Unlicensed confusion maker

 Unlicensed confusion maker

“Please don't confuse me unnecessarily 🙏”

I look into myself (when I hear this, from the other) as a matter of duty, towards the other. Did i REALLY cause_confusion?

A ‘good' student feels a_confusion, when the teacher reads out the text lesson dealing with a deep concept in any discipline of some science 👍. Yet to learn it👍.

A disinterested kid has no such ‘threat’ from confusion_weapon 🤣. He knows he is good at copying the ‘text’ to memory and pasting it on the answer sheet in eggjams/exam, getting a cut-off marks like 98.94% and a ‘name’.

When I look within, ( which I have been doing since my kid days 😥) my very perception keeps deepening, imperceptibly_though. Over years, i get to notice the increase of its depth🙏

It's the mind( through its faculty of emotions) which ‘suffers’ the ailment of confusion. My intellect seems well insulated, by the excuse called “i seldom get a chance to function 🫪, only_then to_cause any confusion 😜.

Of late, I detest from deliberately ‘causing’ confusion 🙏.  Whenever there is a slight vulnerability, i label it as “my silly/stupid doubt/question”. The reader's mind is re_assured 👍

But a few around me still “ask” for trouble 😭🙏. A sample of my confusing response: 

Quote:15-aug

Just because I happen to 'know' a little_bit of possible_thoughts( the looming uncertainty of trip), 

easier for me to co_relate the behaviour of 1)body( the dial is the_breath usually, it magnifies/zooms_in) and 3) the mind , magnifies with data_integrity during the 3 minute sandhya 🤣.  ( But the 'concern', ideally , ought to be of the practitioner 🙏. And the practitioner doesn't lack "access" to own data. If intellect is 'allowed' a chance, the very software USED by the processor_brain, plays the difference in role 😜.  Mind's software and intellects software ( a set of instructions 😓) matters qualitatively 🙏.

Oops! 😭

I didn't check if am 'licensed' to confuse a reader 🙏

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This response was when the other person narrated own inner experience related to watching:

1).Shift of intensity of breath between the 2 nostrils, occurring automatically every 2 hours…. the ‘pattern’ noticed, owing to situation around 🙏

2) the mind ( through its efforts to adapt itself to the shift of nature during the meeting points called “saandhya_kaal”, every 6 hours from 6 am, a junction 😜) and mind's “pattern” influenced by situation, like in the school physics labs experiment called “parallelogram of forces”😜

Confusingly yours,

psn(16 Aug 2026)

Tail piece: (😜)

If a reader has ‘held’ in one's Cache_memory a little sympathy, i can be ‘excused’ for merely pointing out a confusion 🙏( creater of confusion is not me!)

“Why are the vowels and consonants”mixed up” in English alphabet sequence?( None of my desi language is a cocktail like this. Vowels seperate from list of consonants 🙏)

I never”manufactured a language 🙏. Hence i didn't “cause” the bug in the software 😭. …..just trying to understand the bug( too late to debug the mixup now! Keyboard for English ended_up further confusing it 😥🙏🙏

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R.I.P. significance?

 R.I.P.  significance?

I received the following query :

[14/08, 10:50 pm] query: 

I nowadays see this post on the death of a person.

Rest in Peace.

Om Shanti. Let the Soul attain Moksha.

Rest in Peace is applicable to Abrahamic religion mainly Christiananothers. Why these Hindus want to convert  Hindu to Christian on death.

Let the Soul attain Moksha.

How does the person knows that the dead person was seeking moksha. What does the person who wants moksha for the dead person know about moksha. How can you pass comment on a subject about which you hardly know. Knowing is not the proper word. Your elucidation on this.

My response 

[14/08, 11:58 pm] PSN: 😂

Those who 'out live' the  dead, don't know today, much about the phenomenon of death. 

Even a doctor knows only "clinical death" ( otherwise, there wouldn't have been cases of a fellow sitting up during जनाज़ा यात्रा 🤣)

What to do to the 'body'  has never been a doubt. In a little while, the stink will educate us👍

Hinduism, being irreligious and also super_scientific, has explored this phenomenon way back in very ancient times 🙏

We had a "choice" to inherit the indepth knowledge of what the ancients discovered, or to skip the grasp and just CopyPaste the ancients 🙏

( Evidence of the grasp by the ancients is easily noticeable in the 'rituals' we do for 10, 12 , or 16 days, for the dead🙏).

Your question is about the remarks/comments that the present day's people make about the 'being' that departed from the body.

Unless we know as to what happens after death how can we expect a reliable remark/comment?

First of all, we are not familiar with the 'being' ticking inside us, who makes the body as a live person. (Spiritual tools help if a person is keen to become "aware" of the "self'" within).

Till then, these comments/ritualistic phrases like "R.I.P., REACHED VAIKUNTHA, SHIVA_LOKA_PRAPTI, or even Moksha" are mere copypastes, to maintain a social uniformity 🙏

Copying from a 'bit' paper is a crime during an examination. Whereas, just sophisticate it : copy from your memory, and you are awarded a Gold medal 👍. Both these have no relevance to the purpose of being a "student". 

In my colony/nagar, many type a text in the WhatsApp group "Hearty condolences" ( and it sails through "smooth" 👍) . 

Even the most 'basic' truth about natural and accidental death is WIDELY misconstrued 🙏

Died during sleep is accepted as "natural" death 😓.  Whereas,  until at least 500 yesrs ago, people knew that it is possible to "walk out of the body at_will". Today, people 'force' the being to exit the body, by rendering it UN_LIVABLE🤣. It's suicide. 

It is one thing to park a car, and walk out and an entirely different thing to abandon a car ( which has broke_down, due to engine failure, fuel empty or got crashed, punctured etc )

Merely trying to dissect the remarks after death, is like doing a postmortem without even the body 😂

Very much yours,

psn(15 Aug, 2026)

Stamina unusual

 Stamina unusual 

During a month of brief stay at Raipur (at my dad's instance, to ‘work’ as a temporary clerk for a paltry pay of ₹150 😜. Room rent was ₹150 for that month & dad gave me money for 2 meals) in that branch under dad's control…. a typist got interested in me.

On a Saturday, he pushed his bicycle, walking along with me to my hotel room. We started talking spiritual bijness 😓.

On Monday morning we realised “hey, we gotta reach office today” he went home and told me later that his parents nearly informed police that he is missing (1974, no mobile etc). We both were surprised at each other's stamina 🤣. Non-stop marathon . I was surprised at his patience to listen, while he at my ability to keep bla-bla. 

Eight years later, he surprised me, appearing at Amravati at 2 pm on a Saturday. This time, i pushed my bicycle walking along with him to my room.

Non-stop till 11 pm night. He left for a night bus to Nagpur. While parting he said “I thought of impressing you with my additions in spiritual quest during past 8 years, when we discussed last at Raipur hotel. But I missed to think of your own evolvement in the meanwhile 😭. You have reached multifold than what you were last time. I can't dream of catching up with you Ever🙏. I won't try to meet you hereafter. My thirst is my fuel for my spiritual journey 🙏. Gratitude” . I didn't know what to say! I simply looked at him deep into his eyes 😥

I revere him for giving me a chance of “once in a lifetime”( or twice, maybe…) to meet a person who can sit and discuss with so much intensity, in a subject that average minds would run_away in 10 minutes 🤣🙏🙏🙏

I am sure, he would have made strides of progress🙏 ( no way to meet & confirm, and nothing to achieve by knowing it).

indefatigably yours,

psn (10 Aug, 2026)

PostScript: somewhere in 2004, i sat ( spine vertical) from 3 pm Saturday to 11 am Monday, for resolving the nagging and chronic unreconciled transactions at a branch of my office, non stop work, in the most boring area 😜. But I had a very unfair advantage of training in very intense spiritual practices which stretched into several days/ months😥. So this time, i was like “plugged to the existence” for backup energy 😜

Rishis

 Rishis 

I wasn't trying to 'brag' about Rishis. ( A close friend happened to quote a long history of Bharat during last 1000 years, where we YIELDED to all kinds of invasions and lost our glories. He said “no use of bragging about past rishis”)

I got a chance to review myself 🙏( Gratitude to my friend)

They (rishis)are an inalienable part of me 😭. I can't detach them from me even if I want 🙏

It makes sense to 'try' to understand a cancer cell in me, when I know that it has come to stay till i am alive 😓

A few guys( 'Rishis') have occupied my genes via lineage. My ancestors were benevolent enough to teach me to chant their names, just_in_case i really evolve enough to experience them in_me . The chant also happens to revive the 'humility' if any left in me , & accessible by me🤣.

So, I place both palms over my ears murmur my bio_data " abiVaadaye, rishi names, then gotra, sutra/formula of me, and lastly, my baptized name" and prostrate before that elderliness_wala, eight limbs touching the ground 🙏....

( I did yield to my eagerness to 'invoke' those rishis, when I was granted a OLT  Once_in_Life_Time --chance. During  Naandi shraadha on the Eve of  my son's thread ceremony!.... I am not disappointed 😞).

Even for 'bragging' one needs credible stuff. It's a choice between brooding over negative events of mega size in history and "using" the precious legacy bequeathed in multiple storage Devices by rishis, to attempt the highest human possibility 🙏

Rooted in rishis, yours,

psn(9 Aug 2026)

People building

 People building 

People building 

🤣

Henry Kaiser.

The image is of my notes, Copied from ‘Readers’ Digest’ by me on 4 Jan, 1972 …an article “unforgettable Henry Kaiser” by Leonard Lyons.

Henry ‘built’ people, among his staff and ‘dealt’ with negativity in his assistant for 50 years, turning it into a positivity for self 😂

I was impressed enough to write a it down (no pocket money or gadgets to copy it in an easier way 🙏).

A precious lesson for me 🙏 

Dealing with negativity in people around (very different from ‘tolerance__intolerance🙏).

Looking back at my 54 years since then, i feel ‘not bad at all’. 😜

Acceptably yours,
psn(9 Aug, 2026)

Talking about God

 Talking about “God”

Yes…. We also tend to talk “about” God 🤣 

I have utmost respect for those who pray to_God 🙏🙏🙏🙏 ( genuine ones choose not_to_talk About _God🙏… It's sacred for such genuine devotees, and therefore a personal matter)

I quote a “part” of a chat i received 🙏 ( this person is better open to a discussion, and hence, i feel persuaded to spend my energy to respond 😓. Having responded, why not expose myself to a greater vulnerability of criticism 😜???)

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[08/08, 8:54 am] that OpenMind: 

This is exactly what I thought. Did our rishis of yore believe in God. JK has mentioned in one of his talks. " I doubt if the Vedic rishis talked about God. In a response to a question "Why you do not talk about God?” 

JK said " You know everything about God hence I do not talk about the entity called God.”

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My response:

[08/08, 10:03 am] PSN: Rishis didn't 'need' to 'talk' about God ( the 'way' we guys have today decided to Ascribe a meaning this word God).

They said everything "about" God, all the time 😜.  ( I asked a "tamil" fan "can you name a distinction ABOUT tamil. Obviously you know Tamil 100 times better than me🙂. He blinked. I said "very safe for a lady to speak even at the advanced stage of pregnancy 🙏. No 'hard' consonants 🤣.  No strain on the uterus👍”)

About "God" 

rishis used very sophisticated symbolisms🙏 ( MahaVakyas top the list).

In vedic maths, a sutra is used without NEEDING an algebraic expression like " (x-a)(x-b)”, as a short_cut to multiply numerals 🙏. Rishis obviated "algebra" to Formulate theorems, formula etc 🙏 ( does it impress? 😳😥😥😥🙏 sophisticated level of symbolisms 😜). 

Marketing "God" as a belief has not worked for spiritual bijness. For a religion ( Religare) it is handy, to "keep the flock together"👍

How to use the "sense of discrimination" is the key to understanding the puzzle of "God'". This key was a compulsory subject in ancient gurukul, where a rishi was the sole teacher 😭. Today's syllabus in school, is 'waiting' for a text book to get published, only then a syllabus 🙏

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Vulnerably yours,

psn(8 Aug 2026)

Cost effectiveness

 Cost effectiveness

Not about the commercial aspect or profitability.

Yet, our minds( actually, the thoughts🙏) are too commercial 😜 (until 500 years ago, many things were free🙏. For all other life_forms, even today, it is free👍. We domesticate a few animals and therefore have to pay for its feed, not salary 😜)

The minimum charge( for me) for tap_water( supplied by the municipality) is ₹100. And the lowest ‘slab’ is ₹6 per 1000 litres. So, upto 16 kilolitres, I pay the minimum of ₹100

The joke : 

We are just 2 of us at home. We consume just 5000 litres of water a month ( My stupidity is, I keep using my two hands to wash my/our clothes, outsourcing it only once in 6 months to that machine, just to keep it in working condition 🙏)

1).  if…. my mind is highly_commercial, I would have “worked out” the cost per 1000 using what I ‘consume’... ₹20 per 1000. And my mind would ‘justify’ wasting another 11 KL saying ( any way I pay ₹100, till 16 KL👍)

2). If…on the other hand, I am an idiot, and therefore a non_commercial mind, I use a stupid justification 😭 “Money is mine, but the resources belong to the society”🙏. I shall never “want anything beyond my needs” 

Ofcourse, I am cursed/destined to be in the second type of minority guys. ( Electricity is free upto 200 units now. But I stick to my needs, which is 160 average. 2 summer_months, i touch 180 units. Winters need just 140.  Sewage is self managed within my compound, and I don't drain it in the open storm_drain meant for rain water. And so on….  

So,

My cost_effectiveness is ‘need_based’ not cost_based 😭

I also know the root cause of my malady😜. It's my spiritual bijness 😓. Inclusiveness is an imminent side_effect 😭….  A mom doesn't bother about the “cost” of blood she incurs, while her body processes it into mother's_milk for her baby.  That baby is a ‘part’ of her EXPERIENTIALLY 🙏

Okay,

What about the cost_effectiveness of the life_energy we spend allowing our minds to wander as it pleases ? ( No ‘yardstick’ as yet which we can buy “cost_effectively” to measure the wastage we incur in needless thought process 😓.) There is a method to make a rough guess😜. During deep sleep, which is lesser than entire sleep, due to intermittent REM_rapidEyeMovement, the mind STOPS spending energy. Mind feels fresh/well_rested after waking up.

Meditative practices allow us to ‘slip’ into a meditative_State, over a period of time 🙏. If it happens, a person can possibly find a ‘bank balance ‘ in his savings account ( draw anytime, unlike ‘Fixed_term deposit’ a sizable quantity of life_energy left at one's disposal 😜…  ( this paragraph is purely for information or entertainment, and readers are advised caution in trying it out, owing to the low percentage of success in true_meditation!  Side_benefits of attempt, however, pays for its commercial costs, in terms of medical expenses 🙏)

Genuine researchers might be slightly inclined to nod a ‘yes’ to my hypothesis about ‘mind expending the energy’ via its processor called brain_the_physical_organ…. And successful researchers will SURELY nod a yes, SIMPLY beCause they know how to allow their intellect to function 😜🙏. Intellect is a tool, to handle cost_effectiveness of minds expenditure. 

Economically yours,

psn(8 Aug, 2026)

Stature औक़ात

 Stature औक़ात 

We get noticed by our stature in the society today 🙏

Unless we get ‘noticed’ at least a bit, the fear of irrelevance haunts us ( mind game 😜)

Scam netas seek their relevance by disrupting the parliament session 😓

A parent, if really concerned about a dignified living of his child might ask his relevance as a fellow with some skill to eke out a livelihood 🙏 

(I ask very sharp questions to my son, at times 🤣 

" बाप हूं तेरा इसीलिए पूछ रहा हूं तेरे रोजी-रोटी का क्या फ्यूचर है?"

He : "एक बार पूछे तो पूछ लिए दोबारा मत पूछना..... मेरे जैसे सिर्फ 50 लोग जीवित है इस धरती पर फिलहाल, इस फील्ड में..... रोटी पक्का" 😜)

So, his livelihood is assured. 

If he attends a get-together of his school classmates after 56 years, like I did this summer, he has a stature/औकात to display 👍. I failed to quote a stature of mine among my classmates, though it did not matter to any of them 🙏

Whereas, in hell/जहन्नुम ( not heaven/जन्नत 🙏) i can manage a stature/औकात 😜 …. I will CopyPaste my blogs in the webpage there👍. I am certain of a better patronage than i can hope for on earth😓

( Hell….i say because….. modern guys look at “worst case scenario” on a daily basis 😜.

My blogs are redundant in heaven 😭).

Anyway, no regrets, because bulk of the spiritual guys in Bharat existed as non-entities/नाचीज़ 🤣🙏

Irrelevantly yours,

psn(6 Aug, 2026)

Narrow escape for me

 Narrow escape for me

Bulbs light up with a flicker when it rains ( loose connection in wire, and rain drops provide the Conduit)

A bloodsucking Leech is by no means a medical surgeon 🙏. But in the ancient days, it served as a conduit in the hands of an ayurvedic surgeon to operate an infected area of the patient, to remove the pus, bad blood etc with super_skill 😜

During the days of my peak spiritual practices, I inadvertently became a conduit in a computer ‘network’ where connectivity issues caused a temporary problem 😜.

The two instances were as mysterious for myself, as for my colleagues 🙏. 

1.The dumb terminal in cash cabin was not accessing the server ( computerized environment at my workplace).

The system incharge was frustrated, when he couldn't locate the mischief in the cables. The cashier, “sir ask PSN to just touch the computer. It might work”

I.T. boss : “ what nonsense are you talking? This is science based gadget, not a witchcraft or black magic based one”

Cashier: sir zero risk. Only 1 second. Why not try? Already getting late 😥 

I was allowed to touch. The damn thing worked 😭

2)A few days later same IT wizard, in his own cabin, struggling to access the remote server 1500 kms  away to retrieve an intra-office email for his boss (zonal manager), called me upstairs to his office “urgent. ZM is furious. Email is urgent. I am not able to ‘access’. Not that i ‘believe’ in gimmicks. But no harm in trying. Anyway i am working on it simultaneously 🙏”

This time, I became a bit annoyed too. In that mood I blurted “sir, i wont even ‘touch’ it physically. Please login with me sitting across the table. Let's see if it might work “

He logged in. Got the email 😜. He was in a hurry to tell the Zonal manager. I didn't mind being ignored 🙏. I am just a leech, a conduit at times 🙏. ( That was 2 decades ago. Now, I am a fused_bulb, retired inconsequential and an irrelevant non_entity 😜. Harmless to tell such fairy_tales. )

Those 2 connected incidents and a few more like that around me, were a narrow escape situations from being spotted as a conduit pipe 🙏

Conduit, yours,

psn(6 Aug 2026)

Post script: i very confidently place my palm on the others head, when a kid seeks ‘a ritualistic performance’ in the name of seeking blessings ( me an Oldie now😜). He bows and i touch. No surprises from that kid. 😂. 

No need to ‘seek’ any escape route in this process 🙏. Very rarely a kid is that_alert+that_aware. He has already pre-concluded “ i gonna get_done with this stupid ritual now😡”( a win_win situation for both👍🙏)