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Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Sharing an Experience!

The best use of 'means of communication' perhaps, is in sharing an inner experience! It at once 'speaks' about the very perception levels of that individual!... The details of the outside situation which might necessitate the 'cohesive-binding' (like that maida-flour, crushed bread-crumbs of outer lining of a bread, or the rusk-powder... used to bind together the potato-cutlet, ... only then it roasts well on a tawa, the iron pan, and absorbs good amount of oil meaningfully, to give us the unique combination of crispiness at the outside, and the soft-tasty-inside together!... and yes, the sauce, if it is also 'khatta-meetha'... then 'yeh dil maange more' of it!)... that cohesive binding is what the trivial details of outside situation should ideally do, and should not 'take away' too much of the attention!

I am just-fresh... out of an amazing experience! I got 'entangled' into volunteering yet again, at this wrong age (60+), and the two others were very close people to me, who gladly agreed to 'try-out' , for a 'let-us-see-what-happens' kind of experiment...

What we did was on a 20-hours per day basis. (With me around, the waking time is more or less fixed, but not the 'getting-into-bed' hour!).

I was in for a unique experience! Just two others, and myself-the-experiment-steerer, .... We experimented with natural herbs at 4.30 am or so... followed by hectic physical acrobatics (to the extent that the body affords at this age!)... the body limitations were sought to be countered with deeper-states of infused relaxations! It worked wonderfully well! Only that the demonstration of a few 'gimmicks' triggered a heavy dose of 'edema' in me, and it caused a little discomfort and lots of pain-sensation , when I inadvertently 'got-lost' into the memory of what I used to do 2 decades ago, and pushed my body into such frenzy styles all-at-once, without even warming it up first! Yes, the pain subsided no sooner than when I inwardly 'apologised' to my nerves, and the build-up of fluids around waist decided to leave that place in a matter of few hours... this itself is a surprising 'response' from my dear-vehicle, the dear body of mine... which is able to be-friend me after quite a long spell of stoic-inactivity!

I found myself able to delve quite deep into the subtle traits of the two others, who had long-ago cast away their basic traits, which was so easily visible during childhood, but now camouflaged with 'masks' that the situation keeps piling on their 'persona' over the years! ( I suppose, eminent psychiatrists are usually grappled with this very task of 'reaching' into the deeper levels of minds of their patients, while attempting to afford a longer-duration-relief. And only then can the 'just-on-surface' symptoms be shaken up, shedded, and stoved away ... at least temporarily!.. A very very similar pattern to those 'very-intense-spiritual' practices of ancient days, where the Masters enable the disciples to 'do-it-yourselves' using tailor-made tools, ... of-course, at a proximity!)...

Their part of sharing of inner-experience is yet to come to me... it is only a matter of choice, purely theirs! But, I had such a wonderful experience, which opened up yet a few more doors and windows, to reveal very unique tools, that I am hardly able to contain the joy! Please see, even for people to 'stay' with cousins, friends, etc for a month long ... these days.. is an 'out-dated' concept! My entire child hood was at least one-and-a-half month stay with cousins/relatives at far away places, and the school's summer holidays provided very good provision for such experience (that left the 'tourist-attraction-places' to be visited as a 'later-on' choice, when I am able to stand on my-own-two-feet firmly... my dad found the 'economics' to be more viable to just keep on visiting the ancestral places of his , and the brother's of his spouse, to deposit the trouble-some kids for a while, and then to breathe freely for a few days!).. Now, it is just 2 or 3 days 'max'!

The basic traits surface when the mind is relatively distanced from a 'routine' and also relaxed, is what I got to notice... this at once brings in another problem... that of very frequent and quite-needless reference to past 'stories'... for which, the simple solution was to visit yet another set of past stories, push into it a few 'masalaa's' (fresh spices), make it animated, lively, and keep pouring it incessantly (my poor throat took the entire brunt of such hectic activity, and it turned hoarse in a very little while... but it got to understand that I am in no mood to descend into silence for a while even, and it churned out noises of all sorts!... much to the amusement of a listener!).... The only 'indicative' response was a 'wish' that we had a 'recording' device (a cam-recorder or so), to capture the eccentricities which were so amusing!

The whole exercise was not entirely without rewards... They found their physique to be still capable of responding amazingly... way beyond what the medicines and pills are 'expected' or 'supposed' to do by way of relief!... The spirit did soar a little above 'ground-levels', from the visible cheer all-through!... The gross physical weight got reduced by 2+ kilograms (I lost 4, in the bargain!... I also lost a little bit of 'hope' to become eligible for 'sensible' food, which I also happen to like very much, relish very much... when the first ever lipid-profile-test of my life revealed a couple of days ago, that I am a miserable 'normal' idiot, and it is quite 'okay' to use my stomach as a garbage can of all the junk-foods that our kitchen is going to churn out in the name of 'celebrating the in-coming 'diwalaa'... oops... diwaleee , sometime next week!)

Thus, yours,

psn ( 30th october, 2013)

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