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Friday, October 30, 2026

Civic sense

 Civic sense


We guys in India look at this sense (civic) as an alien 😜


We love chaos, quite unofficially.


Look at this unique qualification “this Mr X drives through the middle of our “Y” metro City and still he didn't meet any accident since last 10 years👍” ( the guys who give a PhD are zero competition to this ‘award’ 😜..,). Driving licence is not a qualification certificate 🤣, in real life 😞.


We protest ONLY  about a competitive exam, but NEVER about a qualifying exam 👍, if there is any kind of foul play like ‘leak’ of question paper, etc…. ( Best example: There is a test for knowledge of traffic rules before a driving test for a driving licence. Ever heard of any question paper leak? Does it mean there is no leak? It's because ‘anyway the licence holder is going to drive through only a Chaos….not a ‘traffic’, so that leak is inconsequential to both sides. And co-examinees simply don't care about others👍. A tout who does the job always has the (ever lasting) last_laugh, when a leak-culprit elsewhere gets punished 😜.


We ‘discuss’ civic sense only when we do not end up victimising anyone for the lack of it 🙏.  We owe this attitude to our ancestors who butchered the core values in our Irreligious Hinduism, quite unawares 😜. 


The worst victims of our present day's lack of civic sense are those who are honest to the ‘core’ ( they hang on to honesty and uprighteousness even_when nobody is watching 😜🙏). Until recently, an honest guy suffers misery if he is a staff in most of the government offices, especially where bribes abound👍. This guy is like a thorn in the neck ( perennial source of anxiety😥).



There was a time long long ago, in Bharat, when things like Civic sense, freedom, human or civil rights etc were superfluous 😜.  The unison factor replaced all these, INCLUDING a need_for_unity, alongside the redundancy of enacted laws which was obviated by the time tested tool of banishment/बहिष्कार 👍. The seed is still available,though dormant. Bharat's heritage as a spiritual destination 🙏🙏🙏.  A personal experience of one's own spirit within obviates all kinds of civility 👍. 


My guess is, we are a miracle among other nations, when none of the logical yardsticks are able to figure out ‘how this country runs so well despite so much chaos everywhere’ 😜


I am over_awed by the unanimity in the commuters of Bombay_local_trains( I don't know about “Mumbai”)🙏.  A mystic sense of brotherhood (only during the travel, a mystery in itself) demolishes every logic to explain the miraculous crowd, traveling thus, every 365 days an year, unmindful of whether there can be a solution for this super_chaos. Even I found travel through it in my kid days as ‘no probs’ 👍)


( I am myself unable to figure out how and why my spiritual pursuit survived so many decades, when  everything ‘needed’ to deter me, had always been there, around me 🤣…  Obviously, my blogs, though a reflection of my experience only, don't impress a reader to question me, my blogs or at least my lack of civic_sense in writing such blogs 😜. I failed to impress even my neighbours, when I did not use the storm drainage to drain the sewage from my home 😭🙏. By themselves, none bothered to notice it 😜).



Senselessly yours,

psn(30 Oct, 2026)



1 sure symptom of true friendship

 1 sure symptom of true friendship 



( Applicable to me, since I experienced a deep emotion, out of that fellows illogical act 🙏)


A ‘build up’( 😜):

Doctors grab at a “sure” symptom when tests are likely to be elusive in a diagnosis ( I don't know the parameters of ‘true’ friendship 😭)


A well paid nurse in an ICU for a patient, struggles to_be_with a patient….when the doctor says “50-50 only– Wait for 24 hours to decide even what can be done 😳” ( even that expert nurse might turn away from the patient, for 3 to 5 minutes… she knows, “no risk for her job” 😜)



Logic:

I am a very stupid guy. It's hard to please me with obligations 😥😥.  Forget “funding” my needs/desires/luxuries.( I can buy my ‘needs’. At my age wants/desires are a bit below the list of needs 😥🙏)

That leaves ‘me’ with very little ‘tools’ to test a friend's “true” friendship. 


Fact :

One crazy guy managed to surmount all these hurdles.

He demonstrated (inadvertently though) something that constitutes as a fool_proof symptom of his true friendship 👍 (unconditional because, neither of us find even a “scope” out of what he chose to do 😳, as a ‘benefit’ of any kind 😥)



The act : this guy didn't leave me alone for a week( that means, 24/7), during my exclusive visit to just_be_with_him 😳 ( no agenda). Oh yes! I was ‘allowed’ to be by_myself in the bathroom and toilet 👍. But at night, he slept beside me 🙂


This happened a few years ‘ago’.  No reaction or response from the ‘few’ to whom I told this👍. Therefore it is harmless even as a blog.



Rare kind of act,( though it  is damn easy for even a fool to replicate), … I am tempted to ‘treat it as sacred’( hence, no clues from me about ‘who that guy is?’... It shouldn't matter to a reader👍).


An easy symptom (when a friend is a ‘difficult guy to please’ like me😜) and yet rare to become a choice of ‘friendly guys’, is precious for me, 🙏 


That guy simplifies his choices. That must have empowered him to ‘celebrate’ my proximity, when there is no scope for any thing else…  “just be with ‘psn’ as much as possible 👍” .   And he did just that 😥.  ( It was me, who turned out this ‘beyond logic’ wala tough gesture as a true sign of genuine dosti 🙏)



Hopefully yours,

psn (30 Oct, 2026)


Information Versus Advice

 Information Versus Advice 



“Take my advice, its of no use to me”

( I don't see this joke becoming Viral 😞)


I feel I ought to update my status on the social media ( WhatsApp etc) “please take back your advice, it's not going to work for me EITHER” 😂



Information:   labels on medicine packs “For external application only” . Doesn't even ADVISE “your funeral, if you are still stubborn enough to gulp it 😡”



My guess:  until at least 300 years ago, only evolved guys indulged into using the language as an interface of communication for conveying “advices” (What we refer to as scriptures were by ONLY evolved guys. Even historians were having the ‘basic common sense’ to make sure that they were EMOTIONALLY EQUIPOISED before documenting what they saw as ‘worth of history’).


The best ever DIY kit 😜 

It deals with the gadget that's supposed to be everlasting 😜 ( our life energy ticking inside us 😥. Soul/atma/spirit/any nonsense/etc.  The author was too humble to add his name even 🙏.  We call it as “Patanjali’s” yoga Sutra. It's a unique scripture because it qualifies as both—advice and information 🙏 

Obviously, the book has_to_be tough to a primitive, inexperienced mind 🙏 



Literacy in our school/college today, is leaning closer towards information. Education is left to the vagaries of the situation 😭, when very few are even bothered, to look at Parenting related to the mind & intellect 🙏.



We have decided to OUTSOURCE both…information and advice to A.I. 

( we didn't create ourselves, for sure 🙏.   Whichever entity did it, created the universe, has given us the freedom to choose the ‘what we do with it’ of the resources made available to us. Some of us are aware of ‘few’ misdeeds of our past like addiction to commercial thoughts, exploiting the ecology etc.  That ‘creator’ didn't Advise us, directly atleast 🙏. He trusts in his creation, despite a few of us negating even the existence of ‘some creator’ 😜, oblivious to self-contradiction involved)



If I seem to make sense, though it is ONLY an information that I gathered, is it worth investigating/investing in this information?(Investments are subject to market risks🙏. Consult your intellect before you invest— like you do about any of my blogs😜🙏).



Informatively yours,

psn(30 Oct 3026)



Punch : Readers can try to decipher about “opinion” which is neither an information nor an advise 😜 ( doctor advises only a SECOND opinion —clever guy👍)

Thursday, October 29, 2026

A reason to un-exist

 A reason to un-exist


A confession:  this applies ONLY for me 🙏


Disclaimer:  any freak/stray chance of a reader's mind find any tiny speck of appeal in my ‘way of reasoning, unto myself only’ is purely coincidental and unintentional 🙏



Of late, my post retirement life has persuaded me to re-prioritize my priorities.


I find my body complying with the design of nature's embedded software ( a tree/plant/etc is energetic in growth till it touches it's own designated level of ‘maturity’. Then onwards, it diverts its energies towards preservation and propagation of species. Third stage, it surrenders itself to the degeneration process, as per gazette notification of nature). 

Humans are beings of Volitional consciousness 🙏, and therefore need to make_a_conscious_choice about this 😥

Ancient Bharat had witnessed evolved guys. They merely took to forest dwelling 🙏( “vanaprastha”). 

I am unable to opt relocation to forest (despite a recent incident of a field awardee from Russia, choosing a hermitage of a forest, with his aged mom—as reported in news media 😜🙏).


But I owe it to my fellow humans that I don't impose myself on them, when the mutual incompatibility is glaringly visible 🙏. 


Under the existent situation, I am obliged to do my best unto them. And it has to be ‘within’ the framework of existing social norms, so as to absolve my fellow beings from any kind of possible-negativity as  a lingering residue towards me 🙏 ( a joke: a miser tortured his clients with exorbitant rates of interest all his life, due to sheer sadism. When he sensed death, he gathered his victims “see, i am about to die🙏. I wish to atone my misdeeds of torturing all of you all my life 😭. Please use a long bamboo stick inserted through my mouth, coming out of my other end of my dead body, to carry me to the cremation ground “. Villagers thought “good riddance!😓. Last wish. Atonement. Lets oblige him”. They carried him on a stout, long bamboo stick. On the way, the police stopped them and said “you all are under arrest. He sent a letter informing that he is likely to be tortured to death with a bamboo stick thus. We caught you ‘red handed’ in this act”....( Joke over 🙏…  I don't want to end up like that sadist 😜)



Un_exist :  I become as inconspicuous as possible 🙏.  Reduce my interactions to the bare minimum necessary 👍. The grocer is a modern mind. He is ‘tuned’ to focus only on the commercial aspect, stoically towards emotions 🙏 ( 99% of today's minds are engaged only in thoughts which can be easily traced to some kind of commercial value 🙏  I am able to make use of this composure of minds, to minimise my presence, by confining my wants and desires to be below the levels of my needs to keep my body and soul together 😜👍). 

No “excuses” now, for the cunningness residing in my memory 😜.  


A win-win situation for all.


( Even this stupid blogging activity was under a severe scrutiny, to see if it is intrusive 🙏.   But then, its like any grain of sand in the vast desert of data stored in the cloud technology 👍.  A.I. is the supreme court, of late, empowered to sentence my blogs to death 👍.  I just fade out naturally 😂)



I don't even ‘explain’ myself about my un_exist to those who tolerated me thus far. I don't exist in their experience. Their minds are sufficiently busy, only then  to be reminded of me, at all. 👍😂🙏🙏🙏. ( We saw movies describing zombies as ‘undead’. Scary beings 😂.  ‘Un-exist’ is my own idea, not a valid phrase).



Inconspicuously yours,

psn(29 Oct 2026)

Process

 Process 



A funny interaction with a close friend.


Me : I complicate it a bit for maths guys 



A eats 2  circular pizzas of 5 inch diameter (instead of one 9 inch  diameter)


B     eats  2 squareones of 5 inch diagonal instead of single 9 inch diagonal.



Both lose 👍


Who loses more, proportional to the size?


Friend: Explain with working to pass it on to him ( a kid) tomorrow. ( not his ‘area’ of operation about it, says friend)



Me: Youngsters should learn it on their own 🙏



Examples/problems/sums are meant to test whether they grasped the concept …..of "perimeter " around a circle, square or rectangle 🙏


If a teacher 'does' the working, they learn regurgitation, instead of concept 🙏


Friend: Okay 



Me:  Whether it is breath-watching 

or

Looking at a maths problem....


Quick fix solutions don't last 😜( beyond scoring in an eggjam/exam)



The mind has to quieten, thereby paving way for the intellect to observe and instruct the brain (physical organ) to examine the applicability of related concept(which is to-be-retrieved from the memory of the mind 🙏). 


Such invocation of the resources ( memory) from the mind and the imagination of future possibilities (a sequential access of the mind, empowered by a 'well-tamed' positive emotion ( again the resource of the mind), supervised by the intellect and processed by the brain, is what we experience as a discovery 😜🙏🙏



My experience:

I kept doing a practice of expelling air in the lungs using the stomach muscles and the diaphragm muscles, a thousand times 😥. My mind just quietened. Intellect 'slowly' woke up "okay, lemme watch'...  Brain's output retrieved a match (from mind's memory) "bird is responding 😳🤔". Intellect redirected the brain to 'conduct' a quick analysis, retrieving the data stored related to 'sound' and the concept of vibes designated a 'sound' learnt+stored in physics 😜

Brain quickly processed the inputs gathered 'selectively'( tamed emotions did the trick😂. No over_ambitious wild guess or imagination 🙏).

It 'dawned' on the intellect ----  birds sense waves produced outside the range of decibels sensed by human auditory device, ears. They 'respond' to certain vibes🙏(not our_Sound). The hectic, mad + crazy+intense pace of bellow-action of my stomach……might have 'triggered' a vibe via nose, which matched the 'need' to respond, by the birds. It responded.


Now, the intellect says " look for the scientific element of repetitiousness also, to make sure that our discovery is not Flawed"

The body obeyed the brain, responding to the messages via neural network 🙏


The analysis and re--discovered concept is now a "proud possession of my mind,  in its memory 🙏😥" Intellect said "see, even the process of discovery is sacred 🙏. Preserve its sanctity" to which emotions said with an equipoise " जो हुकुम मेरे आक़ा"/as you instruct🙏)



( I don't really expect any ‘normal’ response to the concluding reply, and intellect prefers to ‘wait and watch 😂)



Part processed, yours,

psn (29 Oct 2026)

Sunday, October 25, 2026

When a threat or blackmail is useless

 When a threat or blackmail is useless



🤣


Usually, “emotional blackmail” works when a relationship is not totally commercial.



But when a guy declares openly “I have NOTHING to lose”???? 🤔( Like jihadis? 🙏)


I faced such a guy once. That incident enriched me with the rarest_of_rare kinds of tools, which I used 3 decades later, when I volunteered to help freshers in a spiritual program.



My readers are anonymous to me 🙏. I can only request (blackmail is superfluous) “please tell your own minds, the author has requested to treat the incident as bogus/fictitious, and therefore don't dig deep. Instead look for any value addition based concepts”


Story:

A notorious guy got transferred to my location of workplace. The union_boss warned  me “PSN, I apologise. I bargained for a lesser punishment instead of dismissal, since his family is dependent. Please manage. I named your office, because you are more united”( Damn, I thought, unity is to be punished like this😡)


This guy “D” belongs to the type “ I have nothing to lose”.

I wasn't that type 🙏… I am able to visualise a situation where “I am desperate to lose something 🙏” (loose motions, and the 4 toilets are engaged. I can't retain the something i want to lose, loose motions 🙏).


My boss was disturbed. His power and authority won't work on this guy.

He asked me to handle: ”psn, he's your union_member. Handle him”

I stipulated a “condition” ( like the first ever stenographer, Ganesh did to Vyasa, who dictated Mahabharata)... I told my boss “i I need your approval to assign whatever duty I like, to Mr D”...     Boss said “okay, anyway he is not going to obey anyone 😜”


I told D “I am authorised to allot duty to you. You will sit on this stool, until I ask you to get up and do something. You are free to go for lunch, drinking water and to the toilet. But officially, sit there”

It worked 👍. He was overjoyed “Ah! Am I not a success! Zero work, yet pay is guaranteed “


3 others, who belonged to D’s cadre, started grumbling “we do even his share of work 😭”( not true.   He was an extra person, not a replacement. But psychology works differently 🤣).   I told the 3 “do you not trust me 100%!?.... And you continue to trust me, because it worked for years. Can't you invoke the same trust for just_3 more days 🙏,?😥”...  They agreed to ignore him enjoying no_work 👍


4th day 😜

D was no exception to the subtle and totally internalised torture of doing nothing.  He started squirming on the stool the whole day ( those 3 even satiated their sadism with a teaser “stool has thorns? Pricking your bottom? Like to park your bottom on another stool?” etc)


5th day he requested me to go to him (sitting on stool, until told) and said “UNBEARABLE for me. Please allow me to do some work 🙏”

I had no ill_will, enmity, hate or anything against him ( it's his physiological design to function his_way, and I am manufactured in my_way).  But, my structural design is programmed to confine D to suit my colleagues. So I stipulated: “okay, but anything that threatens the peace of my class of staff, if you do… I invoke this power to assign you to sit quietly on stool”

He agreed readily.

He discovered the joy of teaming with the 3 unconditionally. Those 3, bitten by the memory of his notoriety, took care not to abuse his cooperation.


I got relocated soon after. But those 3 never wrote to me anything to complain against D.


Story over 🙏



I used this experience to help freshers to transcend their problems with sitting quietly ( meditation is torturous, if mind can't be quiet 😥)



Inconspicuously yours, 

psn (25 Oct, 2026)

Sequel : try intellect if you cannot complain

 Sequel : try intellect if you cannot complain




Sequel to my previous blog🙏😥


A joke:

Until a century ago, a namboothiri is prohibited from saying “enough” or “a little more please” to the person serving food during a feast.

Reasons are very very deep 🙏. A modern mind is not compatible with the reasons if I spell it out 🙏 ( level of spiritual evolvement was high!)


But, our “N”namboothiri) in my joke, lived within this century 🙏. And a feast, where he was constrained to abide by this tradition.

A kid was serving a watery dish called “rasam”. Banana leaf is the eating plate. Tough to ‘hold’ rasam from flowing out of the leaf 😭

Kid is not a PhD in maths. Ratio and proportion is out of syllabus for the kid.


N used his palm to gather the rasam and gulped the excess. Kid thought “this guy is enjoying rasam 👍. My duty to serve him more 👍 ( ye dil maange more –rasam)”


It went on & on.

N cannot complain. Kid won't stop.


A golden opporChutney sprung up.

Kid enquired as a matter of social courtesy”Mr N, how many members in your household sir?”


When a mind is prohibited from complaining, intellect is ‘given’ a chance to try a solution 😜🙏


N, grabbed the opportunity and replied “If I manage to survive despite this unstoppable flow of rasam that I am forced to drink, there will be 19 members INCLUDING me, in my household 👍🙏”( kid got the message! Technically, N didn't say “enough of rasam for me😭”



In highly paid IT companies, no use complaining😭.  And within 2 years, a software professional gets habituated to CopyPaste of codes😥. The innovation curve tends to become flat. Intellect is not ‘selective’ to function only when ‘complaint’ is useless. Attrition Zindabad 👍.


I too resorted to quitting before the age of superannuation 🙏. But not without the help of my pint_sized intellect 😜. It was ‘because' of my intellect 🤣. ( I have cleverly planted the details of that incident in another distant blog👍😜…  Didn't want to get into trouble 🙏). I didn't complain, but decided to quit+retire. My wants and desires ranked lower than my needs🙏😭. So, forsaking the salary was more “practical”. 



It's not wise to “supply” examples of intelligence rescuing in the situations where complaining is futile🙏



Gullibly yours,

psn(25 Oct 2026)




Why do we complain?

 Why do we complain?


😂 I don't receive any complaints about my blogs. But I know, the complaints are numerous 😥. Just that, the mind of the reader is reluctant to voice it, ….

or even verbalise it within ( some confusions evade even a verbal form 😜. Once I even wrote on “unconventional confusions” 🙏😥😥).


Certain public offices do not ‘receive’ a complaint from the people who deal with those offices (Mostly government offices like municipality, judiciary, legislating netas, police, railway etc).  Once a boss at my workplace told us(at a staff meeting) “we have a complaint box which remains empty, but please remember, that doesn't mean that our customers do not have complaints at all. It's because they are sure that complaining is a waste of time”.  I think privately, personally and individually, I accidentally turned into a ‘private' complaint box for a good number of customers 😜. They privately confide in me ‘hey, can you help?’, and I ‘carve out’ time to help. It helped me to grow multiDimensional in my ability to ‘respond’.


A baby never complains until it can ‘speak' 😂.  A little grown up, the kid complains only when it doesn't get what it likes, not what it ‘needs’.  How beautiful life would have been if it were our needs that fill up the blanks of out lists of ‘wants’ instead of our likes and desires?  (During a residential program for a months long spiritual bijness, other participants converted their ‘complaints’ into an anger at me 🤣.  Because, I was visibly comfortable with what was given to me to ‘eat’😜. Complaints were in abundance, but no use vocalising it, when participation was voluntary 😭. “You asked for trouble, now don't complain” wala argument 🙏. My mind had ‘kindly consented’ to accept anything given to eat. The body loved it like never before 🙏. And when the body cooperates, spirituality sprouts fast 😜).


Is it the intellect which complains? (Stories of rags_to_riches via sheer hard work and non_parasitical productivity are a hard_evidence of non_complaining intellectuals who listen to their Intellect often, instead of their mind, and go ahead with the problem solving process. They turn each difficulty into an opportunity 😜).


Somewhere, in one of my earlier blogs, I tried to suggest we look at the ‘listener’ within us🙏.  Either it is our mind or it is our intellect. Otherwise, there is no listener and the data doesn't even get processed inside the ‘physical' organ called brain 🙏. ( A subtle difference between a brain_dead guy and brain_switched off listener😜).  Attentiveness and awareness, though exclusive mutually, depend on our mind and/or the intellect to become operational 😥.


When a mind listens, in exclusivity, there is a ‘scope’ for complaint.  Intellect can only generate doubts and questions, which the mind might conveniently misinterpret as ‘complaints’. ( Typically, a student's lazy and comfort loving mind says to the intellect: “I will ask the teacher” and informs the teacher “m’am, I didn't understand your lecture, I am confused”. The teacher merely repeats it, probably stretching the sentences a little more 😜.  Understanding gets compromised in that kid's mind with “not safe to complain AGAIN now!😥”.  A rare few kids translate the query of their Intellect and the words sound more like a ‘doubt’, than a complain ‘didn’t understand’ and the teacher is armed with the ‘specifics’ in the student's doubts to address it with alternative approaches, using a compatible interface as an example, etc!).


Habitual lamenting, cribbing, nagging etc are from those who trust only their own mind which has promised to incessantly chase a better and better comfort zone 😜. I am reminded of a joke : a villager, visiting a metro_city for the first time, was advised “be careful, the shopkeeper can easily spot a villager, and will always quote twice the cost of anything you try to buy”.  This guy was forced to buy an umbrella, but decided to be ‘clever + defensive”. 

Shop wala : “this umbrella is for ₹100”

Villager : “too overpriced. I will offer only ₹50”

A lot of bargaining, and shopwala agrees for ₹50

Suddenly the villager : “I think its worth only ₹25” ( shopkeeper is “😡😡😡”. But he too listens to only his mind 🙏😭, not intellect. He decides to recover at least the ‘cost of time WASTED” 🙏 😥)

shopwala: “okay, ₹25… and get lost, taking the umbrella “

Villager ( inspired by ‘success’): “Then, why not settle it for ₹12.50 ?”

Shopwala is frustrated. ( His mind is full of negative emotions now🙏)

Shopwala: “oh please 😭… take it for FREE. But vanish from here p-l-e-a-s-e. 😭🙏”

That Villager is full of glee now 👍.

Villager: “Great sir 🙏. In that case, give me 2 👍”

( Joke over 😥)



Uncomplainingly yours,

psn(25 Oct 2026)

Thursday, October 22, 2026

Effect of teacher in maths

 Effect of teacher in maths


🤣


My guess is, maths permeates into all kinds of sciences that can sprout in a human brain.


Quite a few are unfortunate to ‘feel’ about themselves, as weak in maths, allergic to maths, not compatible with maths, etc.

It is ‘here’...that I noticed the ‘effect’ of ‘the’ teacher, which plays a significant role in bridging the ‘gap’ between such ill-fated kids/students & the fascinating game called ‘maths’ 🙏


Maths has been a ‘scoring’ subject for me🙏. Psychologically, I ought to be incompetent to advice those who are not ‘good friends’ of the fellow called maths 🙏


It so happened, a child girl ‘G’ was abandoned by a private tuition teacher in maths, and the full fee refunded to G’s mom😭. Two weeks to go for the annual exam of 3rd standard for G.  Sure to fail in maths😥. The mom asked my sister to ‘somehow’ get the child to just_pass in maths, or else a whole Year goes waste! I volunteered to ‘try’.

I narrowed down to the ‘clinching’ chapter in maths, (again a ‘maths skill’ 😜, we may_say. Though this_skill of ‘narrowing down’ to the core of a problem helped me in solving legal issues 🙏). 

In G’s case, identifying an improper fraction was a sure koschan/question 🙏. It adds 10 marks. This child manages about 25+ marks . Falls short of only 10 more marks(maximum).  


I asked this girl to stand & listen to me (reason : I was personally+ privately not ‘comfortable’ that students ‘sit comfortably’ and listen, while teachers ‘stand’ all the 40 minutes to teach 😳. I can't ‘do’ anything about a Global phenomenon. But here it is one-to-one, and I am the ‘dictator’😜).


One more child(miss V) was watching the ‘fun’ ( she was in 2nd standard only). 

I asked V to climb on my back when I knelt on the floor on my fours( knees and palms). I asked G to observe “a small girl sitting on me a huge fellow. Seems proper??” G nodded.

“Now see the Improper thing” said I.

V knelt down, and I ‘feigned’ like sitting on her back ( didn't want V to shout & distract😥). I explained to G “V is too small, and I am so big. She cannot bear my weight, isn't it?”( G understood easily)

Now, I connected the fresh visuals to numerals “big number sitting on a tiny number, is an improper fraction… “( i didn't have to”tell” about the ‘proper’ fraction. It is the residue once ‘improper’ test is done. Medical tests are automatically ‘negative’ if the improper_viruses are missing 😜).


A few more repeat-enactments… the visuals and terminology jargon ( numerator, denominator) became friends in G’s “brain” ( identifying bijness)

That girl G passed in maths🙏. Admitted into 4th.  ( Sholay movie dialogue: basanti bhi khush, Chachi bhi khush🤣…  mom & G both happy 😊. Zero tuition fees)


My love for maths bloomed due to my paternal uncle (next to my dad, among 5 younger brothers). He said “you might be having a problem with Rider number 5, chapter 4 of Hall & Stevens?”

( What's a Rider?.... Quote: In Euclidean geometry, a rider is a problem or theorem that "rides" on a primary theorem. It requires you to apply known axioms, definitions, and major theorems to prove a new geometric statement, calculate unknown values, or establish relationships between sides and angles)


We were walking on a busy road. My uncle quit school decades ago, and was only a matriculate! He still remembers the rider numbers? And can identify the ‘tough' for me? I am ‘lost’ into gaping at him 🙏.  He added “Fool, try joining the points D to Q, and extend it to meet the line beyond it at point X. You will sight the “applicability” of the theorem.”( He didn't ‘bother' to verify the results of his hint/tip. Uncle trusted the quality of his blood in me via my grandpa 😜).

Back home, I narrated the incident to 2nd uncle who pooh poohed it 😥, saying “that’s nothing. This elder brother was exempted from doing maths homework, when he yelled the answer the moment that teacher wrote a “sum” on the blackboard. He solves maths_sum mentally 👍”. I dug up a little more stories about that maths_uncle. He created a ‘record’ by making the assistant busy to weigh ration items like rice 725 grams, sugar 285 grams, etc for buyers via ration card 😜 . The ‘normal' was, the billing clerk struggles to calculate manually, ration per head in a family card of 6 adults and 3 children 🙏😥. Full of fractions multiplication, in 1940 or so. Long queues, and the weighing guy waits infinitely for each ‘bill’. This uncle ‘heaps’ the cards with bills tucked in 😜. That's his skills at mental calculation of maths 🙏.

I had a teacher in maths who was an “M.A.” in maths, and taught to final year of M Sc  in maths, but quit the college job, preferred to teach kids like me in 7th standard in a school, unmindful of ¼ salary of a school teacher, compared to a professor in college as HoD😥. ( His stories are awesome, and the s-p-e-e-d at which he calculated the affinity of students in maths stupified me 🙏. I still treat it as sheer luck that I was his favourite kid in my class 🙏. I realised only 4 decades later, that this genuis had a greater mastery in spirituality than maths🙏. His blessings were with mathematical precision unto me 😳. Ain't I unduly_fortunate👍???  While the bulk of us think that blessings are just a hollow gesture, placing palms on the head, nothing more than that, this Guru deploys a scientific phenomenon using the same’touch’, something that took me decades to learn & use 🙏🙏🙏).



Illogically yours( maths is logical),

psn (22 Oct 2026)



A joke🙏 ( please read + forget 😥):

At my work place, clerks who are promoted from peons, are a little ‘looked-down-upon’ (merit criteria is diluted in the selection process). The efficiency is unaffected, only the psychological treatment is a sadism in few🙏. I found a ‘way’ to remedy this😜.

Promotee clerks love me unconditionally 🙏(due to my manufacturing defect—I remain small like them👍).

I gave these few clerks a “trick” . They jot_down the interest in each term deposit account for the half year, without any ‘worksheet' 😜. The checking officer needs to only ‘look' at the working (figure work) and a tick in red-ink, at the jotted interest sheet. My trick OBVIATED the worksheet 😜. ‘componding effect ‘ of interest, at monthly and quarterly rests, needs manual labour in those days, when calculators were primitive and its use was unfamiliar (1975-76).

Checking guys were ‘forced’ to recreate the worksheet, arrive at the final numeral(cumulative-interest) listed in the sheet, and tick in red ink 😂. The frustrating part was, zero errors😭. Otherwise, they can give a ‘written order’ to produce the damn worksheet 😜.

( Imagine the inner joy of those clerks, who had to merely CopyPaste a formula without even understanding the merits in it!!!  I too chant super_power_sanskrit mantras like those promoted peons, blissfully ignorant of the scientific quantum physics employed in those vibes_of_chants 🙏🙏🙏😥. Am I not a peon in spiritual bijness? 😜🙏)



Now, my moment-of-frustration :

I was toying with a f(x) calculator at a shop. The sales guy said to me : “ not for you. Only engineering students know to use it” 

Me : “🙂”( but boiling inside “😡. I carry the genes of my ancestors who never even NEEDED algebra as an INTERFACE in their_way of Vedic_maths. And you are telling me that this f(x) is a live wire of 11000 volts which I shouldn't touch??? Damn!”)

Wednesday, October 21, 2026

Why to seek Wisdom?

 Why to seek Wisdom?


One of the stupid questions that popped up somewhere in my head, when I was a kid! (I was too small to know that there's a physical organ brain, and 2 other confusing entities, mind and me within 😥) : why should I ‘seek’ wisdom? ( The basis = there are elders all around me, all the time, to tell me what-next should I do 👍). 


Question deepened as I grew a bit more 😥. Ravana seemed to be the most_knowlegeable guy in the history of mankind 😓. Not a single degree that he didn't acquire! An aircraft “pushpak” which never says “sorry, no seat available”. Music, literature, mysticism, magic, all forms of sciences(he placed the planets affecting horoscope of his son in its proper constellation at the child birth 😥…. much to the embarrassment of Saturn, the in-charge of past deeds!). Just that he failed only at Wisdom 😭.  Oops! I felt “wisdom is not something that can be ‘sought’ as a boon!.  Absence of wisdom is a ‘bane’ 😓🙏


Slowly, but surely, I inched closer to this fuzzy thing called ‘wisdom’( not that I ‘began’ gathering the damn thing 😜…  Just getting familiar with it, to the possible extent 😭).



Concept_based thinking seemed a bit more practical (practicable, in daily life 🙏) than the vast thing called wisdom.  Concept_based_Living posed a little difficulty ( mostly due to the hard_wired habit in my brain, which obeys a default_instruction of my_mind, about most of the routine life situations…..   example: earthen dam popped up in some ancient brain, when the mind fell silent for a split second, and intellect dealt with the input data “hey! Lets do something about this flooding of river every rainy season, and stupidly watching people getting washed away from the banks of the river” .  Wisdom in action??? Dunno yet 🙏😳).


I stopped chasing wisdom 🙏

But, something bigger posed a problem 😭…. Spiritual Wisdom 😭….  Till then, worldly_wisdom kept me just_wondering (duniyadaari, was a Hindi word for functional wisdom, I thought. Not quite sure, though😓).

Spirit within is itself elusive. Only then to ‘think' of making it any_wiser 😂.


One thing seemed too reassuring 👍. No spiritual master was ever branded/alleged/labelled/etc as an Unwise guy😜.   Another astounding thing I noticed was that spiritually wise guys ( enlightened guys) were not always highly ‘knowledge_abled’. They posed no threat to the world record created+held by Ravana’s knowledge 😜👍…   ( During 1993 or so, a Master in spirituality told us “enlightened guys have the Capability to ‘know’ whatever they Like_to_know….and instantly too !...  That ‘instantly’ bijness intrigued me 🙏😓. Till i figured it out by myself 🙏, but I lack courage to spell it out, since I lack the experience 😓. No point, misleading a reader).



Muscle memory of the mind is like a virtual software, that resides in the cache memory of the organ brain ( my own ‘cooked up’ imagination 😓🙏…  it seems to work inside me, without my consent 🙏).  Sustained+ intense spiritual practices helped me to break the mind's habitual muscle memory effect that deterred my spiritual progress! 

A very bizarre experience ( rather experiences) emerged as a result of such sustained practices 😂. A real example, which the readers are going to find it difficult to ‘gulp down their throat’ , was my experience with a tool, a guided meditation called ‘death’. I didn't know whether I was participating in the meditation or merely listening to the audio tape, after its ½ way through it 😥. As soon as it was over, I rediscovered that I was squatting crosslegged, eyes closed😂, not participating. Wisdom, intellect, mind or brain, or even the muscle memory of any of these didn't help me to ‘know' what I was doing 🙏😥….. 


My fair guess is….. wisdom is a mere label(like the words ‘darkness, cold, humility etc), something to ‘refer’ to, when we are sensible enough to be at our peak levels of inclusiveness 🙏, and the level of wisdom being relative to our experience of inclusiveness 🙏.  Concept based thinking, and living, seems to work for me at least. Awareness and alertness enhances the proximity to basic_life_concepts according to my intensity at it🙏.


See if it seems to find any appeal 👍.

Until I bump into something wiser, I am going to remain stuck to what works for me 😜. 



Unwisely yours,

psn(21 Oct 2026)



Tailpiece:  my peak levels of stupidities churned out a wild imagination where,

I sought an unprecedented kind of boon :” Godjee, grant me Wisdom” 😳😳🙏

God : “ idiot…😡… you already are that. Just remove the layers which obfuscate it”