“Abey... Mundee neechey
kar”...
I was not quite familiar
with this 'mundee' ... when that 'elder' next to me thundered thus,
clenching his teeth, to keep the decibels low, but the 'thrust' of
voice quite hitting me through his 'severe' glare!
Then he placed his palm on
the back of my head, and forced me to crouch at the bench... and
added, “aisey!”.... Now, I got it! Mundee is nothing but my
'quixotic' brain, and its casing, the skull!
I looked sideways, (which
constitutes to be a 'sly-look' for others... usually I turn my whole
head, to keep the dual-eyed-focus straight... Single-eye vision did
not seem to afford the 'depth' of the object viewed!)...
Now I got the 'why' of my
mundee, being grounded to the bench!... He had to look over at the
answer sheet of the 'elder' next to me, on the 'other side' (I was
'flanked by elders' on both sides, left and right ...).
That was the “seating
pattern” devised by our school, to prevent 'copying' in our 'weekly
tests' which was then-the-name, for today's mid-term examinations at
school... I was just in 6th... the junior most in the high-school
section, and therefore was quite 'new' to the 'traditions'
established by elders! I never created further problems to any of my
elders! (Anyway, I wasn't in that rat-race for marks/ranks... at
home, I had got my instructions clear “fail in a class means,
education-stop” .. My dad and his uncles had failed quite a number
of times, in each class, and I was 'expected' to be a slight
improvement over it,... nothing more! That gave me the freedom to
'crouch' as and when required by the elders... all I was
racing-against was just 'pass-marks' plus, an insurance of little
more... nothing more-than-that.. 'non-crouched' time-space was
more than enough to get-thro'..)...
It was only the 'maths'
egjaam which tempted me beyond my self-restraint.. and I
conveniently mis-interpreted the word 'choice' to suit my craze...
5 out of ten 'sums' was the warning... I found even the time ample
for 10 out of ten, because, somehow, that maths-sums sounded quite
'eejee' to me!...(anything, to sound 'easy' had to translate into a
job done 'quickly'—those were the parameters taught to us at
school, then! And at home, I was 'wondering' why that 'stone-picking'
from ration-rice--- chaawal se kankar chunn-na--- did not sound the
opposite of 'easy' when it require a labor-intensive and time
intensive task! Too many family members, and finances were less, so
cleaning that 'ration-rice' needed help from kids in the family...
for elder males, it was a 'below-dignity' job, belonging only to
women folk!... No 'sin' involved in punishing kids, who were not
yet adults! 'Ration rice', to me was easily identifiable, when 'lot'
of pebbles/stones, white ones, were 'found' in a rice!).... And when
the maths teacher (a wizard from M.A.--maths-teachership), chided
me... I stuck to the prescribed choices ('correction' was needlessly
stretched, with my answer-paper... and therefore the warning!).
A little later, it dawned
that I too, was a 'party' to the unethical conspiracy of these
elders... but I could do nothing 'about it'... Figuratively and
literally, my head was at stake!
That led me to take a look
at 'sin' aspect a little closely... Three 'big' doubts 'came',
into my tiny mind... 1) Atonement... 2) rectification, and then
3)forgiving ...
I kept the search on...
for the equivalent of that 'forgive' in desi languages... While many
'adaptations' were force-matched to suit the convenience of
unhindered 'flow' of conversations, it(the available substitutes...
like kshama, etc.. 'maaf' seemed better!) really failed to convince
me!
The prime-doubt was...
did the ancients 'realise' that any 'error' was 'entirely' related to
the doer, and the recipient of any hurt/injury/etc of any wrong-doing
had no subjective-oriented act towards oneself, to be even looked
into, save... any remedial measure?... The ancient theory of
punishments too seemed to subscribe to this 'theory'! Maybe, it was
due to a deep grasp about 'mind-related-residues', that the residue
acruing to any erroneous act of the other, would be a sheer
stupidity, if it creates a 'residue' in the recipient! The whole of
scriptures was addressed to 'individuals' and did not warrant any
'receptivity' of residues from any act of the other... Residues are
a result of one's own reactions, not pertaining to any
source-of-outside-situation! That makes any forgivance by the other,
for our actions, to be 'redundant'!!! The symbolisms, indicated
through varied texts, seemed to make a very strong suggestion to this
concept (or-else, ...or otherwise, .... I got it all 'wrong'! So,
readers are to 'exercise their own prudence' while even 'trying' to
subscribe to this theory!)
And then, the first two,
atonement, and rectification did have its equivalent...
'Praayaschit' and 'parihaar'.. but even the colloquial equivalents
in native languages somehow managed to allow a free use of these two,
quite inter-changeably!
Parihaar was often used in
astrology, when the dosh (error) was attributed to some far off
planet, afflicting the native's birth chart... So, parihaar was not
always a response to any sin, by me or even others... it is merely
're-aligning' of something that is not 'quite-in-conformity' with
natural order of things... in tune with nature's design... or even
the cosmic laws (as per perception of an individual!).. Setting
things in order!
Praayaschit.. was
'noticeable' only when it accompanied a 'rectification-process' to
what ever possible extent!
My quixotic mind, now
tries to look at it as....
All parihaars need not be
'praayaschit-oriented' or praaschit-triggered...
Where as a Praayaschit
need not always impose any parihaar (in some cases, the scope is
extinguished even!)
I have a dictionary with
malayalam script, which translates sanskrit words into malayalam
language for giving 'some idea of its meaning' (The compiler
obviously knew the 'worth' of sanskrit language, and was conscious of
limitations while giving a translation of it, and calling it a
dictionary!)...
This is what I found...
so a quote, interpreted with my limitations:
Parihaar: 1)Tyaag
(sacrifice)... 2)render something free of its defect...
3)revere/respect (aadar karna)
Praayaschit: “The
prescribed actions, in accordance with the principles enshrined in
the science of 'Dharma' to exterminate a 'sin'...
unquote;
Now, parihaar looks far
more 'innocent' than the praayaschit, in spiritual terms!
Dharma is usually
interpreted as 'religion' while .. the ancients who coined this term
might have looked at it as 'righteousness' (the meaning implied in
that urdu sher--- “khudi ko kar buland itna”
the rest of it ... 'ke har
tehreer ke pehle khudaa khud pooche .. bataa teri razaa kya hai”...
what ever we do do become 'buland' is righteousness... no actions
prescribed... actions being situation-dependent!)
Sin, is perhaps, what ever
does not fit to be a righteous act... act of thought, word or
physical-action...
Since it is the residue of
the actions, that we accumulate often... the freedom lies in
exterminating the residue... and till then, this residue is in
'conformity' to the concepts of what can-constitute-to-be ...
also... the equivalent of a 'sin' (here, in spiritual terms, the
'social norms' of what a sin is , is not a quite 'exhaustive' list..
the society-prescribed list is 'worldly'... loukik.. and is
basically 'intended' for a smooth social order... it does not
'encroach' into spiritual-sense-of-sin... simply because, this whole
'business' of spirituality was considered to be 'purely a matter of
personal choice'... And “perhaps” it is... 'therefore'...
that a seeker is puzzled, when the 'progress' on a spiritual path is
attributed to 'strange-looking' and 'new-new' lists.. of
'defects'/hurdles... and confusing us calling 'even-that' and 'this'
as “a-sin”... Arey? Yeh sab bhi galat maana jaata hai kya?...
Baap-re-baap... kathin-pari-sthitee hai yahaan tou!... Na jaane
hum aam aadmi ka kab bedaa paar hoga!
'Debugging' seems to suit
that 'parihaar' in the e-world.. and if debugging is too difficult
to be an 'original', copy-paste of somebody's codes!.. if copy
paste is not readily available, re-route the very loop, clandestinely
... to appear as if that function was dealt with (data availability
takes time, to find the ineffectiveness of debugging.. by then, we
are on a different project.. or.. hopefully, a
group-leader/project-leader/'Manager'/etc!)... As yet, computer
world deals with 'sins', in only one way.. 'benching'!... But we
have that android-mobile etc (what ever it is!)...
psn (29th March, 2014)
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