How flexibility works for me

 How flexibility works for me 

The whole idea of my writing these blogs is to share my experience 🙏

Digital technology ought to be made use of, to my best possible. 

A spiritual master advised me “we can use only the experience of others, not their wisdom ‘. I got it 👍. Wisdom is hack-proof, even under the influence of drugs used for ”Narco analysis” 😜

I observed that, the gadgets we use need “some kind of resistance” which we designed for use! And humans need flexibility to get things done favourably under a given situation 😓 ( Example: In the movie “36th chamber of shaolin”, the newcomer is not flexible enough to quickly jump over a floating log, without getting wet 😜. He trains his body & mind to suit the situation “) 

I really don't know why or how the flexibility of mind crept into me (even when a kid)🙏.   I was normal in most of the situations, and onlookers would infer according to their rigidities 😂.  A classical example was, bulk of my elders at home concluded my visible form of flexibility as “an idiot who can't assert even his own basic rights”(consequentially, I was looked at as a dumb fool as well👍, who can be kicked about like a football. It didn't matter to me, because I was guided by ‘another’ concept : only in the human species, each individual varies too widely in their mutual relationship & behaviour 😥🙏. I needn't react every time. I can respond if possible). After I could stand on ‘my own 2 legs” I got drifted away from ‘relatively related relations’ 😂. A joke happened. A highly evolved relative, also respected among my relatives for his scholarly achievements, happened to mention me as a ‘brilliant young fellow” (40 years ago). My relatives proved their inflexibility by saying “how could such a great scholar go so_wrong about PSN?🤔” 

A most dreaded dacoit turned into a Rishi Valmiki, and the first step happened in a few hours( epic story). I tried to visualise myself meeting him again soon after he got transformed from a dacoit into an ascetic! My mind's flexibility isn't good enough to sight his transformation 🙏. By myself, I would continue to look at him as  ‘still a dacoit’😭.  I need to ‘work' a lot more on my own flexibility.

Another astounding thing I discovered is…  my flexibility shouldn't become handy for those who try to exploit me like a parasite 😜.  This clarity helped me to surmount issues related to social compulsions😂 I could drop off even socially compelling relationships. (Least of the examples was, I quit my job, voluntarily, with 8 more years of ‘cream’ in monetary form, in the pay ‘scale’ 👍. Flexibility helps prioritising priorities pragmatically 🙏. (An Earlier Prime minister confessed his helplessness and lack of flexibility when he replied to a query for tolerating too many scams, and said “ …. because of coalition compulsions 😂 “ ( tax payers suffer, for him to allow scams. I can't replicate his principle in my individual life🙏).

Mind's flexibility did wonders for me, whether it was about myself or my_efforts to help the freshers who “trusted” me for my backup support during my 6 years of volunteering for a spiritual program 🙏. My flexibility increased phenomenally, when the fuel was an “urge to make a difference in the lives of others” 🙏.

I found myself capable of choosing different ways  of choosing how to say the “same thing" to the other person, maximizing the reach, and minimizing the scope of misunderstanding my words! ( At work place, I discovered ways and means of keeping aside rigid_rules, when I was sure that I didn't have to compromise on safety, ethics, integrity and moral 🙏. Deserving customers benefited mightily 👍). 

Mega advantage of my efforts to improve flexibility is, what I don't need for my spiritual journey gets dropped off by itself…   “hard wired habits/karma”👍….( I don't know how to amplify this experience 😓).

Non_artificially yours,

psn(6 Oct, 2026)

How I assess Worthlessness

 How I assess Worthlessness

Disclaimer: do not try this without assessing the risks🙏. It might be safe only for ½ mad guys like me😭

A kid(5 yrs) : “Mom, lets buy this!”

Mom : “ This is useless for us dear… not worth buying “

Kid : “why is it worthless mom?”

Mom :  “😡”( at times, also within ”🤔 why is it worthless?”

I “found” that…..

Assessing the Worthlessness is far easier than assessing a ‘true & intrinsic worth” of some input.

How I found?...   Geography teacher bombarded me ( from the prescribed syllabus, that's the whole problem 😭) with “details of  flow velocity, volume and route of rivers like Mississippi and colorado”.  What am I going to do with this info? 🤔. History teacher: “Ancient guys slept on even treetops in old stone age”. Wanna me to try that????😡🙏

No way( no tools in the syllabus) to enable to assess the ‘worth’ of something I am supposed to: 1) learn at school, 2) get along with elders at home, 3)abiding stupid_looking traffic rules, 4)get by_heart the Wren and Martin text of grammar ( this was far more tricky, ‘because’ of desi languages where a stupid object like a pen “demands” that I call myself a female 😡😭 “ye kalam meri hai”( “this pen is mine” … in English! How to “assess” the worth of English grammar, where the pen is a neutral guy??? It's a pen, damnit!😡). 5) endless list 

Bharat is a reverential culture🙏 ( west is ‘freedom' culture 😜. Easy on my brains👍). Problem is, I need to be reverential to peepals/people, and all forms of life, even stone_idols etc for a very valid reason 😭 

The tools to be used to assess the worth, I figured out with great trouble 🙏. And the 4 tools were, I guess the_only_syllabus in Gurukul thousands of years ago 😭.

How about “trying” the Worthlessness??? 😜😜😜

It appealed to me 😂

If somebody says “become a great person”,

I look at the following “sample” list:

1). I am not provided with the DIY, or how_to tool kits, ( forget about time_tested tools🙏)

2). No reference point like ‘how big?’ 

3). Why shouldn't I remain normal. Even a lion, “king of forest” never slogged to become “great”????

4). How am I going to handle the burden of a) maintaining ‘great guy’? I can't hold a noisy_fart, though damn harmless😭, b)pushing down guys around me from overtaking, when I reached already my brim 🙏, c)realignining myself to the ever-changing life situations around? Like, i was damn fast and legible with my pen and processor brain, at manual clerical work as a ledger keeper at bank. The damn digital technology screwed me up😓. Legible handwriting or mental arithmetic is superfluous 🙏. A great_clerk in me is garbage now😭… my true story 🙏, I managed to learn afresh, the crazy advice of becoming a “great data_entry_operator” now, just because others too had to go through the torture of ‘learning' at 40’s a new language of computer_literacy, when our learning ‘curve’ is already flattened 2 decades ago 😭. 

5). Long list😜

Spiritual bijness enabled me to delve into my own Worthlessness, as a human being, doing the same nonsense like other life forms “eating, sleeping and procreating” sophisticating only these 3 , to gloat myself, within only my brand of humans that “I am great…  i buy, even things like water, air etc not just food, clothing and shelter”( other life forms ‘tease’ me silently”its still free for us in our free form, without any captivity. Few of us only_hunt, no need to work/earn for a ‘living’).

Confusedly yours,

psn(6 Oct, 2026)

PostScript confession:  I am disappointed with myself 🙏.

Chasing for the tools of Worthlessness, l ended up with a negative perspective at the recent trend of innovation around me 😭

These innovations seemingly ( only to me, 🙏) are like pointing out our Worthlessness in mutual trust 😭.

Security camera everywhere, one VIP needing  a dozen commandos, whole busy street blocked for a VIP, no_fly zone during a VIP plane takeoff, etc

A “second” layer of security for login into my own money in my app of bank account! 

Firewalls for my stupid data, 

Biometric id verification for pittance of ration shop rice???

Any new gadget faces infiltration by scammers on the same day 😜 ( humans can be proud of Worthlessness in mutual trust).

In school, 60 years ago, I was appreciated for handing over a lost-&-found tiffin box to my teacher. Now, a bomb squad needs to check the silly tiffin box on a road, before an aam Aadmi can go within 15 feet distance near it🤣. IED, likely! Gourmet/Govt. says “don't touch unidentified objects ( we are innovating in insulating mutual mistrust in the meanwhile “😥)

After the recent heroic sacrifice of a pilot of FlyDubai plane saving 174+ lives, a team of high_tech brains will innovate “how to screen  pilots”( had this innocent pilot failed, our ‘creative toolkit experts’ would have labelled that pilot as a ‘culprit’  probably 🙏). Mistrust is easier, though expensive, to implement 🙏.

Problem with doing our best

 Problem with doing our best

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Funny caption, ain't it?

Usually we get bombarded with free advice “do your best”. (Seldom it is accompanied by “how the hell, to implement it?”)

As if this simple version ain't enough, fanciful guys quote famous ones like Micheal Angelo(in “agony & ecstasy” novel) saying “ take infinite pains to create something that looks effortless” 😥

Doesn't really work for normal ones like us.

True exampull: in 1974, my mom complained to my dad about me “this kid is going to a matinee show daily, since a week. Please question him”.  Dad quizzed. I said “my final year eggjams/exams, not matinee”. Dad used to trust me. Yet, he asked ‘how long?’ i said “tomorrow afternoon last paper”. Case dismissed.

But mom, though a lower court at home (😓), persisted in vain, saying to me :” that boy, next house, studies aloud till 2 am. Watch, he will score high, and you will Surely fail👍… you snore even during forenoon of exam-day!” ( that's my mom's version of infinite pain, as a non-detachable component of doing best..). Results had something “else” to say😥.  I didn't get any second chance to do better😭. I passed with 55% average, almost zero pains. That guy got an opporChutney to write again in 2 subjects, 6 months later, “supplementary eggjams” to  clear in failed subjects! My mom didn't like it 🙏

Fortunately, (for me, of course 🙏), one & only one teacher in my entire life, specifically insisted on learning without any pain, whatsoever 👍. Spiritual program boss👍. I liked it 😜. 

He gave a FANTASTIC concession as  a bonus :   on a spiritual path, your own best, at a given point of time is worth 100/100 marks👍( no need to wait for enumeration results 😜🙏). Damn good, i felt 🤣. ( A weight lifter picking 100 kg, though he can lift 300 kg, is a ‘fail’ 0/100 marks, teacher said, while you pick just 10 kg, which is your maximum that_day, scores 100/100. 😳.  Strange way of giving marks, i thought, but good enough for me)

Problem with doing our(my)best:  my negatives in my mind, holds me back very promptly and unfailingly each time I do anything 😭 ( like : “Oh, this is just a worn out cloth for swiping the floor…. I need not wash it clean like my wedding shirt 👍”.  This mentality spreads like Covid19 😜, to almost everything I try to do 😥).

Imagine me(70+ now),  trying to run a race with toddlers of 2 years age. 20 feet ‘distance’ to the finish line. I should reach within one_tenth of the time required by all the ten kids competing against me🙏. 

Now, if….. me_alone is tied up with stones of 50 kg,  to each of my 2 legs???? Kids will reach the 20 feet finish line in 10% of the time required by me 🙏 😭.

This  is the real problem. Each of my_negative attitudes weighs a ton, and prevents me from doing even routine+ effortless daily tasks like a breeze 😜.  Who else, except me alone, is responseAble for my own dead_weights that I tied on to myself to work against me???

( At advanced level programs in spiritual bijness, i faced only_mind_related problems 😜…   Doing my best seldom involved even twitching a muscle. In fact, it was more about getting rid of body_awareness itself 😜.  Side effects were enormous 🙏. Handling material aspects of life was effortless. My-mind just says “hey body-of-PSN, your turn 👍. I am supposed to shut_up and be quiet”. Damn thing works 🤣.  When the mind does the shut_up, my-brain,  the processor, has only one guy to look up_to, in case of kanfuShun/confusion, and that guy sleeps like kumbhakarna inside me, my mustard sized intellect 😭).

At my worst, yours,

psn(6 Oct 2026)

Epilogue:  kids, naturally try to ‘learn’ from the only sample available around them today( no joint family), their parents, about how to handle the situation around?  A pair, unable to do ‘their own best’ at the mundane daily_routine, are settling into becoming a sub_standard exampull to emulate 🙏😓.  Very unreasonable to blame kids_alone when they do things as grown ups, in a slipshod way🙏😭

Looking aFresh Versus Take it for granted

 Looking aFresh Versus Take it for granted

We know the ‘look’ on the face of a baby is so attractive, we struggle to take our eyes away from its face.

One of the several reasons could be, the baby is looking at EVERYTHING around Afresh, each time 🙏. ( Baby's mind is not chanting a “label” for everything its eyes are watching. Proof: our eyes would struggle to find out “what's that???” even when we are walking on a road, and our fleeting glance at everything our eyes notice, but our mind ‘fails’ to supply a label for a strange object there😂

That ill_fated apple received a ‘fresh’ look from the eyes of Newton 😭🙏, and mother natures law of gravity was no more a closely held secret 😜 

At my workplace, more than often, the error in the books gets sighted within seconds in the opening hours of business. Previous evening, the same pair of eyes had passed over the same error in bank's books a dozen times for hours, successfully hiding itself ….. and the humiliating thing is it was there, all along, WITHOUT any camouflage 😂 ( today computing technology has obviated such manual errors).

One lady writer CONFESSED decades ago, in a weekly magazine, in her article about her aged mother's dementia “I took my mom FOR GRANTED and I missed noticing the early signs of dementia setting in her. I could have arrested the damage earlier”

If…. Only if…we care to look_keenly at the face of an adult who is looking at a vast scene for the first time ( with ZERO idea about it earlier), we can see a glimpse of the innocence of a baby_face in that adult 😂😜🙏. It would last only a moment 🙏. The next moment the mind has managed some stupid label and keeps chanting it each moment (subject to correction by a tourist_guide).

While at a social media platform “speakingtree”, I responded very oddly to a blog by a girl of Indian origin, visiting Mansarovar lake for the first time, coming from the USA. The description included her “inner experience” too 😳 ( otherwise, I would not have bothered to comment 🤣).

I wrote something like this “ are you going to experience it in an equal measure at least, if not more, during your next visit?” I added a punch ”that boy of 12 years or less, who was found washing used tea cups at a tea shop….  he wonders “why do peepals spend thousands of rupees to take a look at this lake?🤔. It's just a water body, a large one, and I wash their used plates and cups with the SAME water”... Can you think of a convincing reply to that kid's innocent question, which won't dare to vocalise???”.( Fortunately, my comment hit the mark 😜. We exchanged a conversation full of value addition 🙏. She got a new_found reason to chase my blogs thereon)

Greatest tragedy is, this “looking afresh” is a vital component in spiritual practices 😭😭😭…   If one can't manage a fresh look at the damn thing ( stupidest looking practices), they stagnate at day_2 itself for an entire lifetime 🙏…   ( the greatest advantage of the ABILITY of looking afresh each time, even the stupid breath of ours😥🙏, is that subtle aspects of whatever we are observing reveals itself deeper and deeper each time 🙏). Looking afresh happens a tiny bit more than peepals around me. But, the blabber about what I come to notice invites the ire_of_listener invariably 😥 .  I resorted to remote, safe and comfortable place to blabber😜🙏. The blogs. Nearby guys spare me with “okay, this ½ mad is keeping shut for a while at least”...

Madly yours,

psn ( 4 Oct, 2026)

PostScript:

Our ancient mega EPIC stories were ‘meant to be read’   afresh, each time, during our entire life time.  The data structure of it is designed to churn out newer+deeper concepts each_time without fail 🙏. (Its true with me😓)

Responsive feedback

 Responsive  feedback 

I was proved to be thoroughly_incompetent to give a sensible feedback to MayaMadam( mother Nature)

Me : MayaMadam, thank you. I had a very good deep sleep last night.

MayaMadam (after 2½ decades): “fool 😡. What you say is worse than bullShit. I delayed my reply only to wait till you are good enough to understand the ‘why’.  Even you are missing during your deep sleep. Then how the hell can you talk about it? You don't even know that you exist. Gotcha???”

That's my ‘dramatised’ version of my gross stupidity of attempting a ‘feedback’

Rishis like Valmiki ‘look’ for a sensible feedback ( they transcended inside Quantum concepts to read feedback in real time). 

Why are our Epics dramatised? Simple: subtle concepts can be recalled easier 😜 . But it needs wisdom 🙏

Invaders cleverly renamed our epics as MYTHOLOGICAL stories. They planted an idea that they are “myths”, not true. But the truth is, they are life_sustaining concepts, time tested and loaded with concepts. Dramatisation is a super_intelligent design of “data structure”  ( example: “waves of Beauty” by Aadi Shankara: German scientists ‘used” the chemical notation in 3rd verse to formulate a pollen_grain drug to restore the memory of their spies captured+released by Russians during WW2. )

I know why I should not be expecting any feedback for my blogs(1k +).  I even desist from requesting strangers to view it. I send link to only less than 6 , close to me 🙏 

How does my feedback look like? 😜

Well, here's a sample (fresh from the oven).

Omit reading at this point, if bored 🙏

I addressed this to a retired banker, spearheading a noble cause of pension updation in supreme court of India. I get updates from him since recent 6 months.

The case is in public domain. He is known to only his ‘circle’. My feedback is only my_inner experience, not the material facts. So, I guess its safe here🙏

Quote:

A feedback from me (PSN) about Shri D.S.M :

Very very rare to find a representative of workmen like him, who is mentally active, despite decades of post retirement  (defying 'age' at physicality is_itself tough🙏. Mental aging??? Please guess.

I need to verify my_own  capacity ( haiseeyat/हैसियत) which is very different from status(aukaat/औकात).

Post retirement, we are all fused_bulbs ( 10 watts or 100 watts 🤣). Status shouldn't matter "practically"

I need the capacity to understand the qualitative+ quantitative value of Mr DSM’s efforts, and 'then' respond to him in according to my ability ( if not in "equal" measure) 🙏

I need to fully understand the chat material he sends( to a sizable number of recipients). I need to respond appropriately ( it varies in action according to the context : for example, signing his petition to our Prime minister 🙏).

My words of appreciation need to be realistic.  Not a CopyPaste of words used for "adornments & embellishments" . We adorn with polished flowery words in order to remain socially acceptable 😜.   I do not wish to insult a GENUINE person with cosmetics 🙏

UnQuote 

Incompetently yours,

psn (3 oct, 2026)

Vox populi, the voice of the people

 Vox populi, the voice of the people

Ancient Kings of Bharat had to hear it directly from the people. Hence, the need for incognito walk around the streets, like an ordinary fellow, often as a beggar 😜

Rishis had direct access to the ‘thoughts' of the people ( of course, only in a non_verbal form🙏). Verifiable evidence is available today, if somebody has uploaded a short_video clip of a spiritual guru who answered a disciple’s question about his source of updated world_news, despite his hectic travel and busy schedules 🙏. The Guru said “I don't have to read or view TV news. You people do it for me. I have to just look at you 😂. And I stay updated”

Thoughts are physical, though subtle.

Having practiced a few tools in my spiritual bijness, I did experiment just once, with an over_excited co_participant in a spiritual program 🙏. He picked me to ‘try' communication via thoughts. We did it. Damn thing worked. He said “never again shall we do this🙏” and I agreed for a dissimilar reason.

Manufacturing defect in me, perhaps 😓.   Randomly, I am sensitive to the aggregate ‘nature' of the thoughts in a particular dwelling place ( it is usually a “house”.   I call it a “home” when I experience a positive energy 🙏.  Of late, a few “houses” defeat even a haunted_building/place, in terms of negative_Vibes😭.  Babies might be found restless, or even crying for no reason 🙏).  I was tempted to see if I am right, during my teens. I asked my cousin to compare the effect of the ambience in 2 places; his own home, at at his uncle's house. He exclaimed after a few repeated & successive visits, exclusively to test the Vibes, saying “ hey! You are damn right! I NEVER noticed this earlier. Now, I can even ‘relate’ it with my inner experience at both these places all along ….and confirm this👍”( This reference to unprocessed_memory of ‘earlier’ experience was a mega_bonus for me 😜 🙏. I was on the right track).

Copper wire can conduct electrical energy. They can't store it as yet. What we usually miss is the metal_fatigue of aged wires. I changed it after 10 years and the Kwh climbed down 😜. ( If keen…Google this: which wire ages faster, used for AC or DC ?)

Energy is in different forms. Sunlight through a magnifying glass can ignite a fire at its focal point. It can charge solar cell. Till now, it makes life happen for us, apart from natural lighting 😜🙏

Problem is “how can a stone idol in the temple store a spiritual energy?”( Atheism needs to be STRONG enough, to explore this, with a positivity in questioning.)

WhatsApp echoes all kinds of thoughts. Vox populi 👍🙏🙏🙏

Right now, it is stupid copypastes, forwards, AI fakes and if a person feigns ‘decency’ it is a “gud mourning” repeat😜. ( The vox populi is “I am too dumb to churn out a genuine+ original thought of mine”) . It is obvious, we aam Aadmi are virtually DICTATING to the MSM( main stream media) “please decide my thoughts 😭🙏🙏🙏”. 

Silently yours,

psn(3 Oct, 2026)

PostScript:  Unlike the electric current which is useful as “AC”( alternating)...  thought_power work ONLY like a DC..😜…   ( self cancelling PAIRS of thoughts is the root cause of our problems, with heavy side_effects 🙏. Figure it out yourself. If I elaborate, it won't convince a reader idling as a couch_potato 🤣.  We prefer idiot_box like TV, to creative thinking)

Worry

 Worry 

A forward with a caption ( routine ‘gud-mourning’ messages on WhatsApp univ), which said “ stop using your energy to worry. Use your energy to believe, create, love, grow, glow, manifest and heal”

What is the reader going to do with this piece of ”advice” ?( I thought)

I didn't respond in that group ( majority dislike me 😜🙏).

But I wrote to the person who posted it, using “reply privately”. Then I thought, my blog page is visited ‘twice’, only by those who TOLERATE me (whether they like or dislike me).

My response:

[02/10, 2026, 6:40 am] PSN: A forward

But, the 'details' might convince better🙏

Brain is the 'physical' organ that does the processing & burns the fuel called 'energy'.

Mind assigns the job to worry or plan, alongside a negative or positive emotion.

"Worry" is never without a conflict between two opposing possibilities ( will or will-not happen).  A bug in a processor 'heats' it up more, without results in a computer 😜.

Creativity merely refers to the intellect, and proceeds with clarity, feasibility, viability etc ( far less fuel/energy is expended).

If this idea convinces(🙏), I am armed with a better purpose, reason and clarity to keep worries away. 😜

[02/10, 6:53 am] PSN: Worry creates a "Mobius strip" in the brain ( a processor chip, needing fuel/energy to run it).   Worry ends up like a Mobius strip ( without a beginning or end 😜).

Mobius strip is a precious concept 🙏

https://youtu.be/zqM4TqsLVRA?si=Gyuq8nmzzQCejd9r

Worrylessly yours,

psn(2 Oct 2036)

Purpose of GenZ

 Purpose of GenZ

I am full of admiration for the choice of “decision” to name a generation, which is only a fraction of a century 🙏( Every nomenclature intends a purpose 🙏. No other generation even_thought of a purpose as a collective Generation)

Each century had around 5 generations 🙏 

We only heard of “Yuga” ( satya yug, treta, dwapara and now kali)

I now look towards hope🙏.

Will this “GenZ” also strive to revive the memory of the purpose of time tested rituals, traditions and practices of the Way_of_Life of ancient Bharat????

Like,

 Is it worth re_discovering the real+original purpose,  of 

-having temple, going into the temple, checking for the presence of contemplated subtle energies/whatever?

—Observing the moon's phase for annual rituals of the departed, or for those ‘born’ under the influence of a particular ‘star’

—-Whether the “purpose” of using Fire as a catalyst for transforming the birth_chemistry of a female, is fulfilled during her wedding, into that of the male’s lineage (gotra changes, implying a “virtual DEATH in the donor’s family & only then, a POSSIBILITY of a birth in the donee family”???😜. (The whole purpose is now like a stupid circus, when even_the thought fails to occur, if there was really_any_purpose & whether it happened?)  {😜 I tested this once, as a kid. It worked 👍}

—-a long list 😜👍

We swallowed a sedative or a purgative, with some ‘hope’ that the purpose will get fulfilled 🙏.  If it doesn't happen ( sleep or evacuation respectively) we have that “common sense” to find out what_went_wrong?.  We “launch” an app. Don't we know why we did it?

( Hitherto….. I used to invoke all the socially acceptable gestures of humility and ask only a professional priest “do you know the purpose of the gestures/chants by a person who does it only due to wearing a thread across his shoulders?”.  I don't even tease him asking about the prescribed ‘age’ for each of 4 varnas, wearing it, the distinction in every ritual related between the 4, etc. It is documented in the ancient texts 😜🙏)

😥…  What used to be a sole venture for me ( with rarely any other in the reachable proximity), can now become an exploration of a unique Genz, since they are disrupting the stupidities of at least 2 immediately-previous generations to them 🤣🤣🤣

( I see an unexplained surge in the viewership to my blabber here. Discounting 90% of the auto_generated numbers of the software, even the 10% is phenomenal 🙏….    Gen-Z????? 🤔🙏😳😳😳😳)

Non_genz yours,

psn(27 Sep 2026)

Punchline ( PostScript)

I deliberately cited a “virtual death” & “donor”....😜 Its a “punch” 🙏

Look at the “enacted law” related to adoption. Without a virtual death, and without a “donation”( like donor of blood/organ), no legal_validity 😜

KanyaDAAN is challenged “who are you to donate me, a girl of 18+ eh????” probably due to ignorance_of_purpose😜🙏🙏🙏 ( sophisticated technology= the “base” transforms scientifically. Its humiliating, if grasped🙏, but true!)

I punch “parents” of ARRANGED MARRIAGES asking them “does the wedding happen with a girl of different gotra?” And the”usual” response is “ofcourse yes!”. I then ‘gently’ remind saying “nope🙏… firstly, the girl is scientifically adopted first into OWN_GOTRA, a transformation in subtle_chemistry , and tying of ‘knot’ is only_thereafter 🙏🙏🙏😔😔” ( I even ‘feign’ humility to find an appeal for T

RUTH!)

Unsolicited help

 Unsolicited help

This is my own personal doubt and an evergreen_doubt afresh every day 🙏 , whether it is about seeking or offering a help. ( Other life forms handle even their-own-death very gracefully 😥🙏. Without any help. Inconspicously and eco-friendly way 👍. The carcass of even that huge elephant didn't ‘pose’ a environmental issue in the forest. We need 4 guys to carry my body, and a few dozens to feign crying! Rejoice is suppressed 😜”good riddance”)

A school teacher was “assigned” to teach “being good to others” to her Kindergarten students.  Theory won't work on kids of such small age. It had to be ‘tasking only’ when reporting to the princi was “rules”!

Kids scrambled towards a deadline to do “some good deed”  and tell the teacher. 3 such kids reported to the teacher “M’am, we 3 together helped an old lady to cross a street 👍”.   The teacher felt grateful, that she can write it in her report. As an after thought, she asked very casually “but why did it take 3 of to help 1 lady?”

Kids blurted honestly “because she never needed to go to the other side of the street and we had a ‘task’ to complete somehow 🙏😥”

Offering a seat to an elder in a jam packed bus isn't always without any issues 😭.  The elder is shy to reveal that he has ‘piles’ and can't sit without a pain in his “@#*” ( you know where!).  He chose a crowded bus only to escape the torture by the conductor “ can't you Occupy a seat, the bus is empty 😡”.

Karma ‘helps’ dissolving the accumulated garbage of our past.  People trying to be “good” to me, help me out and end up postpone my karma to come back with a compound interest in magnitude 🙏. Let me go through my sufferings. It is सुहाना सफ़र ( a colleague claims ‘actual’ out of pocket expenses ‘during travel’ found it convenient to borrow safar/travel/सफर  translating it “ while I was suffering(travelling) from deputed city to parent_office town, expenses please reimburse”( his boss feels it easier to grasp “oh, safar kar raha tha 👍). 

The gatekeepers of Vishnu “chose” to be villains for 7 lifetimes ( instead of 14 lives as devotees, doing-Good to worthless idiots in vain 😜). Easier to be realistic as a villain 👍. Quick work. Fast dissolution of karma, and guaranteed moksha/release 😜 

My blogs are innocent to some extent 🙏. No compulsions to even read😂. ( AI bot does the hiking of views/hits, to pamper my ego 😜).  Only 1 guy reported a noteworthy side_effect ( he tested reading re-reading a blog few times 😥. It did something unnatural to him 😭. But he en_joyed it, mercifully 🙏, and needed six years to muster confidence to privately tell me 😂. If “good” happens unintentionally, even once, by even 1/1000 blogs, to only one fellow, I am lucky🙏. My teacher can report to his guru👍

Unsolicitedly yours,

psn (20 Sept, ,2026)

Sculptor of Ayodhya Ram

 Sculptor of Ayodhya Ram

“This is not the idol which I sculpted” was the exclamatory declaration by the sculptor of “Ram” idol, soon after the consecration, when he looked at his “work” of a long period 🙏( he is supposed to be a descendant of a lineage of sculptors of temple idols 😜)

Had he known this earlier? That it's going to look different! ( Probably, the intensity+ involvement would have ‘been’ a more better, irrespective of whether it translates into the idol or not 🙏)

I am a crazy guy.

I try to look at the expectant mom as a sculptor. The consecration happens between 5 to 6 months. This mom decides how well the baby can be “shaped”, in its ‘formative’ stages 🙏. The baby is ‘receptive’ to primordial sounds as ‘vibes’ via the fluid in the placenta/whatever 🙏. The organs growing are highly receptive to the nutrients supplied by the mom's present physiology & the intake of food during the baby's growth. The thoughts are physical, though subtle, and they are Wired, not Wi-Fi, and are vibes, not words_heard. Most thoughts, we never DARE to verbalise. But the kid doesn't ‘miss’ the vibes of any_thought. Mom, as a sculptor might matter🙏😳. Dunno!

Chiselled, yours,

psn(25 Sept 2026)

My efforts to contribute

 My efforts to contribute

“Even the shirt’s button you use daily, was invented by someone we don't know 🙏” said my school teacher in a class one day. Primary school, I  was in, when this happened 😭 ( she added a bombshell 🙏 “if you don't add something like that of your own, your  life is a waste, whatever else you do👍”)

At that kid age, I appreciated the “button” but not deep enough. I kept my mind unbuttoned, till I grasped it to my_best. Movies like Samson& Delilah, Ulysses, Benhur etc, added info. They needed at least ½ a metre of cloth and a rope tied to the waist, to hold the garment ‘wrapped’ against a wind trying to open it 🤣. Presto! Now, I can guess the millions of metres of woven clothing material saved because of the button/hook/fasteners/etc. Any ‘royalty’ problem would have been of a cascading effect on the descendants of that unknown button guy🙏

Can I try to contribute ‘something'?? ( was the primitive thought).

I got too many opporChutneys/opportunities. 

Most of them granted me the freedom of obscurity 🙏

A dean of neurology, of some Aussie univ, came closest to compensating me in aus-dollar for a chat material he intended to use as an elective carved out for his doctoral kids ( neuro effects of ghost limbs).

2 guys escaped a major spinal surgery ( when my customized form of acrobatics called aasanas worked by sheer fluke).

Nature itself planted a gimmick ( like the movie “inception”... implanting an idea into a target's subconscious. ). Tender_Neem leaves transform themselves during brahmaMuhurat. Years later, a researcher confirmed a mention of it in ASHTANGA (Ayurveda text), dormant and untested since long😜

At work place, I managed gimmicks which even escaped the grasp of professional auditors, computer geeks etc.

Well, I don't have to die as a total waste! 😥

I owe the entire tiny speck of my contribution to the charity of my spiritual masters 🙏.  Helping someone to grow spiritually, I came to discover, is the highest of contribution humanly possible 🙏 

All because of an insignificant button.😓

Time to wind up my bijness and go, as gracefully as possible (can't hope to imitate the life forms of a forest 🙏. They dispose of their own carcass in an eco-friendly and inconspicuous manner, noiselessly,🙂. And they don't ‘teach’. I need to observe and learn, that's the hitch) 😭🙏.

Quietly yours,

psn(23 Sept 2026)