Curse of oldage

 Curse of old age

Ancients had transcended this curse, by deepening awareness, and adding buoyancy to it. (Awareness works only when afloat )

I may 'forget' now, owing to age. 🙂

Aged ones forget useful things and forget having repeated nagging worries 😂 (enough to irritate the 'few' who had_desired to help the oldies out of mercy/pity)

During youth, we manage to curb our own habits which nag others and display_more our 'helpful' abilities . 

Many don't realise that helpful/pleasantries' in us aren't habits. It's always 'conscious' actions😜

Whereas, the negatives are like second-nature.

With aging, conscious ones recede and habits dominate  😜

( That's how,  hitherto 'good' natured parents/in-laws seem to turn 'ill-mannered' now)

Result? 

Youth decide : I still love them. But, 'practically' better to fund them at an old-age home😥

Buoyantly yours,

psn(27 Sept 2025)

 Intensely Boring

I am wrong 🙏

It should be “most boring” 😜🙏🙏🙏

But, I liked to stress on my intensity with most boring ‘routine’.

It started like this..,..

A teacher in my 4th ( I must be just 10 yrs or so), at the last session before the year was over said “you all are going to get promoted to your next class, 5th.

there is no promotion for me ( a smile 😊)”

My ½ mad mind started its second track of inside_audio : “ dat's tru!!!! That poor teacher is”ill-fated” to keep repeating the same stuff to every batch for years🙏. How boring her routine must be?🤔🤔”

At that age, mind jumps to ‘next’ thought 😜

No question of “still water runs deep” wala proverb to display it's functional swaroop/form 🙏

But that thought ( wonder_element in it) stayed and kept visiting me like an annual ghost( my grandfather’s ghost is ‘welcomed’ annually, by my dad, I knew from the shraadha ceremony, a ritual at my home).

At workplace, I decided to try ‘like that teacher's( for fun only)🙏

Try to be intense in writing passbook for bank's customers. ( I borrowed a thought from my seniors, not waiting to know from my_experience, when they prophesied “passbook writing is a wretched and boring routine, but we are paid to do it ( with that ugly facial expressions 😠😓😰🥶🥵 etc)

With no scope to expect anything out of “paid COPY-PASTE job, ledger–to–passbook”, I kept intensifying CONSCIOUSLY 🙏

( Awesome rewards! But I won't ‘bore you here with those rewards’)

Next level of confronting boring task😜

At around 40, I volunteered to help freshers with backup support at a yoga centre, with what I learnt in my program earlier.

I bettered my teacher, who repeats only once every year, the text lessons, she might have felt to be a boring_routine for_her!

How to do, pranayams—daily_repeat,  for 6+ years. How to do 3 guided meditations, twice a week repetition for same 6+ years 😜

I was “in” for a pleasant surprise!

These DAMN_boring subtle practices started its job inside me . It became noticeable only after a ‘boring 4 years long time 🙏” 

After those 4 years, becoming ‘intense’ got automated. Default software.

That automation infected too badly, any damn thing I think, say or do 🙏😓😭😭😭

( Didn't I reveal the secret about why “I am the most DETESTED person to my close ones? Physical proximity in ‘close people ‘ not emotionally close ones🙏)

Boredom got bored of me 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Boringly yours,

psn(25 Sept 2025)

Feasibility and viability

 Feasibility and viability 

Is it feasibility or its viability which persuades us to use the words ‘viable and feasible’ quite interchangeably and unmindful of its  intrinsic sense? (🙏😜)

Operation Sindoor: viability wasn't a serious issue for few super power nations. Only feasibility was.

Whereas, for Bharat, viability was doubted by ‘big’ nations, and feasibility was ‘out of question’

Modi, as a PM, ignored the viability aspect, but slogged for 48 hours without sleep or break, to churn out this operation called phase 1, Sindoor. The magnitude, the scale, the effectiveness, unprecedented levels of precision + logic_defying brevity of hours too, will CONTINUE to stupify Military geniuses all over for a long time. Feasibility as a concept personified, decided to surrender to the combined patriotic might of the 3 armed forces, fuelled by Modi's unbridled grant of freedom to the army 🙏

Emotions don't yield to logic. Therefore, these two terms cease to confuse an emotionally_driven mind, intensely charged with highest positivity like patriotism, inclusiveness ( vasudaiva Kutumbakam) etc🙏

When a mind is the decision maker, about a spiritual pursuit, probably ( my guess), both ‘feasibility’ and ‘viability’ dictate their supremacy effortlessly. Emotions, if at all it tries to be charitable, only fights against ‘air’ with its sword, in futility, and the unseen adversary of emotions, laughs at emotions!

Once, the spirit awakens, both these fictional entities vanish, just as light never gets to “see” it's natural adversary, called darkness😜🙏

Non-feasibly yours,

psn(21 Sept 2025)

Gifted people

 “Gifted” people 

Each one of us is “gifted” with atleast one thing, in the strict sense of the word. 

Life is a gift. Not something that a female womb can manufacture by the conscious efforts of the Madam who ‘gets’ pregnant. ( It is entirely an other matter that we ignore any commonly occuring gift🙏😭

Gifted poet.

Effortlessly composes a poem, extempore. In fact, when he ‘becomes’ deeply emotional, that gift turns his verbal-thought-process into a poetry🤣 

I came across a story where, a commercial movie director ‘exploited’ a gifted_lyricist into composing a song 🤣. Tune had to be ‘set’ to suit the lyrics, for a Change 😜🙏.

He invited that lyricist to a ‘wet’ party(drinks) where he would suddenly confront a lady of his platonic_love, decades ago. She too was unaware of that ‘chance’ meeting of her ex-love!! The emotions surged volcanically. The poet, said “chalo ek baar phir se, ajnabi b’an jaayen hum donon”( “come on, let's both turn into strangers once again!”... To re-live those moments of platonic_love). The director had already”arranged” for a shorthand writer to take down the song-dictation🙂. A famous, ever green song now👍!!!

(non-poets like me express it as “I have no words to express my feelings” instead of accepting the truth “I am not gifted”😞 

Original equipment. That's what a gift is. Sixth finger at birth is of no commercial use. Probably that person can “show” open palms vertically to mean a “eleven” while we can display only ten. (I wonder ‘what will the Aadhar software do, with the fingerprint of sixth/eleventh finger’s impression? 🤔 ख़ैर, जाने दो 🙏 )

Nobody had to “push”/nudge me into spirituality. Even I had to ponder/wonder for 3 long decades “why am I like this?( Criticism for my oddity about my thoughts which got articulated, and invariably irritates all those who were not-gifted with born_deaf physiology 😜, made/compelled me to “look” for only_something_Wrong with me🙏). Only when I bumped into a professional, who could talk the way i_used_to_think, that “looking for a manufacturing defect” got completely reversed😜….  Effortless pursuit, then on. The timetested ancient tools seemed ‘gifts’ for me to play-with, joyously 🤣( a kid, if gifted with a toy that makes him joyous, doesn't bother EVEN about hunger in his stomach, and keeps playing with that toy. That mom searches for rare moments when the kid would open his mouth a little to push the tiny morsel of baby_food!🙂). I even wondered about Gifted Masters who could ‘sight’ gifted spiritual seekers, by merely sensing their vibes(quantum mechanics, being the gift_of_experience, here🙏.  Whereas, I had to SLOG, in an unprecedented direction( for a decade), to ‘deserve’ a coveted gift, my teacher had!😓. He could ‘see’ if the meditation is REALLY happening in a person sitting squatted, eyes closed. All of them “look alike”, squatting cross-legged, eyes closed !. No way to make out that ultra-subtle difference, which they-themselves don't know 🙏😭

How to discover that hidden/latent gift in us, other than the_best_ever Gift of a life_with_a_human form, in us????

The only way that I came across is,  to fully use that sense_of_discrimination “gifted” to all humans born with “volitional consciousness”🙏🙏🙏.  

Giftlessly yours,

psn(21 Sept 2025)

Atheism

 Atheism

Google(search) says: Denote refers to the literal, dictionary definition of a word, while connote refers to the implied or associated ideas and feelings a word suggests beyond its primary meaning. For example, a rose denotes a specific type of flower but connotes love, romance, or beauty.  

If the foregoing is acceptable, then…. The word “Brahma” is used as connotation and denotation, both!😂

People often_think of only_the denote, in the personified_form(a deity with the attribute of a human form with 4 heads, 5th one got chopped off!) in Brahma. They miss the “romance” in ‘brahma”, referred in the primary one of the 4 declaratory truths ( pragnanam Brahma)

The base of Hinduism is the 4 declaratory truths. It stood the test of time, welcoming atheists of all-sorts to deny it ( these 4 truths are not any kind of connotation or denotation, like the word “God”. Worst disadvantage is, these 4 are experiential truths, unavailable for a grasp through communicable words or emotions 🙂)

Atheism finds its existence only in the lack of experience of connoted_verbal_forms, referred by theists.

Honest atheists need courage, in its highest form. Historically, spiritual Gurus are EVER on the ‘lookout’ for genuine atheists. Genuine or honest atheists are measured by the INTENSITY_LEVEL.  Courage becomes their ‘tool’ to lead them into liberation/moksha! Courage ( to be a staunch, honest, genuine and powerfully_intense atheist) happens to be more formidable one, than all_other_tools in spirituality 🙏. 

Convenience of being an atheist is ironically 

the_most_popular form of fake_atheism 😂

Escapism works in the connotation of fake_atheism, and is very effective in confusing non_intense_theists. ( Popular quotes by famous political_atheists works as powerful ‘tool-kits’ to convert gullible folks to ‘believe’ into their atheist-ideology( not even worth as a ‘philosophy’; just_an ideology 😜).

Dishonest atheism suits cleverness, cunningness and all such PARASITICAL traits. They bring disrepute to genuine atheists( who adhere to Ethics, better than believers🙏).  Almost like, imperfect criminals who get caught, cause a disrepute to highly skilled criminals, who demonstrate that crime can also be perfect👍( only the ‘karma’ of a crime is unavoidable, in a perfect crime. Otherwise, it's a win_win thing😜). Whereas, unlike a perfect_crime, a perfectionist in atheism is faster than believers into the Ultimate human possibility, that is Liberation/moksha 🙏…( a true atheist, is an atheist for his personal reasons, not to propagate it 😜. He might even ‘pose’ like a believer, to avoid embarrassing his near & dear ones🙏)

I don't know if….

Theism connotes only a ‘belief’ and doesn't imply a living experience of those 4 truths. In which case, the liberated ones TRANSCEND the classification itself, as theists or atheists. ( Example: DNA test has obviated the ‘need’ to be a theist about Mr. X , being my biological dad😜.  Likewise, I ‘know' I have a pair of hands, and I am typing this with it, so I don't ‘need any belief's that I have two hands! Genuine seekers, that_way, turn as Ex-theists, once they ‘experience’ these 4 MahaVahyas🙏. )

Aadi Shankara established the 4 mutts, not for propagating any theism, andf…….not in the least, to engage into mass_conversion from atheism, BUT only with the purpose of making the 4 truths better_reachable to all the humans ( no matter what they believe or disbelieved in🙏)

Ex yours,

psn(17 Sept 2025)

CopyPaste a Wisdom

 CopyPaste a Wisdom 

A historic example of USE of sense_of_discrimination 🤣

In Indian army,

soldiers hailing from North(Hindi belt), laugh at Mallu soldiers who "settle down" for the humble "rice_water/chawal-ka-paani", kanji...

Mallus gulp this mockery too, quietly ( they were 'brought up' that_way..... What to do???😥)

1962 war against China.

Rations couldn't reach soldiers at the mountains. They pleaded "at least Bullets?🙏🙏🙏"( My NCC ustaad narrated his own experience 🙏)

Mallus offered Charitably 🤣 "you can have the rice. Give us just_the_kanji 👍"

Within 4 days "WISDOM" dawned on Non-mallu soldiers 😜😜😜

Kanji helped to fight back "fatigued_starvation" f-a-r better than plain_cooked_rice, stripped_off it's STARCH.

( Par_boiled rice, is an age_old_practice, in Kerala..... whether they are stubborn Hindus, or flexibly_converted_christians/muslims! 😜...  Starch becomes better digestible, in parBoiled rice, though the cooking _time&fuel is costlier than raw rice 🙏)

Today's mallus aren't that_good at using discrimination. Their CopyPaste benedicts them🙏

(My 'take' : at least copy paste a tradition which withstood the test of time, if it looks harmless to do, not waiting for the 'scientific' reason to DAWN into me😭... Life is too short, and my sense of Discrimination  awaits a teacher who can teach How_to_use it best? Even B.Ed/M.Ed colleges don't teach the teachers this🙏)

Outdatedly yours,

psn(13 Sept 2025)

superfluous apology

 superfluous apology 

We have come to love it so much that we are now really scared about listening to truth in any of its forms. 😜🤣

Just look at this possibility. We inadvertently clicked the “grievance” menu instead of the “feedback” menu from the ‘dropdown list’ of a customer portal, and wrote an appreciation there. We get an acknowledgement email in 120 milliseconds, which might look somewhat like this:

“Dear valued customer,

We sincerely apologise….( bla-bla-bla)....”

And a footnote: This is an automated reply.

😜.  ( Apologies AUTOMATED 😳…. meaning :”you are such a dumb fool, that even an automated-apology pacifies you! Psycho?)

A true incident in my life:

Just a week after I sat at a public counter as a novice, straight from home( zero training in “customer service”, so…..no plastic_smile training),

A customer of the bank barked at me. I had tried to point out some omission by him, in a document.  I kept quiet, looking into his eyes.

The manager summoned me aloud, and sent a subordinate to ‘request’ that customer too, into his cabin.

After briefly listening to the customers version, that manager got up, joined his palms(🙏) and told the customer:” sir, I apologise to you, on behalf of this clerk (me, psn)”

We both came out of the cabin. I went to my desk and the customer stride away, with his chin-up👍

After 5 minutes, that manager called me in, again! 😳

Manager :”you were right. He was wrong. His barking was inappropriate & uncalled for”

Me : “sir, then why the apology?”

Manager:”we are here to deal with his_money, not for mending his character”( lesson number 1, for me)

Me: “ Sir….then I should have apologised, why you????🤔”

Lesson number 2 now , manager : "which pleases him more? Manager's apology or clerks? I used an adverse situation to further strengthen his customer_relationship😜…. Did you see? He walked out ‘proud’..”

The joke was,

That customer surfaced at my counter 10 days later 🤣

Armed with”customer strategy” I rose to stand up, and lavished a “welcome sir, thank you for trusting me to serve you again, despite my mistake few days ago…. What can I do for you 😔🙏”

Customer: “ no no no…. I just came to tell you ‘sorry’ ….. I was not myself that day. Your words didn't sink into me properly, until I recalled it a day later, when I was relaxed. Please try to forget my bad behaviour that_day” ( 🤔  😳😳😳…. What should I say now, to suit ‘best customer service ‘? To a close friend, I know what_exactly to say. But a novice_yet?...  I nodded sheepishly, leaving him to fill in the blanks, for my loss_of_words)

3 decades later, I met a person, who possed a “spiritual guru” in him. He scolds, bashes, reprimands ( etc) his disciples quite mercilessly 🤣.  By a strange fate-or-luck, I was just one of the 2 fellows out of thousands of his students in spirituality, who didn't get a “chance” to apologise for my mistakes/miss_takes/whatever! Others, mostly, avoided being ‘vocal’ about the scope for their apologies ( it's their choice, so no comments from me🙏). Over and above that, something that others couldn't ‘help noticing’( over a decade of tutelage under him) was, he never refused or declined any request of mine🤣😜. I rarely had any occasion to be ‘vocal’ about my request! He reads minds too well😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Unapologetically yours, 

psn(12 Sept 2025)

Cruise mode

 Cruise mode

Mechanics has evolved enough to necessitate the coming of a phrase like “cruise” mode 😂

As I understand it, ( as a lay person), the alertness & awareness of the progress during the cruise mode, needs to be ‘all-the-more’ enhanced. 😜

Auto-pilot doesn't imply “forget about piloting” …. It only means “every cell of your body and brain can now-afford to focus at its peak-level on all aspects of the flight with greatest possible intelligent_alertness, having freedom from mechanical movements of your body🙏

Then it struck in me 🤔 

Hey! The ancients of satya-yug, were literally on a cruise mode, on their spiritual journey. TrethaaYug needed a bit of human intervention. DwaparaYug messed up a lot, leading into the chaos of KaliYuga that we are into now!🥺….  Even manual controls aren't really ‘working’. No bearings available to ‘read’ about where we are headed 😕. All we can see is people around are crashing into what we call as death! We stopped looking at the possibility of getting out of the aircraft, after a safe_landing, walking down the tarmac with a smile! (“Leaving the body, walking out at_will” is no_more a thing that somebody is going to look at as a possibility)

Hindu_way_of_life, known as ‘Sanatana Dharma’ was the manual, meant for cruise mode of flight into the Ultimate human possibility —-liberation/moksha/enlightenment 🙏

I am not trying to persuade my reader to get themselves educated into that manual ( cruise mode of living… or the ‘Art of effortless Living’. That's their choice 🙏👍…). 

I was only looking at what happened with my-life, during these seven decades, and was wondering as to “what am I doing now?”, when my mortal frame is handing over back to mother nature, the gifts I received at birth 😜…

A cruise mode….. is what I can describe, about my present life style past 70 years of age 😂.  I did whatever ‘best’ I could, all along, using all the hurdles, and chaos of the situation that KaliYuga offered to me, as an opportunity to grow faster, when each tiny step is a huge struggle, with every force working against me🤣🤣🤣. A memorable journey 👍. Enriching experience!  In all probability, those souls up there ‘somewhere’ keeping a vigil on me, might even_be feeling an envy, that these hurdles in-fact, intensified my spiritual growth 😜😜😜

Cruisingly yours,

psn(12th Sept 2025)

Communications network

 Communications network

In ancient Bharat, 

The SOPHISTICATION was inside own physiology (hardware  designed by mother nature)

Only the fine_tuning required a conscious choice, till it was turned into an EMBEDDED software, conveyed genetically 🙏 ( here again, invoking-of-software was a matter of own_choice 😜)

Using the hardware provided by nature had major advantages.

One significant example is, a thought goes to the recipient like today's ‘guided’ missile SEEKING it's moving_target.

A sample of its Unique utility : 

Oldies die in the wilderness of a deep forest, migrating there after the ritual called “shashti_poorti”, completing a half of lifespan of 60 ( those days 120 was average mortality rate)

Now the offspring needs to know the “date” of death of his dad, to invoke his blessings on anniversary. From a forest, a WhatsApp number? 🤣 ….  Thoughts travel ( impliedly, that Vaanaprastha_dad, knows well “here & now, I am abandoning this mortal frame, let me message to my offspring 🤔”

All the aforesaid non-sense seems ridiculous isn't it?

Personally, I started saying “Lemme see….may be it was possible“ when….

When….when……

I witnessed my gandpa’s younger brother and his wife communicated via guided_missiled_thought 😜 (I might have been barely 8 years old.) . A large ancient house. Lengthy backyard & frontyard. That grandma told me “kiddo, take this ‘kindee’ of water for your grandpa to wash his feet. (‘Kindee’ is a brass alloy vessel with a tubular outlet). 

I hurriedly reached the gate of front yard. He just walked in there !!! ( How did this lady KNOW???🤔) I quizzed that grandpa “how does she know, you are reaching the gate, when visibility from backyard is impossible?” He just chuckled saying “it's like that !”( I crosschecked it a few more times, during each of my summer holidays visits ….. to confirm the ELEMENT OF REPETITIOUSNESS, before shaping it in my mind, as a scientific Postulate.  It repeated 🙏😓😓😓).

35 years later…. 😜

A co-participant of a spiritual yoga-program suggested “hey psn, shall we try/test? Our teacher said that thoughts can be communicated!!!”. He added “you send a thought to me

 You are better at it”

He responded on a Sunday evening, by diverting from his errand(to carry jewels to his relatives far away on his motorbike).

He only ‘felt’, he should reach my home, where I was idling on a recliner chair😜. He confessed “something in me drove me to you house. No logic, no reasoning, no emotions, nothing. …. Now I recall, we had decided to ‘experiment’ 🤣… damn thing worked! Only tragedy is, no VERBAL format of your thoughts. But far-more FORMIDABLE than words🙏… don't do it again! It's not comfortable at all ☹️”

That was the ONLY one time, when I experimented it CONSCIOUSLY, and at will. 

I am thoroughly convinced about the flawless technology.

It doesn't matter, if it lacks appeal to logical minds. 🙏

Communicatively yours,

psn( 10 Sept 2025)

Setting up a Marker

 Setting up a Marker

Most of us ‘think’ only about a ‘goal’ and plan about chasing, reaching or tracking it.

Markers are Unavoidable for sportsmen, bowlers in cricket, because there is an authorised eye to ‘disqualify’ them, if they overstep that marker.

As a MEGA-example of true-sportsman-spirit, I felt unduly Lucky to find a TRUE story in my English text book lesson at my school, and it became a “marker” for the rest-of my-life 😜

The link for that story ( if the reader has tolerance for long narrative)....   https://www.bbc.com/sport/athletics/articles/cd1xlr5ewrro#:~:text=It%20was%20an%20instinctive%20sporting,athlete%20jogging%20arm%20in%20arm.

My school text book highlighted the ‘gesture’ by a German lad, who lost a gold, because of his sense of ‘fair-play’ 🤣. The better one, though a ‘black’ found a life-long friend and an indebtedness to him, that…. never_can_be repaid 🙏

As a kid, that text book lesson, ended up into ‘more than’ a marks-scoring exercise 🙏

That German became a Guru in teaching me a spiritual sense of,  what “inclusiveness” means.

Markers for me:

I was nervous about using EXACT markers. The reason was damn simple! 😜… The outside_situations of our life are NEVER predictable. 

So,

1)school timings 8:45 am ( assembly) my marker used to be within 8:15 am 😜…cushion of ½ an hour. Never I was “late”! ( At workplace, I reached an hour earlier. But couldn't escape that mocking remark from the sweeper_lady who pronounced me “you are Late_today” when I reach 55 minutes earlier, instead of usual 60 minutes ‘before’ time. I humbly ‘acknowledged’ her taunt🙏 ( my_marker, she was referring to, and therefore she is an unpaid-Audtor, shaping me ‘towards’ discipline/perfection 🙏)

A friend in State Bank of India, spinned money, using my ‘faked punctuality’. We plan a movie. I tell him:” I will be there at 6.00pm/18:00 hours” I note upto the center_second needle of his_office_clock. I adjust my marker to sync with that clock. Arriving 10 minutes earlier at the Gate, I walk in 3 seconds to_6 pm . He noticed it a few times, and offered a ‘bet’ with his colleague seated next. He “Exact 6, psn will be at the door, Bet?” The other jumped in “₹10… I bet,  nobody is that_punctual. We are “Indians” 😂”.  I walked in when that fastest needle of the clock touched “12” on the clock at 6 pm, unaware of this ‘bet’ 😥.

My friend, that evening, said ,”PSN our tickets were paid for by Mr x, today. We have 6 rupees for snacks etc during interval too😜”( an abuse of my ‘marker’...I felt inwardly 😭)

When it came to “taking spiritual lessons, the programs, intensive practices for 7+ years etc, the private+personal ‘design’ of the software I had as “my_markers” took away a huge ‘load’ off_my_FRAIL_shoulders 😂. Goal chased me ( often using my spiritual teacher).... instead of the usual “we chase our_goals” 🙏

I dunno….if I managed to ‘persuade’  my reader to take atleast a casual_look at his own markers 😳😓😓😓

Markedly yours,

psn(9 Sept 2025)