Looking aFresh Versus Take it for granted

 Looking aFresh Versus Take it for granted

We know the ‘look’ on the face of a baby is so attractive, we struggle to take our eyes away from its face.

One of the several reasons could be, the baby is looking at EVERYTHING around Afresh, each time 🙏. ( Baby's mind is not chanting a “label” for everything its eyes are watching. Proof: our eyes would struggle to find out “what's that???” even when we are walking on a road, and our fleeting glance at everything our eyes notice, but our mind ‘fails’ to supply a label for a strange object there😂

That ill_fated apple received a ‘fresh’ look from the eyes of Newton 😭🙏, and mother natures law of gravity was no more a closely held secret 😜 

At my workplace, more than often, the error in the books gets sighted within seconds in the opening hours of business. Previous evening, the same pair of eyes had passed over the same error in bank's books a dozen times for hours, successfully hiding itself ….. and the humiliating thing is it was there, all along, WITHOUT any camouflage 😂 ( today computing technology has obviated such manual errors).

One lady writer CONFESSED decades ago, in a weekly magazine, in her article about her aged mother's dementia “I took my mom FOR GRANTED and I missed noticing the early signs of dementia setting in her. I could have arrested the damage earlier”

If…. Only if…we care to look_keenly at the face of an adult who is looking at a vast scene for the first time ( with ZERO idea about it earlier), we can see a glimpse of the innocence of a baby_face in that adult 😂😜🙏. It would last only a moment 🙏. The next moment the mind has managed some stupid label and keeps chanting it each moment (subject to correction by a tourist_guide).

While at a social media platform “speakingtree”, I responded very oddly to a blog by a girl of Indian origin, visiting Mansarovar lake for the first time, coming from the USA. The description included her “inner experience” too 😳 ( otherwise, I would not have bothered to comment 🤣).

I wrote something like this “ are you going to experience it in an equal measure at least, if not more, during your next visit?” I added a punch ”that boy of 12 years or less, who was found washing used tea cups at a tea shop….  he wonders “why do peepals spend thousands of rupees to take a look at this lake?🤔. It's just a water body, a large one, and I wash their used plates and cups with the SAME water”... Can you think of a convincing reply to that kid's innocent question, which won't dare to vocalise???”.( Fortunately, my comment hit the mark 😜. We exchanged a conversation full of value addition 🙏. She got a new_found reason to chase my blogs thereon)

Greatest tragedy is, this “looking afresh” is a vital component in spiritual practices 😭😭😭…   If one can't manage a fresh look at the damn thing ( stupidest looking practices), they stagnate at day_2 itself for an entire lifetime 🙏…   ( the greatest advantage of the ABILITY of looking afresh each time, even the stupid breath of ours😥🙏, is that subtle aspects of whatever we are observing reveals itself deeper and deeper each time 🙏). Looking afresh happens a tiny bit more than peepals around me. But, the blabber about what I come to notice invites the ire_of_listener invariably 😥 .  I resorted to remote, safe and comfortable place to blabber😜🙏. The blogs. Nearby guys spare me with “okay, this ½ mad is keeping shut for a while at least”...

Madly yours,

psn ( 4 Oct, 2026)

PostScript:

Our ancient mega EPIC stories were ‘meant to be read’   afresh, each time, during our entire life time.  The data structure of it is designed to churn out newer+deeper concepts each_time without fail 🙏. (Its true with me😓)

Responsive feedback

 Responsive  feedback 

I was proved to be thoroughly_incompetent to give a sensible feedback to MayaMadam( mother Nature)

Me : MayaMadam, thank you. I had a very good deep sleep last night.

MayaMadam (after 2½ decades): “fool 😡. What you say is worse than bullShit. I delayed my reply only to wait till you are good enough to understand the ‘why’.  Even you are missing during your deep sleep. Then how the hell can you talk about it? You don't even know that you exist. Gotcha???”

That's my ‘dramatised’ version of my gross stupidity of attempting a ‘feedback’

Rishis like Valmiki ‘look’ for a sensible feedback ( they transcended inside Quantum concepts to read feedback in real time). 

Why are our Epics dramatised? Simple: subtle concepts can be recalled easier 😜 . But it needs wisdom 🙏

Invaders cleverly renamed our epics as MYTHOLOGICAL stories. They planted an idea that they are “myths”, not true. But the truth is, they are life_sustaining concepts, time tested and loaded with concepts. Dramatisation is a super_intelligent design of “data structure”  ( example: “waves of Beauty” by Aadi Shankara: German scientists ‘used” the chemical notation in 3rd verse to formulate a pollen_grain drug to restore the memory of their spies captured+released by Russians during WW2. )

I know why I should not be expecting any feedback for my blogs(1k +).  I even desist from requesting strangers to view it. I send link to only less than 6 , close to me 🙏 

How does my feedback look like? 😜

Well, here's a sample (fresh from the oven).

Omit reading at this point, if bored 🙏

I addressed this to a retired banker, spearheading a noble cause of pension updation in supreme court of India. I get updates from him since recent 6 months.

The case is in public domain. He is known to only his ‘circle’. My feedback is only my_inner experience, not the material facts. So, I guess its safe here🙏

Quote:

A feedback from me (PSN) about Shri D.S.M :

Very very rare to find a representative of workmen like him, who is mentally active, despite decades of post retirement  (defying 'age' at physicality is_itself tough🙏. Mental aging??? Please guess.

I need to verify my_own  capacity ( haiseeyat/हैसियत) which is very different from status(aukaat/औकात).

Post retirement, we are all fused_bulbs ( 10 watts or 100 watts 🤣). Status shouldn't matter "practically"

I need the capacity to understand the qualitative+ quantitative value of Mr DSM’s efforts, and 'then' respond to him in according to my ability ( if not in "equal" measure) 🙏

I need to fully understand the chat material he sends( to a sizable number of recipients). I need to respond appropriately ( it varies in action according to the context : for example, signing his petition to our Prime minister 🙏).

My words of appreciation need to be realistic.  Not a CopyPaste of words used for "adornments & embellishments" . We adorn with polished flowery words in order to remain socially acceptable 😜.   I do not wish to insult a GENUINE person with cosmetics 🙏

UnQuote 

Incompetently yours,

psn (3 oct, 2026)

Vox populi, the voice of the people

 Vox populi, the voice of the people

Ancient Kings of Bharat had to hear it directly from the people. Hence, the need for incognito walk around the streets, like an ordinary fellow, often as a beggar 😜

Rishis had direct access to the ‘thoughts' of the people ( of course, only in a non_verbal form🙏). Verifiable evidence is available today, if somebody has uploaded a short_video clip of a spiritual guru who answered a disciple’s question about his source of updated world_news, despite his hectic travel and busy schedules 🙏. The Guru said “I don't have to read or view TV news. You people do it for me. I have to just look at you 😂. And I stay updated”

Thoughts are physical, though subtle.

Having practiced a few tools in my spiritual bijness, I did experiment just once, with an over_excited co_participant in a spiritual program 🙏. He picked me to ‘try' communication via thoughts. We did it. Damn thing worked. He said “never again shall we do this🙏” and I agreed for a dissimilar reason.

Manufacturing defect in me, perhaps 😓.   Randomly, I am sensitive to the aggregate ‘nature' of the thoughts in a particular dwelling place ( it is usually a “house”.   I call it a “home” when I experience a positive energy 🙏.  Of late, a few “houses” defeat even a haunted_building/place, in terms of negative_Vibes😭.  Babies might be found restless, or even crying for no reason 🙏).  I was tempted to see if I am right, during my teens. I asked my cousin to compare the effect of the ambience in 2 places; his own home, at at his uncle's house. He exclaimed after a few repeated & successive visits, exclusively to test the Vibes, saying “ hey! You are damn right! I NEVER noticed this earlier. Now, I can even ‘relate’ it with my inner experience at both these places all along ….and confirm this👍”( This reference to unprocessed_memory of ‘earlier’ experience was a mega_bonus for me 😜 🙏. I was on the right track).

Copper wire can conduct electrical energy. They can't store it as yet. What we usually miss is the metal_fatigue of aged wires. I changed it after 10 years and the Kwh climbed down 😜. ( If keen…Google this: which wire ages faster, used for AC or DC ?)

Energy is in different forms. Sunlight through a magnifying glass can ignite a fire at its focal point. It can charge solar cell. Till now, it makes life happen for us, apart from natural lighting 😜🙏

Problem is “how can a stone idol in the temple store a spiritual energy?”( Atheism needs to be STRONG enough, to explore this, with a positivity in questioning.)

WhatsApp echoes all kinds of thoughts. Vox populi 👍🙏🙏🙏

Right now, it is stupid copypastes, forwards, AI fakes and if a person feigns ‘decency’ it is a “gud mourning” repeat😜. ( The vox populi is “I am too dumb to churn out a genuine+ original thought of mine”) . It is obvious, we aam Aadmi are virtually DICTATING to the MSM( main stream media) “please decide my thoughts 😭🙏🙏🙏”. 

Silently yours,

psn(3 Oct, 2026)

PostScript:  Unlike the electric current which is useful as “AC”( alternating)...  thought_power work ONLY like a DC..😜…   ( self cancelling PAIRS of thoughts is the root cause of our problems, with heavy side_effects 🙏. Figure it out yourself. If I elaborate, it won't convince a reader idling as a couch_potato 🤣.  We prefer idiot_box like TV, to creative thinking)

Worry

 Worry 

A forward with a caption ( routine ‘gud-mourning’ messages on WhatsApp univ), which said “ stop using your energy to worry. Use your energy to believe, create, love, grow, glow, manifest and heal”

What is the reader going to do with this piece of ”advice” ?( I thought)

I didn't respond in that group ( majority dislike me 😜🙏).

But I wrote to the person who posted it, using “reply privately”. Then I thought, my blog page is visited ‘twice’, only by those who TOLERATE me (whether they like or dislike me).

My response:

[02/10, 2026, 6:40 am] PSN: A forward

But, the 'details' might convince better🙏

Brain is the 'physical' organ that does the processing & burns the fuel called 'energy'.

Mind assigns the job to worry or plan, alongside a negative or positive emotion.

"Worry" is never without a conflict between two opposing possibilities ( will or will-not happen).  A bug in a processor 'heats' it up more, without results in a computer 😜.

Creativity merely refers to the intellect, and proceeds with clarity, feasibility, viability etc ( far less fuel/energy is expended).

If this idea convinces(🙏), I am armed with a better purpose, reason and clarity to keep worries away. 😜

[02/10, 6:53 am] PSN: Worry creates a "Mobius strip" in the brain ( a processor chip, needing fuel/energy to run it).   Worry ends up like a Mobius strip ( without a beginning or end 😜).

Mobius strip is a precious concept 🙏

https://youtu.be/zqM4TqsLVRA?si=Gyuq8nmzzQCejd9r

Worrylessly yours,

psn(2 Oct 2036)

Purpose of GenZ

 Purpose of GenZ

I am full of admiration for the choice of “decision” to name a generation, which is only a fraction of a century 🙏( Every nomenclature intends a purpose 🙏. No other generation even_thought of a purpose as a collective Generation)

Each century had around 5 generations 🙏 

We only heard of “Yuga” ( satya yug, treta, dwapara and now kali)

I now look towards hope🙏.

Will this “GenZ” also strive to revive the memory of the purpose of time tested rituals, traditions and practices of the Way_of_Life of ancient Bharat????

Like,

 Is it worth re_discovering the real+original purpose,  of 

-having temple, going into the temple, checking for the presence of contemplated subtle energies/whatever?

—Observing the moon's phase for annual rituals of the departed, or for those ‘born’ under the influence of a particular ‘star’

—-Whether the “purpose” of using Fire as a catalyst for transforming the birth_chemistry of a female, is fulfilled during her wedding, into that of the male’s lineage (gotra changes, implying a “virtual DEATH in the donor’s family & only then, a POSSIBILITY of a birth in the donee family”???😜. (The whole purpose is now like a stupid circus, when even_the thought fails to occur, if there was really_any_purpose & whether it happened?)  {😜 I tested this once, as a kid. It worked 👍}

—-a long list 😜👍

We swallowed a sedative or a purgative, with some ‘hope’ that the purpose will get fulfilled 🙏.  If it doesn't happen ( sleep or evacuation respectively) we have that “common sense” to find out what_went_wrong?.  We “launch” an app. Don't we know why we did it?

( Hitherto….. I used to invoke all the socially acceptable gestures of humility and ask only a professional priest “do you know the purpose of the gestures/chants by a person who does it only due to wearing a thread across his shoulders?”.  I don't even tease him asking about the prescribed ‘age’ for each of 4 varnas, wearing it, the distinction in every ritual related between the 4, etc. It is documented in the ancient texts 😜🙏)

😥…  What used to be a sole venture for me ( with rarely any other in the reachable proximity), can now become an exploration of a unique Genz, since they are disrupting the stupidities of at least 2 immediately-previous generations to them 🤣🤣🤣

( I see an unexplained surge in the viewership to my blabber here. Discounting 90% of the auto_generated numbers of the software, even the 10% is phenomenal 🙏….    Gen-Z????? 🤔🙏😳😳😳😳)

Non_genz yours,

psn(27 Sep 2026)

Punchline ( PostScript)

I deliberately cited a “virtual death” & “donor”....😜 Its a “punch” 🙏

Look at the “enacted law” related to adoption. Without a virtual death, and without a “donation”( like donor of blood/organ), no legal_validity 😜

KanyaDAAN is challenged “who are you to donate me, a girl of 18+ eh????” probably due to ignorance_of_purpose😜🙏🙏🙏 ( sophisticated technology= the “base” transforms scientifically. Its humiliating, if grasped🙏, but true!)

I punch “parents” of ARRANGED MARRIAGES asking them “does the wedding happen with a girl of different gotra?” And the”usual” response is “ofcourse yes!”. I then ‘gently’ remind saying “nope🙏… firstly, the girl is scientifically adopted first into OWN_GOTRA, a transformation in subtle_chemistry , and tying of ‘knot’ is only_thereafter 🙏🙏🙏😔😔” ( I even ‘feign’ humility to find an appeal for T

RUTH!)

Unsolicited help

 Unsolicited help

This is my own personal doubt and an evergreen_doubt afresh every day 🙏 , whether it is about seeking or offering a help. ( Other life forms handle even their-own-death very gracefully 😥🙏. Without any help. Inconspicously and eco-friendly way 👍. The carcass of even that huge elephant didn't ‘pose’ a environmental issue in the forest. We need 4 guys to carry my body, and a few dozens to feign crying! Rejoice is suppressed 😜”good riddance”)

A school teacher was “assigned” to teach “being good to others” to her Kindergarten students.  Theory won't work on kids of such small age. It had to be ‘tasking only’ when reporting to the princi was “rules”!

Kids scrambled towards a deadline to do “some good deed”  and tell the teacher. 3 such kids reported to the teacher “M’am, we 3 together helped an old lady to cross a street 👍”.   The teacher felt grateful, that she can write it in her report. As an after thought, she asked very casually “but why did it take 3 of to help 1 lady?”

Kids blurted honestly “because she never needed to go to the other side of the street and we had a ‘task’ to complete somehow 🙏😥”

Offering a seat to an elder in a jam packed bus isn't always without any issues 😭.  The elder is shy to reveal that he has ‘piles’ and can't sit without a pain in his “@#*” ( you know where!).  He chose a crowded bus only to escape the torture by the conductor “ can't you Occupy a seat, the bus is empty 😡”.

Karma ‘helps’ dissolving the accumulated garbage of our past.  People trying to be “good” to me, help me out and end up postpone my karma to come back with a compound interest in magnitude 🙏. Let me go through my sufferings. It is सुहाना सफ़र ( a colleague claims ‘actual’ out of pocket expenses ‘during travel’ found it convenient to borrow safar/travel/सफर  translating it “ while I was suffering(travelling) from deputed city to parent_office town, expenses please reimburse”( his boss feels it easier to grasp “oh, safar kar raha tha 👍). 

The gatekeepers of Vishnu “chose” to be villains for 7 lifetimes ( instead of 14 lives as devotees, doing-Good to worthless idiots in vain 😜). Easier to be realistic as a villain 👍. Quick work. Fast dissolution of karma, and guaranteed moksha/release 😜 

My blogs are innocent to some extent 🙏. No compulsions to even read😂. ( AI bot does the hiking of views/hits, to pamper my ego 😜).  Only 1 guy reported a noteworthy side_effect ( he tested reading re-reading a blog few times 😥. It did something unnatural to him 😭. But he en_joyed it, mercifully 🙏, and needed six years to muster confidence to privately tell me 😂. If “good” happens unintentionally, even once, by even 1/1000 blogs, to only one fellow, I am lucky🙏. My teacher can report to his guru👍

Unsolicitedly yours,

psn (20 Sept, ,2026)

Sculptor of Ayodhya Ram

 Sculptor of Ayodhya Ram

“This is not the idol which I sculpted” was the exclamatory declaration by the sculptor of “Ram” idol, soon after the consecration, when he looked at his “work” of a long period 🙏( he is supposed to be a descendant of a lineage of sculptors of temple idols 😜)

Had he known this earlier? That it's going to look different! ( Probably, the intensity+ involvement would have ‘been’ a more better, irrespective of whether it translates into the idol or not 🙏)

I am a crazy guy.

I try to look at the expectant mom as a sculptor. The consecration happens between 5 to 6 months. This mom decides how well the baby can be “shaped”, in its ‘formative’ stages 🙏. The baby is ‘receptive’ to primordial sounds as ‘vibes’ via the fluid in the placenta/whatever 🙏. The organs growing are highly receptive to the nutrients supplied by the mom's present physiology & the intake of food during the baby's growth. The thoughts are physical, though subtle, and they are Wired, not Wi-Fi, and are vibes, not words_heard. Most thoughts, we never DARE to verbalise. But the kid doesn't ‘miss’ the vibes of any_thought. Mom, as a sculptor might matter🙏😳. Dunno!

Chiselled, yours,

psn(25 Sept 2026)

My efforts to contribute

 My efforts to contribute

“Even the shirt’s button you use daily, was invented by someone we don't know 🙏” said my school teacher in a class one day. Primary school, I  was in, when this happened 😭 ( she added a bombshell 🙏 “if you don't add something like that of your own, your  life is a waste, whatever else you do👍”)

At that kid age, I appreciated the “button” but not deep enough. I kept my mind unbuttoned, till I grasped it to my_best. Movies like Samson& Delilah, Ulysses, Benhur etc, added info. They needed at least ½ a metre of cloth and a rope tied to the waist, to hold the garment ‘wrapped’ against a wind trying to open it 🤣. Presto! Now, I can guess the millions of metres of woven clothing material saved because of the button/hook/fasteners/etc. Any ‘royalty’ problem would have been of a cascading effect on the descendants of that unknown button guy🙏

Can I try to contribute ‘something'?? ( was the primitive thought).

I got too many opporChutneys/opportunities. 

Most of them granted me the freedom of obscurity 🙏

A dean of neurology, of some Aussie univ, came closest to compensating me in aus-dollar for a chat material he intended to use as an elective carved out for his doctoral kids ( neuro effects of ghost limbs).

2 guys escaped a major spinal surgery ( when my customized form of acrobatics called aasanas worked by sheer fluke).

Nature itself planted a gimmick ( like the movie “inception”... implanting an idea into a target's subconscious. ). Tender_Neem leaves transform themselves during brahmaMuhurat. Years later, a researcher confirmed a mention of it in ASHTANGA (Ayurveda text), dormant and untested since long😜

At work place, I managed gimmicks which even escaped the grasp of professional auditors, computer geeks etc.

Well, I don't have to die as a total waste! 😥

I owe the entire tiny speck of my contribution to the charity of my spiritual masters 🙏.  Helping someone to grow spiritually, I came to discover, is the highest of contribution humanly possible 🙏 

All because of an insignificant button.😓

Time to wind up my bijness and go, as gracefully as possible (can't hope to imitate the life forms of a forest 🙏. They dispose of their own carcass in an eco-friendly and inconspicuous manner, noiselessly,🙂. And they don't ‘teach’. I need to observe and learn, that's the hitch) 😭🙏.

Quietly yours,

psn(23 Sept 2026)

A tribute to my Guru

 A tribute to my Guru 

Attributes…..we know 👍

This guy, who is my guru has numerous attributes which I can never dream of “knowing” 🙏😭

I look at just 1  at’tribute (it suits me to CopyPaste the word ‘tribute’ from attributes.

And the aspect for which I ‘pay’ this tribute this time is….   He played a cruel joke on me 😭

“I didn't used_to_have the faintest idea of what was going on in his head, when his eyes met mine, for the first time in 1992”

A reader can check it any time 👍

Just look a 6 month old baby, into its eyes. We don't have the faintest idea of what's going on in its head 👍. 

The difference is the problem 🙏

That guy ( my Guru) is aware, self-aware 😥.  The baby is not yet aware/self_aware 😜.

Ocean of difference 🙏

I am on that job 👍

Become like that baby, but with the attribute of the guy called Guru.

Let it take eternity ( trillion life times👍)

Ignorantly yours,

psn(18 Sept 2026)

Dissuasion

 dissuasion

The main culprit responsible for hidden talents remaining suppressed in kids, when their ‘learning’ curve is at its peak 😀 

And it is with the best of intentions 🙏😭, and therefore, very little scope for noticing the latent negativity in it .

A kid is at the precarious tall branch of a tree, and the mom shouts “Don't fall 🙏” . The kid wonders “how not-to-fall?”( Mind is habituated to a “don't do this, don't do that” list 😀.  So, a prefix “don't” is by default, and the rest is “whatever occurs”.   A conscious speech might “try” something like “hold firmly to the branch, till you get help to climb down”

“ Knife might injure you dear… wait till you grow ‘intelligent enough’ to use it without bleeding yourself 😂” might be a persuasion instead of”don't touch it(knife) 😡😡” a dissuasion that can give birth to other negatives in a kid like “oh, this elder can be so angry at me, elders can order a helpless-dependent kid, they hate more often than love,  when busy, they scold, love when nothing else to do?”( Endless chain of thought process 😜).

When “don't” are in majority, “do’s” feel like an imposition 😂 ( “ do your homework first, or else no dinner👍😡”.   Kid within himself ”tell that to my stomach …’cause its making noises due to hunger.”

Probably, the root of our problem is….

1). We are using the “don't- list” with only good intentions 

2). Even gourmet chants daily “don't touch unidentified objects– i.e.d. “...  I knew QED in geometry 🙏😓). “Don't tell OTP/ don't give mobile number/ don't, don't, don't 😡”

3) endless list. ( I desist from elaborating negatives ) We can recall a good number 👍

In short, a kid reads it on the wall “don't ever try anything on your own” .  He is left with one option 🤣.  Copypaste answers from MEMORY only, during eggjams! High cut-off guaranteed to gain admission in NEET, JEE etc. ( GRE/TOEFL needs ‘different’ skills sets, but manageable. The west needs phoren currency 👍).

One ‘legend’ i recall hailed from coimbatore. A dropout, who revolted against “don't do this-that”.  He Disrupted several times “this can't be done except this_way_only”.  He left behind minds puzzled for perpetuity, by operating 5 routes with just 3 buses😜. (The ‘normal' is a ‘spare’ bus per every 3 routes😜…  Illegal, and hence, I came to know only through his close buddy, very reliably. Unofficially, he printed currency on textile printing machines 😜. All the while facing the “dissuasion Gang” of “don'ts” till he died🙏).  Name? I won't disclose too openly. I revere his “spirit” 🙏🙏🙏

Rare positivity at my school (1958–1970)

“do what you like, free period “ said the school peon adding “except for noise, next room a class is busy”. A teacher is on leave …..   50 kids in a prison cell (classroom without a teacher for 40 minutes 🙏). What can go wrong??? Kids start “WONDERING” and switch on their innovative potential “ what ALL is possible without any noise?” ( no smartphones those days 😜, otherwise, no need to wonder, think etc. today's mom finds a handset “handy” to tame a kid 👍. She is oblivious to the permanent disability getting implanted in the kid 😓— his ‘frame’ gets a stunted_growth 🤣).

Did I dissuade a response or feedback EVER? 😜.  But I am not disappointed either 👍.   Even the copypastes littered in TerraBytes are deleted with a button “select all” ( wholesale!).  My texting is irritating only because they disturb the mind often 🙏. I look for the absence of a positive response and then i do the “Houdini trick”( a famous magician’s vanishing act).

Unappointedly yours,

psn(18 Sept, 2026)

PostScript humour:

A lady, expert in “don't” came to the centre for backup support ( i was volunteering) to collect ‘valid don'ts’ to dissuade her sister-in-law from subscribing to next program of yoga class.

“Money doesn't grow on trees😡” she began.

I gave a list of “don'ts”

“Don't allow your brother's wife to join 🙏. I got inextricably trapped..

I don't lack spare time 

I don't get small ailments like headache 

I don't get confused

I don't need too much sleep 

I don't acquire ambiguity in thoughts

I don't mince words.

I don't lack clarity

I don't get tired/fatigue

I don't seem normal ( because of many ‘don’ts’ i got afflicted with 😭🙏)

She too decided to enroll 😜( Double expense. It seems, she mentioned me during a feedback at the end. I don't look for bouquet)

Response

 Response 

A magical word 🙂

The patient is not “responding” says a doctor. We don't ask “to what?” We know it's damn serious! 

I look at myself 🙏. Am I responsive enough”?  It is now, that the koschan “to what ALL???”  gains intensity, because  I know I “am” now! 😜 

How do I motivate (the freshers) to respond to the highest human possibility in life??? The peak period of this ‘search' was, when I volunteered for the backup support at a center meant for people to seek help, after attending a spiritual program of 13 days. A 6 year span from 1992. 

And the heavy rate of ‘failure’ is what taught me the importance of the “response”-mechanism in-built in humans🙏. 

Motivation is related to our potential to respond, but awaiting for our wake up call to get activated 🤣.

In a strange way, I see an illogical reverse_similarity with local and general anesthesia 😜. “General” is far more powerful than “local” anesthesia.  I find a “general’ response to”life” to be most responsive than a “specific” response!

A guy, who responds to”life” itself, ultimately ends up including everyone and everything around as a part of himself 🙏😥. ( Proof : a sanyasi forsakes his ‘own' folks to become an expansion of responseAbled guy, at universe_level. If he radiates powerfully enough, a crowd responds to his inclusiveness. And his own family “including”  😜🙏). 

 Normal guys respond to something/someone they relate with ( their desire, emotional attachment, emotional blackmail, greed, expectations, goals, urge etc….  whether it is life_negative or life_positive 😥).

Parenting is ideally  “supposed” to look for scope and potential in their kids to respond. Here, it is responseAbility, as a quality, not object_oriented. If this “ability” has a versatility, the kid finds oneself motivated by many possibilities in terms of ‘actions’, when it grasps the data well, through it 5 input devices!. ( The bulk of communicated part of ancient Hinduism, through traditions, rituals, scriptures etc, are a time_tested evidence 🙏 to help us to get convinced that these are a priceless gift of sophisticated tool_sets). A Guru is a living tool, who customises a tailored tool to tap the potential to respond 😜🙏🙏🙏.  I don't know if this ‘subtle distinction’ suggested by me is going to find an appeal in a reader to mumble “Maybe, lemme see😳”.  I am not a professional, by any chance. I am driven by sheer curiosity to see if my ‘premise’ is worth a response further😜. And I must acknowledge my ‘own' milestones on this pathless path, and silently nod to myself “yep! 👍 Good going yaar!”.

An old Hindi song and its lyrics offer a mystic motivation to wake up the responseAbility in me🙏 ( I generalise it as much as possible 😥)

Movie: Anokhi raat, and lyrics ”oh re taal mile nadii ke…..”  

The yearning to respond is “loaded” in these 2 stanzas :

सूरज को धरती तरसे (धरती को चंद्रमा - २)

पानी में सीप जैसे प्यासी हर आतमा

ओ मितवा रे ए ए ए ए   पानी में ...

बूंद छुपी किस बादल में

कोई जाने ना

ओह रे ताल मिले नदी के जल में ...

अन्जाने होंठों पर ये (पहचाने गीत हैं - २)

कल तक जो बेगाने थे जनमों के मीत हैं

ओ मितवा रे ए ए ए   कल तक ...

क्या होगा कौन से पल में

कोई जाने ना

Whatever 🙏 

Generally yours,

psn(17 Sept 2026)

Match Fixing

 Match Fixing 

No…no…no…no…🙏

Not the cricket wala match_fixing.

The life_partner wala desi match_fixing by the parents of a bride & groom 😜

My story is a status like “now it can be told👍”( both 70+,  not worthy of “commercial hacking”. Physical Sadistic_hacking( unto death ) isn't a satisfying project 😥

My dad did the match_fixing 🤣.

Unpredictably f-a-s-t in decision making 😥.

At least 5 times out of 15, it was just an hour's notice “we are renting a new house”. Obviously , it's a scramble 😂. Few things break in transit. An Unfortunate “daily-friend” like grinding stone & pestle finds a new pair of parents ( some “good” neighbour is happily there to adopt an unconditional servant we forsake abruptly 👍

Dad's view ( only my guess work 🙏 😥):

“It's our family tradition 👍. Parents dictate the would-be life-partner of their offspring.

I know what's good for my child 👍. I have “the” experience too! De-bugging, if at all, is Gawd’s/God’s bijness, else why do we spend on offerings? Plus a bit of blind_faith on Him?...... ( And so on)”

Dad's performance: 

He told “point blank” at his Counter_part (girl's dad): “look… I am here to see if the girl can TOLERATE my son for her life_time, and NOT to test if I am ABLE to find the ‘best girl’ available”( that gentleman was “naturally” shaken a lot 😂… wwhhhaat? ( Guess the rest)

“No ‘terms’, do what you like” added my dad(the only comforting part of the match_fixing. 

Uncertainty loomed at the bride's household. ( Details are quite “exciting” but its too long plus, I owe some_decency to not making it too public 🤣).

My view: 

I exist and even lived this far because of my parents ( my mom didn't have any “say” in the match_fixing😜. Her mother-in-law was alive, gotcha?...yep! )

I am ‘able’ to be damn comfortable with 

a)my elders around as a kid( though they used me as their object of entertainment, except a few)

b)I was enriched by my schoolmates & teachers , also at college likewise, except a very_few negative ones

c) I sailed through ‘smooth’ with colleagues of very dissimilar types, reactionary & responsive, with its sub_classifications numerous 🙏.

d) I was manning( not womaning,😥) a public counter at a busy branch of a huge commercial bank. ( Poorest to stinking_rich ‘deal’ with me with their commodity ‘money’, and today ONLY money matters for most of us🙏😥). None, yes_none ever had a grudge in getting along with me,😜

All the a-to-d items were NOT of my_choosing. 

So?... Khuda meherbaan tou gadha bhi pehelwaan( When God is generous, even a donkey is a wrestler to_Win always👍)

I had zero reason to protest ( the only choice I reserved was “dad's choice for this girl, or else, I get on as a lone traveler on my life priority —spiritual quest🙏). And the rest is his(her)story 😜

The joke:   I am ‘armed’ today with tools required to deal with a good number of mutual inconsistencies, (except financial related trust, where we(me+spouse)failed to EVER mistrust each other 😭, so zero competence), and can help the “apprehensions” of any youth, who can ‘afford’ to trust any value addition from me🙏

Fixedly yours,

psn(17 Sept 2026)