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Saturday, June 21, 2014

Witnessing a death!

On 14th June, 2014, I had the exclusive opportunity to witness the death of a person known to me very closely.

I had witnessed quite a few deaths over years. But this one offered quite unique lessons to observe,learn, and perceive...

Never before have I seen a person 'exiting' from the mortal body, while standing, and only when the life ebbed out did the body fail to stand erect. The 'exit' lasted just about a minute or so, with three brief inhalations, separated by longer duration after exhalations.

Never did I see a person (or even people around hear it too often), leaving the body without desecrating the outer surface of the body due to excretion at various levels, in different forms!

Only the palm and the feet became cold even after about 3 hours, while the temperature remained reasonably warm (if only the medical experts had not examined thoroughly, we as lay persons, would be tempted to imagine that may be, the person might even revive)....

What I witnessed, left a deep impact of the spiritual aspects of death... (my earlier sessions of meditative practices about a decade or more ago, had of course helped me to 'keep' that keen observant eye, so as not-to-miss any details, worth noticing...). The bulk of it is not worth describing here, since it would be only a 'yet-another-story' to the readers, and so I confine myself only to what 'might-find-some-appeal' (yes, as per my fair, sincere assessment, which is also out-of-a-genuine concern for others).

The 'death-in-the-air':
Most of us are almost familiar, when we feel that 'death-in-the-air' (the ambiance, etc), when we 'know' what to 'expect' when we visit for a death-condolence, especially when the body awaits a disposal)... Here, but for the body being kept for some three to four hours awaiting a cremation, the 'air' seemed to carry an aura of 'intense-life' instead of 'our-expectation' of 'a' death in the air! To further help a clarity, I would try to quote a very strange incident, when I visited a 'wedding reception' of the daughter of a very close spiritual co-seeker, whom my family knew quite well... My son, who was perhaps barely 8 years then, made an observation which he conveyed to me in a gentle whisper, when we were a little away from the reception-venue, while leaving homewards, “Hey dad, why did I feel 'a death in the air' at this wedding reception, when everything there ought to be 'positive', including the lavish decoration, the feast, the music-orchestra, etc?”... I told him, “Good that you waited to ask this, when we are well-out-of.... ear-shot... otherwise, it is a very inappropriate thing to ask in that-kind-of-a-situation”... And what I did not tell him was, I too felt almost the same, but then, I thought it was a 'erroneous' perception of mine... On the third or fourth day, I got the news that the bride's father died! If what we felt as 'death-in-the-air' was of any significance, then this one of 14th June was also of a greater significance, of a contrasting nature, and also of great value to me!

I felt, when I contemplated upon what I saw, was that... death is perhaps 'nature's' one way of ensuring that it gives a sample, a glimpse of spiritual-touch, at least by way of a 'parting gift' ... if so... what other occasion could be more befitting than death itself, when nature withdraws everything that it gave hitherto, to a 'being', a 'spirit'..!!! (Maybe, quite a few of us happen to miss, even that parting gift, a touch of 'spiritual-essence' as a 'glimpse', while all our life, we might have negated everything that has anything to do with 'spirit' or its related 'spirituality'!... Yes, I did rejoice the dawn of this 'revelation', which is perhaps confined to only me/my-grasp, while others have only a choice to agree out of their own experience, what ever it means, or to decide upon negating it, or at the best, keep it open as a possibility with a 'maybe, let me see' type of attitude.... When I felt thus, I was reminded of a teacher's opinion that ancient spiritual giants (especially those who took a 'Yogi's path', were quite keen to 'know' their date-of-expiry', the way we look at vital drugs, food-packs, etc ! Having known it, what else they do with this 'info' is quite an elaborate matter!).

Yes,
One more aspect was.... this person happened to share, witness and very keenly observe most of my 'activities', especially those related to my spiritual pursuits, for at least some 3 decades, and hence our levels of mutual-communication were quite 'more than average', and this channel of communication perhaps touched its admirable peak in that person's individual potential! Something that amazed me!

Deadly yours,
psn (21st June, 2014)


post-script: The use of 'deadly' has several contextual meanings... here I intended it as “Extremely accurate; unerring:” (the one I picked from 'the freedictionary-dot-com' to be the one that describes nearest, what I tried to say... spiritual pursuit has been inspiring me towards 'inclusiveness', and what better chance could there be, than when I try to use a closing salutation that says, 'Yours-etc'!. And yes, the choice is about relating it a bit closer to the very theme of the blog, so I own up the subtle 'dig' too! :))...)

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Discovery of a beggar in me!

"Why do we offer 'only' food/rice-grains to a beggar?"

One out of my long list of 'stupid' questions that I used to ask to elders around when I was a kid...

The elders parry such questions usually... The nearest to what might constitute a 'logical' explanation was “If we give them money, they might end up squandering it at the nearest country-liquor shop”.. and then the usual suffix would be “Now go and play” (an insurance against the next-possible-set of complicating queries, related to the 'logical-answer')...!!!

I was not quite satisfied with it....

A few years later, I came across a story, where the God of Gods, 'Shiva' took to begging... and his consort, Parvati, had to reach rushing, at the inaugural session of that 'begging' (they say it was Kaashi, Benares).. and offer 'food' after 'assuming' the form of a Godess, which came to be known as Godess of a 'Complete-planned-food' ... Anna-Poorna-Eshwari...!

Today, when I happened to look at a 'sutra' a thread... suggesting that 'being a beggar' is of great advantage to a 'seeker of spirituality'... it invoked the early childhood memories...

I did respond to the thread with a comment: quote: I am already a beggar!
This body was 'given' to me.. It grew, and got nourished with materials given to me..
Ideas came forth, and I call it a 'mind' (a processor to incessantly analyse data... Sometimes, the keyboard commands do not reach the processor, and system 'hangs'! )
...
The ancient stories tried to teach me this... (as I try to view it, understand it).. through a very heavy set of symbolisms... Shiva tatwa, says.. 'Bhawathi Bhikshaam Dehi'... and Shakti tatwa rushes to meet this 'humility' in the form of 'Annapoorna Eshwari' to offer the Bhiksha...
This was perhaps sought to be 'traditionalized' in the form of a ritual, when a 7 year old kid, gets initiated into 'shiva-tawa' and the very first experience that he is offered is when he is taught to say, 'Bhavati bhikshaam dehi' .. just thrice, and walk off.. (The woman folk are not to be left behind.. they tie a few fists-full of rice grains at the loose-end of their traditional attire, and reach the 'initiation-venue' to offer alms to this 'tender-young-fresh-initiate' and make intense efforts to pour out the entire love possible within them along with the fist-full of rice grains, thrice... increment-ing the intensity each time! In earlier days, it was an 'occasion' to feel what the 'energy-charge' means.. Now-a-days, it is the photographer who views it through out-sourced-vision, the lens of his camera while his own bottom blocks the view of others around!)
psn”
Unquote

And then I was reminded...

the earlier question haunted me for a few more years.. “why food?”

I had to conjure up 'something' to quench my thirst, out of my own resources (borrowed data bank, begged via perception, plus... my mind)
Maybe, (I felt).. maybe, even the richest and most powerful person on earth, does feel hungry, and as badly as the poorest/deprived fellow-being-of-him, when it is lunch time.. and it is the same material that they consume... food coming out of earth! (A rich man cannot substitute earth-originated food, with any other 'costly-material')..

This explanation did not seem to suffice! The whole of everything-and-anything that we can perceive at sensory levels has been already classified broadly into 5 basic 'elements' by ancient Masters .. it is earth-ness, fire-ness, water-ness, airy-ness, and space-ness! And food is the only substance that becomes 'me' at a gross level/body-level... So, 'food' does serve with adequate symbolism!
When an intense seeker decides to transcend (not by-pass) this symbolic-food... he works on the very same material (his body), and seeks to 'sophisticate' it further... And very much in-tune/in-keeping with our modern technology, which reduces dependence at gross levels, (example, we go wireless, from wired connectivity.. we go 'on-line' and 'in-real-time'/etc, from physical-proximity-connectivity/etc..)... this seeker dropped dependence on gross form of food, and went 'on-line' using his pituitary glands, which evolve/sophisticate, to directly get plugged to existance and seek food 'in-real-time' and .... 'direct'... (a few rigorous spiritual tools and techniques, which goes by the name 'mudra' and 'kriya' constitute the 'software' to activate the pituitary glands to do this function, when-needed-only, and not as a 'default-process)... The begging is still in-tact!... Only that the 'acknowledgement' to the 'Anna-poorna-Eashwari' is also now a bit subtle and more sophisticated!

Yours a beggar,

psn(11th June, 2014)

Wednesday, June 04, 2014

Reverence towards reverential people

Becoming reverential is quite tough... (I was to learn this only during my teenage.... And I still feel a little less fortunate about it, when my counterparts of kid age, some 500 years ago, got it 'just-like-that'!... The silver lining is that 'I discovered the advantage of reverence' )...

Some 'incidents' bring good-fortune along with it... If we are somehow-alert, we benefit this fortune.
Somewhere in my 4th or 5th standard, a late-comer to the 'academic-year' dropped in.. His name was 'announced'.. 'Manas Mukherjee'... The teacher asked the 'fellow' at the corner of the first bench to squeeze in a little.. And I was that 'fellow'... So this Manas-ji parked himself beside me.. The teacher also added, 'He is new ... not only to this school, but this city too.. so try to make him as comfortable-as-possible, till he gets used to this place, school, and our lessons'.. The teacher then looked at me and said, 'You.... help him, as and when needed'.. (To me, it at-once announced a tax-exemption from that ..... ranking in the 'class-monitor's list of names of 'those-who-talked' in the class!' The rule was, we talk only to the teacher when we have a doubt, and with the teacher when questions were answered--- almost like our MPs are 'expected' to address only the Speaker of the Lok-Sabha!... 'As-and-when-required' was adequate licence to remind the Monitor, to ignore my frequent whispers to this Manas-ji was to be treated as 'help' and not that criminal-act of talkativeness!)...

That is how I happened to ask him, 'Where do you come from?'.
Kolkata” he said, and I discovered, he pronounces only with a 'kol' for 'Cal' of Calcutta... Now-a-days, we all are obliged to do the same when the spelling adheres to the correct phonetics.
'Pooja holidays' he said, when I asked about their usual spell-of-merriment..
And when he explained, 'Durga-pooja'.. I got alerted! The photo of Durga is slightly different from that of other deities.. At that kid age, the thought that occured to me was 'These people must be really very courageous, to afford to do a pooja to that kind of godess!' To me, it looked as if the Durga-ma had barely-calmed-down after a fierce spell of Krodh/anger... and any error by somebody while propitiating Her, might infuriate this anger very soon!.. I am not 'that-prepared' for such a risky-pooja right now, I felt then..

Much later, I revisited these early memories, and tried to 'guess'... such kind of propitiation might have to do a lot with 'Tantric' rituals too(Tantra, expects 'reverence' at very high levels.. As per Puranic stories, Parvati while learning Tantra from Lord Shiva, was initially found to be lacking that reverence a little, when the story-form called it 'shraddha' for easy understanding... )! And, somebody who is likely to revert to an earlier spell-of-anger a bit easily, is going to excuse/exempt only a deep-reverential-attitude,... especially when we humans are prone to fallibility! And so, the obvious choice of 'reverence-filled' form of propitiation, be it Tantra too!... Oh! If this guess is correct even to a little extent, then it does rhyme with the 'general-trait' that such people who 'specialise' in reverence (due to the very scope afforded by rituals, traditions, and its symbolisms), are also going to be well insulated from the temptation to 'seek' recognition and fame!.. What an amazing platform, from spiritual point of view! I felt thus... 'Now it is worth looking out for more such subtle details', I felt.. (And the rewards were ample).

The next best option(when “Becoming reverential is quite tough”), I found ..... was to consciously practice, cultivate and try out, a reverence towards reverential people! (people to whom, reverence was 'their way of being', a way of life, etc!). Obviously, the people around me now 'mattered' from this point-of-view also! And here, I happened to discover a side-benefit... Trust found its own way, from me into them, while, any pre-judice that crept it, collapsed a bit effortlessly, as the gaze-awareness kept looking out for a tiny-bleep/beep/blink even on that 'reverence-radar'! At times, these non-chasers of fame/recognition threw a glance of surprise at me, when their attention got caught at my over-enthusiastic stare at them!

Reverentially yours,

psn(4th June, 2014)