BrahmaRaakshas, a benign tumour

 BrahmaRaakshas, a benign tumour

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I was struggling to find a way to describe the ‘functionality’ of a shrine allowed to be placed ‘inside’ the compound walls of a kerala tempal/temple. In the rest_of_India temples, this guy(brahmarakshas, a deity, ofcourse) is kept at ‘a safe distance, a little away from the temple😜. This ‘oddity’ around my curiosity to learn a little more about this guy 👍

I have a deep sense of gratitude towards medical science for having given me the phrase called ‘benign tumor’.

I can explain the reason for my gratitude: any ‘flash’ of a new idea and the strange one to me might evaporate before I know it if I do not manage to give it a shape not necessarily a verbal form always but a shape which I can recognise later if & when I recall later.

A tumour is a parasite, waiting to feast on its host, when the defence mechanism inbuilt in the host is inadequate! A malignant tumor eventually devours the host itself. 🤣🙏. Being a lesser intelligent organism it fails to realise that it ends up its own life eventually.

A benign tumor on the other hand is patient enough to ensure its own well being while feasting on its host very conservatively and harmlessly 😜. Normal rakshasa is like a malignant tumor, where as a brahmarakshas looks similar to a benign-tumor😜. Basic nature is similar in both rakshas and brahmarakshas, when they both are intrusive. The whole difference is about their personal agenda 😜. The benign fellow is Keen to part with what he has learnt but failed to impart to anybody else, when he was a normal human being 😭. Now that very memory keep him hunting for a skape goat, to teach ( look at the story of “Vikramaditya and the vetal”, the Vetal hangs on the king's shoulder till the syllabus is completed 😜😀. “गले पड़ना” का उदाहरण 👍)

I leave it to the imagination of the reader to figure out why inside a Kerala temple and outside the rest of India temples(the shrine of that benign_tumour called brahmarakshas? 🙏😜😜😜😜

Benignly yours, 

psn(28 May, 2026)

Post script 

When a kid of 6, i imitated other visitors in our Village temple, and threw a pinch of mud from the raised platform of a brahmarakshas 😜…( for whatever it is worth let me imitate 👍).

But my grandma chided me, saying “hey, we don't pray to it!”. I understood the hint. She was reminding me of my lineage, “Traditional beggars”🙏🤣, पारंपरिक भिखारी। 

In doing so, she inadvertently planted a seed of curiosity to delve deeper into the “why's” of it, when I become adept at the use of ‘sense of Discrimination' as a grownup later 🙏

My choice of words

 My choice of words

😥

Kids who are yet_to learn words  are a source of envy for me😓….  People don't mind if a kid omits a ‘thank you’ for a chocolate, or an “i apologise 🙏” for wetting their nappy! ( Funny thing is, after i reach 85 +     if at all i live that far🤔, i will be like a baby struggling to use thanks/sorry, but the people who might care_to_care for me, may not give me the ‘same’ concession they gave when I was a ‘baby’😜

Choice of words matter a LOT, when a situation is very critical 🤣

Samples….

a)A boy or girl utters a yes or no, while picking a bride/groom, a wrong choice of words, decides the joy or tragedy for the rest of their lives 😜

b) When asking something to a fellow at the “may i help you” counter , when there is a crowd, precise words matter a LOT. Wrong set of words beget erroneous responses, while inadequate precision & ambiguity, needless-emotional preamble might infuriate the ‘crowd’ behind us waiting impatiently for an URGENT info from that dedicated counter wala🤣( that fellow has ‘turned’ into a hater of vague_askers🙏😓

c) Students as kids don't know whom to ask even, apart from how to ask🤔

c_i) when it is about ‘kids’ wrong choice of words bounce_back 🤣….like, saying “drop this into the wash basin👍” and the kid would LITERALLY ‘drop’ a porcelain cup-saucer into the basin and it breaks😜. “PLACE” this cup-saucer” would have been safer😓

“Don't fall 😳😳” to a kid perched on a high branch of a tree, edge of a cliff, etc leaves the kid with a doubt “how do I do_that?...a don't_fall???” . Instead “hold tight to the branch, / move back from the edge” might be EASIER on the ‘tiny’ brain of that kid🙏.

d)the ENTIRE civil_procedure code(a law) was aimed at preventing loss of courts time, using a lawyer for appeal/defense in cases🤣. Legislators know, lay people lack precision of words👍

e) even spelling mistakes and punctuation matters🙏😭😭

Desi epics: one fellow did hell_of_a_lot of austerities, penances to seek a boon. But when the GodJi suddenly appeared and asked “what do you want?” … he faltered and blabbered “nidreVatwam”( sleepyness), instead of “NirDeva_twam”(obliteration of deities).... He was a rakshasa, opposing godly guys🤣

Popular sample of a ‘coma’ in a wrong place……  “Leave him 🙏😥, not_hang him” and “Leave him_not, Hang him 😡”.... a coma decided the life/death of the victim!

Choice of words…. is not always dependent on the volume of vocabulary we have in our stock . A few extra words might substitute the ignorance about a single word that describes something.

I don't know, if I will be ‘reminded’ to be precise in a “critical” situation!  They say “Sweat in peace  to avoid bleeding in war” and this holds good about being precise even during a ‘peaceful’ conversation!

Meditative practices was my root cause of this nonsense of ‘precision in words’ 🙏😥…  when meditation deepened a ‘bit’ , the non_verbal thoughts became Visible,😭 ( like, we see a small hillock, and only_when we climb on to its top, a HUGE mountain behind it becomes visible to_us 😜🙏). But that's my personal problem 🙏. Non-meditators are blissfully_ignorant of their own non_verbal mountaneous godown 🤣👍…. and consequentially, oblivious about misconceptions in them( 😜 non-verbal list deals with misconceptions, not a wrong choice of WORDS)

PRECISELY yours,

psn(27 May, 2026)

PostScript : at my school, a classmate exclaimed “ buddy , forget WORDS, a mere alphabet placed differently can please both, a theist and an atheist alike”

And he wrote the 2 formats in my ‘rough’ note book 🤣 ( book wasn't ‘rough’...my notes were🙏😥)

“ God is    nowhere”( atheist smiles)

“God is now here” ( same alphabets, Theist does a “🙏” with gratitude 👍)

Stomach is Hungry or empty?

 Stomach is Hungry or empty? 

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Kids might recall the difference better than grown_ups 😜

Retired oldies have no excuse to keep filling up the stomach as_soon_as it ‘feels’ empty. 

Dis-Eased oldies, please ignore this blog and follow your_daaktarr 😜 ( i don't want to spoil a doctor's livelihood. Mutual_benefit_scheme, zindabad 👍 ( mediclaim commission agents too survive due to their tie-up with hospitals 🙏)

Grown ups seem to have forgotten the difference between a hungry and empty stomach 😥 ( if honesty is affordable, let them ‘convince’ only_themselves, not anyone else…..that they can feel an empty stomach and hear an Hungry stomach. 

Yep! Stomach has an embedded software to communicate its preparedNess to receive+ digest food, when it is hungry👍. I ain't gonna embarass you, telling the syntax of that message 🙏 )

The nature's design of a human stomach is sophisticated 🙏. Ayurveda texts elaborate it extensively 👍. Texts of Ayurveda were authored by Enlightened masters. Obviously, they were aware of Sanatana Dharma ( rules governing the universe, of which, humans & their stomach is very much a part of this set of rules/dharma!)

Animals in wilderness do not experience indigestion, stomach upset etc 🙏. They adhere to the “rules” of nature ( sanatan dharma) by_default. 

They why do humans alone need a doctor? Reason is, a) humans are a being of Volitional Consciousness b)they are factory_fitted with a sense_of_discrimination, whose “use” alone needs to be learnt via parenting atleast 🙏

Empty stomach is entrusted with lots of mandatory duties🙏. Even the impoverished fellow called an hungry_stomach is trained by nature to source energy from alternative locations in the human body 🙏.

I don't dare to say anything further 😭. The attention_span of a human mind is shrinking damn fast 😜

Appetizingly yours,

psn(26 May, 2026)

Exceptions

 Exceptions

A concept, which never ceased to fascinate me, even as a kid.

As a fallout of this awe, I happened to develop a keen desire to deepen my perceptions to learn more and more about any exception that I notice in any walk of life.
Exception peaked when a Master said "there is no death for a person who lives in this moment!" Whhhat!!!! I got alerted.  No death anymore? Eternal? Chiranjeevi? That means the old guys(ancient rishis, enlightened ones, and the mentions by them in the scriptures) were right all along? 😥Something that is going to take a long time for me to grasp!

But small exceptions were easier to try 😂
Like....
Slicing a cluster of vegetables(especially leafy ones) with a sharp knife, without looking at the process. I need to just focus my mind better on the 'feel' of my fingers of both palms, SIMULTANEOUSLY, to improve their mutual coordination so well that... they become each other's eyes😂
I managed to type the data on a keyboard, without much errors, by looking at ONLY the source of the data (not on the keyboard, or the monitor !). This skill 'produced' another exception in me which I never really aspired for😂....  The officer at the 'data' centre (monitoring the data on Monitors at Head office) saw that 'exception' (hey! this guy is snatching one in every 15 transaction id's generated by the 'system!!!). He dug up more data about my user-id. I clocked thrice the average output by average data entry operators( all-India branches), and the 'rate' of errors was ridiculously low!!  He used the " ip" phone line (internet protocol line) to just know the stupid_name of this exceptional guy 😂(psn). I didn't accord much importance to his-discovery( 'hua tou hua' they say in Hindi).
Taking both hands off, while riding a bicycle is a very normal_exception. But it trains the mind to focus lot better. A new driver holds a 'rigid' and stiff face in a unruly traffic crowd😂 .  The stiffness of face isn't going to help him drive safer, only a better focus will!!!

I even experimented trying to be functionally_exceptional not as a 'freak' idiot always😂.
At my work place, 9 out of 12 clerks wished to avail leave (all were bachelors, 20--22 age), for 5 days, suffixing and prefixing a grand festival 'Diwali' (festival of lights). Our boss declined for a very valid reason. Each had a day's work attending to customers👍And, 3 guys can't handle the work of 12.  (at the most, 9 can 'share' the load of 3 absentees).  I took up the challenge. Planned a week ahead. Job-break-down concept (in 1978, this phrase "Job break down" wasn't popular in desi brains yet! It was crucial to ensure safeguards of the institution, while overlooking/by-passing the Standard-procedure of dealing with work. Shortcuts were needed, without diluting any safety concerns. A bunch of exceptions, were to be experimented 😂 We did it.  It became a memorable excercise. Those 3 (I was one of them) inadvertently tapped a hidden potential within!!!  I tracked the career of the other 2.  They did use their latent 'exceptional-skills' to become exceptional in the later decades😂( One thing i can say with confidence now, 2 decades post my retirement : If rules are understood deep enough, the doors to exceptions about adherence to those rules open up proportionately👍)

Getting enlightened, I was to discover, is the rarest of the rare exceptions😥
And, within those guys who 'become' exceptional, just 5% of the 5% who stay back alive. 'speak' about it😥

That reminds me to wind it up here, with a tragic observation : Spiritual evolvement used to be a very normal routine until a thousand years ago atleast, in Bharat. It is an exception today😭(a very discouraging exception)

unexceptionally yours,
psn(20th of May, 2026)

Intensely relaxed

 Intensely relaxed.

As briefly as i can, i have tried to place my experience of decades of physical aspect of my spiritual practices, as a key to growth and progress🙏

The word “intense” at once triggers tension in us 😂. That's because of the consequences of today's life situation we face routinely. Psychologically we are enslaved to combining tension with intensity, and have ended up with a disability in separating the two. Unless we become tensed-up we don't become intense. When we are relaxed, we are dull, inattentive and non-alert. 

Spiritual practices yield results in proportion to the level of intensity of our alertness, attentiveness and an utterly relaxed mind. Unless the mind is relaxed( calm and still) the organ brain and its obedient neuro_network is not going to obviate tension at physical levels. Even the subtlest tension opaque the subtle inner experience. No wonder, the most_relaxed posture in “yog” asanas is aptly named as “Corpse posture” 🤣. A corpse offers no resistance at all, and therefore manages total relaxation 😜. 

I need not attempt here to elaborate on the practices or the ‘practical tips/hints’ about how_to master this intense_relaxation. The functional form differs with each individual, simply because no two minds are alike😜. We create an entire World of our own, with our mind which is unique in itself 🙂.

A grasp of this concept, might help us to extract maximum yield out of all the practices we undertake on a spiritual path.

For those who are not yet ready for a spiritual quest, this concept, if tested and tried, will help maximize the results of their efforts invested in handling the Material aspect of life. ( Easiest example is, an utterly relaxed mind ensures peak performance of a sportsperson in the world_finals of his sport. Any tension in the mind reduces one's own capabilities proportionately. A sport loses its purpose with a tensed mind😜. And a world_finals is a recipe for tensed mind 🙏)

Inte_Restingly yours,

psn(17 May, 2026)

What irks a reader

 What irks a reader?

If, the reader's mind has calmed down to become receptive, the answer is ridiculously simple🙂 “readers own mind decided to become irked” 😜

Stubborn kids in school decide within “come on, let me see how you are going to ‘teach’ me? I shall Refuse to learn👍. Do what you like 😜”( it is the school teacher who gets irked by the stubbornness of that kid, not the kid!)

Readers realise, something they ought_to_have tried to imbibe/could_have imbibed, while reading a preachy stuff especially 😜…. And the ego gets hurt 😥. Defensiveness pops up by default. This defensiveness knows “this is indefensible” and yet persists recalling stupid excuses🤣. The innocent, well meant writeup faces the negative vibes, for no fault of its own!( Doctors are clever with their words🙏. They never poke into the ego with “you were careless with your health” and similar sounding words👍… they just “stick” to bijness, and prescribe relief, not_cure. It is the body, which struggles to Cure, because nature has zero ego😥

If the foregoing is acceptable, how to find a ‘real’ Guru is a futile search 😜. Out of 6 desi types of teachers, the Guru is different from the rest of 5 in one aspect —-he decides upon a receptive disciple 😥🙏. He knows what it takes for a seeker to experience within the non_verbal thirst for seeking the unknowable( logically 😜). 

There could be scoundrels ( benign & malefic, like tumors 😥) who might provoke a seeking in a disinterested person and vanish from the scene, where a Guru takes over. ( I know the pain and suffering of playing a benign_scoundrel 😜🙏, by sheer experience! It is only now, after 3 decades of playing a villain, age has helped me to done down my villainy in me😭. “The spirit is willing (to be a villain), but the body is weak.

After nearly 7 years of hectic volunteering ( hidden agenda had always been to cause unrest in my innocent victims,)...i decided to write, with more focus on irksome cluster of words, for the same purpose —disturb a reader out of his comfort zone.  Exceptions in the readers were very rare, and only one reader decided to respond about his experience, taking 5 years to overcome his hesitation, apprehending that i may not believe his experience due to reading & retesting the nuisance caused by a blog ( “breaking point”) 😂. The name itself is honest🙏. The blog, if taken a bit seriously, is vulnerable to drive the reader to his ‘breaking point”. Only 1 reader got victimized 😭. No regrets👍. I didn't disclose the name of one the coveted ‘states_of-Being’ in reply to his private mail, in keeping with the rules of Yogic tradition. I merely said “i can relate your experience with my own, and hence can ‘believe’ you🤣”. He radiating joyous_gratitude in his ‘revelation’ of inner experience 🙏. I thanked Maya_Madam for her mischief through me😔.

I have tried my best to tone down the ‘hurt’ through my words( words don't injure. Hurt is our own Manufacturing 😜). 

Villainously yours,

psn(16 May 2026)

Post script:

Statistics is used more to tell convincing_lies😜( media guys mint money)

I am a pathetic disaster, statistically. Only 1 recorded ‘hit’ in my 1000 blogs, and 2 L hits on blog_page( Google says 2L).

Paradoxically, Masters would ( i am almost sure) exclaim 😡 “Whhhat? This pint_sized guy got a hit??? Unbelievable!” And i might retort quoting “agar khuda meherbaan, tou gadha pehelwan👍”... God benevolence makes a donkey into a winning wrestler…..😜

Recognition, cognizable, cognizance

 Recognition, cognizable, cognizance 

For my entire kid age, I was recognised as an idiot by the bulk of my relatives, as elders around me 😂 ( Best part is, i never attempted to ‘reform’ myself from my idiosyncrasies. In fact, i accelerated my idiotic nature after 1992, when some Master taught me spiritual tools🙏).

We depend on something within us, to recognise things and others…isn't it? We teach kids to recognise the shape of letters and its corresponding sound forms, so that the kid grows familiar with a commonality called ‘language'. Use of gadgets, recognising the latent ‘resistance’ in it, we learn + teach those who seek to learn from us!

What do we ‘look’ for in the humans? ( Divorce rate is increasing incredibly 🙏…. Mutual Compatibility depends heavily on recognising the level of ‘flexibility' in our ‘Saha-vaasis’/co-habitants’ 🙂,. Other wise, they seem Durvasa/inCoHabitable for us. Sage Durvasa was famous for nuisance value only( when his intrinsic worth which was in CONFORMITY with Cosmic laws/sanatan Dharma, remained inconspicuous to people around him even ‘then’😜.  Ability to recognise a person has always been an issue since times immemorial 🙏

Real life example: My son, compuLiterate unlike me, worked for a multinational software firm which designed software only for in-house needs( 19 of their global entities, engaging a thousand plus experts from best colleges and toppers. Obviously the CTC/salary was always twice the market rate, and annual hikes around 30% for performers. Convincing? Well, this firm assigned a software development to my son, designed to “recognise talents, from unconventional+unrelated areas of human activity” 😜🙏. Impressed? If not, dump this narrative 🙏….  The software worked👍. Something that globally acclaimed head_hunters can only ‘envy’. 🙂  ( To me, the entire ‘structure’ of the design likened with the methodology deployed by ancient Gurus who used ‘mystic’ tools to spot their potential candidate/disciple for tutelage under them in spiritual bijness 😜🙏)

By now, i am quite familiar with the tools used by others around me, in evaluating my worth….😜

If i failed to notch on their_yardsticks, i would struggle to survive amid them🙏.

Fortunately, I have a serious drawback/defect/lacking/weakness/deficiency/whatever 😥….   My wants and desires failed miserably to reach even the average ‘needs’ of a normal human being, by today's standards/parameters 😭🙏.  The negative advantage of this shortcoming is, their ‘ratings’ about me doesn't matter for my peaceful survival 😜

( Personally, and privately, what mattered more to me was, i get recognised by Masters, with and without their mortal frame🙏.  While i have no means of knowing about bodiless guys interested in me, my experience holds good about mystics i keep bumping into too often right from my kid age i remember of👍👍)

As an incidental byproduct, the tools that come handy to cognize using the 5 senses of perception and also the perception beyond, got within my range of recognition by_me. 

I cheerfully bow, with utmost gratitude to ALL those who labelled me as an idiot👍… ( Ashtavakra too, might have felt similarly grateful for his nomenclature, and several times more intensely than me🙏, when he authored a version of Gita, by his own name, matched by none_else👍. Eight_deformities wala, is his name 😜🙏🙏)

Deformed, yours,

psn (9 May, 2026)

Cosmic laws

 Cosmic laws 

I don't possess the necessary competence to expound the concepts involving cosmic laws 🙏

But, this much sense dawned into me, to understand experiencially, that i am an inalienable part of it 😜( gratitude to my spiritual journey thus far😥).

Do we need_at_all,  a ‘lecture’ on cosmic-laws? Not at all. Please continue oblivious to the existence of the cosmic laws 😜. It's a choice that ‘only’ humans can make🙏…..   

“Human is a being of Volitional Consciousness” ( this jargon appeals better than the desi version ‘buddhi_jeevi’ 😜.  Swa_bodh, mallus say ‘bodhavaan’...etc)

Planet earth. Over the recent 2 centuries, have we made it ‘more’ habitable or lesser? Isn't it our choices that made the difference? There could be habitable planets somewhere in the galaxy or universe, retaining its habitable_worthiness since millennia. Oops! Earth was also made ‘better place’ than what it was, by humans, until few centuries ago!... Especially the bullock_cart fellows of Bharat, evolving into their grasp of Cosmic laws since a few thousand years 🙏. 

Nobody is exempt from the Constitution called cosmic laws ( just as Indian constitution is supreme among all other enactments.  Indians ‘can’ create a constitutional_crisis😜… Often it is politicians who manage to create such crisis. ) …. When humans choose a thought, word or deed which is in contravention of cosmic laws, no police or judiciary is necessary to implement a corrective action 😜. Cosmic laws are capable by themselves! 

My experience is, i experienced joyousness ‘in proportion to the extent that I understood cosmic laws experientially’ 🙏… 

One of my silly koschan was “how is it that Mega villains in our Desi epics got moksha? Whereas, their victims were left in the ‘lurch’??? 😜…. Not quite easy to reach the exact_answer, which is in CONformity with cosmic laws 😜🙏. A pravachan/lecture expert might do a patch work trying to justify saying “well, the villains were undergoing a curse, otherwise….they were divine gatekeepers of Lord Vishnu👍”... Not quite 🙏… Cosmic laws don't exempt even Vishnu 😳, forget his “gate’-keeper😜… epics are flawless, and cosmos_scientific/universe_scientific 🙏

Now, if the reader is still tolerant to read this_far, I can wind up quoting a reference to “4 declaratory truths/MahaVakyas “🙏. Experience of these 4 is enough to know cosmic laws, and after knowing which, nothing else is needed to be known 😜( Howzzat?)

A speck of cosmos, 

And volitionanally yours,

psn ( 9 May, 2026)

Confession:

Please feel free to criticize me, if you feel that i am wrong in giving a desi name to cosmic laws as “sanatan dharma”( i love to be corrected, and with humility & gratitude.) Even if readers spare me, cosmic laws won't, if i am at fault 😭….. dat’s what karma is all about 😜🙏