Unofficial Vow

 Unofficial Vow

Traditionally a vow is understood as “a formal and serious promise (especially in a religious ceremony)”.

My ultiKhopdi (ultikhopdi is a Hindi word, more apt about me, to describe “quixotic” mind in English) … my quixotic mind is unable to come out of the ‘observation’ that a few guys around, when they ‘knowingly’ engage into doing something that is a negative act unto themselves, and they do it repetitively, I am irreversibly compelled to view it as a vow! 😭🙏.    Like somebody habituated to utter nonsense and very routinely says a “sorry” soon after— is he under a ‘vow’ ? He knows “sorry” is NOT an apology 😜.  It's like “sorry to hear that you failed in your examination 🙏”----nothing to apologise to the other🤣.

Eating ‘junk’ food, is like an unofficial vow “I shall do everything possible to make my doctor rich 🙏”

Manufacturing tension, hypertension, even about a situation where we know that it is an inevitable outcome of our own past routine, seems like a vow “I undertake to remain stupid, and therefore I need to create tension within 🙏.  I have to avoid sensibility, which is unavoidable if I remain relaxed_while_ALERT 😭🙏🙏🙏”

I couldn't ‘contain’ it within myself, this stupid curiosity “are they under an unofficial vow, to patronise absence of intelligence?🤔”.    How can I ask someone directly, “are you observing a Vow Sir? That you will avoid sensibility?” 😳.  He would get angry!  If my curiosity “gets the better of me” …. I try something like “why am I haunted by a negative thought that you are capable of doing this better????...  I can see that you are already doing your best👍” Safe question.

I thought, let me compile my “silly questions” and take a safe_risk 😜 ( if it is safe, where is the risk?... I am trying ‘a’ stupidity😂).  A blog “silly questions”...and a follow on… as “silly doubts”.   Stupendous success👍.  No responses to convince me that I am wrong about unofficial vow 😜. 

Ideally, “quality questions” from a student is a sure hint for the teacher to know “this kid is a potential candidate for high speed growth of intelligence 🙏.  But, the volume of syllabus is a deterrent to encourage questions in a modern classroom. Exam-Scores are proportional to expertise in ‘copypaste technology’👍.  By_heart + vomit it in the examination ( again a ‘kind of unofficial vow by the fraternity of academia —” we shall not allow intellect to be nurtured”)

The widely misconstrued version of “freedom is a fundamental right”  suits damn well, such unofficial vows of self_destruction. Nuclei families are shrinking further into living separately together, even within a pair of parents & just a kid 😜.  No intrusion into others mindset 👍🙏

Unpromisingly yours,

psn(19 Oct 2026)