Soorya darshan

 Soorya darshan 

A circus with fingers, "integral" part of "initiation" into the mother_of_chhandass( otherwise, a Mantra for the normal chanting 😜)

I am able to do it at this age, thanks to the flexibility retained. 

A kid, pizza_fed couldn't do it during his initiation ( in 2007). The priest granted a concession " just place the palms alongside, peep through a gap at the Sun, and get_over_with_it"( only the fee mattered, not the purpose of the gimmicks 😜 and we seek spiritual evolvement through the ritual???)

It took me years to find out the possible_purpose😥🙏.  No way to know whether I strayed anywhere near its real_purpose 😓…

Meanwhile yours,

psn(4 Aug, 2026)

Preparation process

 Preparation process

How much preparation do we need for a journey, event, examination, interview, parenting, financial stability/crisis, learning, grasp, investigation, exploration, dishes for food, sports, court case, day's work (etc) .. endless list……and ending with ‘death’ 😜

100 metres journey, just the footwear & mobile. Phoren tour, VISA Etc. months ahead.

Sweat in peace than to bleed in war …. A preparation.

A story in my school taught me about the value of preparation 🙏 3 fishes in a pool—named future, present and past fishes. Mr future jumped out when he saw the water evaporating. Mr. Present barely managed a jump into the adjacent larger pool when water level was at level-surface. Mr(Late) past fish died when the water dried up.

At a spiritual program of 7 days residential one, we were asked to “prepare our body” to be able to squat for 6 to 8 hours at-a-stretch, without any discomfort of cramps, numbness etc ( the idea was to prepare so that ‘body is not a hurdle for a spiritual experience’. As long as we are ‘stuck’ in the body, zero scope for any spiritual experience 🙏).  We were given tools to prepare the body. 41 days, a body needs to adapt itself to any new style we decide upon, for the body ( Ayurveda). Thus, 2 sets of postures, each on alternate days, was the prescription. I had a weakness for preparing well😭. I practiced both sets daily twice 😜. That's a four_fold dosage. No regrets🙏. Body cooperated by “getting the Hell out of my way” for all the 7 days 👍. 

This ‘preparing well’ had a few irreversible side_effects in me😥.  I didn't ‘bother' to prepare at_all for academic exams, at 30 and 40 years of age( didn't mind failure). But results stunned me😳. The ‘toughest’ subject to score in law (jurisprudence) fetched me the highest marks among us. The computer course for ‘dumb’(1991, when it was a strange machine) fetched aggregate top with a unreasonable lead over the second highest ( zero preparation).

( I don't know, if….its a spill-over effect of preparing too-well for non-commercial aspects of life? 🙏😥. Muscle memory of body/brain-organ? . Who cares, as long as it a lottery ticket won 👍)

Today's mind isn't bothered about ‘death' despite the event being the ‘only' certainty in life😂. Ancients were wise about death, and prepared too well for it throughout their life 🙏. The longest journey (logically too) deserves the highest preparation. Our today's_mind tends to conclude “whatever we don't know, or if it is beyond our experience doesn't exist 👍”.  We know of local and general anesthesia.  Long term anesthesia for our life_energy ticking in us? It lives beyond our ‘clinical-death’ 😜. ( I should atleast ‘know' , when I am dead, that I am dead🙏😭. Sense organs gone. So, I practiced “death” meditation for 500+ times over 6 years, @ twice a week. That's something 🙏👍).

Preparedly yours,

psn(4 Aug 2026)

Superfluous bit : My stupidity works for me. I took inspiration from my spiritual Guru who dropped a mention causally (in 1992): “ i rehearse a hundred times still, before each class/session, though I have conducted these classes a hungred times already 🤣”. If he prepares so much, what am I?

Emotional blackmail

 Emotional blackmail 

🤣

Readers are not going to ask me “what's that?”

Yet, many are going to ‘wish’ they never have_to yield to it. ( I cannot escape the wrath of those few who are ‘gifted’ with the skill of using it like a brahmaAstra, an infallible weapon of epic story times 🙏)

Somehow, a ‘manufacturing defect’ crept into me😭.  I don't yield to emotional blackmail 😜. Another manufacturing defect which can be ‘safely’ tested+verified on me is : I don't succumb to a physical ‘tickling’ under my armpits 😂 ( only during my school days, I discovered this ‘defect’ in me). I don't know of any remedy/cure/defense against a formidable tickle by others, physically. But, I know that if someone desires to transcend the susceptibility to emotional blackmail, there's a way out. 🙏

We heard a saying “if you sighted a lightening, you have escaped from being struck by it”

I guess the same goes for emotional blackmail 🙏. If you can sense it, you can_have a ‘choice’ to escape it😜. Only that we need to work upon ourselves a little. Our emotional ‘weaknesses’ are the conduit for an emotional blackmail to strike us( not when emotions are our_strength 🙏).  The peak levels of emotional strength is when our ‘inclusiveness’ affords us a ‘living experience’ of the ancient phrase ‘VasudaivaKutumbakam’ 🙂🙏

Since I am also aware that most of us find “yielding to an emotional blackmail” as an excuse to justify our own emotional weaknesses, it is not going to be palatable to elaborate on even the ‘basics’ of overcoming either😜

I just thought of reminding ourselves of the threat from within our own people 🙏

Emotionally yours,

psn(3 Aug 2026)

God, teach me to use sense of Discrimination

 

God, teach me to use sense of Discrimination 

To me, it looks like, the author has ENCAPSULATED the essence of ancient wisdom, to simplify the prayer asking for "teach me how to use the sense of Discrimination/വിവേചന ബുദ്ധി"( an uncommon & unique prayer, which appeals to God better👍)

Mallus used this prayer till 1960 in every home. 

Now, commie sense overrides common sense 🙏

psn
2 Aug 2026

How I pick Good_things in a bad

 How I pick Good_things in a bad

That's the “standard” advice to wedded oldies who struggle to get along together 😥 “ why don't you think of good_things about your spouse?”

( My private finding is, as we age, 

That, which is by-default in us, remains …..

That which needs a conscious effort,  fails, owing to age……

Bad habits are the default. Good ones need conscious efforts though ‘world’ call it good_habits.

With age, bad habit get the limelight like a scratch on a white paper/cloth 🙏😓)

Anyway, 

I decided to look at things with_a_good mind👍👍👍

For instance, I look at my spouse displaying her anger at_me( bulk of it caused by situation_or_others) as “COURAGEOUSLY” done, red_faced😡😡😡. 

I admire the “courage”🙏

This admirable of courage, paved way for my discovery of a great WISDOM in her 🙏

Wisdom is = she knows, it is SAFE to get angry with me 😜.

It's like this…..

I am destined to be born in a lineage of Traditional beggars…..

We were not gifted with an elaborate set of chants, ( highly scientific Mantras) to UNDO our wedding knots 😭🙏 Logic = wedding needs hectic chanting+ rituals for solemnisation🙏. Obviously, a simple chant cannot be enough to de_solemnise it.

Yes ….. you got it right 👍 

“ I do” they say to each other, when a priest OFFICIALLY asks the pair, their willingness to Espouse each other 👍👍👍.

So…. a simple syntax “I UN_do” is enough 🙏 👍 ( lucky ones, to be born in that tradition, when getting along with a spouse is tough.  “When going gets tough, the tough get_going”---away from each other 😜).

I can't use “the Undo” function ( outdated software in my lineage 🙏 😓).  “Necessity is the mother of Invention”. I ‘invent’ ideas like “call it as Courage, when safety is 100% guaranteed “ etc😜.

My inventions work only for me🙏( readers are advised ‘not to try it at home’. This was only for advertisement, and by a professionally trained spiritual bijness seeker 😜)

Very adjustably yours,

psn(30 Jul 2026)

Reaching a students mind

 Reaching a students mind 

Parents of “today” are often kaanFused(confused) about “what's going on in my child's mind? 😧 🤔”

( That's not beCause that today's kid of 9 yrs is high_tech_complex. Our ears( kaan,) are fused to subtle listening 😜 ( mind's chatter)

Not that I ‘qualified’ myself ‘academically’ into a big psychiatrist 🙏.  Sometimes a drowning guy happens to learn to stay afloat under constraints 😓. ( I volunteered for backup support of spiritual program for 6+ years. Insight into minds got bulldozed into me😭)

A joke:

I give a title to this joke : JUST_PASS (😂)

1998 or so….this story!

A dejected mom in our neighborhood wailed requesting my sister: “ can you please do something? My daughter always falls short of a few marks to pass in her maths exam. The tuition teacher refunded this month's advance_fee saying ‘i can't help this kid to pass the 3rd standard annual exam in maths’.  Only few days left🙏😓”

My sister with her disclaimer:” i am willing to try, but no guarantee, when a professional tuition teacher has given_up”.

I saw my sister struggling to ‘speak’  to that kid, being an asthmatic. I said, “just pass? Let me try”

I did a little spade_work.

Narrowed down to a ‘sure chapter’ in maths where that kid is ALSO SURE to flop 😜

Fractions — ( the ‘type’ of koschans/questions,  made my job too EASIER.  But, the teacher had thought of that type to make her_job easier😜. )

Koschan model= “identify & mark the proper & improper Fractions in the following:

a)⅘, b)9/7, c)16/23, d)⅜ (etc)

Moms look at such questions, keeping her child's innocent ‘face’ in the mind and think :  “ 😡😡😡 बच्चे की जान लोगे क्या???”( Do you intend to squeeze the ‘life’ out of MY dear child???)

My software (own A.I.)

I knelt down on fours. Asked my brother's daughter ( in 2nd class, yet to hear that monstrous word “FRAC_SHUNS”, rhyming like fracture_de_bone) to climb on my back( piggy_ride).

Asked that blank_eyed kid : “who is bigger ? Me, or this girl riding my back?”

Student: you.

Me : is it not okay/proper for a smaller kid to sit on a larger_me?

Student: Yes! Weight is bearable 👍

Now, i asked my niece to kneel down on 4’s. I feigned ‘riding’ on her, taking care not to”park” my bottom on that tiny girl🙏 ( जान नहीं लेना चाहिए था 😓। No intention to snatch that innocent ‘life’). Kept a 2 centimetres gap between her back and my bottom —weight on my bent_knees on either sides of her 😂)

Me : now? Who is bigger?

Student: you!!! She can't bear your weight 🙂 ( that ‘smile’ lit up my hopes 👍… “careful now” i warned myself… drive carefully, hairPin bends ahead, Ghat section! Tiny grasp might fall off steep_hill)

Me: is not BAD or improper for me a larger fellow to sit ‘upon’ a small child who is smaller_than_me?

Student: Yess. Bad …bad…

Me : okay, improper to do such bad things 🙏👍👍👍

Me: you know numerals 1,2,3,4,....99,999, 1,00,000?

Student: yes! Learn’t it in 1st itself👍

Me: good!  Larger number later isn't it?

Kid : yes

Me: i write numbers one below the other ½, ⅔, etc …. But by mistake I wrote 10/9 😭

wrong isn't it? “Improper” says your ‘maths’ teacher👍 ( Gently squeezing-in the technical maths_term “improper “

Kid nodded ( that vocalised “yess” vanished😓. A warning sign of body_language for me🙏)

( After few more similar ‘gimmicks’)

Me : “Think of me & this tiny girl’s visuals in your question paper, while answering ‘Fractions’. Larger number will cause bone_fracture sitting above a small number. Scold it writing “improper 😡’’.... Rest of it “okay👍 proper”..

In short…… that kid PASSED 😜

That mom did google_pay of her “thanks” to my sister. 

I tolded/told my sister : “don't worry , income tax returns don't mandate declaring income like ”thanks”  under own PAN number in tax_returns👍”

Sister: “youuuuuu 😡😡😡”

( How can we ‘blame’ school teacher, managing 50 kids?  Impractical to teach each kid with a ‘unique’ customized CIRCUS examples like this 😓🙏🙏🙏

And we parents are obligated by nature to infuse correct values in a kid during its FORMATIVE stages of Concepts_formation 🙏)

Thanklessly yours,

psn(30 Jul, 2026)

Ethical paper leak

 Ethical paper leak 

Yep!

Its possible 😂 👍( like ethical hacking 😜)

Copying in eggjams attracts punishment?!?? Not REALLY 😕…  where you copy FROM decides👍

1)From memory= State first Rank, admission with highest cutoff for degree

2)From a hidden paper= depends whether the invigilator is corrupt or honest. Cunning or stupidly_honest. But only punishment.

Question paper Leak offers a better insurance. No matter who that damn vigil_later is, mugup limited answers, vomit cohesively, get centum

Centum 😜

In 2001, I knew a wizard who guarantees centum in maths to 55 out of 60 tuition kids he charged ₹5,000 per package in advance. Rest 5 get 95% plus. Once in 4 years, all the 60 get centum. ( The details are my secret too… and I don't spoil somebody’s livelihood even for fun. Elect a good neta as educaShun minister or face the collective Karma quietly)

This tuition master earned a reputation as “Centum_xyz”. Prefix like Dr for PhD 🙏 

I privately+ personally accord more credibility to the prefix “centum” than a Dr—Phd in maths masquerading as dean of dept of mathematics in a big college. My reason is SIMPLE. This tuition master has mastered the commercial aspect of “sense of Discrimination” in him, and translated its functional_software to earn him lakhs of rupees per year ( 5 shifts of each batch of 50 kids average…. Zero_rules like that of “recognised + licensed school, and yet delivers only centums 🙏).

Had he used the same dexterity of sense of Discrimination for his personal+private spiritual bijness, even 1% of the labour part, he would have become a “drushta”( a visionary, 5th level of 6 types of Desi teachers 🙏) and his centum students would have remembered him on every Guru_poornima day 🙏.

NEETly yours,

psn( 29 Jul, 2026)

PostScript: 1957-58 to 1969-70, I had a glimpse of what a ‘Drushta’ might look like, in a few of my school teachers. Most of ‘These few’ died in utter poverty 🙏. But the “concepts” they taught, and “how to ask” that a couple of them taught, LIVES through even a non_entity like me😜. They perpetuated their teachings 🙏 

Reference:

There are teachers( of all 6 kinds—-1. The teacher who gives you information is called: Adhyapak.

2. The one who imparts knowledge combined with information is called: Upadhyaya.

3. The one who imparts skills is called: Acharya.

4. The one who is able to give a deep insight into a subject is called: Pandit.

5. The one who has a visionary view on a subject and teaches you to think in that manner is called: Dhrishta.

6. The one who is able to awaken the wisdom in you, leading you from darkness to light, is called: Guru.

A teaser: Interested to know the name of one medicine system that is Leak_proof & hack_proof in its entrance exam? ( Unlike NEET?)

Naadi Vaidyam (🙏)

My confession

 My confession🙏

Blogs are too many by now😭

A confession to my readers is not out_of_place.

My sin : postulates related to the basics_of_life do creep in inevitably, owing to my focus on ‘sharing’ my personal experiences thus far in my life.

These postulates ( related to basic concepts) get strewn randomly in my blogs. 

Consequence:

By its very nature, postulates ( lowest in the hierarchy of phenomenon, repititiousness, postulate, theory, concept and law) are bound to contain inconsistency in 🙏

Lack of remedy:

Constraints get imposed on the readers minds, deterring them from vocalising even the most stupid inconsistencies in my blabber 👍🙏🙏. ( Something i can only ‘wish’ as a charity unto me, to rectify myself 🙏😭).

A silver lining 😜 : 

My only_consolation too…  the readers’ minds get excercised, delving into a maze, which might have been infested with cobwebs, like our attic, which we neglect to visit for too long, owing to the priorities of present day fast_paced_life🙏… ( This is only an imagination of mine, i am painfully aware of it 😂. My mind is more_ordinary( extra-ordinary, like extra_chutney we request for our idli/dosa🙏👍).

Guiltily yours,
psn(28 Jul, 2026)

Is laziness in or by the mind?

 Is laziness in or by mind?

“I am a lazy person” ( of course, the mind said it 🙏)

Does it mean, that the mind_itself is lazy???

See, our simple understanding is lazy=avoiding action even when needed.

Mind, prescribed laziness, like a doctor who seldom eats what he prescribes 😜 ( reason may be, it suits mind to keep_busy😥🙏, otherwise it waits for us to sleep 😴, to keep the brain busy with incessant data_feed, called dreams).

Mind is the busiest, most active fellow with in me 🙏. Even when I sleep, it chatters. No court can compete with my_mind in delivering “Judgements” in milliseconds 😜. Even my meditaShun shuns me because mind REFUSES to sit-idle 😜😓.

A 2 month baby has “zero issues” with LAZINESS .   We adults can't compete with that kid, in circling the arms & legs non-stop, all its waking hours. Our mind says ‘stop it’. Baby's mind is still in its formative stage, not yet like that ‘proverbial’ mother-in-law 😜🙏

So, let us get it right. Minds ailment is hyperactivity. The slaves of the mind end up into laziness, procrastination, refusal to allow intellect to function, etcetera 🙏

Lazily yours,
psn(28 Jul, 2026)

Comfort zone

 Comfort zone suits the mind, not the spirit 😜 

spiritually yours,
psn(27 Jul, 2026)