Sources of input, forces data integrity

 Sources of input, forces data integrity

Apologies, if a reader dropped here to data-mine digital technology related concepts 🙏 ( I merely borrowed ‘terms’ that find an instant appeal to present day's ‘hell bent on logic only’ kind of mind😜)

Until even 75 years ago, kids grew up like a frog_in_a_well, as far as sources of info is concerned. (For example, my sister, when in kindergarten, 1959 or so… chanted “waachaa” in a nursery rhyme she learnt. Dad is the only competent ‘authority' to question anything related to ‘English’😂. He needed 5 minutes to ‘decipher’ it as ‘water’ not ‘waachaa’. That teecha/teacher had a temporary problem in speaking clearly). 

Kids didn't need external-insulation(Limited locations of sources of input).

Therefore, the traditional & internal filter seemed redundant 😭

Suddenly, the sources of input expanded ‘3-D’ 😜(crowds around, internet, TV, etc).

The technology involved for internal filters got buried by now.

Insulation from external sources became impractical ( too many holes in the umbrella 😥. Can't ‘avoid' getting wet 😜).

Only 2 options to keep a ‘mind’ healthy 😜. 1)insulate the mind 2)install a powerful filter. Neither options are viable today 😂

The need to install filters is ‘indispensible’

The functional ‘format’ and design of the filter is too complex now, because kids simply inherit overdose of Logic 🤣. Algorithms of logic cannot contain the codes required to process trust 🙏.

How ‘much’ of logic_oriented_codes can a ‘kid's tiny brain’  process????  (How to install an app called “trust” is out_of_syllabus in the textbook of today's-parenting 😜…   meanwhile, the commercial world is hell_bent on spreading mutual_MISTRUST 😥. Like,  Co_pilot suddenly turned out a ‘threat’ to 174 elite passengers of a large commercial aeroplane 🙏😭). 

Building a super_strong (digital Fortress) of self_updating fail-safe & bug-proof logic-based software, to be installed in a human brain…  easy???🤔 ( kids of genZ are swaying/oscillating 🙏😥)

Understanding the ‘problem' is the problem/diagnosis.  Accepting its complexity is the next level of the problem. Finding/figuring out or…outsourcing a solution is the next stage. Compatibility with a logically-confused kids brain is a mega project with unreasonably_short deadlines (lifeLine?? dunno!).

Spiritual bijness focuses on emotional evolution 🙏.  Not a rocket science 🙏. Test check this : Logic divides. Emotions unite. (That simple 😜).

Emotionally networked, yours,

psn(12 Oct, 2026)

A MasterChef’s real headache

 A MasterChef’s real headache.

It's not about his skills. Not about shortages in utensils, spices, or raw ingredients 🙏

It's the level of insensitivity of the taste buds of the fellow who is going to approve his culinary skills 😭. 

Luckily, I am kept away from kitchen ( that's the rule in South Indian kitchen 🙏😥. Females seek to retain their relevance, only by banning the male from filling even a “purely temporary vacancy”😜).

Had I been asked to participate in a cookery contest, for sure, I will INSIST on a certificate, signed not earlier than 1 hour, by 2 specialist doctors —tongue specialist & a neurologist 👍.   A coated tongue can ‘feel' only the hot spicy 🔥. A defective neuro network can't maintain “data integrity” of messages from taste buds to the organ brain. ( Please ‘think’ of the precarious fate of a MasterChef who is an expert in conveying “sensuality” through his dishes, much to the embarrassment of famous lovers, who can bewitch, planting a kiss!!! Taste buds ‘need' sensitivity 🙏).

A very mild entrance exam ( unlike the NEET) for a new bride is when the mom-in-law suggests “dear child, please add salt to the sliced ash gourd cooking on the stove”(that dish has no spice, not even water😥. Salt makes it release the water needed. Among spices meant for ‘taste buds’ salt is the trickiest. And as a sole participant in the dish called “Olan” salt is a dictator 😜.  

I am incompetent to talk about kitchen wizards in cold places🙏.

But, at warmer places, Kerala specialises the-most in pampering the MOST sensitive taste buds 🙏. As we travel north, spices get intense😥. Punjab doesn't need hot pickles at all,😜. Main dishes feel like pickles. In the middle east, the main Judge between the 2- judge-bench( taste buds & nostrils) is the ‘nose’. Spices exuding fragrance wins the contest, not the ones pampering the taste buds.

Kerala ‘deals’ with even the nervous system of vegetables and fruits 😥. Ancient guys name the day(like 7th day) of watering, ( of a particular banana) missed by the gardner. Rings around the main spine of fruit store the ‘data’ of nutrients pumped-up date_wise 😜. Tastebuds need sensitivity 🙏.

Cocoanut tastes very differently when grated, chopped, sliced, ground, pulverized or ‘burnt’ partially 😥.  Traditional Chef-experts display their mathematical_skills in each of these 6 ways of using coconut kernel, in permutations and combinations of other spices, vegetables and ‘stages of cooking’. Mind-blowing number of possibilities.  I struggled perfecting the plain “chutta chammandee” to my satisfaction 😜. ( I don't OUTSOURCE the test by tastebuds 😥. Mine work well, at 70+ still). Chutta chammandee is coconut pieces burnt on wood flame, and ground on stone and pestle, manually with few spices added patiently,  stage wise. 

Kerala specialises in intricacy at subtlety 😜.  Jaggery and ghee( clarified butter) need to hold hands all_the_while, and walk into the ‘core’ of the rice grain which is just puffed up while being cooked, waiting to be fully cooked. These two guys wait in the core of the cooked rice grain till the bite releases them, only to be instantly grabbed by the tastebuds of the diner. Next millisecond, the saliva intrudes to dilute the flavour 😭🙏. This dish is a sweet porridge “nei payasam” and a prestigious ‘offering’ at temples consecrated with mega_sophistication called “Tantra”, a combo of yantra & mantra. Imagine, when a wizard among tantric priests deploys his spiritual powers alongside his MasterChef expertise in a nei_payasam, and energises it invoking the energies from the consecrated deity, and allows the devotees to enrich their body and spirit as neivedya-prasadam 🤣🙏🙏🙏. ( Today, all these aspects are diluted, when the mind becomes hell_bent on patronizing only commercial thoughts 🙏.

As if to complicate the cooking skills further(😭), Kerala specializes in forging unique alloys of 3 to 5 metals, to be used for ‘special’ dishes. Few radioactive substances which got heated at 3000°c in the belly of earth for centuries, spewed out, cooled and became porous red mud-rocks. These radioactive substances became “embedded software” when the mud was used to shape the alloy vessels of brittle and heavy type(bell metal).  Food cooked in such traditional vessels borrow microscopic bits of radioactive substances too! 😥.  I don't know if the neuro-network can ignore completely the effects of radioactive substances, while transmitting taste-data from the tastebuds to the brain 🤣

Well, that was my crazy view point of cooking skills around the place which nourished me 🙏 

Tastily yours,

psn(10 Oct 2026)

PostScript: a private secret .... I managed making a masala with 36 ingredients, twice in my life ( successful both times🙏), and took 6+ hours of manual grinding on stone and pestle each time 😥. Pure magic, when 6 of the ingredients, when ground have only a week's shelf life maximum, but held on for 6 months, in fridge, the taste increasing with time! But my helper was my sister, who is no more 🙏. And masala ain't my bijness 😜

Hiding affection, as a Tool

 Hiding affection, as a Tool

Funny, isn't it?

Especially when the modern trend is to display it glaringly, with a SPLURGE of money, if that person is unsure of the genuiness of one's own affection towards the other( own kid's 😜).

Epic stories convey the concept of ‘hiding affection’ liberally 😜

Ramayana, krishna_avatar( not Mahabharata war), are classic examples where the hero has tons of affection for the ‘villain’ and hides the affection till the last breath of the villain_raakshasa( after_all the villain is a permanent “security staff” of Vishnu… dwaaraPaalaka 😜).

Slightly lower level example is of an enlightened Master 🙏 ( Outwardly ‘merciless’ towards own dear disciple! Master even reincarnates to deploy his powerful tool of MercilessNess to his ‘most’ blue_eyed/dearest disciple😜.  I had a ‘taste’ of this ‘cruelty’ between aug-1992 and Dec 1994😭. After that I was ‘let-off’ to Yenjoy_Life 😜👍).

Hindu way of life….

Hiding affection was the sole privilege of dads, until a century ago 🙏. Moms choose it wisely, only if the situation warrants. Sacred reason= mom has a greater responsibility of imparting the ‘knowledge’ related to ‘equipoise of Emotions’ 🙏. A male isn't designed to impart this_one_skill, adequately enough 🙏, an evolved guy gains the competence, but turns into a Guru, from a biological_dad wala status😥

Genuine teachers of today are under severe constraints of needing to “wait” until the student surrenders explicitly, saying “do what you like with me, but Please mould me into an evolved one🙏” . ( I learnt that this kind of a student is rare and 4th kind of a ‘broad’ classification of types of students 😜).

Stray cases of ‘rags to riches’ via honest hard work, are examples of another similar concept : “any kind of refinement necessarily envisages some kind of self imposed restriction” ( ain't it sounding like: hiding own affection unto oneself?😜)

Allergically yours,

psn(10 Oct, 2026)

Beggar technology

 Beggar technology 

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[10/10, 7:00 am] PSN: A friend said "future is still not very Safe!"

I tried to console with realistic reasons 🙏

"Even my own "future" is never 'safe'.

Uncertainty is the thrill of life 🙏. ( We 'enjoy' suspense, thrill, and 'tough' situation in movies, calling it "super movie" , but in our life, we keep seeking safety, insulation, and insurance 🤣.)

After leaving the body, 'future' is pucca 👍 ( whichever direction it is).

It is our "choices" that cause the uncertainty 🙏. How to choose, depends on the level of refinement of our sense of discrimination 🙏. (Duty is towards those who are our responseAbility, usually the offsprings 🙏).  

Unlike in movies, a successful and happy ending doesn't matter 😜. Doing our_best is the only criteria for pass/fail 👍"

[10/10, 7:13 am] PSN: मेरे खुद के वंशज (lineage) का ही बात ले लो 🙏

"क्या होगा मेरे बाद आने वाले मेरे पीढिय़ों का?" 

"वो भी मेरे और मेरे पूर्वजों जैसे भीख मंगे ही होंगे,  और क्या? 😜" ( पक्का है 🙏)

This 'certainty' sustained for thousands of years. It served the spiritual bijness of the entire society 🙏. 40% GDP was only an incidental byproduct 😭, not something chased_after. Things changed when choices of the "Lineage of traditional Beggars shifted towards paisa" 🤣. Whatever 'else' we try, only this alone will work 🙏

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Right from my kid age, I felt isolated to figure it out by myself alone, about why begging was prescribed by my ancestors of my lineage? It sustained for thousands of years 😥.  Things changed only after the British invaded India in several ways—economy, education, spirituality and religious ways broadly.  Enacted laws replaced the mutual-trust we depended upon for thousands of years 😭. The worst kind of invasion was into our mutual trust. 

After I bumped into a realised teacher in 1992, the pieces of jig_saw puzzle fell into its ‘places’ 🤣 

No more doubts and questions 🙏

 

Bhiksha( begging) &

Bhikshuk ( beggary) is a powerful tool, especially after the body is well prepared to transcend the physical needs designed by nature. 

Awesome software by the ancients. 😜

The most_irritating+frustrating puzzle is “when a human birth is itself a divine blessing, to be born into a lineage of Traditional beggars is the highest form of good fortune among the luckiest of life forms”  ( modern logical minds have decisively abandoned this concept 🙏. Utter nonsense, says the logical_reasoning.).

The joke is, the present PM( NarenBhai) did make a mention of the conceptual_form of begging, fakeeree ( in Hindi)😜.   He is a bit ‘clever’ in adhering to the tradition of subtlety in giving only a ‘hint’ about spiritual bijness 🙏🙏🙏. I am FULL of admiration for the hidden_Yogi in him🙏🙏🙏. His latent spiritual power is UNAVAILABLE to the opposition, to even ‘sight’ it (नज़रिया/perception deficiency 😭 . Even AI can't see it 🙏). I happened to get a ‘freak’ glimpse of it because I slogged for decades 🙏. 

Spiritual bijness is a subject matter of SOLICITATION  (a milder form is in the disclaimer advertised by insurance company guys “insurance is a subject matter of solicitation”... A legal jacket, bullet-proof 😜)

Unsolicitedly yours (😭),

psn 10 Oct, 2026

A ‘praise’ misunderstood

 A ‘praise’ misunderstood 

I received the following message recently.

It is obvious, that the sender felt the act of my ‘praising' a third person was an excess-in_futility : 

"excess praise of individuals—no matter how articulate—does not change the ground reality or move us closer to the finish line" (is the main theme of that lengthier message…  other details are personal & private, and I look objectively here, not subjectively. )

😂

This applies at every temple in Bharat 🙏.

Since thousands of years, people even "specialise" in 'praising' God/Goddesses😓

Those who sceptical inwardly ( outwardly like a 'religious' guy), also feel "nothing changes in ground reality" 🤣

If, praising "God"  is fruitless, how can me, a non_entity/नाचीज़, praising another human being who is better than many like me around, change the destiny????   Very true 🙏 

Then, why do we praise at all,  others?( Forget about 'excess' since there are no physical yardstick 😓..  paises can either be genuine or bogus, as far as I know 🙏)

Tragically enough, I not only spent most of my 6+ decades pursuing spirituality, but also tried at volunteering for freshers, for 7 years or so, as a part of a structured design ( privately and indivually, i still do 😥). The tragic part ---- sitting eyes  closed ( they call it meditation) or _*doing 'excessively'  a stupid thing like 'watching breath'*_ has NOT CHANGED THE GROUND REALITY for the bulk majority of the practitioners 😭... ( I have 'seen' this live. Most of us are shy of openly admitting it, that's all ). My personal_tragedy now.... is : I shouldn't 'praise' a guy, who is 'seen' progressing well in the spiritual practices 😭. Praise is counter-productive on a spiritual journey 🙏. Imagine my plight of being disallowed to praise "mildly" when a tiny progress is so rare 😜🙏

Somebody did a great job at analysis, when too many factors are involved. Yet some other guy was a bit lucky to 'trace' the path_of_analysis of this person, and merely acknowledged the efforts.   It does-look-like an excessive praise 🤣, to a casual eye, when that eye is focused more on FAVOURABLE_results_only, not bothered to look deep enough at the effort to make it favourable.

Earlier ships had large 'sails'. Sailing was a long wait "till the winds are favourable"

Later, the technology evolved "multi_sail_ships" 🙏. No matter 'which way the wind blows, the ship will move and ONLY in the desired direction'.  A co-passenger is 'right' and has the 'right' of freedom of speech, to call my_praise for the guy who thought of multi-sails idea, as a "waste"🤣. No "law" to compel everyone to 'trace' the path of the intellect of any innovator 🙏🙏🙏😥.

( Today, even the gimmicks related to the reason of wearing a holy thread, upaNayanam... namely the articulation and gesticulation ... is not 'yielding' any ground_reality_experience 😭🙏🙏🙏.  I am a mad_nut 😜. I pursued to know the secret of it, the subtle level experience 🙏...... I praise the ancient Rishis silently within 🙏, because it will needlessly irritate others, on WhatsApp.

Silently yours,

psn(9 oct 2026)

How flexibility works for me

 How flexibility works for me 

The whole idea of my writing these blogs is to share my experience 🙏

Digital technology ought to be made use of, to my best possible. 

A spiritual master advised me “we can use only the experience of others, not their wisdom ‘. I got it 👍. Wisdom is hack-proof, even under the influence of drugs used for ”Narco analysis” 😜

I observed that, the gadgets we use need “some kind of resistance” which we designed for use! And humans need flexibility to get things done favourably under a given situation 😓 ( Example: In the movie “36th chamber of shaolin”, the newcomer is not flexible enough to quickly jump over a floating log, without getting wet 😜. He trains his body & mind to suit the situation “) 

I really don't know why or how the flexibility of mind crept into me (even when a kid)🙏.   I was normal in most of the situations, and onlookers would infer according to their rigidities 😂.  A classical example was, bulk of my elders at home concluded my visible form of flexibility as “an idiot who can't assert even his own basic rights”(consequentially, I was looked at as a dumb fool as well👍, who can be kicked about like a football. It didn't matter to me, because I was guided by ‘another’ concept : only in the human species, each individual varies too widely in their mutual relationship & behaviour 😥🙏. I needn't react every time. I can respond if possible). After I could stand on ‘my own 2 legs” I got drifted away from ‘relatively related relations’ 😂. A joke happened. A highly evolved relative, also respected among my relatives for his scholarly achievements, happened to mention me as a ‘brilliant young fellow” (40 years ago). My relatives proved their inflexibility by saying “how could such a great scholar go so_wrong about PSN?🤔” 

A most dreaded dacoit turned into a Rishi Valmiki, and the first step happened in a few hours( epic story). I tried to visualise myself meeting him again soon after he got transformed from a dacoit into an ascetic! My mind's flexibility isn't good enough to sight his transformation 🙏. By myself, I would continue to look at him as  ‘still a dacoit’😭.  I need to ‘work' a lot more on my own flexibility.

Another astounding thing I discovered is…  my flexibility shouldn't become handy for those who try to exploit me like a parasite 😜.  This clarity helped me to surmount issues related to social compulsions😂 I could drop off even socially compelling relationships. (Least of the examples was, I quit my job, voluntarily, with 8 more years of ‘cream’ in monetary form, in the pay ‘scale’ 👍. Flexibility helps prioritising priorities pragmatically 🙏. (An Earlier Prime minister confessed his helplessness and lack of flexibility when he replied to a query for tolerating too many scams, and said “ …. because of coalition compulsions 😂 “ ( tax payers suffer, for him to allow scams. I can't replicate his principle in my individual life🙏).

Mind's flexibility did wonders for me, whether it was about myself or my_efforts to help the freshers who “trusted” me for my backup support during my 6 years of volunteering for a spiritual program 🙏. My flexibility increased phenomenally, when the fuel was an “urge to make a difference in the lives of others” 🙏.

I found myself capable of choosing different ways  of choosing how to say the “same thing" to the other person, maximizing the reach, and minimizing the scope of misunderstanding my words! ( At work place, I discovered ways and means of keeping aside rigid_rules, when I was sure that I didn't have to compromise on safety, ethics, integrity and moral 🙏. Deserving customers benefited mightily 👍). 

Mega advantage of my efforts to improve flexibility is, what I don't need for my spiritual journey gets dropped off by itself…   “hard wired habits/karma”👍….( I don't know how to amplify this experience 😓).

Non_artificially yours,

psn(6 Oct, 2026)

How I assess Worthlessness

 How I assess Worthlessness

Disclaimer: do not try this without assessing the risks🙏. It might be safe only for ½ mad guys like me😭

A kid(5 yrs) : “Mom, lets buy this!”

Mom : “ This is useless for us dear… not worth buying “

Kid : “why is it worthless mom?”

Mom :  “😡”( at times, also within ”🤔 why is it worthless?”

I “found” that…..

Assessing the Worthlessness is far easier than assessing a ‘true & intrinsic worth” of some input.

How I found?...   Geography teacher bombarded me ( from the prescribed syllabus, that's the whole problem 😭) with “details of  flow velocity, volume and route of rivers like Mississippi and colorado”.  What am I going to do with this info? 🤔. History teacher: “Ancient guys slept on even treetops in old stone age”. Wanna me to try that????😡🙏

No way( no tools in the syllabus) to enable to assess the ‘worth’ of something I am supposed to: 1) learn at school, 2) get along with elders at home, 3)abiding stupid_looking traffic rules, 4)get by_heart the Wren and Martin text of grammar ( this was far more tricky, ‘because’ of desi languages where a stupid object like a pen “demands” that I call myself a female 😡😭 “ye kalam meri hai”( “this pen is mine” … in English! How to “assess” the worth of English grammar, where the pen is a neutral guy??? It's a pen, damnit!😡). 5) endless list 

Bharat is a reverential culture🙏 ( west is ‘freedom' culture 😜. Easy on my brains👍). Problem is, I need to be reverential to peepals/people, and all forms of life, even stone_idols etc for a very valid reason 😭 

The tools to be used to assess the worth, I figured out with great trouble 🙏. And the 4 tools were, I guess the_only_syllabus in Gurukul thousands of years ago 😭.

How about “trying” the Worthlessness??? 😜😜😜

It appealed to me 😂

If somebody says “become a great person”,

I look at the following “sample” list:

1). I am not provided with the DIY, or how_to tool kits, ( forget about time_tested tools🙏)

2). No reference point like ‘how big?’ 

3). Why shouldn't I remain normal. Even a lion, “king of forest” never slogged to become “great”????

4). How am I going to handle the burden of a) maintaining ‘great guy’? I can't hold a noisy_fart, though damn harmless😭, b)pushing down guys around me from overtaking, when I reached already my brim 🙏, c)realignining myself to the ever-changing life situations around? Like, i was damn fast and legible with my pen and processor brain, at manual clerical work as a ledger keeper at bank. The damn digital technology screwed me up😓. Legible handwriting or mental arithmetic is superfluous 🙏. A great_clerk in me is garbage now😭… my true story 🙏, I managed to learn afresh, the crazy advice of becoming a “great data_entry_operator” now, just because others too had to go through the torture of ‘learning' at 40’s a new language of computer_literacy, when our learning ‘curve’ is already flattened 2 decades ago 😭. 

5). Long list😜

Spiritual bijness enabled me to delve into my own Worthlessness, as a human being, doing the same nonsense like other life forms “eating, sleeping and procreating” sophisticating only these 3 , to gloat myself, within only my brand of humans that “I am great…  i buy, even things like water, air etc not just food, clothing and shelter”( other life forms ‘tease’ me silently”its still free for us in our free form, without any captivity. Few of us only_hunt, no need to work/earn for a ‘living’).

Confusedly yours,

psn(6 Oct, 2026)

PostScript confession:  I am disappointed with myself 🙏.

Chasing for the tools of Worthlessness, l ended up with a negative perspective at the recent trend of innovation around me 😭

These innovations seemingly ( only to me, 🙏) are like pointing out our Worthlessness in mutual trust 😭.

Security camera everywhere, one VIP needing  a dozen commandos, whole busy street blocked for a VIP, no_fly zone during a VIP plane takeoff, etc

A “second” layer of security for login into my own money in my app of bank account! 

Firewalls for my stupid data, 

Biometric id verification for pittance of ration shop rice???

Any new gadget faces infiltration by scammers on the same day 😜 ( humans can be proud of Worthlessness in mutual trust).

In school, 60 years ago, I was appreciated for handing over a lost-&-found tiffin box to my teacher. Now, a bomb squad needs to check the silly tiffin box on a road, before an aam Aadmi can go within 15 feet distance near it🤣. IED, likely! Gourmet/Govt. says “don't touch unidentified objects ( we are innovating in insulating mutual mistrust in the meanwhile “😥)

After the recent heroic sacrifice of a pilot of FlyDubai plane saving 174+ lives, a team of high_tech brains will innovate “how to screen  pilots”( had this innocent pilot failed, our ‘creative toolkit experts’ would have labelled that pilot as a ‘culprit’  probably 🙏). Mistrust is easier, though expensive, to implement 🙏.

Problem with doing our best

 Problem with doing our best

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Funny caption, ain't it?

Usually we get bombarded with free advice “do your best”. (Seldom it is accompanied by “how the hell, to implement it?”)

As if this simple version ain't enough, fanciful guys quote famous ones like Micheal Angelo(in “agony & ecstasy” novel) saying “ take infinite pains to create something that looks effortless” 😥

Doesn't really work for normal ones like us.

True exampull: in 1974, my mom complained to my dad about me “this kid is going to a matinee show daily, since a week. Please question him”.  Dad quizzed. I said “my final year eggjams/exams, not matinee”. Dad used to trust me. Yet, he asked ‘how long?’ i said “tomorrow afternoon last paper”. Case dismissed.

But mom, though a lower court at home (😓), persisted in vain, saying to me :” that boy, next house, studies aloud till 2 am. Watch, he will score high, and you will Surely fail👍… you snore even during forenoon of exam-day!” ( that's my mom's version of infinite pain, as a non-detachable component of doing best..). Results had something “else” to say😥.  I didn't get any second chance to do better😭. I passed with 55% average, almost zero pains. That guy got an opporChutney to write again in 2 subjects, 6 months later, “supplementary eggjams” to  clear in failed subjects! My mom didn't like it 🙏

Fortunately, (for me, of course 🙏), one & only one teacher in my entire life, specifically insisted on learning without any pain, whatsoever 👍. Spiritual program boss👍. I liked it 😜. 

He gave a FANTASTIC concession as  a bonus :   on a spiritual path, your own best, at a given point of time is worth 100/100 marks👍( no need to wait for enumeration results 😜🙏). Damn good, i felt 🤣. ( A weight lifter picking 100 kg, though he can lift 300 kg, is a ‘fail’ 0/100 marks, teacher said, while you pick just 10 kg, which is your maximum that_day, scores 100/100. 😳.  Strange way of giving marks, i thought, but good enough for me)

Problem with doing our(my)best:  my negatives in my mind, holds me back very promptly and unfailingly each time I do anything 😭 ( like : “Oh, this is just a worn out cloth for swiping the floor…. I need not wash it clean like my wedding shirt 👍”.  This mentality spreads like Covid19 😜, to almost everything I try to do 😥).

Imagine me(70+ now),  trying to run a race with toddlers of 2 years age. 20 feet ‘distance’ to the finish line. I should reach within one_tenth of the time required by all the ten kids competing against me🙏. 

Now, if….. me_alone is tied up with stones of 50 kg,  to each of my 2 legs???? Kids will reach the 20 feet finish line in 10% of the time required by me 🙏 😭.

This  is the real problem. Each of my_negative attitudes weighs a ton, and prevents me from doing even routine+ effortless daily tasks like a breeze 😜.  Who else, except me alone, is responseAble for my own dead_weights that I tied on to myself to work against me???

( At advanced level programs in spiritual bijness, i faced only_mind_related problems 😜…   Doing my best seldom involved even twitching a muscle. In fact, it was more about getting rid of body_awareness itself 😜.  Side effects were enormous 🙏. Handling material aspects of life was effortless. My-mind just says “hey body-of-PSN, your turn 👍. I am supposed to shut_up and be quiet”. Damn thing works 🤣.  When the mind does the shut_up, my-brain,  the processor, has only one guy to look up_to, in case of kanfuShun/confusion, and that guy sleeps like kumbhakarna inside me, my mustard sized intellect 😭).

At my worst, yours,

psn(6 Oct 2026)

Epilogue:  kids, naturally try to ‘learn’ from the only sample available around them today( no joint family), their parents, about how to handle the situation around?  A pair, unable to do ‘their own best’ at the mundane daily_routine, are settling into becoming a sub_standard exampull to emulate 🙏😓.  Very unreasonable to blame kids_alone when they do things as grown ups, in a slipshod way🙏😭

Looking aFresh Versus Take it for granted

 Looking aFresh Versus Take it for granted

We know the ‘look’ on the face of a baby is so attractive, we struggle to take our eyes away from its face.

One of the several reasons could be, the baby is looking at EVERYTHING around Afresh, each time 🙏. ( Baby's mind is not chanting a “label” for everything its eyes are watching. Proof: our eyes would struggle to find out “what's that???” even when we are walking on a road, and our fleeting glance at everything our eyes notice, but our mind ‘fails’ to supply a label for a strange object there😂

That ill_fated apple received a ‘fresh’ look from the eyes of Newton 😭🙏, and mother natures law of gravity was no more a closely held secret 😜 

At my workplace, more than often, the error in the books gets sighted within seconds in the opening hours of business. Previous evening, the same pair of eyes had passed over the same error in bank's books a dozen times for hours, successfully hiding itself ….. and the humiliating thing is it was there, all along, WITHOUT any camouflage 😂 ( today computing technology has obviated such manual errors).

One lady writer CONFESSED decades ago, in a weekly magazine, in her article about her aged mother's dementia “I took my mom FOR GRANTED and I missed noticing the early signs of dementia setting in her. I could have arrested the damage earlier”

If…. Only if…we care to look_keenly at the face of an adult who is looking at a vast scene for the first time ( with ZERO idea about it earlier), we can see a glimpse of the innocence of a baby_face in that adult 😂😜🙏. It would last only a moment 🙏. The next moment the mind has managed some stupid label and keeps chanting it each moment (subject to correction by a tourist_guide).

While at a social media platform “speakingtree”, I responded very oddly to a blog by a girl of Indian origin, visiting Mansarovar lake for the first time, coming from the USA. The description included her “inner experience” too 😳 ( otherwise, I would not have bothered to comment 🤣).

I wrote something like this “ are you going to experience it in an equal measure at least, if not more, during your next visit?” I added a punch ”that boy of 12 years or less, who was found washing used tea cups at a tea shop….  he wonders “why do peepals spend thousands of rupees to take a look at this lake?🤔. It's just a water body, a large one, and I wash their used plates and cups with the SAME water”... Can you think of a convincing reply to that kid's innocent question, which won't dare to vocalise???”.( Fortunately, my comment hit the mark 😜. We exchanged a conversation full of value addition 🙏. She got a new_found reason to chase my blogs thereon)

Greatest tragedy is, this “looking afresh” is a vital component in spiritual practices 😭😭😭…   If one can't manage a fresh look at the damn thing ( stupidest looking practices), they stagnate at day_2 itself for an entire lifetime 🙏…   ( the greatest advantage of the ABILITY of looking afresh each time, even the stupid breath of ours😥🙏, is that subtle aspects of whatever we are observing reveals itself deeper and deeper each time 🙏). Looking afresh happens a tiny bit more than peepals around me. But, the blabber about what I come to notice invites the ire_of_listener invariably 😥 .  I resorted to remote, safe and comfortable place to blabber😜🙏. The blogs. Nearby guys spare me with “okay, this ½ mad is keeping shut for a while at least”...

Madly yours,

psn ( 4 Oct, 2026)

PostScript:

Our ancient mega EPIC stories were ‘meant to be read’   afresh, each time, during our entire life time.  The data structure of it is designed to churn out newer+deeper concepts each_time without fail 🙏. (Its true with me😓)

Responsive feedback

 Responsive  feedback 

I was proved to be thoroughly_incompetent to give a sensible feedback to MayaMadam( mother Nature)

Me : MayaMadam, thank you. I had a very good deep sleep last night.

MayaMadam (after 2½ decades): “fool 😡. What you say is worse than bullShit. I delayed my reply only to wait till you are good enough to understand the ‘why’.  Even you are missing during your deep sleep. Then how the hell can you talk about it? You don't even know that you exist. Gotcha???”

That's my ‘dramatised’ version of my gross stupidity of attempting a ‘feedback’

Rishis like Valmiki ‘look’ for a sensible feedback ( they transcended inside Quantum concepts to read feedback in real time). 

Why are our Epics dramatised? Simple: subtle concepts can be recalled easier 😜 . But it needs wisdom 🙏

Invaders cleverly renamed our epics as MYTHOLOGICAL stories. They planted an idea that they are “myths”, not true. But the truth is, they are life_sustaining concepts, time tested and loaded with concepts. Dramatisation is a super_intelligent design of “data structure”  ( example: “waves of Beauty” by Aadi Shankara: German scientists ‘used” the chemical notation in 3rd verse to formulate a pollen_grain drug to restore the memory of their spies captured+released by Russians during WW2. )

I know why I should not be expecting any feedback for my blogs(1k +).  I even desist from requesting strangers to view it. I send link to only less than 6 , close to me 🙏 

How does my feedback look like? 😜

Well, here's a sample (fresh from the oven).

Omit reading at this point, if bored 🙏

I addressed this to a retired banker, spearheading a noble cause of pension updation in supreme court of India. I get updates from him since recent 6 months.

The case is in public domain. He is known to only his ‘circle’. My feedback is only my_inner experience, not the material facts. So, I guess its safe here🙏

Quote:

A feedback from me (PSN) about Shri D.S.M :

Very very rare to find a representative of workmen like him, who is mentally active, despite decades of post retirement  (defying 'age' at physicality is_itself tough🙏. Mental aging??? Please guess.

I need to verify my_own  capacity ( haiseeyat/हैसियत) which is very different from status(aukaat/औकात).

Post retirement, we are all fused_bulbs ( 10 watts or 100 watts 🤣). Status shouldn't matter "practically"

I need the capacity to understand the qualitative+ quantitative value of Mr DSM’s efforts, and 'then' respond to him in according to my ability ( if not in "equal" measure) 🙏

I need to fully understand the chat material he sends( to a sizable number of recipients). I need to respond appropriately ( it varies in action according to the context : for example, signing his petition to our Prime minister 🙏).

My words of appreciation need to be realistic.  Not a CopyPaste of words used for "adornments & embellishments" . We adorn with polished flowery words in order to remain socially acceptable 😜.   I do not wish to insult a GENUINE person with cosmetics 🙏

UnQuote 

Incompetently yours,

psn (3 oct, 2026)

Vox populi, the voice of the people

 Vox populi, the voice of the people

Ancient Kings of Bharat had to hear it directly from the people. Hence, the need for incognito walk around the streets, like an ordinary fellow, often as a beggar 😜

Rishis had direct access to the ‘thoughts' of the people ( of course, only in a non_verbal form🙏). Verifiable evidence is available today, if somebody has uploaded a short_video clip of a spiritual guru who answered a disciple’s question about his source of updated world_news, despite his hectic travel and busy schedules 🙏. The Guru said “I don't have to read or view TV news. You people do it for me. I have to just look at you 😂. And I stay updated”

Thoughts are physical, though subtle.

Having practiced a few tools in my spiritual bijness, I did experiment just once, with an over_excited co_participant in a spiritual program 🙏. He picked me to ‘try' communication via thoughts. We did it. Damn thing worked. He said “never again shall we do this🙏” and I agreed for a dissimilar reason.

Manufacturing defect in me, perhaps 😓.   Randomly, I am sensitive to the aggregate ‘nature' of the thoughts in a particular dwelling place ( it is usually a “house”.   I call it a “home” when I experience a positive energy 🙏.  Of late, a few “houses” defeat even a haunted_building/place, in terms of negative_Vibes😭.  Babies might be found restless, or even crying for no reason 🙏).  I was tempted to see if I am right, during my teens. I asked my cousin to compare the effect of the ambience in 2 places; his own home, at at his uncle's house. He exclaimed after a few repeated & successive visits, exclusively to test the Vibes, saying “ hey! You are damn right! I NEVER noticed this earlier. Now, I can even ‘relate’ it with my inner experience at both these places all along ….and confirm this👍”( This reference to unprocessed_memory of ‘earlier’ experience was a mega_bonus for me 😜 🙏. I was on the right track).

Copper wire can conduct electrical energy. They can't store it as yet. What we usually miss is the metal_fatigue of aged wires. I changed it after 10 years and the Kwh climbed down 😜. ( If keen…Google this: which wire ages faster, used for AC or DC ?)

Energy is in different forms. Sunlight through a magnifying glass can ignite a fire at its focal point. It can charge solar cell. Till now, it makes life happen for us, apart from natural lighting 😜🙏

Problem is “how can a stone idol in the temple store a spiritual energy?”( Atheism needs to be STRONG enough, to explore this, with a positivity in questioning.)

WhatsApp echoes all kinds of thoughts. Vox populi 👍🙏🙏🙏

Right now, it is stupid copypastes, forwards, AI fakes and if a person feigns ‘decency’ it is a “gud mourning” repeat😜. ( The vox populi is “I am too dumb to churn out a genuine+ original thought of mine”) . It is obvious, we aam Aadmi are virtually DICTATING to the MSM( main stream media) “please decide my thoughts 😭🙏🙏🙏”. 

Silently yours,

psn(3 Oct, 2026)

PostScript:  Unlike the electric current which is useful as “AC”( alternating)...  thought_power work ONLY like a DC..😜…   ( self cancelling PAIRS of thoughts is the root cause of our problems, with heavy side_effects 🙏. Figure it out yourself. If I elaborate, it won't convince a reader idling as a couch_potato 🤣.  We prefer idiot_box like TV, to creative thinking)