How much should I eat?

 “Full tank” said my dad to the petrol filling assistant, while we were going on a journey of 350 kms long, in 1970.

In those days, petrol pumps on the highways were few and those would be dry.

The stomach/engine of that car would draw only the amount of food/fuel it needs. Residual petrol in the tank doesn't cause “indigestion”( I heard, even camels can “store” water in its belly like a car's petrol tank 🤣… enough for 6 months, walking through a desert!). The mechanic used to “look” at the exhaust pipe, (like a pathological lab examines stools-sample to know the stomach) to know the digestion ability of car's engine.

I was wondering…..

Will a non-vegetarian doctor “allow” chilliChicken/fried_mutton, etc for his non-veg patient in the ICU of his hospital? Why only few selected fruit-juices, that too….after that glucose/saline is taken off? ( sorry, I am not a doctor.  Please eat whatever suits you🙏…  I am only looking at “how much?”)

After a feast, I feel a bit drowsy.  “Hey!”, I wondered, “food is supposed to be a fuel. Giving energy. Then why feeling sleepy?”.  Only 2 possibilities. I have eaten something “tough” to digest, and my body diverted all its energy to “break” those junk items, reconstitute it into digestible form, push out a huge pile of waste through my-exhaust-pipe, with smoke/farts, if unavoidable 🤣

Only once, for some 11 months, I experimented eating only-that, which was_not placed on stove.  The waste that came out was too little,  and didn't smell foul like cooked food! I never needed a nap/afternoon siesta…. Felt energetic after eating that uncooked_stuff too. Most surprising thing was-----no issues with “full tank” 🤣😜😜… ( why i did this stupidity of going “raw” was, it suited for hectic spiritual practices😰🙏)

A kid asked his dad “can you help me? Mom said, you know better. What are the veg-items i dislike/hate?” ( true story🙏). Dad asked, “why such a query?”.

That kid explained “my classmates named their hated-veg items during our lunch. My turn came. I stared blank😳. I like to tell them honestly.  Please help.

That dad knew, his kid was trained into a spiritual secret “choicelessness is the only freedom”. At least about eating food. 

So, the dad found a way to help his kid, to make the right_kind_of_noises( socially acceptable stupid responses). He said, “look son, you aren't choosy about veg. That's good. But your classmates might laugh. The in_thing/trend is, to boast about one's narrow choices, by saying aloud, the dislikes….. so, why not you say ‘actually,  i dislike eating food itself. But what to do? I need to live!’ and you will sail through “( it worked for that kid! Now, his kid has also become choiceless about “what to eat?”... he eats anything edible, healthy and meant_for_human physiology 😰🙏… vegetarian foods)

My experience of “how much”( to eat) is…..I allow my hunger to decide. Mere empty_stomach isn't the deciding factor🤣.  When I eat junk, I ensure that the quantum is not a load on my stomach,  digestive juices secreted, or the energy left in me.  Result is, I dont need to eat “something” every few hours, like “regular medicine eaters”. I am an aged wolf-bellied fellow. Not comparable to “vrikodhara”( Bhima was known as vrikodhara/wolf_bellied, with insatiable hunger! Emotionally most stable among 5 pandavas! And therefore, no stomach related ailments😜). For my age, I still enjoy the deep_fried items offered to Godji-first, and then given to me as prasad! Healthy food is only during rituals on death anniversary date🙏😰. Mystic reasons👍

Hungrily yours,

psn(15 jan 2025)