Please!
It is not about
'confusion' at all....
It is about addictions...
And only then, about the
confusion too, that we try to 'get-addicted' to!
Getting into groove.. is
a sacred concept, when we allow it to retain its sanctity...
Once we get engrooved, if
we seek to 'sleep' on the upper berth, drawing comfort from the
'thought' that this 'groovy-train' is going to take us
'all-by-itself' to our destination... no matter even if we sleep
beyond 'our satation' (station)... then we get stationed into yet
another addiction! Nothing more!
I read
'good-spiritual-blogs'... d-a-i-l-y... (“I got into the right
groove”... now it is the job of those stupid blogs to do
something... I cannot be bogged down into 'maintaining-awareness'
about it.. that is the 'stand' taken while deciding to sleep on the
upper berth of the spiritual train... 'good-masters' is that
upper-cozy-berth! Now, even that TTE is a dis-turbance...
'turbulance-like'! Only until he perhaps announces, 'saab aap galat
tarrain mei chad gaye ho!' Wrong train? “Oh! I forgot, both the
trains meet at either side of this stupid plaform at this station...
at the same time!... train is right... only the direction is
wrong... No problem! Next birth.. err... next berth... oh!
Kan-fused!”
I can only wish... but no
stature to ask... Mr.Krishna tried his best to first announce in
the preamble of each chapter, or at least at its end.. what it was
supposed to 'contain'... People expected each verse to 'convey'
(while the verse can only contain)... the truth!
(How can I find fault?...
Already it is 18 chapters long... listening to a lecture so long,
just standing, donning that 'heavy-metallic-armour' is no joke!... If
He were to convey what it contains, it might easily require 18
lakh-crores of 'something' (See, I am even addicted to talking in
terms of 'scam-scores'... lakh crores... not just 'karod',
corrodes... etc..!... Companies need to run! Big stake... so no
chances.. 'explanatory notes are going to 'convey'... what the
legal text is 'only allowed to contain' in its 'Notice for AGM'....
not really practical on a war-field, with a Gita-text!... Recently,
I saw and even 'felt' the pain! It was the momentous-moment!... The
bride awaits... the groom just 'waits'... the priest has to lead
the chants... the groom will just manage to groom-past what he
manages to hear..(like we run the comb to groom the hair)... and the
tie the knot! But 'addiction' took over! This priest-ji had recently
decided to get 'en-grooved' into restoring the past glory of Hindu
culture! No better occasion he said (he decides, he is
law-unto-himself, on priestly-matters!), no better occasion, he said
to himself, 'Everybody HAS to look at me.. I am the Zubin-Mehta for
once, here..' and thus thinking, he paused to give a lecture about
the sanctity of the knot! Nobody dare 'cross' him... (even other
wise, others are able to see the bottom of it... only that the “it”
here is the horde of photo-insensitive-team, the video, still people
who 'covered' literally too, the whole event !)... But there is a
'mike' who does the job.. So the herd is 'aebal-to-heard' through
loudly-espeekar... ! (Those who are
not-unable-to-heard-due-to-because-of-since-they-are-unable-to-hear-even....
deaf... are perhaps the only fortunate ones!)... The sermon
caught up...!
It so happened, this bride
is 'well-built'... might be 80+ (metric-system).. and the dad, on
whose laps she is ritualistically supposed to be parked, is a frail
old man, manages to hold on to that shaky folding-chair
(photo-logistics... the camera man decided the
least-visible-equipment)... But one good thing... it is now beyond
the dad to shake her off that easily... she is 'engrooved' into
awaiting, and the body is just parked like the vacant bogies on a
railway siding! )... As if my prayer on behalf of that en-burdened
dad got 'heard', somebody whistled... shrill note it was... the
priest saar diplomatically melted into a closing chant which rhymes
with an end not of 'Jai'.. and the knotty-knot happened soon!
We get 'addicted' to being
jostled into crowds each day!... Somebody tried to 'addict-fy' even
the resilience of Mumbaikars, when life-happened-as-usual, the next
day after a blast, and a few of them revolted!.... (I remember, I
asked a commuter of Mumbai local train, 'How do you manage this
travel in such a crowded train every day?' ... He smiled
philosophically, and said, 'Aadat ho jaata hai .. sab-kuch'... No
scope for me to talk about the 'subtle' magic of Maya-Madam, where
addiction comes camouflaged, and he is 'engrooved' for ages to come,
to allow Maya-Madam, to take up more important things! Now that we
are addicted to scam-news... exploitation-news... and
mega-addictions.. Maya madam has submitted an application for a
long-vacation-leave from her 24 X 7 duties... This time she did not
even suggest a 'reliever-substitute'... Addiction is the automated
robotic-intelligence-software instead!
( I am perhaps relevant...
only as long as I wear 'confusion'... when it is worn too often,
and then gets worn off, I too get weary, and then it is time to get
engrooved else where!... confusion, evades addiction... so I try to
guess... even in movies, the hero's intoxicant-effect seems to
evaporate when 'confusion' confronts him!)
Addictively yours,
psn (13th September, 2013)
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