Handling own Karma

 Handling own Karma

Ultimately, my experience of life decides how I enjoyed or suffered my life isn't it?

Unrealistic “desires” seemed to me, to be the only Major hurdle.

Mind which remains stuck to such unreasonable desires won't allow the ‘experience' of the present moment to soak in FULLY ( as far as I am concerned)

Mind decides upon desires using 3 major sources, mainly ( as per traditional suggestion)

1.praarabhda karma( accumulated+ unfulfilled desires of past lives)

2.inherited karma ( genes of parents and their lineage)

3.acquired karma ( influence of presently held desires chased by a) parents/guardian b) others around, throughout my life.

And, 

there is an UNMISTAKABLE choice vested in any human format of “life” as compared to all other life forms 😜. ( This was my huge clue!)

Almost on my_own_now….. happened when I was suddenly relocated far away from the people around me, who kept_on influencing me some_way_or_other. 

Exercise of choice ( as per my choice) gained maximum strength when I was left to decide on_my_own.

Workplace ( location away from all the present ‘influencers’ into my choices) seemed to bind my choices to some extent, owing to the contractual job obligations 🙏

My experience of how it happened with me:

I secretly, privately & personally looked at ill-fated privately employed youth around me paid far_lesser than me (1974).

Zero scope to_be vocal_for_local ( याने, private workers, same quality/qualification).

I decided " at least let me maximize my returns 🙏"

This parameter decided my intensity+involvement at workplace.

One hurdle popped up from union "your output is reducing job opporChutney for other unemployed 😡"

Without quarrel, I reduced/scaled down the visible_form of output😜.  ( Advantage: union guys aren't attentive enough to notice subtle levels of quality_performance....whereas stakeholders, that is customers noticed 😂.

No scope for "gratification" to clerks🙏. )

Focus on quality over 3 decades.... refused to deny certain qualities in me🙏 {slogging with "my" 100 intensity & involvement came to stay as a 'default' quality in me😓...   I was getting shaped for spiritual practices (from 1974 itself) which was to come only in 1992.}

My assessment of 3 decades of workplace.

1.all other life forms are 100% intense and involved during their whole life 🙏. Their karma is varied, but intensity is alike, to_their_own_best. ( Very little scope to accumulate new unreasonable/unrealistic desires 😜. Dissolve one_set of karma & quit). I was just freak_lucky to have chosen to get_lost_completely into working intensely with involvement. I replicated the attitude of mules😂. Mind_time unavailable to pamper desires.

2.continuity of this intensity at workplace ( paid hours) apart from stabilizing me into a pattern of mind, permeated a lot, incrementally, into my non_paid waking hours 🤣 

3.replicating this attitude of total involvement with intensity, BECAME effortless, when it entered my muscle memory ( body, as a whole, including brain, adapted this pattern)

4. Influence of others had lesser effect even post retirement ( I can ‘safely say so’ after 2 decades of “do whatever you like” phase of life, with a modest pension without working for it 😜🙏.  Yet, I am able to sustain MODESTY/frugality in my lifestyle, using the repetition of ‘fortunate than many others equally qualified’ wala thought 😔)

5. ( Several such items, likely to fatigue a reader🙏. Hence, the gimmick “etc, etc & etc”)

Mind turns meditative, with age and related infirmities. Brain functions slower. It suits to escape ‘processing’ of newer unrealistic expectations and desires 😜. Contentment seems like ‘default'. A cow awaiting a slaughter-house, or a neglected rotting, after it has ceased to yield its milk under captivity ( society, in my case🙏). Joke is, all other life forms die gracefully, inconspicuously and eco-friendly in their free-state, and I can't_desire to replicate them🙏. My intense practice of “death” as a guided meditation for 500 plus times, doesn't reassure me that I can do it at_will as_yet. At best, I may know “my game is over now👍” and it might reduce my dependency on traditional rituals as a free_soul 🙏.

Fortunately yours, 

psn(9 Feb 2026)