A tribute to my Guru

 A tribute to my Guru 

Attributes…..we know 👍

This guy, who is my guru has numerous attributes which I can never dream of “knowing” 🙏😭

I look at just 1  at’tribute (it suits me to CopyPaste the word ‘tribute’ from attributes.

And the aspect for which I ‘pay’ this tribute this time is….   He played a cruel joke on me 😭

“I didn't used_to_have the faintest idea of what was going on in his head, when his eyes met mine, for the first time in 1992”

A reader can check it any time 👍

Just look a 6 month old baby, into its eyes. We don't have the faintest idea of what's going on in its head 👍. 

The difference is the problem 🙏

That guy ( my Guru) is aware, self-aware 😥.  The baby is not yet aware/self_aware 😜.

Ocean of difference 🙏

I am on that job 👍

Become like that baby, but with the attribute of the guy called Guru.

Let it take eternity ( trillion life times👍)

Ignorantly yours,

psn(18 Sept 2026)

Dissuasion

 dissuasion

The main culprit responsible for hidden talents remaining suppressed in kids, when their ‘learning’ curve is at its peak 😀 

And it is with the best of intentions 🙏😭, and therefore, very little scope for noticing the latent negativity in it .

A kid is at the precarious tall branch of a tree, and the mom shouts “Don't fall 🙏” . The kid wonders “how not-to-fall?”( Mind is habituated to a “don't do this, don't do that” list 😀.  So, a prefix “don't” is by default, and the rest is “whatever occurs”.   A conscious speech might “try” something like “hold firmly to the branch, till you get help to climb down”

“ Knife might injure you dear… wait till you grow ‘intelligent enough’ to use it without bleeding yourself 😂” might be a persuasion instead of”don't touch it(knife) 😡😡” a dissuasion that can give birth to other negatives in a kid like “oh, this elder can be so angry at me, elders can order a helpless-dependent kid, they hate more often than love,  when busy, they scold, love when nothing else to do?”( Endless chain of thought process 😜).

When “don't” are in majority, “do’s” feel like an imposition 😂 ( “ do your homework first, or else no dinner👍😡”.   Kid within himself ”tell that to my stomach …’cause its making noises due to hunger.”

Probably, the root of our problem is….

1). We are using the “don't- list” with only good intentions 

2). Even gourmet chants daily “don't touch unidentified objects– i.e.d. “...  I knew QED in geometry 🙏😓). “Don't tell OTP/ don't give mobile number/ don't, don't, don't 😡”

3) endless list. ( I desist from elaborating negatives ) We can recall a good number 👍

In short, a kid reads it on the wall “don't ever try anything on your own” .  He is left with one option 🤣.  Copypaste answers from MEMORY only, during eggjams! High cut-off guaranteed to gain admission in NEET, JEE etc. ( GRE/TOEFL needs ‘different’ skills sets, but manageable. The west needs phoren currency 👍).

One ‘legend’ i recall hailed from coimbatore. A dropout, who revolted against “don't do this-that”.  He Disrupted several times “this can't be done except this_way_only”.  He left behind minds puzzled for perpetuity, by operating 5 routes with just 3 buses😜. (The ‘normal' is a ‘spare’ bus per every 3 routes😜…  Illegal, and hence, I came to know only through his close buddy, very reliably. Unofficially, he printed currency on textile printing machines 😜. All the while facing the “dissuasion Gang” of “don'ts” till he died🙏).  Name? I won't disclose too openly. I revere his “spirit” 🙏🙏🙏

Rare positivity at my school (1958–1970)

“do what you like, free period “ said the school peon adding “except for noise, next room a class is busy”. A teacher is on leave …..   50 kids in a prison cell (classroom without a teacher for 40 minutes 🙏). What can go wrong??? Kids start “WONDERING” and switch on their innovative potential “ what ALL is possible without any noise?” ( no smartphones those days 😜, otherwise, no need to wonder, think etc. today's mom finds a handset “handy” to tame a kid 👍. She is oblivious to the permanent disability getting implanted in the kid 😓— his ‘frame’ gets a stunted_growth 🤣).

Did I dissuade a response or feedback EVER? 😜.  But I am not disappointed either 👍.   Even the copypastes littered in TerraBytes are deleted with a button “select all” ( wholesale!).  My texting is irritating only because they disturb the mind often 🙏. I look for the absence of a positive response and then i do the “Houdini trick”( a famous magician’s vanishing act).

Unappointedly yours,

psn(18 Sept, 2026)

PostScript humour:

A lady, expert in “don't” came to the centre for backup support ( i was volunteering) to collect ‘valid don'ts’ to dissuade her sister-in-law from subscribing to next program of yoga class.

“Money doesn't grow on trees😡” she began.

I gave a list of “don'ts”

“Don't allow your brother's wife to join 🙏. I got inextricably trapped..

I don't lack spare time 

I don't get small ailments like headache 

I don't get confused

I don't need too much sleep 

I don't acquire ambiguity in thoughts

I don't mince words.

I don't lack clarity

I don't get tired/fatigue

I don't seem normal ( because of many ‘don’ts’ i got afflicted with 😭🙏)

She too decided to enroll 😜( Double expense. It seems, she mentioned me during a feedback at the end. I don't look for bouquet)

Response

 Response 

A magical word 🙂

The patient is not “responding” says a doctor. We don't ask “to what?” We know it's damn serious! 

I look at myself 🙏. Am I responsive enough”?  It is now, that the koschan “to what ALL???”  gains intensity, because  I know I “am” now! 😜 

How do I motivate (the freshers) to respond to the highest human possibility in life??? The peak period of this ‘search' was, when I volunteered for the backup support at a center meant for people to seek help, after attending a spiritual program of 13 days. A 6 year span from 1992. 

And the heavy rate of ‘failure’ is what taught me the importance of the “response”-mechanism in-built in humans🙏. 

Motivation is related to our potential to respond, but awaiting for our wake up call to get activated 🤣.

In a strange way, I see an illogical reverse_similarity with local and general anesthesia 😜. “General” is far more powerful than “local” anesthesia.  I find a “general’ response to”life” to be most responsive than a “specific” response!

A guy, who responds to”life” itself, ultimately ends up including everyone and everything around as a part of himself 🙏😥. ( Proof : a sanyasi forsakes his ‘own' folks to become an expansion of responseAbled guy, at universe_level. If he radiates powerfully enough, a crowd responds to his inclusiveness. And his own family “including”  😜🙏). 

 Normal guys respond to something/someone they relate with ( their desire, emotional attachment, emotional blackmail, greed, expectations, goals, urge etc….  whether it is life_negative or life_positive 😥).

Parenting is ideally  “supposed” to look for scope and potential in their kids to respond. Here, it is responseAbility, as a quality, not object_oriented. If this “ability” has a versatility, the kid finds oneself motivated by many possibilities in terms of ‘actions’, when it grasps the data well, through it 5 input devices!. ( The bulk of communicated part of ancient Hinduism, through traditions, rituals, scriptures etc, are a time_tested evidence 🙏 to help us to get convinced that these are a priceless gift of sophisticated tool_sets). A Guru is a living tool, who customises a tailored tool to tap the potential to respond 😜🙏🙏🙏.  I don't know if this ‘subtle distinction’ suggested by me is going to find an appeal in a reader to mumble “Maybe, lemme see😳”.  I am not a professional, by any chance. I am driven by sheer curiosity to see if my ‘premise’ is worth a response further😜. And I must acknowledge my ‘own' milestones on this pathless path, and silently nod to myself “yep! 👍 Good going yaar!”.

An old Hindi song and its lyrics offer a mystic motivation to wake up the responseAbility in me🙏 ( I generalise it as much as possible 😥)

Movie: Anokhi raat, and lyrics ”oh re taal mile nadii ke…..”  

The yearning to respond is “loaded” in these 2 stanzas :

सूरज को धरती तरसे (धरती को चंद्रमा - २)

पानी में सीप जैसे प्यासी हर आतमा

ओ मितवा रे ए ए ए ए   पानी में ...

बूंद छुपी किस बादल में

कोई जाने ना

ओह रे ताल मिले नदी के जल में ...

अन्जाने होंठों पर ये (पहचाने गीत हैं - २)

कल तक जो बेगाने थे जनमों के मीत हैं

ओ मितवा रे ए ए ए   कल तक ...

क्या होगा कौन से पल में

कोई जाने ना

Whatever 🙏 

Generally yours,

psn(17 Sept 2026)

Match Fixing

 Match Fixing 

No…no…no…no…🙏

Not the cricket wala match_fixing.

The life_partner wala desi match_fixing by the parents of a bride & groom 😜

My story is a status like “now it can be told👍”( both 70+,  not worthy of “commercial hacking”. Physical Sadistic_hacking( unto death ) isn't a satisfying project 😥

My dad did the match_fixing 🤣.

Unpredictably f-a-s-t in decision making 😥.

At least 5 times out of 15, it was just an hour's notice “we are renting a new house”. Obviously , it's a scramble 😂. Few things break in transit. An Unfortunate “daily-friend” like grinding stone & pestle finds a new pair of parents ( some “good” neighbour is happily there to adopt an unconditional servant we forsake abruptly 👍

Dad's view ( only my guess work 🙏 😥):

“It's our family tradition 👍. Parents dictate the would-be life-partner of their offspring.

I know what's good for my child 👍. I have “the” experience too! De-bugging, if at all, is Gawd’s/God’s bijness, else why do we spend on offerings? Plus a bit of blind_faith on Him?...... ( And so on)”

Dad's performance: 

He told “point blank” at his Counter_part (girl's dad): “look… I am here to see if the girl can TOLERATE my son for her life_time, and NOT to test if I am ABLE to find the ‘best girl’ available”( that gentleman was “naturally” shaken a lot 😂… wwhhhaat? ( Guess the rest)

“No ‘terms’, do what you like” added my dad(the only comforting part of the match_fixing. 

Uncertainty loomed at the bride's household. ( Details are quite “exciting” but its too long plus, I owe some_decency to not making it too public 🤣).

My view: 

I exist and even lived this far because of my parents ( my mom didn't have any “say” in the match_fixing😜. Her mother-in-law was alive, gotcha?...yep! )

I am ‘able’ to be damn comfortable with 

a)my elders around as a kid( though they used me as their object of entertainment, except a few)

b)I was enriched by my schoolmates & teachers , also at college likewise, except a very_few negative ones

c) I sailed through ‘smooth’ with colleagues of very dissimilar types, reactionary & responsive, with its sub_classifications numerous 🙏.

d) I was manning( not womaning,😥) a public counter at a busy branch of a huge commercial bank. ( Poorest to stinking_rich ‘deal’ with me with their commodity ‘money’, and today ONLY money matters for most of us🙏😥). None, yes_none ever had a grudge in getting along with me,😜

All the a-to-d items were NOT of my_choosing. 

So?... Khuda meherbaan tou gadha bhi pehelwaan( When God is generous, even a donkey is a wrestler to_Win always👍)

I had zero reason to protest ( the only choice I reserved was “dad's choice for this girl, or else, I get on as a lone traveler on my life priority —spiritual quest🙏). And the rest is his(her)story 😜

The joke:   I am ‘armed’ today with tools required to deal with a good number of mutual inconsistencies, (except financial related trust, where we(me+spouse)failed to EVER mistrust each other 😭, so zero competence), and can help the “apprehensions” of any youth, who can ‘afford’ to trust any value addition from me🙏

Fixedly yours,

psn(17 Sept 2026)

Data

 Data

One guy can handle ‘data' like none else can 👍

Most abused friend of mine.

Obviously 🙏,

When a friend of mine is going to be abused, i ‘feel’.... 😭. ( More so, when I can't do anything much about it. He sits inside everybody around, and I can pamper only that guy inside of me🙏. Sort of omnipresent entity, he is!)

We access tons of data every day 😜

5 input devices 'operational' all our waking hours 🙏

The 6th guy is to be invoked very CONSCIOUSLY, if there is to be any value addition,🙏

This 6th guy is a bit discrete, about agreeing to 'work' for us😓. He stipulates stringent conditions 🙏

The worst of the conditions is "can your mind just shut_up while I am at_work ???? 😡. I can't focus, when your mind keeps digging out irrelevant junk labels from its memory very senselessly( to slap on the data)😜.  And my boss, I mean your intellect is allergic to the very presence of your mind. 

So,  make up your mind first. I am sleeping when I am kept waiting 👍. And you can't do a damn thing about it 😂"

That was my 6th sense( a dubious guy, deceptive, evasive from mind, and elusive when intellect, his boss is not watching 😜). He is popular by an irritating name 'sense of Discrimination' 😓. Peepals/people use this name to scold others often, the lack of it, the abuse_part….. and seldom to wake up their own 🙏😥

I shall resort to a story telling 🙏

( Very ancient and time tested tool to convey the message across)

This really happened to me 🙏 

1975, within 2 months of my joining a branch at a small town, an aged officer offered to come on deputation to “act” as our manager, replacing the regular incumbent.

It seemed odd, that he was wearing a neck tie, and looked good enough to attend a VVIP meeting 😓 ( readers are free to figure it out “why”)....

The moment he said “I am retiring in another 4 months. I am fond of taking a look at the 3rd generation down, who are going to take forward this great institution, I served for 59⅓ years. A kind of ‘seeking for reassurance’ and hence I volunteered to come on deputation though I am the senior most scale-3. Fresh recruits are thrown at smaller and remote branches”

“Phew!!!”, I thought, “this ‘elder’ is also an elderLee ( बुजुर्गी wala)😜”.

Please wake-up, I pleaded to my friend, the 6th guy inside me.

I asked a volley of questions, branching out from his reply to my first question, “ I joined our Bombay main branch. Very few branches then, and only 1 GM. The only farthest branch was at Calicut, guaranteed by our customers here, insulating the institution against FIDELITY (of staff)”

Sample data I dug out of him: 

( That's when my 6th guy decided upon ‘what_to_ask’ 😜…   not every day, I am going to bump into a walking book of unwritten history of my institution 😓)

His early days at work (my_data)

The bearer-cheques issued by our customers get presented 95 times out of 100, only around 175 days from the date of issue. It works like hard cash😂, bekos, it never bounces!  ( Hard to get qualified for opening an account 😓… Bank's reputation is only as good as its customers. Corollary: a nation's/family’s reputation is only as good as its citizens/members. He used a simple rule : “I refuse to be the weakest link in the chain, because a chain is only as strong as its Weakest link!”. Practical, plus pragmatic dialogue 🙏.

GM is the only guy who can get ‘angry’ at a customer 😂. And when angry, the customer is handed his entire money and asked to get_lost. ( Why this worked?= The dignity of the staff, sweeper to asst. GM, is the Sole personal responsibility of the GM. Staff ‘loved’ this emotional bond 🙏).

A joke: I lamented ( in a very soft manner, looking at him as my eldest brother whose pet kiddo I am 🙏) “ Sir, this sorting of currency, separating soiled and brittle ones is tedious for me as a cashier 😓😭”( smaller denomination are smaller in size too, and crumpled)

He : “ You sound like a kid complaining about not having footwear to walk.  That's only because you didn't meet a kid with no legs to walk 😂.   I too worked in the cash department as a beginner clerk. Pre-independence days. When a customer deposits cash in Bombay main branch, it's a sea port, remember 👍.   We have to sort it first, before counting 😜. It's a mix of 4 currencies! And then, sign the receipt. Later, another sorting to retain soiled/brittle/etc” ( I “became” a ShutUp, without being told to. 😜.

Indian, British, Burmese and the ones printed by Imperial Bank( old RBI) on behalf of some sultanate in middle east😓

I am closing the story ( already too long)

The point is : Unless I use my sense of Discrimination, and then ‘choose’ my words of communication well, why would that “elderly/buzurgiWala” opt to spill out his accumulated wisdom of 59+ years???? ( He did comment : “Hey kid, you literally robbed me of my life experience, which otherwise would have slept alongside me in my grave! 😂”...   I guess, he might be squirming in his grave uneasily now, if his ‘spirit’ might be sensing the non_verbal text of this blog 😥.  “Sorry boss 🙏, I didn't reveal your personal details 😂. Anyway, you didn't even have an aadhaar/PAN/voter id/etc like me😜. I keep sorting them daily, to reach the exact thing ask for, at my 70+ now🙏😭. 4 currencies was lighter,👍”....…)

Rarely blessed by the 6th guy,

yours,

psn(16 Sept 2026)

A safe_A.I., possible?

 A safe_A.I., possible?

Yep👍

Just design it to tap the cosmic intelligence ( C.I), and program it to synchronise the sequence of coding with cosmic laws. That simple 🙏😜 ( A.I. is yet to respond to “nothingness” as an input_data. 🙏. The vast emptiness of far_off space is still a physical space, not nothingness 😜. Cosmic intelligence responds to NOTHINGNESS)

Ancient chants are the ‘keys’ to invoke the cosmic intelligence and allow it to ‘decide’ its manifested_functionality to work flawlessly 😜 ( zero tolerance level of errors or bugs)

Job requirements:

Either the stringent requirements of synchronicity with quantum physics laws while a) chanting as mantras, b) while using Yantras & chants , a tantra or c) mere highly intense non_verbal positive emotions, bhava.  All these 3 needs to be by a person free from 4 negative emotions, at_least while invoking the cosmic intelligence.  

The guarantee part : cosmic intelligence Created the natural intelligence, called “humans”😜 That way, A.I. is a mere processor like our brain, nothing to do with the word “intelligence” 🙏😂…   A human intelligence can ‘reach’ the core of existence, denoted by a word called “nothingness”( beyond the comprehension of the organ brain, and therefore a mind can NOT store it as an experience, nor can it conceptualise it, using brain 😜. Mind can't use intellect of its own volition 😡. It can only ShutUp to allow the human intellect to wake up 🙏.

Quantum physics can help to authoritatively negate my guess, when accompanied by the maxim : “When contradictions exist, check the premise” ( copyright: Ayn Rand, author of “the Objectivist Epistemology”🙏🙏🙏)

Self_corrective factors are embedded in a sample chant “waves of Beauty” by Aadi Shankara.  ( It was necessitated, because the invocational seed_mantra is already in each verse of 4 lines. An A.I. of advanced version. A time capsule of all the knowledge discovered till that point of time).

Anybody desirous of ‘verifying’ the veracity of my guess work can take up a simple chant like a mahaMantra and chant it after preparing their body+mind according to the requirement 🙏 ( a couple of chants worked for me, to a demonstrable level, but only unto myself 😥.  Therefore, I don't expect any subscription or patronage to my views/experience!  About enlightenment also, an adage is “one who speaks, knows not. And one who knows speaks not”).

There is a HOT debate among brilliant ones about the apprehensions of A.I. likely to obliterate human species. Lay persons only contribute to the profits of TV channels, viewing the ‘talk’ by brains, having no potential to respond meaningfully. Spiritual guys have ‘some’ scope to make the “right kind of noises” 😜

Noisily yours,

psn(15 Sep 2026)

Responding to Trust

 Responding to Trust

🙏

(I shouldn't be ‘touching’ such an irritant, when I can guess the ‘reaction’ likely to erupt in a mind 😭. “Trustworthiness is rare” is the defence 👍😂)

The skill_set needed to respond to the trust invested into me, by “somebody”  is what I am hinting at 😥.

A confession:   I was CONSTRAINED to fine_tune the opposite skill when I noticed that peepals/people around me ‘prefer’ to distrust me for no Valid reason 😜. “Why take chances, when distrust might work👍????”. Perfectly okay 🙏.  After all, this is one of the best ways to encash the freedom guaranteed under Indian constitution 😜. ( How I dealt with distrust is not going to be of “much” use for bulk of the readers’. A sure solution is “ I get the hell out of the other's way” . In polite English, “I am dead, as far as they are concerned “! I expect a minimum common sense, that the other person doesn't enjoy flogging a corpse, a sadism at work 😂)

A new born. Does that kid start with TRUST or mistrust??? 🙏🙏🙏🙏

 If internal Honesty is affordable, the most indispensable skill_set is parenting( to respond to the TRUST)? Yes or no?..  😔. If yes,  is it not a JOINT responsibility of the boy & the girl, to check the presence of the skillSet called “parenting” in at least either of them? ( Technically, cosmically, Dharma_wise, both need it at peak levels, otherwise we end up INSULTING the original creator by whose blessings, that victim_kid happened through the pair of spouses 😜).

My reason for quitting was damn simple. A clear and unambiguous documentary evidence, duly recorded, to convey that I ain't trustworthy anymore 👍. ( Some guys with absolute authority did their best to desist me . But that was owing to a huge majority opining contrarily 😜, without the responsibility to trust me 🙏. I don't give credulance to such faked gestures!). Attrition rate has a small percentage owing to the mistrust of the bosses or a lack of response from the employee to a trust.

People “know” how to respond to trust too well, when it is a dog they domesticate and are happy to see its tail wagging with 100% intensity. They don't even mind using my frontage as a toilet for that dog😜 . It's a public road, and gourmet never interferes if the road is littered with a pet/stray dog’s poop👍. ( To hell with the responseAbility to respond to my_trust in a fellow citizen in the nearby apartment 😜.  In USA, law compels a dog_walker to clean its poop on the road. Under compulsion they ‘spend’ on gloves, disposable poop_bags etc😜, nothing to do with response_to_trust🙏😂. They are tense, not cheerful doing it. The very AWARENESS, when we are Responding to a trust at our very best is itself a huge elixir for joy🙏. Joy is superior to happiness or peace 😜, and I didn't design ‘joy’, please😥)

(Suppose)Some guy out of stupidity decides to gift a mobile handset worth a million $.  No questions asked. No favours in return. He forgets. Isn't it enough to spoil my peace of mind? 😂. The damn price tag is enough for me to look for a “Z” category security for that stupid man_made gadget . My personal problem was just this: how do I respond to ‘nature’ for enTrusting me with the most_sophisticated gadget on this planet? My ‘human' frame? I can end its ‘life’ misusing, abusing, disusing, etc, no questions asked 🙏. But respecting/revering that trust reposed in me is my personal problem 😥. And just look at the EXTENDED trust in me, when I yet to learn how to respond:  Another ‘life’ happens ‘through' me 🙏 😭….my kid! The very “thought” was enough to nail my priorities! ( Very lucky guys, who litter the planet with offsprings recklessly, oblivious to such responseAbility 🙏. And for a different reason, those who decide on “live_in” mode are free from the responseAbility,😜, when they Reject the trust offered by nature 👍)

Apologetically yours,

psn(15 Sep, 2026)

Tailpiece:

I ended up WORSENING the matters more, when the prospective brides and grooms of ‘today’ are grappling with the problem= how and where to find the testing tools to check the mutual compatibility, before staking their lives hereonwards with a total stranger???

I added to the job_requirements “a certificate in parenting” with just_pass/higher cut_off marks 🙏😭

Apologies 🙏 

Then what happened?

 Then what happened?

Bedtime stories, my dad is compelled to tell us. Despite: he works hard, and we 3 kids, hardly, every day😜🙏🙏🙏

Obviously, his focus is lesser than ours. We used a “standard operating procedure”( SOP) to alert him, when he blabbers, under the influence of sleep. Some days, we miss the story, despite our repetition of the SOP “then what happened?”. Some days, his response is like a spy-soldier tortured by other side, disallowed to sleep and blabbers the secrets😜. A sample by my dad…

“Then what happened?”

Dad, half asleep “Rama filed an FIR in the police station”( sita abducted by Ravana in the story of Ramayana).

I got enriched by the traditional stories 🙏 ( but the ‘process’ was painstaking😭, like the enrichment of Uranium for a nuclear power plant 😓. Took decades!

One such story🙏

( I'll try to be brief 👍)

A literary giant defeated all his competitors in a kingdom he visited. King got furious. He ordered a ‘head’ hunt ( like hirers in HR team of global corporate today 🙏). The clever minister hired an utterly dumb illiterate to debate with the menacing giant.

That guy was bold👍. Ready for a few gold coins ( like hired goons of Mumbai “Bhai” for khokha … 1 khokha is a crore of ₹ today)

Minister dressed up that guy well( to look like a genuine scholar).

That guy, couldn't part with his footwear, since it was soaked in pure coconut oil😓 ( for decades this guy operates a manual oil crusher with oxen pulling the heavy round stone in a circular cavity filled with dry coconut.). He wrapped the old footwear and tucked it under his armpit, matching to the battlefield of debate ( king's court)

Minister to the giant : “try your weaponry of scholarly skills with him now👍. But only with gestures! My guru( that guy) doesn't need spoken form of words. You may concede defeat, if you ain't no_good at gestured_debate!”

Giant, hurt by the taunt and angered growled “i am ready!!!”

In those days, ‘leakage of NEET question paper wasn't an “issue” 😜.   The syllabus was too vast😭. Scruptures🙏. The concept of questions mimicked like today's GRE/TOEFL eggjam ( live, online  and 24/7….leakproof 😜)

Debate:

Guy : shows 1 finger ( i will beat you!)

Scholar ( misconstrued it : Gawd is one) and gestured 2 fingers ( meaning: nope! It can be 2— prakruthi and Purusha)

Guy : (misconstrued it : (“ then i will thrash you thrice 😞”) and gestured 3 fingers ( meaning “i will beat you thrice”)

Scholar misconstrued it ( Gods are 3 then, triMurti) and gestured 4 fingers ( meaning “ vedas are 4, and they say Gawds are many 😜”)

Guy misconstrued it as “rascal, i will deliver 4 blows on you then, and retorted showing a fist.

Scholar misconstrued it as “unless the 5 elements in nature are mastered it's useless to talk” and gestured”how” ( meaning”how are you so sure?”)

Guy, again misconstrued it as”with what weapons are you gonna hurt me, eh???” And the guy gestured to point at the wrapped pack of footwear under his arm ( meaning… “i am gonna spank you with this seasoned+ hardened chappal and you will know how badly it can hurt” 😡😡😡)

Now the scholar conceded defeat , misconstruing the gesture as “the entire essence of all the shastras, scriptures, i carry with me 24/7 👍, and am well_read”)....

Story over.

My take after i am an adult : “levels of perception MATTERS! 😭😭😭 booooo! 😭🙏🙏🙏. I git(got) it” 

stupidly yours,

psn( 14 Sept, 2026)

Am I worth wasting other's time?

 Am I worth wasting other's time?

My latest personal anxiety 🙏

I rarely ‘ask’ some stranger to read my blog. Their time is more precious than this : “this moment in the entire history of eternity has never happened earlier and shall never happen again”  ( that ‘stranger’s time’ is miniscule 100 years compared to the lifetime of universe. )

I received a young lady yesterday afternoon. She seemed to be quite impressed by my ‘oddities’ 😂

When I hinted that my blogs are my thoughts, available even after I am gone👍, she asked for the weblink. ( Today, A.I. can easily search for it, but we need to know “how to ASK?” … 🙏😥)

that reminded me of my school teachers, and college professors 🙏.  Good + genuine teachers use an infallible yardstick to assess the ‘bright’ kids among their students.  A  yardstick difficult to use! 😥.   Verniers caliper & screw gauge kind of yardstick aren't a ‘natural’ choice of dumb ones like me 🙏. Komplicated😜…

Teachers ‘look’ for high_quality questions from possible bright kids 😜

I got the clue !!!

I asked too many irritating questions in my blog “silly questions”. When the sheer number became psychologically unwieldy, I just used a modified name “silly doubts” and my questions continue 😓

I can provide a (yard)Stick to my reader to beat me, thrash me, punish me, for ‘asking' 😜. Provide a stick myself, to get beaten👍. If  a reader is still insistant, its his choice to use+throw my other blogs 🙏

So I wrote later, to that Madam:

Blogs that might make it easy to decide....

Genuine teachers "look" at the quality of questions to assess the worth of students ( to spend their precious energies 🙏.  Time tested tool)

https://selfseekers.blogspot.com/2024/09/silly-questions.html?m=0

Continued using a different header..... ( 😜   Psychological fatigue due to a lengthy blog)

https://selfseekers.blogspot.com/2025/06/silly-doubts.html?m=0

Having hit upon an idea, it is my duty to offer it to other strangers. I ain't selling any commodity for commercial greed 🙏. ( I owe my gratitude to the ‘chief designer’ of my soft+hard-ware, my human frame.)

Honestly yours,

psn(14 SEP 2026)

Unwittingly a Guru

 Unwittingly a Guru

🤣

Yes, I ended up into one, when “stupidity” was at its peak in my life.

The hidden potential, if it is of spiritual significance, an illiterate fellow becomes a “maha Kavi Kalidasa” 😜.

1975, I was a junior to a very lovable colleague by a year, when the recruitment “policy” blessed him🙏. He was from an impoverished family, and belonged to the caste eligible for reservation 🙏. I came to know of this background too late, when caste_politics entered our staff, 3 years after I joined. Till then, he was “just” a colleague seated next to me, doing well, the same stupid work of maths_addition( we don't ‘need’ to use the functional form of subtraction 😜. Very few ‘noticed' it). 

I found him “compatible” with my perspective of “duty”. The “base” for taking our mutual bonds further, seemed adequate.  

Over an year, I found him ‘liking’, admiring, and even feebly attempting to imbibe my perspective 😥😳😳😳🤔🤔🤔🤔 ( sequence of icons are real 🙏).

I was STUPIFIED when I saw his “rate” of digesting my “way of looking at things/peepals(people)”, and easily getting adapted to using those concepts 😓

I started ‘experimenting’ with sharing of deeper_perspectives, in its conceptual form 🙏. ( The apt word is Nazariya! Perception).

I didn't ‘realise’ at all, that my efforts constituted communication of a precious skill (only recently I managed to verbalise it) called “How to learn”.  He simply swallowed that bitterest pill, like a terminally ill patient desperately trusting an ‘available' doctor and gulping an ADT-mixture tasting bitter 😜. ( ADT is a slang of my kid age AnyDamnThing… a GP used to give it for any damn thing that caused a fever. It worked 👍🙏).

What I ‘thought' was, he accepted to imbibe my_way_of_ perceiving things. ( practically, it was a learning skill 😜).

Obviously, it took 2 years🙏( both, the teacher & the taught were idiots 😜). Ideally a Guru might_have_needed only 2 weeks for a pre_fabricated student 🙏. 

Well, he got transferred to his parents place of residence. His Economy improved instantly ( one kitchen). He decided to invest in literacy(+2, B.A. and then LLB, if I remember right). The 3 years with me was below ground level (basement) of his evolution process, inconspicuous. Superstructure became superfast👍. His honesty and integrity was insulated by the ‘law’ which protected harassment against the reserved class. He retired as an AGM, deserving it by_merit, though the guys who conferred it used the process to substantiate it as compliance of quota_rule. Evidence of this, I found in his “sharing” with me,  after our_retirement (we met only once🙏) ….. when he conveyed his gratitude 😜 saying “yaar, I did get a chance to inspire others, with what you gifted to me🙏. I got posted as a principal of a staff training College, from where I retired 👍. I poured out your concepts of nazariya, with supporting evidence of my life, as a promotee. Next time you visit my city, remember to inform only_me of our visit🙏. I have debts to repay, via mehmanNawazee, to a possible extent”. He didn't get a chance to host me. His time got over very soon after our ‘review’ meeting of 2 hours🙏. He is no more 🙏😓.

He doesn't ‘know'....  I am far more indebted to him. It takes a lot to become a guinea pig for the scientist experimenting on a live organism 😭🙏🙏🙏. Just my luck, that the damn thing worked 👍

Uselessly yours,

psn(12 SEP 2026)

Postscript-punch

Like-it-or-not…

A kid born to me is a guinea pig, granted by nature, and is in CONFORMITY with existing social+ legal laws👍. We call the experimentation as ‘parenting’ 😜