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Thursday, March 19, 2026

My defective deflection

 My defective deflection


One of the meanings of “deflection”, in Cambridge dictionary is “the act of attacking or blaming another person rather than accepting criticism or blame for your own actions”


My defect is, I deflect from this definition in another”sense” of the word 😜 “ a change of direction after hitting somebody/something”


“ Nobody told me this” 

“I was never taught this”

“How am I supposed to know? (Whatever)”


The most powerful missile to me, was

“Am I God, to know everything?” ( and I deflected away, allowing this missile to retain its trajectory πŸ™. Reason: I was hit by another missile “ aham brahma asmi” meaning ‘i am brahrma” 😜. Only one of these can be true!😒



I looked at what I knew 😞

A baby keeps putting anything it picks into its own mouth! The “why” bothered me πŸ™. Nobody around had the ‘time’ to think of such stupid-questions. So, my ignorance is my problem alone 😭. I realised, I need to subrogated( step into the shoes) of a baby to understand why it keeps putting things/objects into its mouth. But a baby is yet_to_use a shoe!!! πŸ€”. Symbolism became a tool to solve this riddle. When I solved this “why” about the baby, I experienced the concept of symbolism (in the word ‘subrogate’), I experienced the mindless+instinctive state of a baby who used pristine+nascent intellect, and the brain which processed a non_verbal thought of a past experience of first imposed_activity πŸ‘ ….  Perplexed? 🀣. Not my problem, figure it out yourself πŸ™


Imperceptibility can be due to insensitivity ( or the lack of it) at both levels πŸ™. Sense organs level & at extra_sensory levels. Bulk of present day minds don't ‘bother’ about the potential in us for extra_sensory levels ( a proof which is a ‘bit’ relatable EVEN for today's mind is = a naadi_vaidya( that system of medicine, where the medical practitioner senses the subtle energy channels in his patients, naadi channels, called ida, pingala, and sushumna), has this sensitivity of extra_sensory levels, via the touch_sense😜. In the desi tradition this extrasensitivity was called ‘indriya_atheeth_gyan’ a sanskrit word πŸ™, adapted by Hindi atleast 😞)



Ancients meant the “epic” stories like Mahabharat & Ramayana as a litmus test also( apart from multi_uses of far more purposes πŸ™), to find out my_own levels of sensitivity ( sense organs and extra_sensory, both) when I muster enough patience to revisit these epics again and again, AFRESH each time πŸ™. A kid, gets ‘new’ questions after puberty like “how beautiful it might have been for Rama & Sita to have a ‘privacy’ in the wide open (forest), for romanticism??πŸ€””. He now ‘looks’ for its subtle references in the same Valmiki Ramayana, where the author dropped a very IMPERCEPTIBLE mention, even before the event happened 😜 and, dat’s/that's ‘his’ perception levels,πŸ™ Visualising a future event like “sita silenced the blabber of Rama with her lips!πŸ™”( The kid is insulated from paying attention to it till he is mature enough to ‘know’ it with responseAbility πŸ™



To wind up,

My defect ( “I am responseAble/responsible, for my_ignorance”) opened up to newer dimensions of ‘life’ when someone guided me into spiritual “tools” πŸ™. To that extent, I didn't have to ‘reinvent the wheels’ πŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ™πŸ™πŸ™.


My blogs inherit my_defects πŸ™ (un-intelligible at few places πŸ˜₯), but then, it serves a purpose. It gets itself deflected away from the minds, who are addicted to “ignorance is not my problem”πŸ‘. I try to keep myself confined to only experienced_narratives, not CopyPasteπŸ™. ( Revisit to my earlier blogs is a disclaimer: entirely at readers’ own risk and resposeAbilitiesπŸ™)


Deflectively yours, 

psn(19 March, 2026)


Wednesday, March 18, 2026

senseAbility

 senseAbility 



I think, I can use simplicity πŸ™ 



Sensitivity is a potential ( aged fellows lose the touch, hearing, or smell sensitivity πŸ˜₯. Can't invoke)


'sensible' is sense_ability ( sensibility) tapping & using the latent potential πŸ™ 


At subtler levels, the tools & use of the senseAbility after tapping the potential is what_used_to_be known as a sensible person ( today the connotation has shifted to being clever, cunning, conniving, etcπŸ˜₯.  It is sensible to remain 'innocent'-----free of negative emotions, not as an ignorant idiot susceptible to being duped/fooled/cheated).



Humans have a choice to deepen our sensitivity as much as we 'like' ( 4 declaratory truths/MahaVakyas, are the evidence)



Sensibly yours,

psn(18 March, 2026)


Tuesday, March 17, 2026

Flexibility and resistance

 Flexibility and resistance

Once, I confronted a serious inconsistency within me, about the ancients. 😳
I knew, people until 300 years ago in Bharat had a healthy life style. A healthy 'mind' basically πŸ™
A crucial ingredient was the thought contents of their minds.
Non-commercial thoughts. (must be around 95% or more of non commercial thoughts)
As a contrast, the thought-content in today's--me, can be easily traced to some kind of commercial value, and 98% of my thoughts are such! 
Why should it matter? Well, we decided to 'buy' everything, like water, air, sand, instead of using it conservatively, according to our needs. Even today, other life forms in free state don't pay for their food. We earn to pay for food. It matters!

The inconsistency now (of course, only my-problem, not of others!πŸ˜’)
Why did the ancients try to use "Gold" (top most representative of wealth) as a name for their kids???? 
They were not 'commercial-minded'. Then why desi names 'Sona', 'Swarna', 'Thangam', etc???
My problem, so it is my head-ache. I kept it to keep aching in me till the inconsistency got re-solved.

It dawned suddenly one day!
Gold, the metal..;  Its innate qualities.   Desi style of using 'symbolism' at the drop of a hat 😜
Symbolism serves as a functional example, not just as a name-sake.
I referred to my memory of 7th class. 
Gold is malleable + ductile. (I wish, I had paid more attention to these 2 qualities in gold!😭). 

Damn! πŸ˜“(me, that 'damn', not gold 😜 ....πŸ™) Why didn't I think of it? 

They were 'wishing' for utmost flexibility in the kid, they decided to call as "Sona/Swarna/bangaroo/thangam/etc".   It was not about 'price' of goldπŸ˜“

The tragedy is, I had already 'looked' at the aspect of 'flexibility' in humans, and still I missed the brilliance of ancients in 'symbolising' this adorable quality in  highly-evolved people πŸ™
Proof of my stupidity : I kept on asking young techies an irritating koschan/question like: "What do you recruiters look for exactly in the candidate during the 4th round of personal interview for a 'plum' job???   
(I add 2 teasers, 
1) See, unless you know WHAT you are looking for, and  how can you sight it in the candidate?
2) a hint...   The same thing is what a bride/groom looks for in the other, and fails to sight it, leading to increasing number of divorce rates today, more among 'logical-wizards' called 'techies'😜

And, tragically, I failed to 'see' that the ancients had already known too-well this 'quality' and also, to sight it instantly  πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™( Super techies, in human-intelligence)

I will wind up my blabber now!
All the gadgets we use, need resistance, to be_of_use for us. (a chair needs to resist our weight, otherwise, our bottom faces a crash onto the floor if chair breaksπŸ˜‚)
Humans, need absence of resistance, to be of any use to others at least! (that was my problem 😭. "absence" was the word I used to 'catalogue' in my memory. and "DLL" developed a 'bug' in the hard-disk, my memory.  DynamicLink didn't work in my Library of my-mind)
Absence of resistance is flexibility.   
If I am Gold (instead of the 'idiot' that I am right now!), heat me,  beat me, bend me, stretch me to the limits, do every thing to me, that we do to Gold, I keep shining more, serving more. πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™
(Lucky that my parents didn't think of naming me as 'Gold' 😜.  Very kind of them. I can resist being good, being useful, being loved, being liked. etc πŸ˜“)
The bigger tragedy is, to some extent, I even-had consciously dropped my resistance, when I attempted to reach towards my own spirit, using sophisticated tools bequeathed by ancients, and still failed to use my sense of discrimination to understand the deeper symbolism of ancients when they used the word "gold" for nomenclature of their kids!

flexibly yours,
psn (17th March, 2026) 

Monday, March 16, 2026

Alertness, Awareness and Attentiveness

 Alertness, Awareness and Attentiveness


Well, it is like this : if I don't know the difference, there is no difference for_meπŸ˜„
As simple as that πŸ‘( The side-effects of ignorance, heavily contribute to my 'karma')

A deer is 'alert' enough to know, to sense, that a tiger which is within the range of pouncing upon the deer, is not really hungry right nowπŸ™, and therefore there is no need to 'run for its life'.
A lazy soldier might drop his level of alertness, while inside the sleeping place, due to lack_of_awareness that a spy could have infiltrated into the tent where off-duty soldiers take rest/sleep to recoup their stamina. 
Attentiveness if sharp enough, helps a 'sharpshooter' to get the victims head shot, at the first chance when the victim holds his head still_for_2_seconds πŸ™( sharp shooters are professionally trained assassins, with expertise to aim sharp from a great distance using telescopic sight on rifles.  They are capable of single-pointed attention, sharp-focus, without any external motivation from an adverse situation on the situation outside, where they lie-down with infinite patience for their victim !)

A baby is razor alert. But it can't remain attentive beyond a few seconds. Awareness is too nascent yet to call it as one.

Our minds tend to compensate for lack of any or even all of these three, by substituting it with a 'defensiveness' which, eventually becomes a huge hurdle in our lives,  over a period of time, turning into a 'default' habit 😜  Bulk of our negativity is owing to this 'defensiveness, at the drop of a hat' which gets hardened over a period of time. The negativity has a better name "Resistance" (or intolerance).  The tragedy is, kids develop this resistance/intolerance much earlier+faster than the kids of past centuries.  😭. Hardened resistance is brittle enough to cause serious psychosomatic disorders, if the situation hammers it hard enough to break it apart. 

A resistance to do something 'new', something extra, is a very common and easily identifiable example. 
example:Two people on  the road collide with their vehicles. Even with least harmful ones like bicycles.  "You are at fault 😑" (most common and 'default' reaction we see from both of them!). Only an alert, attentive and aware person among the 2 will manage to 'use' the common sense to 'respond' to the situation.  A response is a choice. A reaction is out of negativity. Subtle difference.

When 
resistance is a 'default' functionality of a mind, which has indulged into excessive abuse of the 'design' of mother nature, the function of defensiveness, meant for a restricted' and limited use, for the purpose of PRESERVATION of speciesπŸ™(Remember, the deer is  defensive only_when_needed, and doesn't run away from a Tiger, which is not hungry. The alertness and awareness is enough to 'sense' if the tiger is hungry or not right now!.  Ironically we don't know the difference experientially between hungry and an empty stomach in us and therefore tend to stuff needless edible junk,  the moment stomach feels empty πŸ˜†, as a 'defensive-reaction' or insurance against non-existent starvation. Karma punishes us with consequences of indigestion πŸ™)


The tragedy is, refusal to use these 3 (alertness, awareness and attentiveness) for a long duration, ends up losing the 'functionality' of the 'sense of discrimination' which is available only to the human species πŸ™ ( A tragedy happened with me, at a spiritual program in 1992. I alone burst into a loud laughter at the remark by the teacher : "Well, if you don't know the difference, there is no-difference". This was his response to the absence of a 'correct answer' from 40 participants, to whom he posed a very simple, basic and fundamental question : "What is the fundamental difference between humans and other species?"....  I could easily guess the answer which he was 'looking' for, when he stressed upon the words "fundamental difference" πŸ™. But i decided to keep shut, being curious to know, how aware my co-participants are.  My laughter attracted a 'look' in the faces of participants around which translated as "Fool, what is there to laugh in it ?😑"...   I at once 'sobered' and became stern-faced! The teacher is the 'boss' not meπŸ™. Let him decide to explain or ignore the absence of sense-of-discrimination in us. )

Somehow, I had a irreparable defect in me .  I invoke my defensiveness only as a last resort in any situation. I respond. This defect had perhaps led to my decision to quit prematurely from my salary-oriented routine called a 'job'. I never had to ever regret this decision. On the other hand I felt gratitude to "Maya Madam" who planted a thought in me to quit. By nature, I never quit from a situation where I sense a potential in me to respondπŸ™. Mother earth 'responds' every time it rains πŸ˜”. I am made of the material borrowed from earth. so, not a wrong thing to sync with the earthly traits, till I dwell in this body πŸ™. 

In retrospect, I tend to deduce that the observation of my senior participants during 1992 in my first spiritual program, that my pace of progress was a bit unprecedented and fast, was owing to the inadvertent residue in me, of these 3 things, alertness, awareness and attentiveness. My mind keeps losing its battle to push down the levels of these 3 in me, often. More so, after I started practicing the spiritual tools prescribed during the 4 years from 1992.  I enjoyed practicing them at frenzy levels!

simply yours,
psn(16 march, 2026)

Sunday, March 15, 2026

Problem with "Satyameva Jayate"

 Problem with “satyameva Jayate”

πŸ˜‚


It's a problem only if I take it seriously πŸ₯Ί

My kid age was not any different from others, as far as ignorance was concerned πŸ™ ( that…..was ‘the’ truth!πŸ˜“. Ignorance is susceptible)


The problem now πŸ‘

The kid in me asked myself things like

 “well, if truth is going to win ANYWAYS, why break my head over it?”

“Why are dishonest ones having a ‘good time’ most of the times?”( What happened to the’ incharge’( whichever God ji)of ‘satyameva jayate’?”???

“All the government offices display this logo ‘satyameva jayate' so prominently, especially courts, but ironically, that's exactly where truth is desecrated oftener! 😰. Why?”


A bit grown up, and I tried a bit smartness “okay….if great men of Vedic times said it, it must be good πŸ‘.   Probably they didn't use indelible ink to the fine print “conditions apply” πŸ˜‚. “


Which “truth” were they referring to?( An example of my mind ‘manufacturing’ a new problem, when fatigued by failure to solve a natural one😜)


Some more years passed.

It dawned on me that “only an evolved intellect can devise the functionality of eternal concepts πŸ™”. ( Like, capillary action is already used by nature, ignoring human intellect πŸ™…. In a coconut tree, water reaches 30 ft high to its leaves. In a human, eyes can “shed tears” invoking capillary action as a response to a tiny dust, or the emotional outburst of that fellow πŸ‘.  A rare few "intellectuals" devised this functional form of capillary action… water climbs by itself, to the top of a fort, 900 steps higher to via mudpipes, designed to ‘abide’ by the ‘truth’ in the concept called Capillary action πŸ™.  Non-meritorious but qualified engineers broke those pipes assuming that they are intelligent. They spoiled even  the chances of future intelligent ones to unravel the design 😭)



A joke about situational_relevance of truth.

A disciple decided to strictly implement the truth told by his guru “Everything is Maya”( illusions).

An elephant came charging at this disciple and he decided to “use” this bare_truth( everything is Maya) and didn't bother to move. The mahout seated on the elephant was shouting “run away…. This elephant is mad right now!”. But the disciple is experimenting with”maya” nowπŸ‘. Litmus test of Maya!.   He got bruised badly. Limping, he carried his doubt to his Guru”but you said everything is Maya?”

Guru “within the same Maya, did not the MAHOUT warn you to run away??” 

πŸ˜‚

Adaptation of concepts for a functionality needs a thorough grasp of the concept(bare law, bare act) πŸ™


Satyamev Jayate πŸ™. Contextual truth keeps winning till the cosmic truth says “your time is up nowπŸ‘” 

Micro level of contextual truth is what we connive to pamper our desires, greedy, laziness, carelessness etc till the bubble burstsπŸ™

Macro level of contextual truth is the 4 cycles of time, satYug, tretaYug, dwaparaYug and right now the kaliYug. The ‘truth' related to the ‘nature’ of these yugas keeps winning till the cycle peaks. Then, a total dissolution or pra_laya. 



A choice is, abide by the ‘eternal’ truth right now, and enjoy witnessing the contextual & functional truth winning right now, by becoming ‘free’ from its stickiness, adhesive ( like a Lotus in slush), as a Jeevan mukta/living_enlightened or…… deny oneself the awareness about the comprehensive meaning and grasp of the sutra/concept “satyameva Jayate” and suffer it πŸ™


Illusions is the “truth” about illusions. It “prevails” is the validity of the concept. ( Can we be aware that we are the_dreamer “while still inside the dream?” πŸ™. The functional truth is, during a dream, my sense of Discrimination is Unavailable πŸ™). 


The truth of the “situation” is this blog will struggle to find any deeper appeal than any entertainment value ( inadvertently crept in ) in it. Truth wins, not my expectations from this blog πŸ™



Truthfully yours,

psn( 15 March 2026)


Saturday, March 14, 2026

Reviving the dead

 Reviving the dead


Apologies πŸ™

I am not trying to explain the ‘technology’ here.


It's only ‘about’ the technology 😜


A half-baked idiot like me needs a ‘tool’ to use the technology πŸ˜‚

Evolved spiritual giants just deploy their own pranic energy to attract the ‘prana’ that accidentally slipped out of the body, and doesn't know how_to_get_back into it πŸ˜“


I have only one weak justification for even talking “about” this technology πŸ™πŸ˜’. Not the technique itself! ( Somehow, a great teacher decided to impart a tool, for revival, probably because he thought that I am the best among ‘available' ones around, and not that I ‘deserved’ to be initiated into it πŸ™)

Weak, because I never had to ‘use’ it 😜. I was entrusted with the responseAbility/responsibility to revive a person who slips out ‘really’ and finds re_entry difficult, during a guided meditation called “death” πŸ˜‚.  Every care is taken to ensure that a participant gets only a peek_look at “how it feels to be dead” ( a safe sample of ‘death experience’ πŸ™). The tool was as a matter of ‘abundant caution’. I kept it in readiness for some 7 years, twice a week, when peepals/people used the meditative practices πŸ™. 

Once, I blundered. 😭. Fortunately, the participants on that day never needed any revival. The blunder happened when I ‘diluted’ the prescription I was given, which was “I should stay guard, WATCHING”. 

My mistake: I sat down and closed my eyes. I slipped out πŸ˜“. Very luckily, re_entry worked well. That day, I realised the worth of a Master's Words of ‘instructions’. 

There were days when nobody came. I got an opporChutney to undergo the meditation ‘myself’ on such days😜. Silver lining.


This experience helped me to understand the subtleties of the thing called ‘prana/life's, which is missed in the death_certificate by a doctor who can certify only Clinical death, not praanic_death. ( By product is, the movement of life_force, pranic energy within comes into our awareness πŸ™. The “chaitanya” in a consecrated idol, touches our awareness through the awareness of own pranic energy! A gadget like multimeter can sense presence of electric current in a plug point, using its own tiny battery, isn't it??? A symbolic example. Energies even within me are different, ‘broadly classified’ in 5 major typesπŸ™. A janeuDhaariPappu is ‘supposed' to invoke these 5, before he eats a staple_meal😜. Today, even the priest who teaches it is oblivious of its experience 🀣🀣🀣. Otherwise, with experience in himself, his own pranic energy is sufficient to motivate a kid to do the practice {“parishechana”.... The Procedure: It involves three main steps: Aabhojanam (before eating), Pranahuti (offering to life-forces), and Uttarabhojanam (after eating).}...pranahuti is meaningless without any experience of witnessing the 5 pranas within 😜)



Touch cure, is to some extent related to this.

Raw and organic food is related to pranic energy ( junk food is at the other extreme end , with the exception of a ‘prasadam’ offered as ‘neivedya’ to a deity ( often an idol guaranteed_to_emit a ‘chaitanya’, not a dummy stone, bereft_of_energy πŸ˜œπŸ™).

Emotions are good carriers of pranic energy, subject to mutual Compatibility 😜

Brahma_muhurta, local time, minimised the dissipation of energy, enabling the ‘reach’ to longer distances! ( Exactly why, proximity of an energetic fellow helps better.  Experiments have ‘proved’ that the ‘field’ reduces the latency of conveying Electric energy over distances….. the same ‘field’ if too strong, like a powerhouse/transformers, can cause neuro_disorder of brain😜)

Many such ‘relatable’ exampulls/examples for various manifest-‘forms’ of pranic energy πŸ™ ( even the ritual of ‘blessing’ by touching the top of the head of a recipient is ‘empty’ without any transmission of pranic energy 😜.  A ‘hollow’ ritual cannot ‘sustain’ sans_experienceπŸ™πŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜œ).


(A teaser 😜:  Naadi_doctor is an endangered species among humans today 😜. The ‘NEET’ exam for entrance/admission is designed by ‘nature’. An aspirant should be able to ‘sense’ the 3 naadi’s( praanic channels) at least πŸ™. At PhD level, this guy can sense the INTENSITY of main naadi, and diagnose the life_span of a patient, which the other systems of medicine CANNOTπŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ™πŸ™πŸ™. 

A Punch: one ‘naadi daaktarr/doctor' accidentally Benedicted me{not blessed me}, by pronouncing the ‘abnormally_low’ intensity of main naadi, thereby…certifying_Inadvertently, the quality of my meditaShun that preceded his checking of my_wrist. πŸ˜œπŸ™.  I don't expect a reader to grasp this paragraph easily😭)


Energetically yours,

psn(14 March, 2026)


Friday, March 13, 2026

Wholesale mutual conflict

 Wholesale mutual conflict 



A good friend summed up the consequences of conflict between few nations in the middle East (march 2026) and the economic consequences adversely affecting the entire world.


Quote:

[13/03/2026, 6:03 am] That wellwisher: 

In the end common ma is squeezed from all sides. Only in India opposition and their followers blame govt in world crisis for everything. Even the countries involved in the war or other countries are not blaming their own govt for crisis happening due to war elsewhere.






[13/03/2026, 6:30 am] my response: Karma comes back to "common man"....πŸ™



42% GDP ( if the stories and history is trueπŸ™)



Most literate, knowledgeable, and inclusive ones decided to remain humble+ frugal by saying bhavati bhiksham dehi( give me almost/food), so that an iron-drome shields them from greedy.

Bijness people ( Chettiar, agrawal, etc) decided to become "chowkidar" like Modi, of wealth πŸ™, a tougher option 😒. 

Warrior class, their women folk especially, demand repayment of mother's milk by asking their son to sacrifice his life to protect a greater mom, Bharat mata, and kshatriyas lived+died unto that debt. Overwhelmed by these three, observing them 24/7, the fourth varna didn't need any tutoring afresh.


By-product ? Trust swells over generations. Acceptance deepens enough to keep the atma of all the 4, liberated enough to remain 'joyous' for entire life! 

Way of life.... Hinduism, a strong software 😜



Once we allowed our mind to become selfish, our inclusiveness broke apart.  Just look at "trust" . Impatience caused mistrust to throw baseless allegations against me

 even in a

totally non_commercial group we had πŸ™πŸ€£ and I bowed out humbly, accepting the allegations without any protest/defenseπŸ™. ( I ought to be responsible atleast for myself ----symbolism of Hinduism, a_lotus. It doesn't protest the slush, instead uses it as manure to bloom even more😜. Modi Ji said this on a 'public address system' about himself πŸ™.  The crux is, the essence is= each individual has to become response_abled/responsible. Otherwise 'nature' exempts only those few who choose responsibility, and karma deals in "wholesale bijness"! πŸ™


Unquote 

( I don't miss any opporChutney to squeeze in my hidden agenda😜. Spirituality, a desi_weakness as an Indian_born .


meekly yours,

psn(13 March, 2026)