Stamina unusual

 Stamina unusual 

During a month of brief stay at Raipur (at my dad's instance, to ‘work’ as a temporary clerk for a paltry pay of ₹150 😜. Room rent was ₹150 for that month & dad gave me money for 2 meals) in that branch under dad's control…. a typist got interested in me.

On a Saturday, he pushed his bicycle, walking along with me to my hotel room. We started talking spiritual bijness 😓.

On Monday morning we realised “hey, we gotta reach office today” he went home and told me later that his parents nearly informed police that he is missing (1974, no mobile etc). We both were surprised at each other's stamina 🤣. Non-stop marathon . I was surprised at his patience to listen, while he at my ability to keep bla-bla. 

Eight years later, he surprised me, appearing at Amravati at 2 pm on a Saturday. This time, i pushed my bicycle walking along with him to my room.

Non-stop till 11 pm night. He left for a night bus to Nagpur. While parting he said “I thought of impressing you with my additions in spiritual quest during past 8 years, when we discussed last at Raipur hotel. But I missed to think of your own evolvement in the meanwhile 😭. You have reached multifold than what you were last time. I can't dream of catching up with you Ever🙏. I won't try to meet you hereafter. My thirst is my fuel for my spiritual journey 🙏. Gratitude” . I didn't know what to say! I simply looked at him deep into his eyes 😥

I revere him for giving me a chance of “once in a lifetime”( or twice, maybe…) to meet a person who can sit and discuss with so much intensity, in a subject that average minds would run_away in 10 minutes 🤣🙏🙏🙏

I am sure, he would have made strides of progress🙏 ( no way to meet & confirm, and nothing to achieve by knowing it).

indefatigably yours,

psn (10 Aug, 2026)

PostScript: somewhere in 2004, i sat ( spine vertical) from 3 pm Saturday to 11 am Monday, for resolving the nagging and chronic unreconciled transactions at a branch of my office, non stop work, in the most boring area 😜. But I had a very unfair advantage of training in very intense spiritual practices which stretched into several days/ months😥. So this time, i was like “plugged to the existence” for backup energy 😜

Rishis

 Rishis 

I wasn't trying to 'brag' about Rishis. ( A close friend happened to quote a long history of Bharat during last 1000 years, where we YIELDED to all kinds of invasions and lost our glories. He said “no use of bragging about past rishis”)

I got a chance to review myself 🙏( Gratitude to my friend)

They (rishis)are an inalienable part of me 😭. I can't detach them from me even if I want 🙏

It makes sense to 'try' to understand a cancer cell in me, when I know that it has come to stay till i am alive 😓

A few guys( 'Rishis') have occupied my genes via lineage. My ancestors were benevolent enough to teach me to chant their names, just_in_case i really evolve enough to experience them in_me . The chant also happens to revive the 'humility' if any left in me , & accessible by me🤣.

So, I place both palms over my ears murmur my bio_data " abiVaadaye, rishi names, then gotra, sutra/formula of me, and lastly, my baptized name" and prostrate before that elderliness_wala, eight limbs touching the ground 🙏....

( I did yield to my eagerness to 'invoke' those rishis, when I was granted a OLT  Once_in_Life_Time --chance. During  Naandi shraadha on the Eve of  my son's thread ceremony!.... I am not disappointed 😞).

Even for 'bragging' one needs credible stuff. It's a choice between brooding over negative events of mega size in history and "using" the precious legacy bequeathed in multiple storage Devices by rishis, to attempt the highest human possibility 🙏

Rooted in rishis, yours,

psn(9 Aug 2026)

People building

 People building 

People building 

🤣

Henry Kaiser.

The image is of my notes, Copied from ‘Readers’ Digest’ by me on 4 Jan, 1972 …an article “unforgettable Henry Kaiser” by Leonard Lyons.

Henry ‘built’ people, among his staff and ‘dealt’ with negativity in his assistant for 50 years, turning it into a positivity for self 😂

I was impressed enough to write a it down (no pocket money or gadgets to copy it in an easier way 🙏).

A precious lesson for me 🙏 

Dealing with negativity in people around (very different from ‘tolerance__intolerance🙏).

Looking back at my 54 years since then, i feel ‘not bad at all’. 😜

Acceptably yours,
psn(9 Aug, 2026)

Talking about God

 Talking about “God”

Yes…. We also tend to talk “about” God 🤣 

I have utmost respect for those who pray to_God 🙏🙏🙏🙏 ( genuine ones choose not_to_talk About _God🙏… It's sacred for such genuine devotees, and therefore a personal matter)

I quote a “part” of a chat i received 🙏 ( this person is better open to a discussion, and hence, i feel persuaded to spend my energy to respond 😓. Having responded, why not expose myself to a greater vulnerability of criticism 😜???)

Quote:

[08/08, 8:54 am] that OpenMind: 

This is exactly what I thought. Did our rishis of yore believe in God. JK has mentioned in one of his talks. " I doubt if the Vedic rishis talked about God. In a response to a question "Why you do not talk about God?” 

JK said " You know everything about God hence I do not talk about the entity called God.”

UnQuote 

My response:

[08/08, 10:03 am] PSN: Rishis didn't 'need' to 'talk' about God ( the 'way' we guys have today decided to Ascribe a meaning this word God).

They said everything "about" God, all the time 😜.  ( I asked a "tamil" fan "can you name a distinction ABOUT tamil. Obviously you know Tamil 100 times better than me🙂. He blinked. I said "very safe for a lady to speak even at the advanced stage of pregnancy 🙏. No 'hard' consonants 🤣.  No strain on the uterus👍”)

About "God" 

rishis used very sophisticated symbolisms🙏 ( MahaVakyas top the list).

In vedic maths, a sutra is used without NEEDING an algebraic expression like " (x-a)(x-b)”, as a short_cut to multiply numerals 🙏. Rishis obviated "algebra" to Formulate theorems, formula etc 🙏 ( does it impress? 😳😥😥😥🙏 sophisticated level of symbolisms 😜). 

Marketing "God" as a belief has not worked for spiritual bijness. For a religion ( Religare) it is handy, to "keep the flock together"👍

How to use the "sense of discrimination" is the key to understanding the puzzle of "God'". This key was a compulsory subject in ancient gurukul, where a rishi was the sole teacher 😭. Today's syllabus in school, is 'waiting' for a text book to get published, only then a syllabus 🙏

UnQuote 

Vulnerably yours,

psn(8 Aug 2026)

Cost effectiveness

 Cost effectiveness

Not about the commercial aspect or profitability.

Yet, our minds( actually, the thoughts🙏) are too commercial 😜 (until 500 years ago, many things were free🙏. For all other life_forms, even today, it is free👍. We domesticate a few animals and therefore have to pay for its feed, not salary 😜)

The minimum charge( for me) for tap_water( supplied by the municipality) is ₹100. And the lowest ‘slab’ is ₹6 per 1000 litres. So, upto 16 kilolitres, I pay the minimum of ₹100

The joke : 

We are just 2 of us at home. We consume just 5000 litres of water a month ( My stupidity is, I keep using my two hands to wash my/our clothes, outsourcing it only once in 6 months to that machine, just to keep it in working condition 🙏)

1).  if…. my mind is highly_commercial, I would have “worked out” the cost per 1000 using what I ‘consume’... ₹20 per 1000. And my mind would ‘justify’ wasting another 11 KL saying ( any way I pay ₹100, till 16 KL👍)

2). If…on the other hand, I am an idiot, and therefore a non_commercial mind, I use a stupid justification 😭 “Money is mine, but the resources belong to the society”🙏. I shall never “want anything beyond my needs” 

Ofcourse, I am cursed/destined to be in the second type of minority guys. ( Electricity is free upto 200 units now. But I stick to my needs, which is 160 average. 2 summer_months, i touch 180 units. Winters need just 140.  Sewage is self managed within my compound, and I don't drain it in the open storm_drain meant for rain water. And so on….  

So,

My cost_effectiveness is ‘need_based’ not cost_based 😭

I also know the root cause of my malady😜. It's my spiritual bijness 😓. Inclusiveness is an imminent side_effect 😭….  A mom doesn't bother about the “cost” of blood she incurs, while her body processes it into mother's_milk for her baby.  That baby is a ‘part’ of her EXPERIENTIALLY 🙏

Okay,

What about the cost_effectiveness of the life_energy we spend allowing our minds to wander as it pleases ? ( No ‘yardstick’ as yet which we can buy “cost_effectively” to measure the wastage we incur in needless thought process 😓.) There is a method to make a rough guess😜. During deep sleep, which is lesser than entire sleep, due to intermittent REM_rapidEyeMovement, the mind STOPS spending energy. Mind feels fresh/well_rested after waking up.

Meditative practices allow us to ‘slip’ into a meditative_State, over a period of time 🙏. If it happens, a person can possibly find a ‘bank balance ‘ in his savings account ( draw anytime, unlike ‘Fixed_term deposit’ a sizable quantity of life_energy left at one's disposal 😜…  ( this paragraph is purely for information or entertainment, and readers are advised caution in trying it out, owing to the low percentage of success in true_meditation!  Side_benefits of attempt, however, pays for its commercial costs, in terms of medical expenses 🙏)

Genuine researchers might be slightly inclined to nod a ‘yes’ to my hypothesis about ‘mind expending the energy’ via its processor called brain_the_physical_organ…. And successful researchers will SURELY nod a yes, SIMPLY beCause they know how to allow their intellect to function 😜🙏. Intellect is a tool, to handle cost_effectiveness of minds expenditure. 

Economically yours,

psn(8 Aug, 2026)

Stature औक़ात

 Stature औक़ात 

We get noticed by our stature in the society today 🙏

Unless we get ‘noticed’ at least a bit, the fear of irrelevance haunts us ( mind game 😜)

Scam netas seek their relevance by disrupting the parliament session 😓

A parent, if really concerned about a dignified living of his child might ask his relevance as a fellow with some skill to eke out a livelihood 🙏 

(I ask very sharp questions to my son, at times 🤣 

" बाप हूं तेरा इसीलिए पूछ रहा हूं तेरे रोजी-रोटी का क्या फ्यूचर है?"

He : "एक बार पूछे तो पूछ लिए दोबारा मत पूछना..... मेरे जैसे सिर्फ 50 लोग जीवित है इस धरती पर फिलहाल, इस फील्ड में..... रोटी पक्का" 😜)

So, his livelihood is assured. 

If he attends a get-together of his school classmates after 56 years, like I did this summer, he has a stature/औकात to display 👍. I failed to quote a stature of mine among my classmates, though it did not matter to any of them 🙏

Whereas, in hell/जहन्नुम ( not heaven/जन्नत 🙏) i can manage a stature/औकात 😜 …. I will CopyPaste my blogs in the webpage there👍. I am certain of a better patronage than i can hope for on earth😓

( Hell….i say because….. modern guys look at “worst case scenario” on a daily basis 😜.

My blogs are redundant in heaven 😭).

Anyway, no regrets, because bulk of the spiritual guys in Bharat existed as non-entities/नाचीज़ 🤣🙏

Irrelevantly yours,

psn(6 Aug, 2026)

Narrow escape for me

 Narrow escape for me

Bulbs light up with a flicker when it rains ( loose connection in wire, and rain drops provide the Conduit)

A bloodsucking Leech is by no means a medical surgeon 🙏. But in the ancient days, it served as a conduit in the hands of an ayurvedic surgeon to operate an infected area of the patient, to remove the pus, bad blood etc with super_skill 😜

During the days of my peak spiritual practices, I inadvertently became a conduit in a computer ‘network’ where connectivity issues caused a temporary problem 😜.

The two instances were as mysterious for myself, as for my colleagues 🙏. 

1.The dumb terminal in cash cabin was not accessing the server ( computerized environment at my workplace).

The system incharge was frustrated, when he couldn't locate the mischief in the cables. The cashier, “sir ask PSN to just touch the computer. It might work”

I.T. boss : “ what nonsense are you talking? This is science based gadget, not a witchcraft or black magic based one”

Cashier: sir zero risk. Only 1 second. Why not try? Already getting late 😥 

I was allowed to touch. The damn thing worked 😭

2)A few days later same IT wizard, in his own cabin, struggling to access the remote server 1500 kms  away to retrieve an intra-office email for his boss (zonal manager), called me upstairs to his office “urgent. ZM is furious. Email is urgent. I am not able to ‘access’. Not that i ‘believe’ in gimmicks. But no harm in trying. Anyway i am working on it simultaneously 🙏”

This time, I became a bit annoyed too. In that mood I blurted “sir, i wont even ‘touch’ it physically. Please login with me sitting across the table. Let's see if it might work “

He logged in. Got the email 😜. He was in a hurry to tell the Zonal manager. I didn't mind being ignored 🙏. I am just a leech, a conduit at times 🙏. ( That was 2 decades ago. Now, I am a fused_bulb, retired inconsequential and an irrelevant non_entity 😜. Harmless to tell such fairy_tales. )

Those 2 connected incidents and a few more like that around me, were a narrow escape situations from being spotted as a conduit pipe 🙏

Conduit, yours,

psn(6 Aug 2026)

Post script: i very confidently place my palm on the others head, when a kid seeks ‘a ritualistic performance’ in the name of seeking blessings ( me an Oldie now😜). He bows and i touch. No surprises from that kid. 😂. 

No need to ‘seek’ any escape route in this process 🙏. Very rarely a kid is that_alert+that_aware. He has already pre-concluded “ i gonna get_done with this stupid ritual now😡”( a win_win situation for both👍🙏)

Soorya darshan

 Soorya darshan 

A circus with fingers, "integral" part of "initiation" into the mother_of_chhandass( otherwise, a Mantra for the normal chanting 😜)

I am able to do it at this age, thanks to the flexibility retained. 

A kid, pizza_fed couldn't do it during his initiation ( in 2007). The priest granted a concession " just place the palms alongside, peep through a gap at the Sun, and get_over_with_it"( only the fee mattered, not the purpose of the gimmicks 😜 and we seek spiritual evolvement through the ritual???)

It took me years to find out the possible_purpose😥🙏.  No way to know whether I strayed anywhere near its real_purpose 😓…

Meanwhile yours,

psn(4 Aug, 2026)

Preparation process

 Preparation process

How much preparation do we need for a journey, event, examination, interview, parenting, financial stability/crisis, learning, grasp, investigation, exploration, dishes for food, sports, court case, day's work (etc) .. endless list……and ending with ‘death’ 😜

100 metres journey, just the footwear & mobile. Phoren tour, VISA Etc. months ahead.

Sweat in peace than to bleed in war …. A preparation.

A story in my school taught me about the value of preparation 🙏 3 fishes in a pool—named future, present and past fishes. Mr future jumped out when he saw the water evaporating. Mr. Present barely managed a jump into the adjacent larger pool when water level was at level-surface. Mr(Late) past fish died when the water dried up.

At a spiritual program of 7 days residential one, we were asked to “prepare our body” to be able to squat for 6 to 8 hours at-a-stretch, without any discomfort of cramps, numbness etc ( the idea was to prepare so that ‘body is not a hurdle for a spiritual experience’. As long as we are ‘stuck’ in the body, zero scope for any spiritual experience 🙏).  We were given tools to prepare the body. 41 days, a body needs to adapt itself to any new style we decide upon, for the body ( Ayurveda). Thus, 2 sets of postures, each on alternate days, was the prescription. I had a weakness for preparing well😭. I practiced both sets daily twice 😜. That's a four_fold dosage. No regrets🙏. Body cooperated by “getting the Hell out of my way” for all the 7 days 👍. 

This ‘preparing well’ had a few irreversible side_effects in me😥.  I didn't ‘bother' to prepare at_all for academic exams, at 30 and 40 years of age( didn't mind failure). But results stunned me😳. The ‘toughest’ subject to score in law (jurisprudence) fetched me the highest marks among us. The computer course for ‘dumb’(1991, when it was a strange machine) fetched aggregate top with a unreasonable lead over the second highest ( zero preparation).

( I don't know, if….its a spill-over effect of preparing too-well for non-commercial aspects of life? 🙏😥. Muscle memory of body/brain-organ? . Who cares, as long as it a lottery ticket won 👍)

Today's mind isn't bothered about ‘death' despite the event being the ‘only' certainty in life😂. Ancients were wise about death, and prepared too well for it throughout their life 🙏. The longest journey (logically too) deserves the highest preparation. Our today's_mind tends to conclude “whatever we don't know, or if it is beyond our experience doesn't exist 👍”.  We know of local and general anesthesia.  Long term anesthesia for our life_energy ticking in us? It lives beyond our ‘clinical-death’ 😜. ( I should atleast ‘know' , when I am dead, that I am dead🙏😭. Sense organs gone. So, I practiced “death” meditation for 500+ times over 6 years, @ twice a week. That's something 🙏👍).

Preparedly yours,

psn(4 Aug 2026)

Superfluous bit : My stupidity works for me. I took inspiration from my spiritual Guru who dropped a mention causally (in 1992): “ i rehearse a hundred times still, before each class/session, though I have conducted these classes a hungred times already 🤣”. If he prepares so much, what am I?

Emotional blackmail

 Emotional blackmail 

🤣

Readers are not going to ask me “what's that?”

Yet, many are going to ‘wish’ they never have_to yield to it. ( I cannot escape the wrath of those few who are ‘gifted’ with the skill of using it like a brahmaAstra, an infallible weapon of epic story times 🙏)

Somehow, a ‘manufacturing defect’ crept into me😭.  I don't yield to emotional blackmail 😜. Another manufacturing defect which can be ‘safely’ tested+verified on me is : I don't succumb to a physical ‘tickling’ under my armpits 😂 ( only during my school days, I discovered this ‘defect’ in me). I don't know of any remedy/cure/defense against a formidable tickle by others, physically. But, I know that if someone desires to transcend the susceptibility to emotional blackmail, there's a way out. 🙏

We heard a saying “if you sighted a lightening, you have escaped from being struck by it”

I guess the same goes for emotional blackmail 🙏. If you can sense it, you can_have a ‘choice’ to escape it😜. Only that we need to work upon ourselves a little. Our emotional ‘weaknesses’ are the conduit for an emotional blackmail to strike us( not when emotions are our_strength 🙏).  The peak levels of emotional strength is when our ‘inclusiveness’ affords us a ‘living experience’ of the ancient phrase ‘VasudaivaKutumbakam’ 🙂🙏

Since I am also aware that most of us find “yielding to an emotional blackmail” as an excuse to justify our own emotional weaknesses, it is not going to be palatable to elaborate on even the ‘basics’ of overcoming either😜

I just thought of reminding ourselves of the threat from within our own people 🙏

Emotionally yours,

psn(3 Aug 2026)