyle can't afford to wonder😜.  

How to deal with our “thoughts”? 

Why at_all bother about ‘thoughts’? 🤣.

Two ways of answering this. 

1.Why else would I be thrown into a mental asylum, if it were not my thoughts which causes trouble to people around me? 😜. ( Normally abnormal find me a misfit, when I become abnormally_abnormal.  Realistically, I am an Exception today because I am abnormally_normal, thanks to my spiritual quest, and others around are unable to classify me as a ‘fit case' to be sent into a mental health home 🙏. A very ‘normal’ fellow makes tolerably_abnormal ones around a bit ‘uneasy’. Normalcy, which can be technically coined as ‘equipoise in emotions’ can cause a bit of unrest in busy_minds around 👍. Something like “deafening Silence’ 😜🙏🙏🙏.)

2. A saying “ thoughts become words, words become actions, actions become destiny……so watch your thoughts.” 

Extraordinary thoughts in an individual, impressing people around, turning into a contagion, snowballing into powerful collective thoughts, can create an historic event. 

A humble suggestion:  For adding ‘power’ to our thoughts, we need a ‘bit’ of inclusiveness, incrementally, and on an ongoing basis.  Selfish_thoughts attract only negativity🙏.

Religions strive to “collect” this thought power using tools like ‘faith’, ‘prayers’ ‘gatherings’ etc. irreligious Hinduism, chose to sync with core basic concepts of creation itself. The 4 MahaVakyas are an evidence of this🙏. Eternal truths do not solicit any patronage, unlike ‘religions’. Sanatan Dharma is all about adherence to the 4 MahaVakyas EXPERIENTIALLY, no matter if an individual human being never even heard of it 😜. Humans adhered to laws_of_gravity, even before Shri Newton_ji discovered and ‘spelt’ it out for us.

Shall we ‘invest’ our thought_power to live better, into a collective mega power? (Democracy is an excellent tool. It asks for barest minimal efforts, and just once in 5 years. Vote for an honest, selfless, inclusive fellow 🙏, setting aside our personal likes, preferences, affiliations, loyalties, royalties etc 😜😜).  I had to wait, for social media to evolve, even to suggest this😭. In the meanwhile, nothing prevented me from evolving myself privately 🙏🙏🙏😜👍

ThoughtFully Yours,

psn(6 Jan, 2026)

Desi economics

 

Desi economics

It is so tough, to ‘balance' spirituality and materialism in our worldly life 🙏

Vivekananda said “religion cannot be taught on a hungry stomach!” ( Very basic! Spirituality cannot subsist without strong economics 🙏. Today GDP is a simple Yardstick to measure. In ancient times, “samruddhi/prosperity” had a better Yardstick, “flourishing of 64 Fine arts”. )

No other culture ( to my information) can boast of this: most brilliant community lives by begging only. 😂 ( It ensures that “fine balance”. Details —too elaborate to write here🙏)

A lady who is familiar with my ‘mind’( we never met) wrote a personal observation, which prompted me to write this. Having written, I changed my mind, and decided to blog it, because, my narrative drifted away from the initial intent🙏

Quote:

Over years, I have noticed and also appreciate a certain kind of "acceptance" about ..... yourself, for yourself....in you . Which is very good and very significant, from spirituality point of view 👍

The advantage is not by default.  It needs a conscious effort.

The puranic/epic example of such acceptance is quoted in a main villain (😂), not just ordinary people like us! The idea is to 'highlight' the spiritual significance quoting an extreme example 🙏. (Duryodhana says, "I know both, dharma and adharma. But I can't imbibe dharma, nor can I get rid of adharma. " The hint is tooo subtle! So also is the 'advantage', और भी सूक्ष्म 🙏। Krish hints about the 'advantage' to Bhima, who could not ‘douse’  the fire of his खुन्नस/bitterness against duryodhana, despite the incapacitated_physiology of the latter 🤣.  प्रवचन कार/preachers  cleverly or ignorantly omit to dwell on this tiny aspect, 🙏.)

"lazy" is something that needs a careful look( for instance).  A person, sitting idle, for instance....need not be lazy 🙏.  there is a dynamic  state in inaction too🙏.  Ramana maharishi was 'idling' on a huge rock atop the huge  mountain at arunachala hills. But his 'presence' made everything around work 'damn well' 🤣.

Vysya( bijness community, by several diverse names in Bharat) were 'keen' observers of wandering Brahmins 😜.  “साला, ये भीख मंगे के मौजूदगी ही काफी है, 🙏....सब कुछ ठीकठाक चल रहा है 😳🤔। इसको कुछ भी करके पकड़ कर रखना फायदा है 😜” they felt। This, a 'tradition' रिवाज़ in south, where.... a Chettiar won't 'eat' his lunch, if his spouse didn't feed a begging_brahmin that day!😂. बेचारी सेठानी को द्वार पर खड़े.... राह देखना चाहिए "can I spot a beggar?". She honours him, requests him to partake food that she would serve with utmost dignity, care & grace🙏. ( I asked my Chettiar colleague, somewhere during 1986, to ask+verify this tradition/रिवाज़, if it really existed among his_people , 200 yrs ago. .... search answer from oldies of 90++ ....I added. He came back wide-eyed, and blurted "yaar, damn right. Why 90+? My dad vouched for this, having heard from his greatgrandpaa🙏. But he is now keen to find out who told me?")

Unquote

Summing up very briefly,  the deities of thousands of temples are “idlers” sitting quietly, doing nothing 😜
Beggars(spiritual ones only), eat up the ‘offering’ unlike the deities.
When I decided to experiment “aano bradrah krtavo yantu viswatah”( logo of Bharatiya Vidya bhavan—k m munshi’s pick), repeating it like a kid bitten by a mad dog ( the pace of repetition), I got results which I am unable to show, prove or demonstrate.
But, it gave me insight to ‘liken’ a deity with sophisticated repeater_towers, intelligent too, and those beggars with mobiles offering “tethering connectivity” to ancient version of data_storage of cloud_computing universal Servers 😜🙏🙏🙏. Dunno if I am “technically” right/wrong. But the damn thing works for me 🙏….

Impersonally yours,
psn(4 Jan, 2026)

Our errors of Judgement

 Our errors of Judgement 

😥 As if I am competent to define it 🙏

No!  I am not competent. At best, I can only share my experience and pray that every reader evolves better than me🙏

Each thought of ours is a judgement, a conclusion of some kind or other(this is a ‘factual statement’ hence, error_free😜).

Given the magnitude of thoughts we manufacture in milli-seconds, can we claim any infallibility? ( Even for fun, if we try to review our own thoughts of preceding 5 minutes, it might take a few hours to judge🙏😥)

A joke :

नया नया मंत्री बोला “मोटर कार आज मैं चलाऊंगा”

ड्राइवर: “ फिर मैं नीचे उतर जाऊंगा 🙏”

आगे कहा ड्राइवर ने :” क्योंकि ये मोटर कार है, सरकार नही, जो अपने आप चल जाए”

Translation : a first_time minister says “I will drive the car Today “

Driver:” then, I will get out of the car…. Bekos, it's a Motor-car, not a Sar-car/govt, which runs by itself “

( That driver is good at judging “who can run a car safely“ ….though ignorant about”who can run a sarCar well”!

Logical errors or emotional errors? Which one happens often in our errors of Judgement? ( Depends on which “car” we drive well, logically driven or emotionally_driven? …or was it a ‘hybrid’?😥)

It so happened that a huge revolt erupted when a leader of pro-reservation in jobs lost his grandchild due to ignorance of a surgeon, whose appointment was not merit_based🙏. That leader got murdered, when he attempted to rectify a “collective error” of judgement about “exempting fatality-oriented vulnerable jobs, forsaking minimum competence”🙏

When I looked at my heavy dependency on the judgement of others, as a kid, for even simple tasks, I felt persuaded at that kid_age, to strive towards an “error_free” or “least possible errors” wala mind, before I grew up to be ‘set_free’ to use my own judgement 😥. 

This pursuit compelled me to keep looking at the consequences faced by those around me, due to their own errors of Judgement! ( A concept sneaked into me, in a non_verbal form “use the experience of others, to avoid similar errors of Judgement”...  There was an advantage of this “non_verbal” format 😜. No syntax error, at least 🙏.

“Jumping into conclusion” is merely a socially acceptable format of saying “error prone conclusion/judgement”

Certain errors are like cement concrete with reinforcement 😜. Choosing a wrong life-partner 🤣. Both suffer till it is either_or_survivor basis, to take decisions 😥😥🙏

In my experience, the only possible situation where a judgement is guaranteed to be error_free is…..when a Guru decides upon his/her disciple 🙏. Reason is simple ( not easy). That Guru is in constant touch with the very root of creation, and therefore can perceive the health of my_roots in its present _kaarmic form, to be eligible to receive his tutelage 🙏

One humble suggestion I can offer is : minimise the thought process to a need_based level.  Even with a constant “rate” of error, the number gets reduced 🙏. ( Oops! It calls for a meditative state of mind 😭. Not everybody’s cup_of_tea !)

Unerringly yours,

psn(2 Jan 2026)

Becoming intense

 Becoming intense

My way of celebrating “luck” is when I myself discover my own stupidities (especially when there is hardly any scope for anyone else to notice/notify it for me🙏)

An example of my luck(stupidity discovered)

During our classes of Pranayam (breath related spiritual bijness), we were asked to “be with the breath”. Meaning, we should ‘be’ with whatever is happening with/due_to our breath.

Not quite easy. Nothing much about ‘breath' 😥. Anyway breathing happens, isn't it!?. 

Then it occurred to me. ‘hey, I might be missing something subtle, just because I ain't enough intense ‘

How to become intense? I tried ‘using' a thought “as if my life depends on it👍”(this thought used to help me while trying to do several dull routines, to do it a bit intensely 🤣).

Discovery of stupidity+ why I look at it as “luck”:  Being with the breath as if my life depends on it. Okay 👍….  Then I suddenly felt “what the hell??  Why as-if? Is it not a reality that MY LIFE DEPENDS ON MY BREATH???,😡😡… then why feign saying ‘as—if’?  Luck was, when I realised it🙏. The “effort” part got solved😜

Mere awareness helped 🙏. Intensity was effortless (during those spiritual practices at least 😥).

Nothing to brag about, as far as I am concerned. None of the other life forms are without intensity,    ever 🙏. Whatever they are doing.  Few creatures sleep effortlessly while standing, sitting or even hanging like bats😜. Obviously they sleep intensely ( not to be confused with humans sleeping like a ‘log’, unaware 😥🙏). 

This ‘intensity’ ( in experiencing whatever we go through), is perhaps related to ‘how well we remember it” 😜

We try_hard,  to forget only negative experiences often. Our “intense” experience of mental pain ( not physical pain) makes sure that we don't fail to recollect it oftener than necessary 😭. Otherwise, recalling is the problem, not the remembrance 🙏. 

( Students struggle to memorize data needed to be copypasted in the examination, because “worry” is more intense than the “text” lesson 😜. Want proof? Ask any fellow 40+ about how hard he slogged for his 10th or +2 eggjam/exam, and he easily can recall his stress/strain/struggle to score, but not what_he_wrote in that answersheet which fetched him a high_cutOff score😜🙏. Those few who learnt that lessons well enough with-concepts, will remember the answers, though they passed effortlessly!)

Intensity without the ‘negative’ fuel is the problem 😓. We are intense when tense. Dull/casual/careless when relaxed. This problem is a huge hurdle for spiritual practices to go through us, happen into us, deep enough! ( I personally tried “intensity without any purpose 😜. It worked & still works. Only problem is, some kind of mysticism engulfs me of late, when I intense my laziness. Maybe age related weakness)

Intensely yours,

psn(1 Jan 2026)

Postscript: probably, quietening of mind might help, to become intense at_will😜. That's my experience due to spiritual bijness 🙏 

How to deserve?

 How to deserve

In my experience, there are no exact answers for “how to deserve”.

I don't know how or why I got into this “troublesome nuisance” of trying to find out “how to deserve” even when I was just a kid. 😥🙏 ( Seldom, we find even grown up’s trying to bother about it when they enjoy something they never deserved!)

I saw a TV serial episode yesterday. The heroine ( an orphan) was given the status of an eldest child by a generous character. She tells the hero “just because I am given all the rights and privileges as a daughter, is it not my duty to remember that I never deserved it, being an orphan? That's the only way I can make sure that I never abuse, exploit, misuse the status of ”daughter” donated to me🙏” ( I felt a ‘bit' joyed! At least, this “deserve bijness” comes in a fictional story, if not in real life!

I always tried to deserve 

1.my birth in irreligious Hinduism. 

2.the English medium school run by Roman catholic “brothers” who managed it without a ‘salary’

3. The society which got itself “civilized” over thousands of years, evolving through millenniums & generations ( a protected atmosphere, instead of a wild forest like deep African jungles unexplored by mankind 😭)

4. The independence donated by my previous generations, sacrificing their lives before completing their youth_age🙏

5.The drivers in the road traffic, who routinely drive their vehicles with care to apply brakes, even when I come into their way ignorantly/carelessly.

6. The ‘natures scavenger ‘( like a crow) which cleans the hazardous bio-waste of dead creatures around my home, street etc.

7. ( Long list)

The only thing I need not bother to ensure whether I deserved it or not is…. Spiritual growth 😜. Stringent rules! Unless I deserve it, the ultimate human possibility WILL_NOT happen to me 🙏👍👍. And its converse is more_true! If & when I deserve it, nothing would stop it happening😜🙏

This “deserving” business, had its side effects 😓. Any gift, charity, help, etc bestowed on me, whether as their duty( like parental duty, like contractual monetary obligation of salary, etc) or….a voluntary unconditional act, both of these remind me to deserve it afresh, each time. Another sad side_effect is, I tend to forget my “rights”, my “freedom”, my “independence” etc too often😭. Only an extreme situation forces me to think of my_freedom, my_rights. I don't deserve subsidy, so I opted a white ration card (zero commodities). I gave up LPG subsidy, because I don't deserve to eat tax_payers paisa…..     

A jailor inspires me, when I think of his_freedom 😜. A prisoner set free, grants freedom to his jailor too!😜. Jailor gets FULL freedom( from his_prisioners) only when he retires. Parents get freedom only when they die🙏

Between a jailor & his prisoner getting a fatal heart_attack, that prisoner is better_fortunate😜 ….. The Jailor authorities might question a jailor, but never a prisoner “why did he die in captivity?” 😥

Un_DeservinglyYours,

psn(1 Jan 2026)