Spiritual crisis?

 Spiritual crisis

At once a paradoxical practicality.

The paradox is we never become aware of it, till we reach a point in our lives( lifetimes,  if believable to a reader) when, no other form of crisis can affect us emotionally 😜 ( require proof?  Search for “aapat-Sanyasam” which was available until at least 1½ centuries ago in Bharat).

At my workplace, 4 decades ago, a boss stupefied me by his dynamism! He was a whirlwind throughout his office hours!  ( my guess is, if he depended on somebody for help explicitly, it was me🙏…. I could easily remain ‘aware’ of his activities from 9 am to 6 pm daily, at office, for almost 2 plus years, so my ‘guess’ is an understatement🙏… I am certain). I asked him once “sir can we not prepare well ahead of few certainities atleast, before they happen?” ….  He said, “well psn…… as a race, we Indians are addicted to “crisis management” ….it is no more a choice! We deal with a situation only when it turns into a crisis”.  An unforgettable lesson for me 🙏.  I understood the corollary instantly! 😜…  a mind can never_allow_us to recognise spirituality as a ‘need, forget about its becoming a crisis! Crisis manages us, whether we are good at crisis-management or not!

I was an exception!  Right from my kid age, nothing else mattered to me, except some vague, abstract, seeking in me. Since I couldn't even verbalize it, I never could share it with my elders( in our kid-age, we  only tell our parents/elders, our desires! They grant or reject it, but we know that we ‘asked. I didn’t know what_to_ask! 🙏😭). It is  entirely a different matter that, there were quite a few who knew, I was thirsty for it, and their “timings” were flawless😜….

I keep trying to persuade those around me to buy something which, I know for certain, they aren't interested in, and will never be interested in. Obviously,  my MRP is zero! And bargains are in minuses 😜… i spend myself into them for free😜…  Harmlessness, is an indispensable pre-requisite, for those who are trying to market spirituality! 

Harmlessy yours,

psn(25 April, 2025)

Customised spiritual tools

 Ancient giants of Bharat were thoroughly professional in perfecting a customized spiritual tool for each of their disciples. Often such tools used to be a brief chant, prescribed via an initiation. But there were additional tools, which were meant for functional applications as well. Goal was invariably only one--liberation!

Sometimes,  this concept of customisation works even with a dumb idiot like me, when situation is favorable 😜 ( there is an adage "ख़ुदा मेहरबान तो गधा भी पहलवान.... When God turns benevolent,  even a donkey turns into an invincible wrestler")

Recently, someone wrote "I am wondering....... complexity and complicated...two words! 🤔( and so on...)"

I recalled a person, 'uniquely_close' to me.  ( quite soon, we both could 'drop' the 'dependence' on our mutual relatives_wala bonds, to remain_close to each other 😜....  we transcended the fact that we are brothers_in_law, mutually🙂.

Once, he spelt out his problem_about_problems😜

"Yaar, how do you deal with confusing situations,  where both options 'seem' appropriate, despite their contrast to each other?" he quizzed! 

I found the 'situation' to be just right👍... we were walking towards a temple, which he wanted me to 'see'!  

Now, that 'walk'  took away my need to ensure that he is focused, alert and_yet_relaxed😜

I said, "simple boss!  Forget the COMPLEXITIES of each option. No need to complicate it with your_confusions!"

His focus sharpened enough to interject with "phir kya karoon? ( then, what should I do? )"... not waiting for my deliberate_pause, which was to get his attention 😳

I said in slow_motion 😜 "just look at both the options, to check whether they are life positive or life negative  it will work fine for you👍"

Before I could continue with how to deploy this 'patch algorithm' he again exclaimed "fantastic yaar! You made it damn simple! 🙏😜"

I continued, "see.... the possibilities are, both options, you might_find to be 1)one of them life positive 2)both life positive 3)both life negative 4) etc..... now you can choose any, using this litmus test, or opt_out to hunt for that proverbial 'Plan-B' like our cunning politicians 😜🙏🙏🙏"

( my guess is, he found this tool handy till his last breath 🙏🙏🙏)

I can't 'speak' about his_trust in_me🙏.... too-sacred, though Nothing secretive/private/personal/confidential/etc about it!

Testily yours,

psn(20 apr., 2025)

Sync with nature

 To write about “nature” one has to match the levels of some great being like Mr Ralph Waldo Emerson 🙂🙏

But then,  to understand Emerson, a reader needs extraordinary skills! ( here, that ‘extra’ is to be looked at as ‘more-ordinary’.... simplicity at its best! )

I can try to look together with my readers, with all the humility possible by me, as to ‘how well we sync with nature?’

When we ‘started’ to feel a ‘little’ accountable/responsible for spoiling our ecology, environment too badly, we invoked our ResponsAbility to try to restore the nature-of-nature. We are ‘thinking’ in terms of polluting nature a bit less! ( logic is the only ‘fellow’ presenting hurdles to our efforts! 😜. Example: advanced nations are trying to ‘get-away' with logical-polluting levels, by trading carbon-entitlements, with innocent societies of underdeveloped nations!)

As an individual,  a baby is full of emotions. Logic is absent, till it learns logic! 

Does “nature” use logic? ( nature's rules are there🙏….  We humans strive to understand “nature” using our_logic! Right now, we are stuck at understanding quantum theory and are trying to understand quantum entanglement theory, scientifically!  Our definition of “scientifically“ cannot do without logic😜

Within us, which of the 2 is a gadget that came as a factory-fitting ? Logic or emotions?    Adults get more attracted towards a baby, than a baby does towards we_adults! Isn't it?  We get attracted towards ‘what’ in that baby? Face? Eyes? Even a born-blind baby ‘stirs’ something in us, and we feel an emotional bond, isn't it? 

While growing up, we got too busy to do well with our logic! A few among us, even managed to supress emotions a lot, to do “well” in their lives! Such ones, ended up asking “what's the point?”, and then attempted to detach themselves from their possessions to revive their emotions😜. 

Is it necessary to neglect/ignore/avoid/supress/etc ….our emotions,  its potentials,  to succeed in “life”?  Other life forms don't need to think_of “success” in their life the way we do!  And we “brand” them as “it's their nature”!  Then what's ours?  Was our intellect to be used to ignore emotions in favor of evolving into logical skills? 

How do we relate with others? Logically, emotionally, or an customised-blend of both? 😜

Does it make sense to try to “maintain“ our synchronicity with nature? ( at birth, we too were as_natural as all other life forms! A baby “cries” and at times the mom “fails” to know_logically, ‘why is my baby crying now?’  a joke: my female cousins and elders often used to seek my unmarried sisters help to solve this puzzle “can you find out why my_baby is crying now?”.... and my sister remained unmarried throughout her life, while she was the expert around us, to find out the “emotinal” reason of a baby crying for no_apparent_reason! The joke was, she would proceed to pacify that baby, instead of Wasting_time to educate its mom😜

Spirituality,  ….. most of us find it elusive( it doesn't ‘evade’ us🙏… we evade it using our-logic, to excuse_ourselves, saying “logically, it is useless!” Medical science tooooo/too, unhesitantly chops off our appendix using the logic “it's anyway useless as an organ👍… “ to relieve a patient from appendicitis 😜

Emotionally yours,

psn(18 April, 2025)

Embedded qualities

 Embedded qualities 

Today's minds are familiar with embedded software. Hardwares are easier to understand the functional abilities and limitations in them.

And ignorance or carelessness to maintain-awareness about them can give birth to annoying ‘bugs’ 😜 ( at my work place, a menu was designed to make the ‘cursor’ wait at an input box, till some numerals are punched. That amount column will pop-up an error message like “amount cannot be zero” if the data-entry person taps the “enter” button with default-zero!  I discovered a ‘way’,  to make the cursor ‘jump’ to the next data field😜. And then, I could generate a ‘set’ of balanced vouchers, with one of them showing a zero amount😂…. Ofcourse, once I could demonstrate the existence of the bug to my systems incharge,  we deleted that transaction!  “Pointers” are obscure but active, even in embedded softwares! Just “invoke” it and it springs to “life”)

Am I able to drive the point home? Young turks/techies should decide.

What about a human hardware?

Emotions and logic, as it's software?

Logic can be       an “upgraded” software, if we choose to do it 🙏

Emotions? Does it need an upgrade, or just invocation? 

Look at a new born. 

Almost zero logic in it as a newborn baby. But equipped with tools called ‘learning-skills’ ….  A mom, inadvertently ‘teaches’ to the baby “hey, kiddo, you catch my attention faster, if you cry aloud, and I scurry to feed my milk to you👍” And the same mom wonders much later 🤔 “how did my child turn into a cry-baby? He keeps lamenting for everything and anything! 🙄😳” ( well, embedded software got upgraded! Logic got cemented & concretized,  “get your things by complaining a LOT” …..that innocent baby-cry got more sophisticated as he grew into a youth! HR people at workplace will classify him as an illogical-cribbing-deadweight! )

An AI robot presents a difficulty to the inventors! They struggle to replicate human emotions into that machine, while they are unable to design a software, which needs only an invocation to make it functional,  like in human beings! ( a baby's emotions function at its peak levels, during all its waking hours. It laughs, cries, or shows anger quite intensely, and damn-illogically, isn't it? Pure emotions ‘appeal’ a lot to an adult, observing a baby, and they find it tough to answer my ‘silly-koschan’ like “what exactly in a baby is attracting your loving-affection towards it? Toothless-laugh? Cheeks, chin, forehead, eyes, ears, or altogether? “ 🤔).

Our dispute with existence of Gawd/God is essentially due to its lack of a logical-appeal, isn't it? A kid would easily become ‘victimised’ into a blind-belief that “God exists”, because he isn’t-even aware of needing a logical reasoning to support that belief! And as a grown up, most ones give-up the possibility to experience that ‘entity’  which eludes an accurate description 🤣. Representative-definitions fail to substantiate God as an existing entity🙏. ( perhaps, only-until we ‘touch’ the core of our-own-being which powers both, logic & emotions in us! Most of us keep-searching for that core, that power, inside the accumulated data-dump, we know as our mind😜. Data is plural of datum,  not the ‘power-source’ that operates the pile called Karmic-residue/sanchita-or-prarabhda karma! 

How to invigorate our emotional prowess to function at its peak, with total control over it?  A deeper level software right within us, “maybe”?  

As long as “logic” decides the arena and scope of our exploratory software in us, the source of our emotional software can elude+evade us😜🙏🙏🙏. And logic keeps flexing it ever-growing muscles to negate anything that is unavailable to logical-scrutiny! We dismiss a baby's illogical intense emotion,  despite its attraction which rivets our attention 😜

Tools to tap our “core” were perfected long ago, in ancient Bharat! But appeal for trying out those tools, needs an “emotion”( not logic), called TRUST.  

Trustingly yours,

psn(13 april, 2025)

Vibes

 Latest fashion is to talk about our 'vibes' 😂

Doesn't matter, if the damn-thing doesn't happen in us really. ( feel-good part of saying it, copypasting a trendy-phrase, gives vicarious boost to the psyche! "Positive vibes" sends a good feel, when told to somebody!  

I feel gratitude to this modern fashion,  for atleast 'talking' about it! Whereas, the reality often is, the body language matches 'somebody's' desires of mind there( own and/or others) but nothing to do with actual 'vibes'.

As a kid, I used to feel only subtle level vibes. I couldn't even 'name' it. ( I recognize it, from the memory of it, only after3½ decades! )

Physical aspects of vibes are easier to make a humble beginning.  A 5 feet tall, 2 feet wide "sound amplifier" placed at a huge hall for music etc, is within the 'reach' of anybody standing 6 inches away from it, when it blares😂. Stomach vibrates in-sympathy😜

Somebody was describing one's own experience of vibes within, while producing the 3 basic sounds in nature, as a part of a spiritual practice. 

I felt, it is time to tell that person, a little more about vibes and its physical aspects! Better to recall my experiences.  Convincing is easier!🙏🙂

I wrote:

f) the 'f'( 6th item of practices, a,b,c,d,e,f) has made a small but significant step towards progress!

How well somebody progresses or responds, has always-been a mystery for me, ever since I started volunteering in a humble way from sept 1992.

At Tatabad centre( a place for backup support to freshers), a few would say " it vibrates a little" ( when I do and they merely sit in vajrasana eyes closed, a feet away, facing me😂)

An uninitiated lady at home, idling near kitchen said "after a while, I felt as if I was doing the a,u,m"( what she didn't realise was...... if she were 'doing' it.... no surprise. When she initiates it --the vibes are natural-- and listens to it as well.)

While I was doing it, only the 'hearing' ought-to-happen! Why that 'doing-feeling'?

I didn't 'explain'! 🙏😰 ( I will have to recall the tuning-fork experiment taught at school in the physics lab!😭...   not worth narrating😂...   mind dumps many of 'such'  quiz-puzzles in few minutes🙏😔...   element of 'wonder' ceases to nag us after we grow into adulthood!

Vibrantly yours,

psn(11apri,2025--- desi day 'panguni-uthram' mallus say)

Nothing

 "Nothing" said my kid age friend of past 70s like me, when we both looked together at 'purpose' of human life!

I wrote thereafter.....

🤣

When you said "nothing"

You are 100% right!

Full marks!

( अब,  eggjam/exam में  maths का  answer सही है,  तो  full marks ही न? 

समझ के,  या अंधी चोट,  ये तो अध्यापक नहीं,  गुरु ही जान सकता है 🙏)

ख़ैर, 

"Nothingness" is said to be the "base of this universe"

Logically, vast emptiness of space, way beyond galaxies etc..... is still a "space".  

Space, used to be a nothing for us. Now, we deepened our perception enough to guess assertively. कि,  quantum entanglement,  a subtle phenomenon,  functions_in_space 😄🤣

We ought to "test our tools" using which we conclude🙏

Mind तक पहुंचने के बाद,  "intellect "  became the big fish into the net. 

Intellect cannot function with mind's incessant interference ( all known wise men agree! Yet, we ought to confirm this for our_own_sake🙏)

If we are "sure", that

We never bothered to see, if there can be inputs other than 5 sense organs.  It's just a question of deepening sensitivity ( an advanced AI robot will conclude that humans do stupid things🤣....  emotion के बारे में उसको मालूम होने की no  गुंजाईश  & emotions are illogical 😂🤣....   limitations of input devices मायने रखता है 🙏)

How deep can we go into human intelligence?

Ancients have "delved" deeper into it.

They "attempted" to transcend mind( not by-pass  mind), to explore .

We talk of my_mind, my_body. So, a possibility of that "me, my" as something else!

The entire "nature" through its life forms,   'might' offer some clue(they must have deduced).

In short, the 'essence' of their search and the inference, which they conveyed to posterity,  can be summed up as "seeking to expand".  आज तक ये  disprove नही हुआ ! 🙂

The manifestation of this 'seeking expansion'  is easily seen in endless greed in few humans😆

Trees, animals etc seek expansion in numerous ways! 

If this theory is valid, then it makes sense to find out "core" source of this seeking ( to expand). 

बहुत है 😄 ( there's a lot, in that nothingness 🙏😔. Experiential only!)

Everything yours,

psn(7 April, 2025)

Basics & fundamentals

 Quite similar looking terms, words. ( not as easy as difference between "achievement" & "accomplishment"😜)

The difference being too subtle, we pick an easy route. Treat both as same. Consequence is 'not my problem. ( some day, all our items of 'not mine' list will become "our problem". Later "our problems" become ìnevitable, irreparable,  un-solvable, etc, when mutual trust turns unreachable! 

We became oblivious to the "basics" of life! 

A new born baby actually reminds us of the neglected "basics". But, we are too busy to "observe" keenly and learn from a "fresh and new" life! 

Is not "interdependence" basic to life?

To maintain life, the fundamentals need to be strong. Premature babies are with weak fundamentals.... it may need additional-support ( incubator, protection from climate, from tough to digest intakes, from negative treatments if emotionally weak.... etc).

It is this "deeper" understanding of basics and fundamentals that enabled ancients to "transcend" even nature! 

Trust and love are "viewed" in exclusivity.  It is okay to use "love" as basic to bonding, since "trust" eludes a thorough grasp😂😜 ( can we mistrust somebody, and still love him? Vive-versa?)

Moksha, liberation is tough only due to our inability to understand and then also_accept the basics and fundamentals of life at the required_level🙏...  who within us has_to_understand? Body, which is dependent on mind and the being? ( "being", is too subtle for a mind to identify it! ). Mind is dependent on the "being". When our dependents 'enslave' us too much, where is the question of freedom?( moksha, liberation).  

Where do we start? ( if it makes 'sense' to live as-best-as possible?)

Why should I bother about basics and fundamentals? ( anyway, when these 2 start shaking badly, the "why" gets dissolved! Eternity can wait, longer than we can👍.... so, finish all our games and then say "and now....yoga"--- 1st line of Patanjali's book---.... Or, attend to basics, strengthen the "related fundamentals"  enjoy eternity throughout,  with a free_being....being_free internally +experientially 🙏... Choice is ours.  A drama artist can enjoy-plus-perform his role well only when he is aware-throughout, that it is only 'a role'. An artist "stuck" into his role misses retirement 😉. He refuses to "come out of that role". Misery is the only outcome, whether that "role" was a hero's, villain's, comedian's or anything! )

Did I get the fundamentals right, about the basics of our lives? 

Basically yours,

psn(3 April,  2025)

A teaser 😍 

If you think you are not enslaved to your body, then look at this link 🙏 ( I dont know how long this link will be available on YouTube)

https://youtu.be/f05QeUJbmiI?feature=shared

( can we "walk out of our body like this, at will?. Right now, we all can walk out of a car, at will, not waiting for its breakdown 😜)