Curse of oldage

 Curse of oldage 

The curse of oldage is.....

Even in cases where a person has 40% only of negativity and 60 % of positive qualities....

Negative:   is "default" by nature, and requires no conscious effort to manifest. No health or energy needed😜 ( hence, it remains 'steady' and same as during youth/middle age)

Positive:  Cannot ever become "by_default". Needs conscious effort each time to manifest. With age and deteriorating health, weaker brain to coordinate, renders the functionality to decrease from 60% to bare minimum 5% probably with age, gradually 🤣

( Percentages are very imaginary, and highly subjective, but the phenomenon is real👍)

Result!?.....  40% looks like 95% ( over exaggerated in front of that 5% or even more 😜)

Frustration is inevitable when the youngsters exclaim : "of late, with age....you are turning intolerable 😓😓😓"( oldie wonders 🤔.... He used to like me, love me and respect me... _*what happened with_him_now?*_ 🤣... धूल चेहरे पर है, आईना अब भी वही है 😜)

Agedly yours,

psn (12 Feb, 2026)

Misinterpretation of Dharma

 misinterpretation of Dharma

Is it not time_enough that we rectify the most popular mis'interpretation of ancient advisories in sanskrit ( handed down to us from millenniums, and hence viewed as time tested🙏)

When the "text" could not be tampered, cunning minds resorted to popularizing a deliberately misinterpreted meaning 😂.

We might argue "well, I am NOT going to even touch it.... So, I am not affected by misinterpretation 👍".

 Such escapists are its worst victims.

*_the goal was to render the Minds susceptible to any other misinterpretation as well_*  😜

The "ability" to discern, distinguish and discrimination is sought to be crushed 🙏

Famous quotes:

1)Atithi devo bhav 

2)Matru/pitru/acharya, devo bhav 

These two are addressed to whom?

Popular version:  

1)Treat your guest like a God!( Pamper, please, trust that incursionist as well, if he poses like a ‘guest’ 😜… )

2) Treat your parents and teachers like your Gods, (no matter if they are actually an idiot, or devilish criminals 😜)

Somehow….. do we not find flaws, defects, or atleast difficulties and self-inflicted damaged, in blindly following the misinterpretation, merely because these interpretations are popular????

Not requiring too_much knowledge of Sanskrit, can we afford ourselves to make a simple comparison with other EQUALLY popular and VERY SIMILAR quotes,  with tamper-proof interpretation???

a) Ayushman bhava 

b)Sowbhagyavati bhava

c)putravati bhava

d)yashasvi bhava

Who is the “addressee” in these a)-to-d) ???

“May You be”... As a suffix to variable “long-lived/fortunate/with_vhildren/famous “

“Bhava” is “may you be” and not “be treated as”  😜…. Here is the ‘catch’

If 

1) atithi devo is “may you be like(behave like)” instead of “may you be TREATED like( by a gullible_fool)”... 

2) mom/dad/teacher devo is “may you be like(behave like)” instead of “may you be TREATED like( by a small kid, utterly innocent, too small to be burdened with a Heavy load like “Treat your dad/mom/teacher as_if they are your God 😡😡)”... 

then,

the addressee gets rectified and interpretation SUSTAINS without any collateral damage, caused 😜

Most importantly,

we get trained into a “rational thinking” …which really matters 🙏

Bhavami Yours only, ( may I be, yours)

psn (12 Feb, 2026)

Anti-disclaimer: Obviously, I am morally duty bound to accept any Valid criticism for my attempt to persuade a refinement in ourselves, using a flawed argument if any 🙏

Punch: I am quite UNAPOLOGETIC about one thing, for sure…. Come what may💪!!

I shall respect only elderliNess (of any age, even a kid), and not Elders( by age alone, bereft of any wisdom) beCause even a donkey aged😜. 

Jallad/जल्लाद like Guru

 Jallad/जल्लाद like Guru

🤣

I feel aweFULLY (sense= maximizing the ‘some’ in “awesome”) blessed to have been under an Executioner_like teacher 🙏, for 5+ years in the proximity! Utterly merciless 🤣. Torturous!

His best armour (bullet_proof jacket) was, he never insisted us,  on doing anything we were told to_do…😜( if you can't tolerate me, you are free to leave 🙏). And we, our commitment was the material for his bullet_proof jacket to defend himself against our anger, frustration etc, which spews like a volcano 😥, when he makes us do things like( mild samples only, mind you!):

a)Breathe through alternate nostrils without using fingers to block the other nostril 

b)Meditate with open eyes( we had barely managed to settle down into “CONSCIOUSLY withdrawing the sense_organs…🙏😭… eyes, the toughest to withdraw seeing_even_when_looking. Or, looking without seeing .

b(1) look_to_see, but see the emptiness ahead of you at 2 feet or so.

c)Ask your stomach to press the “pause” button of digestion, do the meditation and then release the pause button to allow stomach to resume digestion ( one type of meditation is on empty stomach, not a hungry stomach 😜…. and if we missed the med and ate, this instruction 😭🙏)

d)sleep without missing yourself totally ( 😡😡😡. Imagine 🙏, he doesn't allow us even a peaceful sleep. Even Condemned_cell prisoners are allowed to sleep like_a_log )

e) more such & more torturous practices 😭( subtle ones, hence they evade a verbal description)

Worst vengeance on us, the early_birds, was : the participants who enlisted after the first 8 years were let off with “deluxe Yoga programs”( too mild, too simple, damn_easy, and no harm in using ‘pause’ button any often and re-start by choice 😡).

( Probably, this vengeance of my teacher was a grudge (खुन्नस) he carried forward from our togetherness of our past lives 😭।

Ofcourse, there is always the cosmic rule “Dharmo rakhshati Rakshita”  He did his guru_dharma and me my_dharma to a possible extent। Sanatan Dharma was constrained to bless both of us, guru_shishya pair😜)

Cursedly yours,

PSN(10 Feb 2026)

Compatibility issues between spouses

 Compatibility issues between spouses

A reader is going to ask me “who the hell are you, to assume competence to talk about this subject?”

I am not competent enough.

But I had a chance to look at my parents right from my kid age 😥. And, I am not divorced as yet, since 4 decades😜

Even notionally/emotionally–Estranged couples shoot this question to their parents who were stubborn about matching of horoscopes “what happened now?😡” (Astroger had certified that horoscopes match excellently👍🙏…. Still the couple is not happy with each other, especially after the magic of physiological attractions faded in a very brief period 😥)

Some people try “after sales service” from the astrologer. (Meanwhile, in all probability, he himself is facing the same issue between him & his own wife😜). Joke: astrologer blinks, when asked: which fool matched the horoscope of Ram & Sita?” Well, they faced every situation together, not in mutual conflict😜.  It is about mutual compatibility, not a silk_smooth life in comfort zone 🙏

Spirituality is not meant for solving compatibility issues between spouses 🙏. Yet, the insight might help offering clues which the later generations of astrologers ignored to learn🙏

My guess work(to the extent I discovered/learnt):

1)well matched horoscope failing & omitted cases of looking at horoscopes, being–successful 🤣 ( now…. interesting? 😜)

Well, horoscopes and the astrologer, if both are exceptionally good (this itself is rare🙏😭), they match only one out of 3 essential ingredients requiring a match.

Our minds are foremost to become compatible (even if one spouse hates a running fan while sleeping and the other needs fan_air compulsorily, a matching ‘mind’ might adjust 🙏. Physiology has mutual problems 😜)

Mind, at the today's legally permissible age of marriage, becomes an unbreakable block made- out of the three ingredients in uncertain quantities each & aggregately.

a)Own karma of past( praarabhda karma, carved out of the godown of Sanchita karma) the wandering spirit, mind, soul, whatever is seeking a vehicle (body) for its unfulfilled desires 🙏. Today's astrologer is “stuck” at finding a match only for this aspect of the mind/karma, using the horoscope, and the science behind it 🙏. Today's astrologer forgot ‘how to match's or atleast request his customer to ‘also match, b) & c)”

b) inherited karma…. Parents ( if there is, a lineage also🙏…. Genetically, memories influencing a mind, is proven scientifically —a video clip : Ghost in your genes— has influence) contribute to the mind, right from womb, until they are together.

c) Acquired karma 😜…. Now-a-days, world_wide_web or WWW, that too, AI enabled, apart from homes, neighbourhood and schools/college/colleagues/friends & enemies/well+ill wishers, contributes to the tendencies of a mind 😜

The uncertain mixture of this mind is trying to find compatibility with another gender of uncertain mixture of that_mind🤣

A tiny advantage in the ancient days was = child marriages , to a large extent managed compatibility issues of b) & c) . I must drop a mention that a family priest used to be highly qualified in astrology until 200 years ago in Bharat. He audits therefore, a), b) & c) , sincerely, honestly and thoroughly 🙏. Today's priests don't know the scientific effect of even the chants they use, and tutor their ‘victims’ to repeat.

The topic is such that I should leave a reader at this🙏. ( He can add anything on his/her own, and choose to respond or not with their feedback.

Compatibly yours,

psn(10 Feb , 2026)

Hungry stomach

 Hungry stomach 

We often mistake an empty stomach as ‘hunger’ and invite dis_ease by filling it up with ‘something'! ( It is not meal time😂).

This ‘something' is less harmful if it is fruit. But, we love junk! Tastyness is far more compulsory when there is zero hunger. Junk always tastes better than natural foods like fruits, carrots, etc.

I googled the difference.

“my experience” may not be so_appealing like Google A.I.

So I copy paste google🙏

If, by chance, we get interested further, find a genuine practitioner in spirituality 🙏 . He will guide better👍

Quote 

An empty stomach is a physical state occurring 2–4 hours post-meal when the stomach is clear, often beneficial for digestion and health. Hunger is the physiological signal (triggered by the hormone ghrelin and low blood sugar) indicating a need for energy, often accompanied by stomach growling or contractions. 

Key differences include:

Physical State vs. Signal: An empty stomach is merely the absence of food. Hunger is the brain receiving signals—via the hormone ghrelin and low blood sugar—that it needs fuel.

Physical Sensations: Empty stomachs may not feel uncomfortable, while hunger often causes physical contractions, rumbling (borborygmus), lightheadedness, or irritability.

Purpose: An empty stomach allows for bodily purification and optimal function. Hunger is a survival mechanism to ensure nutrient intake.

Timing: An empty stomach can exist without hunger, and one can feel hungry (due to cravings or habits) even when the stomach is not truly empty. 

While an empty stomach is generally considered healthy, true hunger is the body's call for sustenance. 

Unquote 

One disadvantage to doctors and medical shops is, those who eat only_when_hungery, are unremunerative 😭…. More people healthy, is less business for medical professionals 

Hungrily yours,

psn(10 Feb, 2026)

Post Script.

The hidden agenda of this blog is spirituality bijness 😜….  My blogs are to market spirituality, which is the most_lossMaking_bijness🙏. Zero profits.

If more people are there who know what hunger “feels like” (not via intelligence or GnawLedge/knowledge), the scope for temptations towards spirituality is better👍. Partially sick fellows easily escape my trap 😜

Tragedy:  most of the spiritual practices require an “empty” stomach, not a hungry_stomach. But, we never allow the stomach to remain hungry 😥. It suits doctors, not spiritual servants 🙏😭

Handling own Karma

 Handling own Karma

Ultimately, my experience of life decides how I enjoyed or suffered my life isn't it?

Unrealistic “desires” seemed to me, to be the only Major hurdle.

Mind which remains stuck to such unreasonable desires won't allow the ‘experience' of the present moment to soak in FULLY ( as far as I am concerned)

Mind decides upon desires using 3 major sources, mainly ( as per traditional suggestion)

1.praarabhda karma( accumulated+ unfulfilled desires of past lives)

2.inherited karma ( genes of parents and their lineage)

3.acquired karma ( influence of presently held desires chased by a) parents/guardian b) others around, throughout my life.

And, 

there is an UNMISTAKABLE choice vested in any human format of “life” as compared to all other life forms 😜. ( This was my huge clue!)

Almost on my_own_now….. happened when I was suddenly relocated far away from the people around me, who kept_on influencing me some_way_or_other. 

Exercise of choice ( as per my choice) gained maximum strength when I was left to decide on_my_own.

Workplace ( location away from all the present ‘influencers’ into my choices) seemed to bind my choices to some extent, owing to the contractual job obligations 🙏

My experience of how it happened with me:

I secretly, privately & personally looked at ill-fated privately employed youth around me paid far_lesser than me (1974).

Zero scope to_be vocal_for_local ( याने, private workers, same quality/qualification).

I decided " at least let me maximize my returns 🙏"

This parameter decided my intensity+involvement at workplace.

One hurdle popped up from union "your output is reducing job opporChutney for other unemployed 😡"

Without quarrel, I reduced/scaled down the visible_form of output😜.  ( Advantage: union guys aren't attentive enough to notice subtle levels of quality_performance....whereas stakeholders, that is customers noticed 😂.

No scope for "gratification" to clerks🙏. )

Focus on quality over 3 decades.... refused to deny certain qualities in me🙏 {slogging with "my" 100 intensity & involvement came to stay as a 'default' quality in me😓...   I was getting shaped for spiritual practices (from 1974 itself) which was to come only in 1992.}

My assessment of 3 decades of workplace.

1.all other life forms are 100% intense and involved during their whole life 🙏. Their karma is varied, but intensity is alike, to_their_own_best. ( Very little scope to accumulate new unreasonable/unrealistic desires 😜. Dissolve one_set of karma & quit). I was just freak_lucky to have chosen to get_lost_completely into working intensely with involvement. I replicated the attitude of mules😂. Mind_time unavailable to pamper desires.

2.continuity of this intensity at workplace ( paid hours) apart from stabilizing me into a pattern of mind, permeated a lot, incrementally, into my non_paid waking hours 🤣 

3.replicating this attitude of total involvement with intensity, BECAME effortless, when it entered my muscle memory ( body, as a whole, including brain, adapted this pattern)

4. Influence of others had lesser effect even post retirement ( I can ‘safely say so’ after 2 decades of “do whatever you like” phase of life, with a modest pension without working for it 😜🙏.  Yet, I am able to sustain MODESTY/frugality in my lifestyle, using the repetition of ‘fortunate than many others equally qualified’ wala thought 😔)

5. ( Several such items, likely to fatigue a reader🙏. Hence, the gimmick “etc, etc & etc”)

Mind turns meditative, with age and related infirmities. Brain functions slower. It suits to escape ‘processing’ of newer unrealistic expectations and desires 😜. Contentment seems like ‘default'. A cow awaiting a slaughter-house, or a neglected rotting, after it has ceased to yield its milk under captivity ( society, in my case🙏). Joke is, all other life forms die gracefully, inconspicuously and eco-friendly in their free-state, and I can't_desire to replicate them🙏. My intense practice of “death” as a guided meditation for 500 plus times, doesn't reassure me that I can do it at_will as_yet. At best, I may know “my game is over now👍” and it might reduce my dependency on traditional rituals as a free_soul 🙏.

Fortunately yours, 

psn(9 Feb 2026)

Breaking rules

 Breaking rules

😜

I love this concept.

Usually, it is the negative qualities that fuels a mind to explore ‘how to break the rules and get away with it👍”

Only man-made rules can be broken, tampered with, meddled with, manipulated with, modified partially/wholly, replaced or whatever.

Rules of nature are eternal and tamper-proof.

I discovered this, when I was a kid : Rules in homes differ at each household. Step out on the road, and I have to obey the same rules as everybody 😳….  I received the fodder for my mind to explore!

Kid age necessitates a ‘lot of thinking’ to conceptualise a small thing like ‘why a common rule for everybody on the road?” . The verbalised format of the deeper concept took a few more years 😭.

With none around to ‘debug’ the syntax ( verbal form), the semantic form( concept) too remained a bit obscure to elders around. Slowly, when unchecked, unexamined, untested and unheard, the semantic and its syntax got embedded in me 😭. Very difficult to scrub the grout ( it is a grout, if it is defective concept 🙏). 

My defective verbalised format: common rules on road (maybe) because, the head of the town, city, district, state or country, while framing that rule( like: keep to the Left, while driving any vehicle) treated his area of dadagiri (commanding power) as 1 family “.

This got even ‘verified’ when as a teenager a phoren_returned teenager exclaimed to me “hey! Do you know, in USA, it is KEEP TO THE RIGHT, not left!😳”. Damn! Does it mean ‘no common sense?”      No!  Then what?  A fresh reason : “may be, just to afford some predictability about the other, to avoid a stupid collision, some_orderliness👍” ( This “suited” to fit-in several of my_own baseless_conclusions🙏😜.  That means, I can drive ‘as I like, when the road is empty, desolate…..anyway, no cop is posted in a desert😜…. And this road is Desert-ed temporarily at 2 am 🤣. I can BREAK the rules when it serves zero purpose 👍 

At work place, at times, rules came in the way , when a customer needed genuine help 🙏. ( Remember, ‘my defective concept’ …. on the road, it's one_family, a large home🙏…???  ) I looked at the ‘purpose’ of that goddamned rule. It's meant to only_protect the organisation! This customer is not going to harm my employers, if I do a OTB( One Time Break, like our OTP, one-time pin). I break 🤣. We( customer & me) share an entirely DISSIMILAR set of emotions, he exudes gratitude, while I exhibit a thrill of having mustered courage to break_a_rule to help a genuine & needy, with zero_risk to the “hand that feeds me food/salary”

Next stupidity ( stupid because, it my own idea): when the purpose of rule is not at risk, break it for a noble_cause

Thus, a crude non_verbal form of Jurisprudence and its related concepts started snowballing in me 😥

Side effects? I scored above average in Jurisprudence in laaa_eggjam(LLB).

I felt persuaded to EXAMINE the (juris)prudence in certain rituals which stood the test_of_time,  though they are seeming utterly stupid to do 👍…. A glaring example is “all the gesticulation and articulations performed by a fellow by Sheer reason that he is a JeneauDhaariPappu( wears a thread around his shoulder….today, mostly only_brahmins), do not display any purpose!!!😳😳😳. I brush my teeth, I can experience the purpose, foul smell gone👍. I bathe, and feel fresh! I walk and I move. So on…. The gesture and chants by a wearer of holy_thread?  Zero display of results 😭. Like writing on water, instead of sand with a finger🙏.  I had_to_solve this puzzle 🙏, my private & personal craze. Asking others yielded only frowns.

No leads or clues visible 🙏 

Then came a mystic ( camouflaged like a yogic guru) who initiated me( like thousands of others) into tools and techniques which could open up my receptivity beyond sensory levels of perception 🙏. Floodgates of info, via access to a newer dimensions of flawless network got opened up🙏. 

For the first time, I confronted the rules that I can never break! Rules rule me! My whole self, my_mind, my_body is dictated, governed and controlled by those rules . Call it sanatan Dharma or any fanciful name you like! 

The rules itself breaks me 🙏 if I am not in CONFORMITY with it🤣( we nicknamed it as karma, rhyming with Dharma 😜) 

Key to open the book of these rules( sanatan Dharma) is a personal experience of the 4 declaratory truths ( MahaVakyas). No other GnawLedge/knowledge, art, skill, expertise, achievement, accomplishments, siddhis etc can open the book of these cosmic laws for us to ‘read’ online in real-time 🙏. These gimmicks( skills) might at best assist a pure/innocent mind to reach the experience of 4 MahaVakyas sooner, easier, etc, but can hand-in the 🔐 key!

I now need a “break” ( not any rule_break… just a brake for my mind 🙏)

Unruly yours,

psn( 8 Feb 2026)

Rules rule our bonds

 

Real problem affecting our present day mutual bonds( not relationship 😜) between relatives is lack of trust, mutually!

Trust is the adhesive for human bonds, not rules 😜

Trust deficiency with non_relatives  also affects commercial-relationships EQUALLY, but we manage to reduce the impact by seeking help of more and more complicated 'rules' which are ENFORCEABLE at law 🙏

It is easy to understand the distinction.
But, we are stubborn about recognizing the distinction, enough to retain it in our awareness 🙏(why we are stubborn is : Emotional stress accumulates, when emotional needs remain unfulfilled, and emotions are unavailable to logic.)

Rules are POSSIBLE only in commercial 'relationships'.
Strictness of rules, in commercial 'relationships' is INVERSELY proportional to the trust.  More the trust, lesser need to invoke rules.  Zero trust, mind starts devising, conniving ways to flout rules 😜.  When rules swell, the costs are prohibitive in terms of money, manpower and time 😥 (unproductive costs is going to affect profitability, GDP and the economy itself.  Prosperity-graph turns horizontal 🤣)

Non_commercial relationship is breaking up, simply because rules cannot work!

Look at the 'new' set of rules we tried to squeeze_in, for non_commercial relationship 😂.  Both, bride and groom should be well employed, well qualified, carry zero 'luggages'( dependents like aged parents are now 'luggages' 😜), etc.

Babies are downloaded with one excellent software pre-embedded, called 'element of wonder' ..... Very precious! Wonder is the first and the only 'app' they can-use to learn! 
They wonder, looking at the commercial_type_rules in the Non_commercial relationship between the parents 😳🤔.
Nascent brain🙏. It merely adopts with trust assuming that only_this_works! ( Kid age, he tests "gimme 2 chocolates for doing my homework, eating your nasty( not Tasty) breakfast" etc. The parents agree to the kid_rules 😜 unsuspectingly, since their muscle__memory nods, looking at the synchronicity with their own mutual_rules 🤣.

Rules rule our emotional relationship instead of love, trust and affection.
It is STUPID to expect the results of a fruit using the wrong seeds and deeds😥🙏

When quality of emotions deteriorate, stress, hypertension etc are inevitable.  Nature shows reluctance and hesitates to 'grant' babies if the emotional chemistry is inadequate! Commercial mindset decides "babies are a burdensome additional workload without any remuneration/compensation-package, so.....at least postpone it👍. Enjoy freedom from burdensome bonds at least for a few years!" It works! They do get logical_benefits. 

Then comes an experience of 'void'. Without addressing the emotional needs, this void keeps growing and haunting. Attempts to substitute this void with gadgets using a commercial mind isnt going to work!(pet-toys, in the west, aren't working too well. Probably why, a fourth of the doctors are psychiatrists).

The source of emotional abundance is our spirit within 🙏 (when nothing else works, we say "and now, Yoga".... meaning,  oneness, inclusiveness, spirituality, etc). 

Once this problem is understood with clarity, solution is obvious.

emotionally yours,

psn(7 Feb, 2026)

My wishful thinking

 My wishful thinking 

Not that these are highly impossible, But we have ‘made’ these highly impractical 😜

Why not enjoy vicariously, imagining that these are actually happening?

I am trying to list out a few, and hope to add if a few more occurs.

1)If there was an  enter-button like we have on a key board, as a chip in the other person while we are talking? ( The computer starts processing the data we type only after we tap the “enter” button. Whereas, even my spouse is in a great hurry to pre-conclude even before I utter the 4th word of my first sentence spoken to her, and interjects with an entirely irrelevant response 😭.  Cross talk over phone is too common😓 Both reach nowhere, while the precious calories get burnt up by the organ ‘brain’ processing with mere 5% of the inputs required 😜

2)If, we were programmed to only do our duties, never bothering about our rights? 🤔

My rights ‘become’ your_duty towards_me 😜

Life becomes silk smooth! I don't NEED to get rid of my BP, diabetes, stress, hypertension etc because I wont get it into_me first of all. As an unavoidable benefit, mutual trust becomes natural 😥. Trust is incapable of coming alone into me😭. It drags love, affection, emotional bond etc, etc & etc along with it. The severe most consequence is the average life_span is never below 120 years😓🙏. I might need old history books to know what a “scam” is! What treachery is? What deceit is? We don't need unity😥. We are in “unison” about duty. Unfortunately, “duty” is only_unto_others. Caring about my self is already handled by x,y,z near me ( not necessarily my blood relatives 😜)

Hey, this imagination itself has triggered a temporary _bit of relaxation, peace, tranquility & joy in me😓 … ( let the reader suffer these symptoms…. It's suhaanaaSuffering, after all!😜

3) if only I can convert this thought as my default habit “this body is like a gadget, with zero guarantee about its life_span, and therefore, I must use it maximum to work for me & others, allowing only maintenance and not comforts” 😜.  Being the_most_sophisticated machine of the planet, O.I. enabled ( intellect is an accessory with original equipment) my productivity is super_efficient. Auto_evolving into highly improvised models as my progeny!

4) if only our real_life conversations happen like the well_scripted screenplay dialogues like in movies, TV serials etc? Unambiguous, crisp, clear and attention grabbing 😜. ( Women folk are highly skilled at meaningless, bla-bla for hours together at weddings etc😥. They part a little disappointed that 4 hours wasn't enough to exchange their cordial conversation 😳, though they don't have one sentence of new info as value addition to either🙏. Men are no different often! Only difference is, women are aware, that they want to be ornamental_only in conversation at social gatherings while men are unaware of own confusion 😥).

5) if only teachers are having a memory_loss about having taught the same text book lessons until last year? They remember the subject well, but teach as if it is their first time , they are teaching kids, every time 😜 …. Intense involvement guaranteed🙏👍

6) I wish —--teachers are permitted to say “I don't know”🙏 The princi is bound by a rule : a teacher shall not be terminated if he/she boldly accepts ignorance about any genuine questions from the students.

My physics teacher taught me just the laws related to fluids🙏 not the concepts, nor the possibility to combine 4 chapters. I learnt from Golconda fort, and used it to draw water from erratic, irregular, air filled taps at the stipulated height. Golconda fort had mud pipes to carry water 500 feet high without any mechanical device+fuel like motor-pumpset 😜( Hence, I welcome the toughest+stupiDest koschan in spreetualitee, because I can say ‘i don't know’ effortlessly, though the verse “आनो भद्रा: (Aano bhadra krtavo yantu vishwatah" is a profound Vedic mantra from the Rigveda 1.89.1”) saved me at_times 😭🙏

nth) …..  ( pending, until some fanciful ‘wish’ occurs 😓🙏… this blog is subject to periodical updations)

Until then yours,

psn(6 Feb 2026)

Critics and criticisms

 Critics and criticisms

😂

The two are mutually exclusive, though not often. 

A cunning critic outsources it, baiting a fool to voice his criticism 😜

My defect_by_default 😓….I got ‘lost’ into the criticism when I was a kid. Reason: an unwritten rule was, elders around are seldom wrong! ( Of course, as a teenager, I got_to_discover that …. wisdom & stupidity, runs concurrently with age, because all elders are not trained to ‘invoke their intellect CONSCIOUSLY 🙏”)

Then came the complexities when I had no ‘elder’ around to boldly_criticise me sincerely+honestly 😓. I had to look for the meaning ‘between the lines’ 😭.

Only when the criticism wasn't valid and yet a weapon used to infuriate me, I turned to look at ‘handling the_critic’, otherwise, I handle only the criticism, check it's validity and deal with it as per its merits.

This style of handling critics and criticisms distinctly, deposited a few benefits in the account of my character, quite surpringly and unexpectedly 😥.  My well wishers became more free with me! Trust in me started swelling a bit beyond its default elasticity 😜. I had to tone it down, at times, with a request: “please don't soften your criticism unreasonably🙏. I might overlook it's importance if I get lost into the sweetness of your tone, when you criticise. A stern voice guarantees drawing_my_attention 😥😥😥”

A joke ( about drawing the attention! Copyright: my spiritual teacher;  source:his spiritual program, 1992)

A seller demanded exorbitant price for his donkey from the buyer, explaining: ‘ this donkey obeys, just by speaking to it, no spanking needed’

Enthusiastically, the buyer tried it next morning “dear donkey, shall we go to the market? A big load of goods, you have to carry back for us👍”

The donkey ignored.

Buyer now tried several types of words, tones etc, verbally. Still no response.

Disappointed thoroughly, buyer went to the seller “you duped me! Donkey doesn't even listen🙏😭”

Seller : let me check! After all, there is something called “after_sales_service👍”

Seller gave a big knock on the head of the donkey and barked “walk 😡”. The donkey obeyed 😜

Turning to the buyer, the seller explained: see, you need to draw its attention first, and then talk to make it listen to obey 👍

Joke over.

Tragedy: my spiritual teacher never( during the five years of my studentship under him with a proximity) criticised or pointed to any error in me 🙏. Ironically, others numbering a few hundreds didn't notice that he omitted me from auditing! I was left to make guessed like: am I a case beyond_repair? or am I going to be auto_corrected? Etc.

I solved this lack of criticism, by evolving into a software of self_criticism 🙏. The only snag was, I had to ‘design’ another sub_routine program of healthy, impartial, sensible and a constructive_critic in me. Updation of healthy non_sadistic self_critic software involved equipoise of emotions, deepening of perception, sharpening of alertness, wakefulness in awareness, and judicious_discretion in Discrimination 😥.

Debugging of updations prove to be highly laborious than the basic design 😭

(By the way, a sample bit of my attempt to connive a sharp criticism to ‘look like a healthy one' 😜. During a month long residential program in spirituality, we were served with plain watery rice gruel for several days successively, twice a day. Several minds started repelling at the slow death of their taste buds. It so happened, that two of us( me and an other student, out of some 800), got noticed that the teacher never_refused to any of our request. I too noticed this, though a bit late! One participant tried to “use” me saying “hey, why don't you ask for teachers permission to have a pudding ( payasam, in desi language) at least once? He never refuses you👍” . I simply looked at the greedy in the eyes of this person and suggested calmly “but why did you volunteer to undergo this torture of rice_gruel/kanji? You could have stayed home and ordered for payasam( rice pudding) daily_thrice, being super rich yourself???” . That person CONSCIOUSLY collected all the energy from all over the body, concentrated it into the face, and displayed an unforgettable ANGER towards me🤣. My connived criticism caused an implosion in that person, unable to manifest/let_it_out in words 🙏 )

Software bijness in spirituality is a thankless job 🙏. All it can end up is, into detachment/freedom etc from the bondages I had preserved with the software itself😓

Non_critic_ally yours,

psn(6 Feb 2026)

Post script: observing ‘the way’ others use this weapon of criticism, afforded me to understand the sample_minds around, a bit effortlessly 😜