Becoming
reverential is quite tough... (I was to learn this only during my
teenage.... And I still feel a little less fortunate about it, when
my counterparts of kid age, some 500 years ago, got it
'just-like-that'!... The silver lining is that 'I discovered the
advantage of reverence' )...
Some
'incidents' bring good-fortune along with it... If we are
somehow-alert, we benefit this fortune.
Somewhere
in my 4th or 5th standard, a late-comer to the 'academic-year'
dropped in.. His name was 'announced'.. 'Manas Mukherjee'... The
teacher asked the 'fellow' at the corner of the first bench to
squeeze in a little.. And I was that 'fellow'... So this Manas-ji
parked himself beside me.. The teacher also added, 'He is new ...
not only to this school, but this city too.. so try to make him as
comfortable-as-possible, till he gets used to this place, school, and
our lessons'.. The teacher then looked at me and said, 'You....
help him, as and when needed'.. (To me, it at-once announced a
tax-exemption from that ..... ranking in the 'class-monitor's list of
names of 'those-who-talked' in the class!' The rule was, we talk
only to the teacher when we have a doubt, and with the teacher when
questions were answered--- almost like our MPs are 'expected' to
address only the Speaker of the Lok-Sabha!...
'As-and-when-required' was adequate licence to remind the Monitor, to
ignore my frequent whispers to this Manas-ji was to be treated as
'help' and not that criminal-act of talkativeness!)...
That
is how I happened to ask him, 'Where do you come from?'.
“Kolkata”
he said, and I discovered, he pronounces only with a 'kol' for 'Cal'
of Calcutta... Now-a-days, we all are obliged to do the same when
the spelling adheres to the correct phonetics.
'Pooja
holidays' he said, when I asked about their usual
spell-of-merriment..
And
when he explained, 'Durga-pooja'.. I got alerted! The photo of Durga
is slightly different from that of other deities.. At that kid age,
the thought that occured to me was 'These people must be really very
courageous, to afford to do a pooja to that kind of godess!' To me,
it looked as if the Durga-ma had barely-calmed-down after a fierce
spell of Krodh/anger... and any error by somebody while propitiating
Her, might infuriate this anger very soon!.. I am not
'that-prepared' for such a risky-pooja right now, I felt then..
Much
later, I revisited these early memories, and tried to 'guess'...
such kind of propitiation might have to do a lot with 'Tantric'
rituals too(Tantra, expects 'reverence' at very high levels.. As per
Puranic stories, Parvati while learning Tantra from Lord Shiva, was
initially found to be lacking that reverence a little, when the
story-form called it 'shraddha' for easy understanding... )! And,
somebody who is likely to revert to an earlier spell-of-anger a bit
easily, is going to excuse/exempt only a
deep-reverential-attitude,... especially when we humans are prone
to fallibility! And so, the obvious choice of 'reverence-filled' form
of propitiation, be it Tantra too!... Oh! If this guess is correct
even to a little extent, then it does rhyme with the 'general-trait'
that such people who 'specialise' in reverence (due to the very scope
afforded by rituals, traditions, and its symbolisms), are also going
to be well insulated from the temptation to 'seek' recognition and
fame!.. What an amazing platform, from spiritual point of view! I
felt thus... 'Now it is worth looking out for more such subtle
details', I felt.. (And the rewards were ample).
The
next best option(when “Becoming reverential is quite tough”), I
found ..... was to consciously practice, cultivate and try out, a
reverence towards reverential people! (people to whom,
reverence was 'their way of being', a way of life, etc!).
Obviously, the people around me now 'mattered' from this
point-of-view also! And here, I happened to discover a
side-benefit... Trust found its own way, from me into them, while,
any pre-judice that crept it, collapsed a bit effortlessly, as the
gaze-awareness kept looking out for a tiny-bleep/beep/blink even on
that 'reverence-radar'! At times, these non-chasers of
fame/recognition threw a glance of surprise at me, when their
attention got caught at my over-enthusiastic stare at them!
Reverentially
yours,
psn(4th
June, 2014)
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