Side effects of better Focus

 Side effects of better Focus

Lengthy blogs seem to diminish the ability to focus,....  in a reader 🙏😭( this is quite illogical, but a fact. Something to do with psychology 😜. And a new disease for modern minds). Ancient epics were voluminous and ‘no probs’ 👍😜😜😜

A true incident:

This happened in 1976.

I had a very close friend working in the largest PSU-bank. I was sitting beside him during my routine visit there.

Manual work, without calculator machine.

Totalling 17 rows of 8 or 9 digit numbers is prone to errors in addition. Handwritten numbers don't align vertically sometimes, and contribute to errors in picking hundreds as tens or thousands 😜.

This guy NEVER rechecks his totals.

And as a rare_breed, he doesn't write the right_most numeral of a vertical row added each_time. He writes the ENTIRE sum (added) at once and at last😂… 9 to 10 digits, including the two decimals of ‘paise’.

The incident: His boss came to his desk to point out an error committed.

Boss: “your totals are wrong on this page! Check and rectify 😠”

Friend: “where exactly are you finding your mismatch?” 

Boss :” you do the ‘finding out’ not me”( not a friendly tone…😂)

Friend (cool): how much money do you have in your pocket/purse right now?”

Boss: “whhhat???? What has THAT got to here now?”

Friend:”cost of asking me to re_do my work(reTotalling)”

Boss : nonsense! It's your job, when asked to do something (official authority quoted. Plain ‘dadagiri’)

( By now, I have become ‘tense’ within 🙏😭. My friend, an emotional bond. But I am an outsider here. Can't run away, nor can I deal_with/face the emerging “situation “)

Friend: “see, I normally don't engage myself in futility, but I can oblige for a fee,  net worth of your purse😂. Of course, if I lose( I erred in my totalling) my purse is yours👍”

Boss ( annoyed to his Limit): “nothing doing. Just obey😡😡. This is an office, not a gambling den”

Friend: “in that case …. I refuse 🙏. You can keep_totalling, till you arrive at ‘my total’ or….as a boss, initiate a disciplinary action for my disobedience 👍. But please go away now. I have my_work to do”

Boss went away 

Me : 😳😳😳 at my friend 

Friend ( to me): “Don't worry. He will learn a lesson today ‘not to Mess with me’😜”

That day, I met a RARE specimen. A friend who DERIVED such resolute self_confidence as a SIDE_EFFECT( benefit, an incidental by_product) of super focus in his ‘work’.  A Guru 🙏

I was ‘already’ above average in accuracy of figurework among my colleagues at my workplace. But his incident inspired me saying “eh??? You are nothing. Try to further improve your focus now. He, your dear friend is a bench mark”

I worked on “focus”. 

180° u_turn, happened to my sharpened_focus, 

from outwards( my 5 sense organs, my tools of focus)

to inwards(1992)...withdrawing the ‘sensitivity_alone’ of my sense organs( CONSCIOUSLY, not switching them off, like it happens in my deep_sleep 😰🙏).

Tragedy:  no ‘tangible’ tools for inward_focus, like our 5 sense organs, 😰

So?  forge the subtle tools, to become available in my awareness, firstly, and only then to think of ‘using’ it for focus_inward.

Hurdle :  is…the fool inside me, who can_focus, gets mixed up with my_body & my_mind, without a Warning 🙏😭😭 (example: some idiot trampled my toes in a crowded bus and I yell “Why are U trampling ME??” . later I re_frame my words at home to my spouse ”a fellow trampled MY_TOES in the bus today!”.... later, “my mind lost its cool the other day, when a fellow trampled my_toes in the bus” …. Who am I??? if it is my_mind, my_body, when the ‘i’ is a little calm, oriented, better focused etc?? Dunno, as yet🙏

Interim_tragedy 😜 : my_mind, focusing on itself, it's own non_verbal thoughts, IS_NOT_THE-ME….😂)

De_focused, hence yours,

psn (10 March, 2026)