Exceptions

 Exceptions

A concept, which never ceased to fascinate me, even as a kid.

As a fallout of this awe, I happened to develop a keen desire to deepen my perceptions to learn more and more about any exception that I notice in any walk of life.
Exception peaked when a Master said "there is no death for a person who lives in this moment!" Whhhat!!!! I got alerted.  No death anymore? Eternal? Chiranjeevi? That means the old guys(ancient rishis, enlightened ones, and the mentions by them in the scriptures) were right all along? 😥Something that is going to take a long time for me to grasp!

But small exceptions were easier to try 😂
Like....
Slicing a cluster of vegetables(especially leafy ones) with a sharp knife, without looking at the process. I need to just focus my mind better on the 'feel' of my fingers of both palms, SIMULTANEOUSLY, to improve their mutual coordination so well that... they become each other's eyes😂
I managed to type the data on a keyboard, without much errors, by looking at ONLY the source of the data (not on the keyboard, or the monitor !). This skill 'produced' another exception in me which I never really aspired for😂....  The officer at the 'data' centre (monitoring the data on Monitors at Head office) saw that 'exception' (hey! this guy is snatching one in every 15 transaction id's generated by the 'system!!!). He dug up more data about my user-id. I clocked thrice the average output by average data entry operators( all-India branches), and the 'rate' of errors was ridiculously low!!  He used the " ip" phone line (internet protocol line) to just know the stupid_name of this exceptional guy 😂(psn). I didn't accord much importance to his-discovery( 'hua tou hua' they say in Hindi).
Taking both hands off, while riding a bicycle is a very normal_exception. But it trains the mind to focus lot better. A new driver holds a 'rigid' and stiff face in a unruly traffic crowd😂 .  The stiffness of face isn't going to help him drive safer, only a better focus will!!!

I even experimented trying to be functionally_exceptional not as a 'freak' idiot always😂.
At my work place, 9 out of 12 clerks wished to avail leave (all were bachelors, 20--22 age), for 5 days, suffixing and prefixing a grand festival 'Diwali' (festival of lights). Our boss declined for a very valid reason. Each had a day's work attending to customers👍And, 3 guys can't handle the work of 12.  (at the most, 9 can 'share' the load of 3 absentees).  I took up the challenge. Planned a week ahead. Job-break-down concept (in 1978, this phrase "Job break down" wasn't popular in desi brains yet! It was crucial to ensure safeguards of the institution, while overlooking/by-passing the Standard-procedure of dealing with work. Shortcuts were needed, without diluting any safety concerns. A bunch of exceptions, were to be experimented 😂 We did it.  It became a memorable excercise. Those 3 (I was one of them) inadvertently tapped a hidden potential within!!!  I tracked the career of the other 2.  They did use their latent 'exceptional-skills' to become exceptional in the later decades😂( One thing i can say with confidence now, 2 decades post my retirement : If rules are understood deep enough, the doors to exceptions about adherence to those rules open up proportionately👍)

Getting enlightened, I was to discover, is the rarest of the rare exceptions😥
And, within those guys who 'become' exceptional, just 5% of the 5% who stay back alive. 'speak' about it😥

That reminds me to wind it up here, with a tragic observation : Spiritual evolvement used to be a very normal routine until a thousand years ago atleast, in Bharat. It is an exception today😭(a very discouraging exception)

unexceptionally yours,
psn(20th of May, 2026)

Intensely relaxed

 Intensely relaxed.

As briefly as i can, i have tried to place my experience of decades of physical aspect of my spiritual practices, as a key to growth and progress🙏

The word “intense” at once triggers tension in us 😂. That's because of the consequences of today's life situation we face routinely. Psychologically we are enslaved to combining tension with intensity, and have ended up with a disability in separating the two. Unless we become tensed-up we don't become intense. When we are relaxed, we are dull, inattentive and non-alert. 

Spiritual practices yield results in proportion to the level of intensity of our alertness, attentiveness and an utterly relaxed mind. Unless the mind is relaxed( calm and still) the organ brain and its obedient neuro_network is not going to obviate tension at physical levels. Even the subtlest tension opaque the subtle inner experience. No wonder, the most_relaxed posture in “yog” asanas is aptly named as “Corpse posture” 🤣. A corpse offers no resistance at all, and therefore manages total relaxation 😜. 

I need not attempt here to elaborate on the practices or the ‘practical tips/hints’ about how_to master this intense_relaxation. The functional form differs with each individual, simply because no two minds are alike😜. We create an entire World of our own, with our mind which is unique in itself 🙂.

A grasp of this concept, might help us to extract maximum yield out of all the practices we undertake on a spiritual path.

For those who are not yet ready for a spiritual quest, this concept, if tested and tried, will help maximize the results of their efforts invested in handling the Material aspect of life. ( Easiest example is, an utterly relaxed mind ensures peak performance of a sportsperson in the world_finals of his sport. Any tension in the mind reduces one's own capabilities proportionately. A sport loses its purpose with a tensed mind😜. And a world_finals is a recipe for tensed mind 🙏)

Inte_Restingly yours,

psn(17 May, 2026)

What irks a reader

 What irks a reader?

If, the reader's mind has calmed down to become receptive, the answer is ridiculously simple🙂 “readers own mind decided to become irked” 😜

Stubborn kids in school decide within “come on, let me see how you are going to ‘teach’ me? I shall Refuse to learn👍. Do what you like 😜”( it is the school teacher who gets irked by the stubbornness of that kid, not the kid!)

Readers realise, something they ought_to_have tried to imbibe/could_have imbibed, while reading a preachy stuff especially 😜…. And the ego gets hurt 😥. Defensiveness pops up by default. This defensiveness knows “this is indefensible” and yet persists recalling stupid excuses🤣. The innocent, well meant writeup faces the negative vibes, for no fault of its own!( Doctors are clever with their words🙏. They never poke into the ego with “you were careless with your health” and similar sounding words👍… they just “stick” to bijness, and prescribe relief, not_cure. It is the body, which struggles to Cure, because nature has zero ego😥

If the foregoing is acceptable, how to find a ‘real’ Guru is a futile search 😜. Out of 6 desi types of teachers, the Guru is different from the rest of 5 in one aspect —-he decides upon a receptive disciple 😥🙏. He knows what it takes for a seeker to experience within the non_verbal thirst for seeking the unknowable( logically 😜). 

There could be scoundrels ( benign & malefic, like tumors 😥) who might provoke a seeking in a disinterested person and vanish from the scene, where a Guru takes over. ( I know the pain and suffering of playing a benign_scoundrel 😜🙏, by sheer experience! It is only now, after 3 decades of playing a villain, age has helped me to done down my villainy in me😭. “The spirit is willing (to be a villain), but the body is weak.

After nearly 7 years of hectic volunteering ( hidden agenda had always been to cause unrest in my innocent victims,)...i decided to write, with more focus on irksome cluster of words, for the same purpose —disturb a reader out of his comfort zone.  Exceptions in the readers were very rare, and only one reader decided to respond about his experience, taking 5 years to overcome his hesitation, apprehending that i may not believe his experience due to reading & retesting the nuisance caused by a blog ( “breaking point”) 😂. The name itself is honest🙏. The blog, if taken a bit seriously, is vulnerable to drive the reader to his ‘breaking point”. Only 1 reader got victimized 😭. No regrets👍. I didn't disclose the name of one the coveted ‘states_of-Being’ in reply to his private mail, in keeping with the rules of Yogic tradition. I merely said “i can relate your experience with my own, and hence can ‘believe’ you🤣”. He radiating joyous_gratitude in his ‘revelation’ of inner experience 🙏. I thanked Maya_Madam for her mischief through me😔.

I have tried my best to tone down the ‘hurt’ through my words( words don't injure. Hurt is our own Manufacturing 😜). 

Villainously yours,

psn(16 May 2026)

Post script:

Statistics is used more to tell convincing_lies😜( media guys mint money)

I am a pathetic disaster, statistically. Only 1 recorded ‘hit’ in my 1000 blogs, and 2 L hits on blog_page( Google says 2L).

Paradoxically, Masters would ( i am almost sure) exclaim 😡 “Whhhat? This pint_sized guy got a hit??? Unbelievable!” And i might retort quoting “agar khuda meherbaan, tou gadha pehelwan👍”... God benevolence makes a donkey into a winning wrestler…..😜

Recognition, cognizable, cognizance

 Recognition, cognizable, cognizance 

For my entire kid age, I was recognised as an idiot by the bulk of my relatives, as elders around me 😂 ( Best part is, i never attempted to ‘reform’ myself from my idiosyncrasies. In fact, i accelerated my idiotic nature after 1992, when some Master taught me spiritual tools🙏).

We depend on something within us, to recognise things and others…isn't it? We teach kids to recognise the shape of letters and its corresponding sound forms, so that the kid grows familiar with a commonality called ‘language'. Use of gadgets, recognising the latent ‘resistance’ in it, we learn + teach those who seek to learn from us!

What do we ‘look’ for in the humans? ( Divorce rate is increasing incredibly 🙏…. Mutual Compatibility depends heavily on recognising the level of ‘flexibility' in our ‘Saha-vaasis’/co-habitants’ 🙂,. Other wise, they seem Durvasa/inCoHabitable for us. Sage Durvasa was famous for nuisance value only( when his intrinsic worth which was in CONFORMITY with Cosmic laws/sanatan Dharma, remained inconspicuous to people around him even ‘then’😜.  Ability to recognise a person has always been an issue since times immemorial 🙏

Real life example: My son, compuLiterate unlike me, worked for a multinational software firm which designed software only for in-house needs( 19 of their global entities, engaging a thousand plus experts from best colleges and toppers. Obviously the CTC/salary was always twice the market rate, and annual hikes around 30% for performers. Convincing? Well, this firm assigned a software development to my son, designed to “recognise talents, from unconventional+unrelated areas of human activity” 😜🙏. Impressed? If not, dump this narrative 🙏….  The software worked👍. Something that globally acclaimed head_hunters can only ‘envy’. 🙂  ( To me, the entire ‘structure’ of the design likened with the methodology deployed by ancient Gurus who used ‘mystic’ tools to spot their potential candidate/disciple for tutelage under them in spiritual bijness 😜🙏)

By now, i am quite familiar with the tools used by others around me, in evaluating my worth….😜

If i failed to notch on their_yardsticks, i would struggle to survive amid them🙏.

Fortunately, I have a serious drawback/defect/lacking/weakness/deficiency/whatever 😥….   My wants and desires failed miserably to reach even the average ‘needs’ of a normal human being, by today's standards/parameters 😭🙏.  The negative advantage of this shortcoming is, their ‘ratings’ about me doesn't matter for my peaceful survival 😜

( Personally, and privately, what mattered more to me was, i get recognised by Masters, with and without their mortal frame🙏.  While i have no means of knowing about bodiless guys interested in me, my experience holds good about mystics i keep bumping into too often right from my kid age i remember of👍👍)

As an incidental byproduct, the tools that come handy to cognize using the 5 senses of perception and also the perception beyond, got within my range of recognition by_me. 

I cheerfully bow, with utmost gratitude to ALL those who labelled me as an idiot👍… ( Ashtavakra too, might have felt similarly grateful for his nomenclature, and several times more intensely than me🙏, when he authored a version of Gita, by his own name, matched by none_else👍. Eight_deformities wala, is his name 😜🙏🙏)

Deformed, yours,

psn (9 May, 2026)

Cosmic laws

 Cosmic laws 

I don't possess the necessary competence to expound the concepts involving cosmic laws 🙏

But, this much sense dawned into me, to understand experiencially, that i am an inalienable part of it 😜( gratitude to my spiritual journey thus far😥).

Do we need_at_all,  a ‘lecture’ on cosmic-laws? Not at all. Please continue oblivious to the existence of the cosmic laws 😜. It's a choice that ‘only’ humans can make🙏…..   

“Human is a being of Volitional Consciousness” ( this jargon appeals better than the desi version ‘buddhi_jeevi’ 😜.  Swa_bodh, mallus say ‘bodhavaan’...etc)

Planet earth. Over the recent 2 centuries, have we made it ‘more’ habitable or lesser? Isn't it our choices that made the difference? There could be habitable planets somewhere in the galaxy or universe, retaining its habitable_worthiness since millennia. Oops! Earth was also made ‘better place’ than what it was, by humans, until few centuries ago!... Especially the bullock_cart fellows of Bharat, evolving into their grasp of Cosmic laws since a few thousand years 🙏. 

Nobody is exempt from the Constitution called cosmic laws ( just as Indian constitution is supreme among all other enactments.  Indians ‘can’ create a constitutional_crisis😜… Often it is politicians who manage to create such crisis. ) …. When humans choose a thought, word or deed which is in contravention of cosmic laws, no police or judiciary is necessary to implement a corrective action 😜. Cosmic laws are capable by themselves! 

My experience is, i experienced joyousness ‘in proportion to the extent that I understood cosmic laws experientially’ 🙏… 

One of my silly koschan was “how is it that Mega villains in our Desi epics got moksha? Whereas, their victims were left in the ‘lurch’??? 😜…. Not quite easy to reach the exact_answer, which is in CONformity with cosmic laws 😜🙏. A pravachan/lecture expert might do a patch work trying to justify saying “well, the villains were undergoing a curse, otherwise….they were divine gatekeepers of Lord Vishnu👍”... Not quite 🙏… Cosmic laws don't exempt even Vishnu 😳, forget his “gate’-keeper😜… epics are flawless, and cosmos_scientific/universe_scientific 🙏

Now, if the reader is still tolerant to read this_far, I can wind up quoting a reference to “4 declaratory truths/MahaVakyas “🙏. Experience of these 4 is enough to know cosmic laws, and after knowing which, nothing else is needed to be known 😜( Howzzat?)

A speck of cosmos, 

And volitionanally yours,

psn ( 9 May, 2026)

Confession:

Please feel free to criticize me, if you feel that i am wrong in giving a desi name to cosmic laws as “sanatan dharma”( i love to be corrected, and with humility & gratitude.) Even if readers spare me, cosmic laws won't, if i am at fault 😭….. dat’s what karma is all about 😜🙏

Use of Discrimination

 Use of Discrimination(not recommended for reading casually)

Nearest Hindi word i came across is ‘ViBhed’ ( mallus i think say “vivechanam”)

My wild imagination:

Scene 1) i am a student of psychology. I shot a koschan to the professor ( who also teaches to PhD kids) : “Sir, how to diagnose and treat with a patient who complains inability to invoke his intellect, there preventing the use of his own embedded software known as ‘Sense of Discrimination’?”

If i cook up for a possible reply by my imaginary professor, i would incur the wrath of a psycho_prof reading it. ( I don't even know if intellect and use_of_didcrimination is a part of regular & mandatory syllabus ( maybe an elective for doctoral & without a mentor 😳

Scene 2) i am a student of Gurukul 4000 years ago, and i ask “guruji, how does vibhed buddhi get invoked at will & CONSCIOUSLY?”

Guru smiles and quotes : “ataha yogaanusgasanam, yogasChittavruttiNirodaha” 

(please note, i dare say: “whether Patanjali existed or not at that point of ‘time’. Because, a Guru transcends limitations of time”.      😜😜😜 proof? Ask Valmiki, who scripted Ramayana before it happened 🙏😥😥😥)

( Why this ‘Non_sensical blog occurred in me?”...

Well, i noticed that brain as a functional organ is indispensable for the sense of Discrimination to be ‘used’ by the faculty called ‘intellect’.  A guess work: we have no steering wheel inside our dreams. Brain responds only partially ….like, when we wet our bed cover due_to_a_dream, as an emotional response or an interference by the bladder which couldn't ‘hold it any longer’...

When memory is predominantly steering the dream, i am unable to ask my dad during the time i am inside the dream ”hey dad, you were already dead decades ago? How come you popped-up now???”

It ought to be the Discrimination_deficit which prevented Sir Newton from wondering something like :” okay, apple falls due to gravity, but why the_hell is the apple_tree defying gravity and growing vertically upwards???”.  I hold no animosity towards any scientific mind 🙏🙏🙏…. Just that the desi_spirituality is a chronic ailment afflicted in me😭)

Indiscriminately yours,

psn( 7 May, 2026)

A googly : ( 😜🤣😥🙏)

Mr Chandrakant jain, when an ordinary youth, got tickled by his sense_of_discrimination while listening to a lecture on meditation by a Big Godman, addressing a large audience 🙏… None others had this problem, which Chandrakant had🙏… Hence, Chandrakant climbed up to the dias, whispered a question to the speaker in to his ears “sir, do you have experience of the meditative state that you are lecturing about?”( Not interruption to the lecture….    only during an interval, this whisper)

That Godman looked into the eyes of this stranger, decided upon an honest reply “No….but this lecture is my bread&butter. Please don't destroy my livelihood”.

Jain wasn't an egoist . He let off that Godman. But jain didn't let_go his question 😜..  the search led him to be known as “Acharya Rajneesh” and later as a global “Osho” 😜🙏🙏)

I started looking for streaks of Discrimination being used by peepals around me, since kid age😥😥 ( by now, you can guess why i said ‘streaks’  😜🙏)

A bogus story:

I love bogus stories, as long as i learn concepts 🙏

A woodcutter was shown 3 axes by river goddess, golden, silver and then wooden and asked if it was his, which fell into the river….. He said ‘no’ to gold and silver, and yes, to his wooden axe. Goddess pleased with with him, gifted the golden & silver while returning own wooden to that guy.

Another cunning woodcutter decided to “Scam” this 😜.  Scamster failed to visualise that “goddesses” use Discrimination by_default😜. Sequence repeated. Cunning fellow nodded ‘yes’ to wooden as 3rd choice asked. Goddess gave the wooden and vanished😜. Scams work only on idiots like me, not god's or goddesses🤣

Summary of my life

 Summary of my life 

2 May, 2026

 Enduro mahanu bhavulu

Around us 🙂

A good number are inconspicuous too 😥

I tried to look at myself, my efforts to evolve, starting from where I am right now😥 (obviously, i am far-far behind all the great beings i bumped into 🙏.)

And therefore, value-addition for myself, out of confronting any+all those who are Greater than me, became my priority. 

Over the decades of such pursuit and perseverance, I can tell myself "not bad yaar👍😜".... Now, age is claiming me to be handed over back to nature, into its recycle bin 🤣. And, on an as_is_where_is basis( like Govt tenders for sale of scraped vehicles 😜🙏)

psn

2 May, 2026

Hinduism

 Hinduism 

1 may 2026

A classmate forwarded a video clip narrating the “tree of scriptures” in Hinduism to dispel the popular misconception that Gita is to Hinduism like bible is for Christianity, Quran is for islam, etc….

I wrote:

[01/05, 1:06 pm] PSN: Last sentence, i agree in exclusivity of the foregoing.

"Map" .... ये एक दम सच है 🙏 

In fact, entire "tree" is a 2-in-1....

Roadmap or milestone.

बीच महासागर में ( pacific ocean) without any compass , can we swim/row a small boat to reach "some" shore?

On land, middle of sahara desert, which direction will we walk?

Yes, sun and its direction can guide in ocean/desert। 

In Hinduism, the "ULTIMATE" aim is not_Godजी 😜

Moksha is the ultimate 🙏( अगर ये सच है...... Litmus test is crucial for मोक्ष 🙏)

Litmus test= EXPERIENCE of the 4 MahaVakyas 🙏

If, these 4 are an experience, that person can throw away all the books(tree का list)

The entire tree( scriptures), all the lakhs of temples( Gurudwara, jain, buddhist, mutts/मठ including) are mere tools😂।

ये "tree" का list देखकर डरने की जरूरत नहीं है 😜 

जीवन शैली ही काफी है, मोक्ष के लिए ( bulk of enlightened ones in Bharat were non-brahmins 🤣... Bulk of scriptures were authored by non-brahmins🙏. "Ved"vyas was born of a fisherwoman. Valmiki was a tribal dacoit. Vishwamitra was a king....endless list!

Brahmins used to "read" scriptures, in order to "become" like Google_search, for all others. In order to avoid greed, ego, etc they took a मन्नत/vow, "भीख मांग कर ही खायेंगे" They became mobile roadMap-milestone for entire society 🙏 ( respect for such truly_sacrificing brahmin was automatic/unsolicited 🙏. मैं सिर्फ़ एक चोर-बोम्मन हूं 😜)

True meaning of Sanatan Dharma: Universal law

Sanatan= times immemorial ( before humans existed🙏 scriptures का सवाल ही नहीं 😜)

धर्म is law( nearest English word )

We are a recycled product of countless cause&effect in the universe/ब्रह्मांड 🙏। Hence, adherence to *_cosmic laws_* or सनातन धर्म is the ONLY "route" to salvation/moksha।

मोह का क्षय होना= मोक्ष 😜

I welcome to be corrected with all the humility possible in me( क्योंकि, मेरा भी उद्देश्य मोक्ष ही है, तर्क जीतना नहीं 😜😜😜🙏🙏🙏)

[01/05, 1:11 pm] PSN: Even by chance 

somebody becomes a तलबगार to this "tree" description..... nothing is wrong/lost. सिर्फ उठापटक थोड़ा ज्यादा करके, same मोक्ष 😜..... ( Reason = scriptures are in Sanskrit 🙏. Nature of sanskrit is unique & different from all man-made languages 🙏😜. Self_corrective factors in sanskrit makes/renders it into a powerful tool 🙏 )

Spiritually yours

psn(1 May, 2026)