What irks a reader

 What irks a reader?

If, the reader's mind has calmed down to become receptive, the answer is ridiculously simple🙂 “readers own mind decided to become irked” 😜

Stubborn kids in school decide within “come on, let me see how you are going to ‘teach’ me? I shall Refuse to learn👍. Do what you like 😜”( it is the school teacher who gets irked by the stubbornness of that kid, not the kid!)

Readers realise, something they ought_to_have tried to imbibe/could_have imbibed, while reading a preachy stuff especially 😜…. And the ego gets hurt 😥. Defensiveness pops up by default. This defensiveness knows “this is indefensible” and yet persists recalling stupid excuses🤣. The innocent, well meant writeup faces the negative vibes, for no fault of its own!( Doctors are clever with their words🙏. They never poke into the ego with “you were careless with your health” and similar sounding words👍… they just “stick” to bijness, and prescribe relief, not_cure. It is the body, which struggles to Cure, because nature has zero ego😥

If the foregoing is acceptable, how to find a ‘real’ Guru is a futile search 😜. Out of 6 desi types of teachers, the Guru is different from the rest of 5 in one aspect —-he decides upon a receptive disciple 😥🙏. He knows what it takes for a seeker to experience within the non_verbal thirst for seeking the unknowable( logically 😜). 

There could be scoundrels ( benign & malefic, like tumors 😥) who might provoke a seeking in a disinterested person and vanish from the scene, where a Guru takes over. ( I know the pain and suffering of playing a benign_scoundrel 😜🙏, by sheer experience! It is only now, after 3 decades of playing a villain, age has helped me to done down my villainy in me😭. “The spirit is willing (to be a villain), but the body is weak.

After nearly 7 years of hectic volunteering ( hidden agenda had always been to cause unrest in my innocent victims,)...i decided to write, with more focus on irksome cluster of words, for the same purpose —disturb a reader out of his comfort zone.  Exceptions in the readers were very rare, and only one reader decided to respond about his experience, taking 5 years to overcome his hesitation, apprehending that i may not believe his experience due to reading & retesting the nuisance caused by a blog ( “breaking point”) 😂. The name itself is honest🙏. The blog, if taken a bit seriously, is vulnerable to drive the reader to his ‘breaking point”. Only 1 reader got victimized 😭. No regrets👍. I didn't disclose the name of one the coveted ‘states_of-Being’ in reply to his private mail, in keeping with the rules of Yogic tradition. I merely said “i can relate your experience with my own, and hence can ‘believe’ you🤣”. He radiating joyous_gratitude in his ‘revelation’ of inner experience 🙏. I thanked Maya_Madam for her mischief through me😔.

I have tried my best to tone down the ‘hurt’ through my words( words don't injure. Hurt is our own Manufacturing 😜). 

Villainously yours,

psn(16 May 2026)

Post script:

Statistics is used more to tell convincing_lies😜( media guys mint money)

I am a pathetic disaster, statistically. Only 1 recorded ‘hit’ in my 1000 blogs, and 2 L hits on blog_page( Google says 2L).

Paradoxically, Masters would ( i am almost sure) exclaim 😡 “Whhhat? This pint_sized guy got a hit??? Unbelievable!” And i might retort quoting “agar khuda meherbaan, tou gadha pehelwan👍”... God benevolence makes a donkey into a winning wrestler…..😜

Recognition, cognizable, cognizance

 Recognition, cognizable, cognizance 

For my entire kid age, I was recognised as an idiot by the bulk of my relatives, as elders around me 😂 ( Best part is, i never attempted to ‘reform’ myself from my idiosyncrasies. In fact, i accelerated my idiotic nature after 1992, when some Master taught me spiritual tools🙏).

We depend on something within us, to recognise things and others…isn't it? We teach kids to recognise the shape of letters and its corresponding sound forms, so that the kid grows familiar with a commonality called ‘language'. Use of gadgets, recognising the latent ‘resistance’ in it, we learn + teach those who seek to learn from us!

What do we ‘look’ for in the humans? ( Divorce rate is increasing incredibly 🙏…. Mutual Compatibility depends heavily on recognising the level of ‘flexibility' in our ‘Saha-vaasis’/co-habitants’ 🙂,. Other wise, they seem Durvasa/inCoHabitable for us. Sage Durvasa was famous for nuisance value only( when his intrinsic worth which was in CONFORMITY with Cosmic laws/sanatan Dharma, remained inconspicuous to people around him even ‘then’😜.  Ability to recognise a person has always been an issue since times immemorial 🙏

Real life example: My son, compuLiterate unlike me, worked for a multinational software firm which designed software only for in-house needs( 19 of their global entities, engaging a thousand plus experts from best colleges and toppers. Obviously the CTC/salary was always twice the market rate, and annual hikes around 30% for performers. Convincing? Well, this firm assigned a software development to my son, designed to “recognise talents, from unconventional+unrelated areas of human activity” 😜🙏. Impressed? If not, dump this narrative 🙏….  The software worked👍. Something that globally acclaimed head_hunters can only ‘envy’. 🙂  ( To me, the entire ‘structure’ of the design likened with the methodology deployed by ancient Gurus who used ‘mystic’ tools to spot their potential candidate/disciple for tutelage under them in spiritual bijness 😜🙏)

By now, i am quite familiar with the tools used by others around me, in evaluating my worth….😜

If i failed to notch on their_yardsticks, i would struggle to survive amid them🙏.

Fortunately, I have a serious drawback/defect/lacking/weakness/deficiency/whatever 😥….   My wants and desires failed miserably to reach even the average ‘needs’ of a normal human being, by today's standards/parameters 😭🙏.  The negative advantage of this shortcoming is, their ‘ratings’ about me doesn't matter for my peaceful survival 😜

( Personally, and privately, what mattered more to me was, i get recognised by Masters, with and without their mortal frame🙏.  While i have no means of knowing about bodiless guys interested in me, my experience holds good about mystics i keep bumping into too often right from my kid age i remember of👍👍)

As an incidental byproduct, the tools that come handy to cognize using the 5 senses of perception and also the perception beyond, got within my range of recognition by_me. 

I cheerfully bow, with utmost gratitude to ALL those who labelled me as an idiot👍… ( Ashtavakra too, might have felt similarly grateful for his nomenclature, and several times more intensely than me🙏, when he authored a version of Gita, by his own name, matched by none_else👍. Eight_deformities wala, is his name 😜🙏🙏)

Deformed, yours,

psn (9 May, 2026)

Cosmic laws

 Cosmic laws 

I don't possess the necessary competence to expound the concepts involving cosmic laws 🙏

But, this much sense dawned into me, to understand experiencially, that i am an inalienable part of it 😜( gratitude to my spiritual journey thus far😥).

Do we need_at_all,  a ‘lecture’ on cosmic-laws? Not at all. Please continue oblivious to the existence of the cosmic laws 😜. It's a choice that ‘only’ humans can make🙏…..   

“Human is a being of Volitional Consciousness” ( this jargon appeals better than the desi version ‘buddhi_jeevi’ 😜.  Swa_bodh, mallus say ‘bodhavaan’...etc)

Planet earth. Over the recent 2 centuries, have we made it ‘more’ habitable or lesser? Isn't it our choices that made the difference? There could be habitable planets somewhere in the galaxy or universe, retaining its habitable_worthiness since millennia. Oops! Earth was also made ‘better place’ than what it was, by humans, until few centuries ago!... Especially the bullock_cart fellows of Bharat, evolving into their grasp of Cosmic laws since a few thousand years 🙏. 

Nobody is exempt from the Constitution called cosmic laws ( just as Indian constitution is supreme among all other enactments.  Indians ‘can’ create a constitutional_crisis😜… Often it is politicians who manage to create such crisis. ) …. When humans choose a thought, word or deed which is in contravention of cosmic laws, no police or judiciary is necessary to implement a corrective action 😜. Cosmic laws are capable by themselves! 

My experience is, i experienced joyousness ‘in proportion to the extent that I understood cosmic laws experientially’ 🙏… 

One of my silly koschan was “how is it that Mega villains in our Desi epics got moksha? Whereas, their victims were left in the ‘lurch’??? 😜…. Not quite easy to reach the exact_answer, which is in CONformity with cosmic laws 😜🙏. A pravachan/lecture expert might do a patch work trying to justify saying “well, the villains were undergoing a curse, otherwise….they were divine gatekeepers of Lord Vishnu👍”... Not quite 🙏… Cosmic laws don't exempt even Vishnu 😳, forget his “gate’-keeper😜… epics are flawless, and cosmos_scientific/universe_scientific 🙏

Now, if the reader is still tolerant to read this_far, I can wind up quoting a reference to “4 declaratory truths/MahaVakyas “🙏. Experience of these 4 is enough to know cosmic laws, and after knowing which, nothing else is needed to be known 😜( Howzzat?)

A speck of cosmos, 

And volitionanally yours,

psn ( 9 May, 2026)

Confession:

Please feel free to criticize me, if you feel that i am wrong in giving a desi name to cosmic laws as “sanatan dharma”( i love to be corrected, and with humility & gratitude.) Even if readers spare me, cosmic laws won't, if i am at fault 😭….. dat’s what karma is all about 😜🙏

Use of Discrimination

 Use of Discrimination(not recommended for reading casually)

Nearest Hindi word i came across is ‘ViBhed’ ( mallus i think say “vivechanam”)

My wild imagination:

Scene 1) i am a student of psychology. I shot a koschan to the professor ( who also teaches to PhD kids) : “Sir, how to diagnose and treat with a patient who complains inability to invoke his intellect, there preventing the use of his own embedded software known as ‘Sense of Discrimination’?”

If i cook up for a possible reply by my imaginary professor, i would incur the wrath of a psycho_prof reading it. ( I don't even know if intellect and use_of_didcrimination is a part of regular & mandatory syllabus ( maybe an elective for doctoral & without a mentor 😳

Scene 2) i am a student of Gurukul 4000 years ago, and i ask “guruji, how does vibhed buddhi get invoked at will & CONSCIOUSLY?”

Guru smiles and quotes : “ataha yogaanusgasanam, yogasChittavruttiNirodaha” 

(please note, i dare say: “whether Patanjali existed or not at that point of ‘time’. Because, a Guru transcends limitations of time”.      😜😜😜 proof? Ask Valmiki, who scripted Ramayana before it happened 🙏😥😥😥)

( Why this ‘Non_sensical blog occurred in me?”...

Well, i noticed that brain as a functional organ is indispensable for the sense of Discrimination to be ‘used’ by the faculty called ‘intellect’.  A guess work: we have no steering wheel inside our dreams. Brain responds only partially ….like, when we wet our bed cover due_to_a_dream, as an emotional response or an interference by the bladder which couldn't ‘hold it any longer’...

When memory is predominantly steering the dream, i am unable to ask my dad during the time i am inside the dream ”hey dad, you were already dead decades ago? How come you popped-up now???”

It ought to be the Discrimination_deficit which prevented Sir Newton from wondering something like :” okay, apple falls due to gravity, but why the_hell is the apple_tree defying gravity and growing vertically upwards???”.  I hold no animosity towards any scientific mind 🙏🙏🙏…. Just that the desi_spirituality is a chronic ailment afflicted in me😭)

Indiscriminately yours,

psn( 7 May, 2026)

A googly : ( 😜🤣😥🙏)

Mr Chandrakant jain, when an ordinary youth, got tickled by his sense_of_discrimination while listening to a lecture on meditation by a Big Godman, addressing a large audience 🙏… None others had this problem, which Chandrakant had🙏… Hence, Chandrakant climbed up to the dias, whispered a question to the speaker in to his ears “sir, do you have experience of the meditative state that you are lecturing about?”( Not interruption to the lecture….    only during an interval, this whisper)

That Godman looked into the eyes of this stranger, decided upon an honest reply “No….but this lecture is my bread&butter. Please don't destroy my livelihood”.

Jain wasn't an egoist . He let off that Godman. But jain didn't let_go his question 😜..  the search led him to be known as “Acharya Rajneesh” and later as a global “Osho” 😜🙏🙏)

I started looking for streaks of Discrimination being used by peepals around me, since kid age😥😥 ( by now, you can guess why i said ‘streaks’  😜🙏)

A bogus story:

I love bogus stories, as long as i learn concepts 🙏

A woodcutter was shown 3 axes by river goddess, golden, silver and then wooden and asked if it was his, which fell into the river….. He said ‘no’ to gold and silver, and yes, to his wooden axe. Goddess pleased with with him, gifted the golden & silver while returning own wooden to that guy.

Another cunning woodcutter decided to “Scam” this 😜.  Scamster failed to visualise that “goddesses” use Discrimination by_default😜. Sequence repeated. Cunning fellow nodded ‘yes’ to wooden as 3rd choice asked. Goddess gave the wooden and vanished😜. Scams work only on idiots like me, not god's or goddesses🤣

Summary of my life

 Summary of my life 

2 May, 2026

 Enduro mahanu bhavulu

Around us 🙂

A good number are inconspicuous too 😥

I tried to look at myself, my efforts to evolve, starting from where I am right now😥 (obviously, i am far-far behind all the great beings i bumped into 🙏.)

And therefore, value-addition for myself, out of confronting any+all those who are Greater than me, became my priority. 

Over the decades of such pursuit and perseverance, I can tell myself "not bad yaar👍😜".... Now, age is claiming me to be handed over back to nature, into its recycle bin 🤣. And, on an as_is_where_is basis( like Govt tenders for sale of scraped vehicles 😜🙏)

psn

2 May, 2026

Hinduism

 Hinduism 

1 may 2026

A classmate forwarded a video clip narrating the “tree of scriptures” in Hinduism to dispel the popular misconception that Gita is to Hinduism like bible is for Christianity, Quran is for islam, etc….

I wrote:

[01/05, 1:06 pm] PSN: Last sentence, i agree in exclusivity of the foregoing.

"Map" .... ये एक दम सच है 🙏 

In fact, entire "tree" is a 2-in-1....

Roadmap or milestone.

बीच महासागर में ( pacific ocean) without any compass , can we swim/row a small boat to reach "some" shore?

On land, middle of sahara desert, which direction will we walk?

Yes, sun and its direction can guide in ocean/desert। 

In Hinduism, the "ULTIMATE" aim is not_Godजी 😜

Moksha is the ultimate 🙏( अगर ये सच है...... Litmus test is crucial for मोक्ष 🙏)

Litmus test= EXPERIENCE of the 4 MahaVakyas 🙏

If, these 4 are an experience, that person can throw away all the books(tree का list)

The entire tree( scriptures), all the lakhs of temples( Gurudwara, jain, buddhist, mutts/मठ including) are mere tools😂।

ये "tree" का list देखकर डरने की जरूरत नहीं है 😜 

जीवन शैली ही काफी है, मोक्ष के लिए ( bulk of enlightened ones in Bharat were non-brahmins 🤣... Bulk of scriptures were authored by non-brahmins🙏. "Ved"vyas was born of a fisherwoman. Valmiki was a tribal dacoit. Vishwamitra was a king....endless list!

Brahmins used to "read" scriptures, in order to "become" like Google_search, for all others. In order to avoid greed, ego, etc they took a मन्नत/vow, "भीख मांग कर ही खायेंगे" They became mobile roadMap-milestone for entire society 🙏 ( respect for such truly_sacrificing brahmin was automatic/unsolicited 🙏. मैं सिर्फ़ एक चोर-बोम्मन हूं 😜)

True meaning of Sanatan Dharma: Universal law

Sanatan= times immemorial ( before humans existed🙏 scriptures का सवाल ही नहीं 😜)

धर्म is law( nearest English word )

We are a recycled product of countless cause&effect in the universe/ब्रह्मांड 🙏। Hence, adherence to *_cosmic laws_* or सनातन धर्म is the ONLY "route" to salvation/moksha।

मोह का क्षय होना= मोक्ष 😜

I welcome to be corrected with all the humility possible in me( क्योंकि, मेरा भी उद्देश्य मोक्ष ही है, तर्क जीतना नहीं 😜😜😜🙏🙏🙏)

[01/05, 1:11 pm] PSN: Even by chance 

somebody becomes a तलबगार to this "tree" description..... nothing is wrong/lost. सिर्फ उठापटक थोड़ा ज्यादा करके, same मोक्ष 😜..... ( Reason = scriptures are in Sanskrit 🙏. Nature of sanskrit is unique & different from all man-made languages 🙏😜. Self_corrective factors in sanskrit makes/renders it into a powerful tool 🙏 )

Spiritually yours

psn(1 May, 2026)

Logic and emotions in us

 Logic and emotions in us

 Logic is like our old table clock, in which we turn a spring for alarm.  Sensible people allow the spring to unwind itself fully 😜. Unwinding fully retains the ‘life’ of spring longer. Holding the ‘tension’ of the spring weakens the temper of the spring sooner.

Logic, our mind keeps winding 24/7😜

Some of the windings get fully unwinded, when ground reality matches our logical expectations 🙏

What about the unfulfilled windings? 😜😂😂

Sounds stupid? Then look at a baby under one year of age. Full of emotions. Zero logic. Joyous, 24/7. We adults enjoy looking at the baby crying a little, emotionally, while simultaneously doing our best to console it. Next moment after waking or crying, the baby radiates joy!( We love to keep looking at the kid🙏)

Logic at its very best is absolutely necessary for our well being and ease of living 🙏

Unwinding the tension in the logic? 😜 ( I omit the mention of ‘how to’.... Readers loathe “preachy stuff” 🙏.  Diagnosis is a bit rare, especially accurate ones 🙏.

I leave it to the readers to figure out if emotions by itself needs any winding/unwinding, exclusive of logic?

Yes, if a reader feels inspired enough to genuinely seek details/elaborations, I might be persuaded to respond 🙏 (why am I like this now?... I am trying to adhere to advise by Manu in his smriti, in verse 110(chapter 2)

( My recent real_life experience 🙏… i happened to join in a get-together of my school-class_mates, 1957-58 to 1969-70, after 56 years😜, on 27Apr,2026, evening, for 3½ hrs.  A wide spectrum of rare specimens of minds, successfully recreating the kid age togetherNess instantly 😜… Unwinding of tensions in many of them happened effortlessly, by the high_voltage charged atmosphere that got ‘generated’ by_itself! Remember, everyone was 73 PLUS🙏

I dedicate this narrative to my dearest ‘gang’ with all the humility possible in me😔).

Emotionally yours,

“PS” ( thats still my id_proof, with schoolmates 😜)

30 april, 2026

Ignored ignorance

 Ignored ignorance 

For a very long time, I remained ignorant that to ignore (something) is a conscious choice, where as ignorance is lack/absence of the information itself about that something. 😂

A baby doesn't ignore anything 🙏. I wonders about anything and everything that it ‘senses’ through its sense organs. The sense organs are highly alert, very sharp and therefore very receptive( till that baby starts forming a ‘mind’ of its own). 

As an adult, my preoccupied mind  renders me ignorant of the mosquito that is biting my skin, and i ignorantly_ignore the pain sensation conveyed to my brain by the neuro-network, to evoke a ‘response’ towards the injured skin 😂 ( i was reading a suspense thriller 😞)

A few people decide to try sitting quiet with eyes closed, and still remain very alert, and yet very relaxed!( Usually this practice is done by the name ‘meditation’!).  The joke is, the tiny pain of a mosquito, or a much smaller sensation on the skin which we were hitherto ‘ignorant’ about, suddenly becomes intense enough to make us restless, and disturbs us, provokes a response from us, when we ‘decide' to sit ‘unmoved’ for a few minutes 😜. An itch somewhere ‘demands’ an Urgent scratching by our finger_nails😜 , and a ‘fight’ ensues within our mind, ‘who will win? The resolve to sit quiet or the exaggerated sensation?”

Communication in all its forms seeks to dispel our ignorance that we have the potential to respond to ‘life’ ticking inside us🙏. The source of this communication is from outside of us( ever changing situation) and also from within us. The sense organs takes care of data from outside! ( A teacher once asked us “all your educational degrees, information, data etc which is in your memory/harddisk came through only the 5 sense organs isn't it? Do you have any bit of information which did_not come through any of the 5 sense organs?( Input devices)?”  Oops! I felt!! 😳.  The question gave birth to another question”is it possible to gather data from other_than the sense organs?”...  I was reminded of a jargon “ESP”( Extra-sensory perception). Still it is only a ‘perception’( a visibility, a receptivity). But the desi word for ESP hinted at a deeper possibility 😥…. Gyan, knowledge, which is a product of post_analysis of well arranged data🙏😥….  Indriya_atheeth_gyan !!! ( Knowledge from beyond sensory levels source 😳)

Am I ignorant of all this just_because i ignored my ignorance??? 🤔

We do not get to see a non_human life form ( insects, animals, birds etc) getting trapped in a natural calamity like an earthquake, cyclone, flood, lightening, volcanic eruption etc 😥😳😳.  They don't ignore the early warning from nature, and therefore escape the onslaught. We put up an excuse of “ignorance” when we ignored our potential to sense the warning 🙏 ( Dr Yashpal Kapoor, who was a scientific advisor to Govt of India, wrote “tribals in the forest taught me to notice the ants who travel very differently, three days ahead of a torrential rain, to escape drowning, when our “Param Computer” is still struggling to be accurate in predicting weather 😜😂”). 

“Ignorance of law is not an excuse” !! Other than that, we decide to use ‘ignorance’ as an excuse for everything we ignored 👍.

Worst casuality of our decision_to_ignore is spirituality 🙏. ( Ancients decided to handle the problem of ignorance conclusively 😜. 

They conceptualized ‘that’ knowing which, we get rid of ignorance about anything 😜🙏.  They verbalised this concept into 4 stages of evolvement. These 4 are famous as MahaVakyas/declaratory truths! If these 4 are within a person's EXPERIENCE, he is free from ignorance of all forms. He can ‘know' whatever he wants to know, instantly 👍.  One recent person instituted 4 institutions to propagate these 4 truths, one each, as a gesture of highest human compassion possible. He is adorned with a sanskrit verse “shruti smriti puraanaanaam…. (etc)....aalayam, KARUNA-aalayam”( karuna means compassion. He is a store house of compassion towards fellow beings).

This blog is my attempt to persuade my fellow beings to get rid of ignorance, without waiting for myself to be rid of it first 🙏. Hence, my attempt is bound to contain a few flaws😂. Please do not ignore my flaws🙏.

Ignorantly yours,

psn(14 April, 2026)