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Sunday, November 10, 2024

what can be a debatable thing?

 🙏

What can be a "debatable" thing?


I learnt a precious lesson, about the "concept" around ..... "what CAN-BE  a debatable thing?"....


When, I too got "trapped" into a "debate, rather a fierce-arguement" about the famous "PF---PENSHUN"( option, compelled on employees of banks, to choose from. A paradox😜.. forced choice/option) choice. ( I stoutly refused to 'pay' ₹25/- for a printout from Trichy---somevwizard in software designed a program to project a future-amount of both....pf & pension, for a common basic pay. The union secy got annoyed at my refusal to pay. All others paid in that large branch, including scale-4 manager. I said"i never asked for it....nor do I need it. I am clear🙏...keep that waste paper with you," others unitedly scoffed at me, in 1995 or so...when 1st option came.


2 illiterate substaff defied union dictates and took my advice to take pension. I gave them a பேட்டி கடை கணக்கு ( simpleton's version like petty shop wala's arithmetic. I had to "device" a realistic example. They trusted me, more than they grasped my example. A decade later, they both showered praises....  all that was history)


Lesson was : I need to DEEPEN my perception about  what ought not to be debated  🙏


Topmost item i found was the 4 mahaVakyas----declaratory truths🙏

( this, pushed me onto an insurmountable task of delving into the subtlest of subtle truths🙏... because,  truths aren't debatable😜... 

The very-ardous nature of "delving into subtleties of 4 nahavakyas, turned into my best tool/means for self refinement🙏).


I am not trying to seek any concurrence in the foregoing words🙏.  Just a concluding remark from me, with all-possible sincerity in me🙏


Debatably yours,

psn(10 nov 2024)


PostScript 

To me,


These 4 mahavakya constitute the  true definition itself of "Hinduism"( everything else is its offspring😜....  cosmic truth---works everywhere in universe..... hence, "sanatana dharma"...  I could find "ways" to trace the roots of almost all kinds of ancient scriptures to these 4 vakyas🙏

An experiential-grasp of these 4....becomes a moksha😜... जीवन मुक्ति.... )

Sunday, November 03, 2024

One of the uses of meditation

 A few are allergic to trying a meditative practice ( numerous excuses arise----mind games. Mind turns cunning to devise excuses to repel any kind of meditation 😜)


We don't mind improving our logical & emotional skills ( it helps better-handling of life situations)


Any personal-skill, if subtle.... has its own vulnerabilities.  Susceptibility to extreme/stressful situations. 

Situation  can weaken its strength,  and the same logic/emotion might turn against us, instead of helping us to tide over a stormy situation 😜 ( like a grenade bursting in our hands itself, before we threw it on to the target).


We need a shield, a firewall, which can reduce the possibility of instability of our logic/emotion, due to a situational stress.

Meditation has a historical evidence for its efficacy, in providing a shield to retain the efficiency of our logical/emotional strength🙏


Inherent risks can also be reduced to a sustainable extent!




A practical example.



Suppose we are able to confirm, as to

which of the two faces vulnerability of situational threat ( logic or emotion)


Then,

Insurance premium "rating" gives us a motivation, from the way....the rates are decided for  raw-cotton in-transit.

Loose cotton in transit/in-godown  is charged a higher rate. Whereas, fully pressed bales are charged much-lesser😜 ( fully pressed bales means..... a machine compresses it and allows a metallic strip to be strapped around it about 4 times..... 2 straps around its 2 sides, length and breadth. Now, fire burns only the outermost surface of this tight-bundle. The inside is safe😅... oxygen-helps-combustion. No fire hazard in a oxy-starved area. 

Consciously calming the mind, helps logic and emotion to function behind a "firewall"....😜


MeditaShun is not to be shunned, hated, despised etc, if.....we want to safeguard our sensibility in using logic/emotion/both 🙏


Insurably yours,

psn(3rd Nov,  2024)

Saturday, November 02, 2024

Guru_twam

 Teacheliness ( can be a crude translation to gurutwam)


It is a concept, not a depiction of functionality of a guru.


In Indian lore, concept-of-concepts were too well developed, and perhaps, formed the “base” of desi spirituality. (Example: wateriness is liberally used to denote the molecular bond between Iron particles of a piece of iron rod, etc. Jala_tatwam is watering. Its functionality stretches to deepening a human potential to become capable of absorbing basic 5 elements (pancha tatwam) to provide water  into one's own body, effortlessly( 😜 this capability may trigger envy in a space-traveler, like astronaut or cosmonaut! )



I liked to look at a real like example.

I had a professor in economics at my college. I used to ask him a few questions, which come closer to core values in a human being, which affects the economics of a society!  Quite a few times he said “let me ‘search’ for an answer and then tell you.” I felt deeply impressed by his mind's courage to say thus in a classroom.


Then one day, the princi told me “do you know….in our 20 years of working together as professors, it is the first time I am seeing Dr.MGB greeting/wishing somebody a “good morning”!😳

I was stunned! Just ½ a minute ago that economist had mumbled a ‘good morning’ at me, which I repeated gracefully too🙏


Then one day, he asked for “psn” ( me), in the class! I used to bunk often to drive my dad's  car out of station,  on his official tours. Professor said"let him come, and then this new chapter”( he didn't  want me to miss that lecture!😰🙏)


Then one day, my dad quipped :”who's this dr.mgb?” ( I felt worried! Dad never bothered about my college life, education, literacy, whatever. He merely gave me my fees for the ensuing terms, nothing more)

I answered “any complaints against me? 🥺…he's my eckonomix/ economics professor “

Dad “don't know why, he sent word through our prof.rao “tell his dad, to ask psn to do a PhD in economics “


I felt inquisitive to know about Dr.mgb now! What a man! Why did he alone bother to treat me as his “blue eyed child?”? 

Over the decades, I got insight about Dr.mgb, in installments.


He authored a globally acclaimed book “Hindu economis”( he was a staunch communist at heart😜).

He retired as a VC of the university ( Nagpur).

Etc…..


The subtle aspect…..it just struck me🙏

Gurutwam. Teacherliness.

This man had learnt economics at the feet of a staunch Hindu, dattopant thengdi.  Obviously, the “Hindu_ness” would have permeated a “little” into Dr Mgb…. inevitably!😰😭

This hindutwa/hinduness, might have caused a little teacherliness/gurutwam to seep-into Dr.mgb😰🙏😜

( i could decipher no other better-reason, for him to “identify” the “potential-in-me” when I was just 19 yrs old, and a stupid-average-student🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣...  I am confident about the prevalence of this-potential in me, only now, at 70+.... 😰 gurus look for potential, not what a student is, right now! )


I was myself hunting for this gurutwam( the ability to identify a potential candidate, to pass on what I learnt thus-far), so that I don't “miss” my victims for my spiritual bla-bla 😜🙏…  I did acquire a “few” tricks of the trade😜…. 


Blabbering_ly, yours….

psn(2 nov 2024)


Wednesday, October 30, 2024

My tryst with yog-asanas

 Yog asanas.


1974 

Final yr b.com at nagpur.

Mind almost 'vacant'...🙂

I enrolled myself for 'asanas' class by a swami there aged 90+  ( he could do shiras-asanam on floor without support, standing erect on his head, steady🙂)

Lasted a month.

He sighted me in a couple of days, decided to fine-tune my postures( preferentially, compared to 99 others in that batch. We were100 learners)


The volunteers told me " you are the best & class apart". I felt humbled  🙏.

I felt lucky,  greatful etc.

I missed their exam after that month ( certificate, being govt recognized, meant a guaranteed job as a yoga teacher in govt school.  I was the topper too! The volunteers later said " you disappointed us, by missing the exam 😰". I had gone to Akola for temporary job in my bank, 3 months. I wasn't interested in any "certificate")


Till 1992 I thought "nothing more" to learn in these asanas. 


That founder of yoga-abhyasi-mandal , that swami is today in a samadhi at nagpur. A long queue to just bow once at his samadhi🤣... and I was taught by him personally, one-to-one, for 28 days,



When jaggi was reclining on stage, propping his head on one palm, enjoying music, and a volunteer demonstrating the same set of asanas.... I felt "teacher himself enjoying music? Not bothered to "watch" any of the 70 plus participants,  whether they need correction? ( but I was doing it flawlessly from first minute---1974 practice. )

3 day session ( compared to 30 days by Janardhan Swami 🙏

https://jsyog.org/  )

My-mind said " no comparison!"



The second day.....something strange happened in-me.

These postures suddenly started interacting with me, within me....waking up a strange+strong energy flow,  unmistakably 

Tears of gratitude 🙂

At once my mind conceded "no comparison"( same words, but in a 180° opposite direction 😜)

I understood what "yog" asanas mean? The teacher lying down was only resting his physical body and his 5 senses withdrawn. His "being" filled that huge hall, and was permeating into me 😳

I resolved " i have now....something very-very intense to work upon! These asanas are a huge benediction unto mankind!" ( never had to look back afterwards. My gratitude to janardhan swami multiplied many times, for "seeding" those postures in me in 1974🙏. It made jaggi's task simple! He just flooded his pranic energy into me😶... I understood the sequence, though 20 years apart. Masters coordinated thus





The sense of gratitude, transformed into a resolve

I will, when I become sure, help others towards this experience.  The  only payback possible

This resolve, instead of granting me any satisfaction, multiplied the indebtedness for me😰🙏😭... the experience of volunteering educated me about the process of imparting what I learnt, the subtlest of all sciences---spirituality.... 

This time, I understood "futile to attempt any effort to try a repayment of this huge indebtedness🙏"( just keep doing my best, and remember--i can never hope to repay😰🙏). 


Vacantly yours,

psn(30 oct., 2024)

Monday, October 28, 2024

I am an idiot

 Yes.

And this idiocy is a part of the original equipment in me ( karmic/causal body)


Why else would I misconstrue that sage Patanjali was addressing the first line of his monumental work ( yoga sutras) in a strange way,......was being to be addressed to me? 🤔


And now, yoga … he says ( अतः yoganushasanam). When you ‘saw' that nothing else has worked, now……the discipline of yoga! A teacher even emphasized this to me ( a guru who opened my eyes using strange non-invasive and subtle surgery. A bearded one, whom I knew as jaggi, in this birth! He even went to the extent of demonstrating to me, by me, for me…...about a possibility of the phenomenon  called rebirth 😜 . He did it quite-irrefutably.)


Thus the embedded nature in me that “this author was addressing only_you, you-idiot”( others were given a litmus test in the very-next verse/sentence, and therefore bulk of the reader adopted a need-not-read further, or read plus forget👍). Nature provided a teacher as well, for my lessons in yoga, and he taught me how to stay “within his range, irrespective of proximity”. Mobile towers need certain periphery to remain within its range of connectivity.


This “meant for me” concept took deep roots in me🙏😰

I started misconstruing that, the welfare of others around is my primary concern ( duty consciousness…..as opposed to “fight for my rights” wala attitude….😭). I have been paying a heavy price for this misfit-attitude. Only of_late, being battered mercilessly, i learnt to try-to-disengage myself in its manifest-form, from the lives of others 🙏


Now that I have explained about the unique and beyond-repair idiot-in-me,

look at a few souls who went unacknowledged …..

The evaluator of an answersheet who awarded a centum to an examined, was never known to have been a recipient of "thank you" from the centum/gold medal awardee😜…  the teacher gets thanked, the parents & well wishers get thanked. Ironically, a fellow getting lesser or fail scores seldom misses to curse that paper-evaluator🤣. Only brickbats for him, no bouquets 🙏😰.

Saturn too is looked at as a punishing_evaluator, despite his label as KARMAPHALAdaata/giver of fruits of past actions ( i am a “living evidence” that saturn gives blessings too🙏. And, Unconditionally too. I never had to propitiate shani-dev.  Mind you he is dev…god….not shaitaan/devil 😜. Gods are benevolent and not vengeful 🙏. Just that, he/saturn is assigned the unpleasant task of awarding NEGATIVE marks as well. If,  the failures with negative scores are in majority, is it fair to curse a “god”? Shani-Dev?

Oops! None of my concern….what you choose to call-him! 😞 sorry!


When a whole_perspective is based on a stupidity like “meant for me, addressed to me, for my sake alone, my duty unto others, others are my concern etc”…..the functionality of such an idiot(me) presents no difficulty to identify  me as an ‘original idiot’.  ( nature obliges by responding with a smile, when I look at earth, trees, air, water, sky and space etc……as “meant for me…my mom, from whose womb I came forth” etc!.  I can perhaps, find solace in the lap of this mom, not too late, either as ashes, or as decomposable organic garbage!)


Hope this helps, 

those around me( my victims, especially) 

to try to find a “way”

to pardon me for

My Unpardonable idiosyncrasies 👍


Idiotically yours,

psn(28 oct 2024)


Our inbuilt OBSERVATORY labs

Our inbuilt obsevatory labs

Normally,
Parents miss to "notice" a kid's "growth".
If....physical growth is so difficult to "notice"( seeing the kid daily,  is the attributed reason), then what about the subtle progress of mind,  intellect, response-system, reflex mechanisms and numerous other subtleties?

🙂

Instead of dismissing it, what if we decide to sharpen our observation?
( we will sharpen our focus, attentiveness, attention span, quality of grasp, quieting our mind for better intake, etc...long list!)

This quality might come handy to improve our-own  faculties of sensing.
We might "notice" early signs of infirmity, dementia, unsteadiness, lack of body-mind coordination etc...setting into our aged parents,  and try reversing the process to possible extent.

Extended benefits? We won't         miss
1)Early signs of dis-loyalty creeping into the trusted people around us!( something that espionage agencies specialise into 😜)...

2)Early signs of a chair becoming weak in offering resistance to our weight😜, and we avoid a fall!

3) early signs of moon's extreme phases causing imbalance in weak minds( mental health homes specialise in this 😆)

4) etc.... long list.

Such observations,  if it happens effortlessly.... we end up living-in-the-moment!

Ah yes!
Kids are the motivators for honing our skills of observation.  Because, we love them Unconditionally ❤ 



Observingly yours,

psn(28 oct 2024)

Thursday, October 24, 2024

Random thoughts getting fulfilled

 

Those of our thoughts......

Which are in synchronicity with cosmic laws ( technical name for cosmic laws, has been for thousands of years, known as Sanatana Dharma.

Almost every one finds......
random thoughts of theirs, getting fulfilled ( appearing to be like a "miracle".... anything we do not understand,  seems like a miracle), though such thoughts are a bit rare. True spiritual seekers find the frequency of its occurrence to be a bit more than average!

The phenomenon is scientific. The 'snag' is.... its occurrence depends on stringent-conditions.

( i am able to notice an increasing rate of its occurrence in me😭.... I am therefore a little over overcautious about what-i-think. I call it side-effects of becoming meditative. Obviously,  I dont expect subscribers to this experience of mine🙏. It defies known-logic in psychiatry😜)



Randomly yours,

psn (24 October,  2024

Wednesday, October 23, 2024

Stormy life events

 We go through stormy sessions in our life.

This hectic schedule, bulk of which is about the 'situation' that drives you, pushes you to the limits ( what our mind aptly describes it  as "just surviving the storm" 😂),....

has certain advantages as well, only if we "had-happened" to use our tools of awareness and alertness.

In fact these 2 tools get invoked during that "storm" ( crazy navigation for survival leaves us with no choice about using our alertness and awareness). 🤣

Then what is the point?

Focus.
Where is our focus during a storm which has gripped us? Maneuvering 'somehow' isn't it? We 'feel choiceless about focus on  quality of our performance. Even an Olympic sprinter does a mad -run when chased by a tiger( he simply forgets about track-technique, breath-management, foot-work, optimizing elbow swinging....etc.  Ofcourse, he invariably does better than average common people, merely because of muscle memory, acquired over years of practice, in running for sports-racing. His focus is on survival from tiger,  not about creating a world record😜)

What if.....
We had already practiced adequately, to maintain a bit of self-awareness? This self-awareness, can co-exist parallel to our activities on the outside, whether hectic or normal-paced 🙏
Without that self-awareness, the "advantage" of any stormy-session  is out-of-reach!

Self awareness is a powerful defense against the vulnerability to emotional imbalance. We are equipped to be forewarned about likelihood of losing our emotional balance. 🙂
An emotionally balanced mind handles even-a-storm better than otherwise🙏.

And, during a drive through a storm.....the susceptibility to losing our emotional balance is highest ever!

Self awareness helps recalling of even-minor details of the experience during storm, when we are in a calm-after storm. Recalling of memory in a cohesive-sequence helps immensely for learning and value addition. Compare this with an imbalance of emotion, which snatches away our ability to even properly store the events in memory ? Recalling meaningfully is out of question. All we remember is how-mad-we-were 😰😜🤣🤣


Calmly yours,

psn (23 October 2024)