A controversial re-discovery, that I hail from a lineage of traditional beggars ๐๐
Therefore, I would rather try to confine this blog to a narrative of FIRST_person narrative only ( me, mine, I myself, pertains to only_me…etc ๐).
Rituals, traditions and practices that happened with me, like anyone born into the cluster of human samples that I be’long into, raised serious doubts in ME_only.
After a huge pomp & show, I was initiated into the greatest maantric_chant, called ‘Gayatri’ . The irony was, I discovered to my utter surprise that whenEver I try to chant this, after a preceding INVOCATIONAL chants, it is no more a mantra๐. It assumes a much higher ‘form’( evidence is glaringly available right_within that invocation_chant, but…. today's high_speed mind has ‘no_time’ to bother about such trivial matters๐๐๐).
What baffled me was….
The first thing I was asked to ‘do’ immediately after the-most auspicious occasion of my life ( dwija_fication) was, to_beg_for_my_food ๐ณ (a humiliation, which escaped the ‘notice' even….owing to the photo_sessions during it, and the abandonment of this huge ‘lesson’ soon after the show_bijness is over๐. Back to normal egoistic composture ๐).
In the ancient days, that_begging was realistic!!! Not to be abandoned like today๐
Why did the most literate, most intelligent, most self_disciplined fellows in a society have_to_BEG for food???(The fuel for seeking an answer to this strange doubt was….. this damn practice sustained for thousands of years ๐ณ. Several generations cannot be stupid enough to perpetuate an idiosyncrasy ๐).
It took decades for me to re-discover ๐.
How else do I retain in my surface level awareness, of the deep interdependence I am bonded into with everything and everyone around???
How to be damn sure of the interdependence?( Tougher question)
How to make this ‘idea’ into a sustainable thing( ideas can be reversed, forgotten, opaqued, obliterated etc)
A stable living experience of the VERY root of this deepest level of interdependence ๐ is_a_must๐, therefore!!!
Not an easy task, I was to discover, during this journey on a “pathless_path” (spirituality! Yes, even logically, the ‘thing’ that is ‘ticking’ in this piece of flesh_called_me, is the spirit within ๐ณ, by whatever name ๐. Spirit—->spirituality.).
Then it dawned on me.
The 4 MahaVakyas ๐
Declaratory truths!
Accept it or throw it away ๐… the truth isn't dependent on my subscription, patronage, acceptance etc! ( I can be_with that truth, or deny myself the bliss, and suffer a hell created by my own negation of these truths, for innumerable lifetimes ๐).
Until the experience of the first truth gets STABILISED, after its first peek look/glimpse that ‘it’ reveals into me, inside me, within me…how else can I pursue for its Experiential_permanence, except by using the simplest tool? That tool is simple but not easy๐. Begging ๐. It keeps reminding me in_real_time, that I am interdependent with this Universe๐( Vasudaiva kutumbakam). I give my everything in return for that one_meal, every time I am ‘genuinely’ hungry๐. (Everything includes the_most precious of my possessions. Why ‘google_search’ with too many possessions? Just my brain_power will do๐๐. Possess nothing! Beg for food.)
The best plus point is….. when I need to ‘beg’ even for food, I don't need any conscious effort to avoid ego! Humility is an INEVITABLE consequence, an incidental by_product( like cow_dung is a by product and a medicine, manure etc, when cow’s milk is the main purpose of rearing it๐). Reverence from others around was ‘natural’ when they can “see” that this beggar(me) is begging only for his_food, whereas we beg for everything else from_him!!!!
Today, begging is a COGNIZABLE offence ๐. So, I need to sophisticate it in order to make it inconspicous ๐, not to gain fame from sophistication ๐คฃ. That's another complication forced upon me due to today's social norms๐. It makes my task more thrilling, like a ‘HURDLE’ race! Keep jumping over the damn hurdle, and yet run fast!!!
Anyway, I am now more_or_less settled into what I want to do for the rest of my life๐… Choicelessness is the only_freedom!(A tool, for solving the puzzle of Enlightenment ๐. My blog “the most prized question” might convince a reader, as to how deeply puzzling is this enlightenment bijness๐. A NASA scientist, with degrees running into 2 lines of alphabets, had asked it on Yahoo answers forum. That forum is gone. But I captured that awesome question into my blog๐).
A beggar, yours,
psn(23 Feb, 2026).
Disclaimer: any reference to any person living or dead, is unintentional, and irrelevant. I am the sole recipient of any hurt, injury( both are very different ๐) though caused by me๐
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