Curse of oldage

 Curse of old age

Ancients had transcended this curse, by deepening awareness, and adding buoyancy to it. (Awareness works only when afloat )

I may 'forget' now, owing to age. 🙂

Aged ones forget useful things and forget having repeated nagging worries 😂 (enough to irritate the 'few' who had_desired to help the oldies out of mercy/pity)

During youth, we manage to curb our own habits which nag others and display_more our 'helpful' abilities . 

Many don't realise that helpful/pleasantries' in us aren't habits. It's always 'conscious' actions😜

Whereas, the negatives are like second-nature.

With aging, conscious ones recede and habits dominate  😜

( That's how,  hitherto 'good' natured parents/in-laws seem to turn 'ill-mannered' now)

Result? 

Youth decide : I still love them. But, 'practically' better to fund them at an old-age home😥

Buoyantly yours,

psn(27 Sept 2025)

 Intensely Boring

I am wrong 🙏

It should be “most boring” 😜🙏🙏🙏

But, I liked to stress on my intensity with most boring ‘routine’.

It started like this..,..

A teacher in my 4th ( I must be just 10 yrs or so), at the last session before the year was over said “you all are going to get promoted to your next class, 5th.

there is no promotion for me ( a smile 😊)”

My ½ mad mind started its second track of inside_audio : “ dat's tru!!!! That poor teacher is”ill-fated” to keep repeating the same stuff to every batch for years🙏. How boring her routine must be?🤔🤔”

At that age, mind jumps to ‘next’ thought 😜

No question of “still water runs deep” wala proverb to display it's functional swaroop/form 🙏

But that thought ( wonder_element in it) stayed and kept visiting me like an annual ghost( my grandfather’s ghost is ‘welcomed’ annually, by my dad, I knew from the shraadha ceremony, a ritual at my home).

At workplace, I decided to try ‘like that teacher's( for fun only)🙏

Try to be intense in writing passbook for bank's customers. ( I borrowed a thought from my seniors, not waiting to know from my_experience, when they prophesied “passbook writing is a wretched and boring routine, but we are paid to do it ( with that ugly facial expressions 😠😓😰🥶🥵 etc)

With no scope to expect anything out of “paid COPY-PASTE job, ledger–to–passbook”, I kept intensifying CONSCIOUSLY 🙏

( Awesome rewards! But I won't ‘bore you here with those rewards’)

Next level of confronting boring task😜

At around 40, I volunteered to help freshers with backup support at a yoga centre, with what I learnt in my program earlier.

I bettered my teacher, who repeats only once every year, the text lessons, she might have felt to be a boring_routine for_her!

How to do, pranayams—daily_repeat,  for 6+ years. How to do 3 guided meditations, twice a week repetition for same 6+ years 😜

I was “in” for a pleasant surprise!

These DAMN_boring subtle practices started its job inside me . It became noticeable only after a ‘boring 4 years long time 🙏” 

After those 4 years, becoming ‘intense’ got automated. Default software.

That automation infected too badly, any damn thing I think, say or do 🙏😓😭😭😭

( Didn't I reveal the secret about why “I am the most DETESTED person to my close ones? Physical proximity in ‘close people ‘ not emotionally close ones🙏)

Boredom got bored of me 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Boringly yours,

psn(25 Sept 2025)

Feasibility and viability

 Feasibility and viability 

Is it feasibility or its viability which persuades us to use the words ‘viable and feasible’ quite interchangeably and unmindful of its  intrinsic sense? (🙏😜)

Operation Sindoor: viability wasn't a serious issue for few super power nations. Only feasibility was.

Whereas, for Bharat, viability was doubted by ‘big’ nations, and feasibility was ‘out of question’

Modi, as a PM, ignored the viability aspect, but slogged for 48 hours without sleep or break, to churn out this operation called phase 1, Sindoor. The magnitude, the scale, the effectiveness, unprecedented levels of precision + logic_defying brevity of hours too, will CONTINUE to stupify Military geniuses all over for a long time. Feasibility as a concept personified, decided to surrender to the combined patriotic might of the 3 armed forces, fuelled by Modi's unbridled grant of freedom to the army 🙏

Emotions don't yield to logic. Therefore, these two terms cease to confuse an emotionally_driven mind, intensely charged with highest positivity like patriotism, inclusiveness ( vasudaiva Kutumbakam) etc🙏

When a mind is the decision maker, about a spiritual pursuit, probably ( my guess), both ‘feasibility’ and ‘viability’ dictate their supremacy effortlessly. Emotions, if at all it tries to be charitable, only fights against ‘air’ with its sword, in futility, and the unseen adversary of emotions, laughs at emotions!

Once, the spirit awakens, both these fictional entities vanish, just as light never gets to “see” it's natural adversary, called darkness😜🙏

Non-feasibly yours,

psn(21 Sept 2025)

Gifted people

 “Gifted” people 

Each one of us is “gifted” with atleast one thing, in the strict sense of the word. 

Life is a gift. Not something that a female womb can manufacture by the conscious efforts of the Madam who ‘gets’ pregnant. ( It is entirely an other matter that we ignore any commonly occuring gift🙏😭

Gifted poet.

Effortlessly composes a poem, extempore. In fact, when he ‘becomes’ deeply emotional, that gift turns his verbal-thought-process into a poetry🤣 

I came across a story where, a commercial movie director ‘exploited’ a gifted_lyricist into composing a song 🤣. Tune had to be ‘set’ to suit the lyrics, for a Change 😜🙏.

He invited that lyricist to a ‘wet’ party(drinks) where he would suddenly confront a lady of his platonic_love, decades ago. She too was unaware of that ‘chance’ meeting of her ex-love!! The emotions surged volcanically. The poet, said “chalo ek baar phir se, ajnabi b’an jaayen hum donon”( “come on, let's both turn into strangers once again!”... To re-live those moments of platonic_love). The director had already”arranged” for a shorthand writer to take down the song-dictation🙂. A famous, ever green song now👍!!!

(non-poets like me express it as “I have no words to express my feelings” instead of accepting the truth “I am not gifted”😞 

Original equipment. That's what a gift is. Sixth finger at birth is of no commercial use. Probably that person can “show” open palms vertically to mean a “eleven” while we can display only ten. (I wonder ‘what will the Aadhar software do, with the fingerprint of sixth/eleventh finger’s impression? 🤔 ख़ैर, जाने दो 🙏 )

Nobody had to “push”/nudge me into spirituality. Even I had to ponder/wonder for 3 long decades “why am I like this?( Criticism for my oddity about my thoughts which got articulated, and invariably irritates all those who were not-gifted with born_deaf physiology 😜, made/compelled me to “look” for only_something_Wrong with me🙏). Only when I bumped into a professional, who could talk the way i_used_to_think, that “looking for a manufacturing defect” got completely reversed😜….  Effortless pursuit, then on. The timetested ancient tools seemed ‘gifts’ for me to play-with, joyously 🤣( a kid, if gifted with a toy that makes him joyous, doesn't bother EVEN about hunger in his stomach, and keeps playing with that toy. That mom searches for rare moments when the kid would open his mouth a little to push the tiny morsel of baby_food!🙂). I even wondered about Gifted Masters who could ‘sight’ gifted spiritual seekers, by merely sensing their vibes(quantum mechanics, being the gift_of_experience, here🙏.  Whereas, I had to SLOG, in an unprecedented direction( for a decade), to ‘deserve’ a coveted gift, my teacher had!😓. He could ‘see’ if the meditation is REALLY happening in a person sitting squatted, eyes closed. All of them “look alike”, squatting cross-legged, eyes closed !. No way to make out that ultra-subtle difference, which they-themselves don't know 🙏😭

How to discover that hidden/latent gift in us, other than the_best_ever Gift of a life_with_a_human form, in us????

The only way that I came across is,  to fully use that sense_of_discrimination “gifted” to all humans born with “volitional consciousness”🙏🙏🙏.  

Giftlessly yours,

psn(21 Sept 2025)

Atheism

 Atheism

Google(search) says: Denote refers to the literal, dictionary definition of a word, while connote refers to the implied or associated ideas and feelings a word suggests beyond its primary meaning. For example, a rose denotes a specific type of flower but connotes love, romance, or beauty.  

If the foregoing is acceptable, then…. The word “Brahma” is used as connotation and denotation, both!😂

People often_think of only_the denote, in the personified_form(a deity with the attribute of a human form with 4 heads, 5th one got chopped off!) in Brahma. They miss the “romance” in ‘brahma”, referred in the primary one of the 4 declaratory truths ( pragnanam Brahma)

The base of Hinduism is the 4 declaratory truths. It stood the test of time, welcoming atheists of all-sorts to deny it ( these 4 truths are not any kind of connotation or denotation, like the word “God”. Worst disadvantage is, these 4 are experiential truths, unavailable for a grasp through communicable words or emotions 🙂)

Atheism finds its existence only in the lack of experience of connoted_verbal_forms, referred by theists.

Honest atheists need courage, in its highest form. Historically, spiritual Gurus are EVER on the ‘lookout’ for genuine atheists. Genuine or honest atheists are measured by the INTENSITY_LEVEL.  Courage becomes their ‘tool’ to lead them into liberation/moksha! Courage ( to be a staunch, honest, genuine and powerfully_intense atheist) happens to be more formidable one, than all_other_tools in spirituality 🙏. 

Convenience of being an atheist is ironically 

the_most_popular form of fake_atheism 😂

Escapism works in the connotation of fake_atheism, and is very effective in confusing non_intense_theists. ( Popular quotes by famous political_atheists works as powerful ‘tool-kits’ to convert gullible folks to ‘believe’ into their atheist-ideology( not even worth as a ‘philosophy’; just_an ideology 😜).

Dishonest atheism suits cleverness, cunningness and all such PARASITICAL traits. They bring disrepute to genuine atheists( who adhere to Ethics, better than believers🙏).  Almost like, imperfect criminals who get caught, cause a disrepute to highly skilled criminals, who demonstrate that crime can also be perfect👍( only the ‘karma’ of a crime is unavoidable, in a perfect crime. Otherwise, it's a win_win thing😜). Whereas, unlike a perfect_crime, a perfectionist in atheism is faster than believers into the Ultimate human possibility, that is Liberation/moksha 🙏…( a true atheist, is an atheist for his personal reasons, not to propagate it 😜. He might even ‘pose’ like a believer, to avoid embarrassing his near & dear ones🙏)

I don't know if….

Theism connotes only a ‘belief’ and doesn't imply a living experience of those 4 truths. In which case, the liberated ones TRANSCEND the classification itself, as theists or atheists. ( Example: DNA test has obviated the ‘need’ to be a theist about Mr. X , being my biological dad😜.  Likewise, I ‘know' I have a pair of hands, and I am typing this with it, so I don't ‘need any belief's that I have two hands! Genuine seekers, that_way, turn as Ex-theists, once they ‘experience’ these 4 MahaVahyas🙏. )

Aadi Shankara established the 4 mutts, not for propagating any theism, andf…….not in the least, to engage into mass_conversion from atheism, BUT only with the purpose of making the 4 truths better_reachable to all the humans ( no matter what they believe or disbelieved in🙏)

Ex yours,

psn(17 Sept 2025)

CopyPaste a Wisdom

 CopyPaste a Wisdom 

A historic example of USE of sense_of_discrimination 🤣

In Indian army,

soldiers hailing from North(Hindi belt), laugh at Mallu soldiers who "settle down" for the humble "rice_water/chawal-ka-paani", kanji...

Mallus gulp this mockery too, quietly ( they were 'brought up' that_way..... What to do???😥)

1962 war against China.

Rations couldn't reach soldiers at the mountains. They pleaded "at least Bullets?🙏🙏🙏"( My NCC ustaad narrated his own experience 🙏)

Mallus offered Charitably 🤣 "you can have the rice. Give us just_the_kanji 👍"

Within 4 days "WISDOM" dawned on Non-mallu soldiers 😜😜😜

Kanji helped to fight back "fatigued_starvation" f-a-r better than plain_cooked_rice, stripped_off it's STARCH.

( Par_boiled rice, is an age_old_practice, in Kerala..... whether they are stubborn Hindus, or flexibly_converted_christians/muslims! 😜...  Starch becomes better digestible, in parBoiled rice, though the cooking _time&fuel is costlier than raw rice 🙏)

Today's mallus aren't that_good at using discrimination. Their CopyPaste benedicts them🙏

(My 'take' : at least copy paste a tradition which withstood the test of time, if it looks harmless to do, not waiting for the 'scientific' reason to DAWN into me😭... Life is too short, and my sense of Discrimination  awaits a teacher who can teach How_to_use it best? Even B.Ed/M.Ed colleges don't teach the teachers this🙏)

Outdatedly yours,

psn(13 Sept 2025)

superfluous apology

 superfluous apology 

We have come to love it so much that we are now really scared about listening to truth in any of its forms. 😜🤣

Just look at this possibility. We inadvertently clicked the “grievance” menu instead of the “feedback” menu from the ‘dropdown list’ of a customer portal, and wrote an appreciation there. We get an acknowledgement email in 120 milliseconds, which might look somewhat like this:

“Dear valued customer,

We sincerely apologise….( bla-bla-bla)....”

And a footnote: This is an automated reply.

😜.  ( Apologies AUTOMATED 😳…. meaning :”you are such a dumb fool, that even an automated-apology pacifies you! Psycho?)

A true incident in my life:

Just a week after I sat at a public counter as a novice, straight from home( zero training in “customer service”, so…..no plastic_smile training),

A customer of the bank barked at me. I had tried to point out some omission by him, in a document.  I kept quiet, looking into his eyes.

The manager summoned me aloud, and sent a subordinate to ‘request’ that customer too, into his cabin.

After briefly listening to the customers version, that manager got up, joined his palms(🙏) and told the customer:” sir, I apologise to you, on behalf of this clerk (me, psn)”

We both came out of the cabin. I went to my desk and the customer stride away, with his chin-up👍

After 5 minutes, that manager called me in, again! 😳

Manager :”you were right. He was wrong. His barking was inappropriate & uncalled for”

Me : “sir, then why the apology?”

Manager:”we are here to deal with his_money, not for mending his character”( lesson number 1, for me)

Me: “ Sir….then I should have apologised, why you????🤔”

Lesson number 2 now , manager : "which pleases him more? Manager's apology or clerks? I used an adverse situation to further strengthen his customer_relationship😜…. Did you see? He walked out ‘proud’..”

The joke was,

That customer surfaced at my counter 10 days later 🤣

Armed with”customer strategy” I rose to stand up, and lavished a “welcome sir, thank you for trusting me to serve you again, despite my mistake few days ago…. What can I do for you 😔🙏”

Customer: “ no no no…. I just came to tell you ‘sorry’ ….. I was not myself that day. Your words didn't sink into me properly, until I recalled it a day later, when I was relaxed. Please try to forget my bad behaviour that_day” ( 🤔  😳😳😳…. What should I say now, to suit ‘best customer service ‘? To a close friend, I know what_exactly to say. But a novice_yet?...  I nodded sheepishly, leaving him to fill in the blanks, for my loss_of_words)

3 decades later, I met a person, who possed a “spiritual guru” in him. He scolds, bashes, reprimands ( etc) his disciples quite mercilessly 🤣.  By a strange fate-or-luck, I was just one of the 2 fellows out of thousands of his students in spirituality, who didn't get a “chance” to apologise for my mistakes/miss_takes/whatever! Others, mostly, avoided being ‘vocal’ about the scope for their apologies ( it's their choice, so no comments from me🙏). Over and above that, something that others couldn't ‘help noticing’( over a decade of tutelage under him) was, he never refused or declined any request of mine🤣😜. I rarely had any occasion to be ‘vocal’ about my request! He reads minds too well😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Unapologetically yours, 

psn(12 Sept 2025)

Cruise mode

 Cruise mode

Mechanics has evolved enough to necessitate the coming of a phrase like “cruise” mode 😂

As I understand it, ( as a lay person), the alertness & awareness of the progress during the cruise mode, needs to be ‘all-the-more’ enhanced. 😜

Auto-pilot doesn't imply “forget about piloting” …. It only means “every cell of your body and brain can now-afford to focus at its peak-level on all aspects of the flight with greatest possible intelligent_alertness, having freedom from mechanical movements of your body🙏

Then it struck in me 🤔 

Hey! The ancients of satya-yug, were literally on a cruise mode, on their spiritual journey. TrethaaYug needed a bit of human intervention. DwaparaYug messed up a lot, leading into the chaos of KaliYuga that we are into now!🥺….  Even manual controls aren't really ‘working’. No bearings available to ‘read’ about where we are headed 😕. All we can see is people around are crashing into what we call as death! We stopped looking at the possibility of getting out of the aircraft, after a safe_landing, walking down the tarmac with a smile! (“Leaving the body, walking out at_will” is no_more a thing that somebody is going to look at as a possibility)

Hindu_way_of_life, known as ‘Sanatana Dharma’ was the manual, meant for cruise mode of flight into the Ultimate human possibility —-liberation/moksha/enlightenment 🙏

I am not trying to persuade my reader to get themselves educated into that manual ( cruise mode of living… or the ‘Art of effortless Living’. That's their choice 🙏👍…). 

I was only looking at what happened with my-life, during these seven decades, and was wondering as to “what am I doing now?”, when my mortal frame is handing over back to mother nature, the gifts I received at birth 😜…

A cruise mode….. is what I can describe, about my present life style past 70 years of age 😂.  I did whatever ‘best’ I could, all along, using all the hurdles, and chaos of the situation that KaliYuga offered to me, as an opportunity to grow faster, when each tiny step is a huge struggle, with every force working against me🤣🤣🤣. A memorable journey 👍. Enriching experience!  In all probability, those souls up there ‘somewhere’ keeping a vigil on me, might even_be feeling an envy, that these hurdles in-fact, intensified my spiritual growth 😜😜😜

Cruisingly yours,

psn(12th Sept 2025)

Communications network

 Communications network

In ancient Bharat, 

The SOPHISTICATION was inside own physiology (hardware  designed by mother nature)

Only the fine_tuning required a conscious choice, till it was turned into an EMBEDDED software, conveyed genetically 🙏 ( here again, invoking-of-software was a matter of own_choice 😜)

Using the hardware provided by nature had major advantages.

One significant example is, a thought goes to the recipient like today's ‘guided’ missile SEEKING it's moving_target.

A sample of its Unique utility : 

Oldies die in the wilderness of a deep forest, migrating there after the ritual called “shashti_poorti”, completing a half of lifespan of 60 ( those days 120 was average mortality rate)

Now the offspring needs to know the “date” of death of his dad, to invoke his blessings on anniversary. From a forest, a WhatsApp number? 🤣 ….  Thoughts travel ( impliedly, that Vaanaprastha_dad, knows well “here & now, I am abandoning this mortal frame, let me message to my offspring 🤔”

All the aforesaid non-sense seems ridiculous isn't it?

Personally, I started saying “Lemme see….may be it was possible“ when….

When….when……

I witnessed my gandpa’s younger brother and his wife communicated via guided_missiled_thought 😜 (I might have been barely 8 years old.) . A large ancient house. Lengthy backyard & frontyard. That grandma told me “kiddo, take this ‘kindee’ of water for your grandpa to wash his feet. (‘Kindee’ is a brass alloy vessel with a tubular outlet). 

I hurriedly reached the gate of front yard. He just walked in there !!! ( How did this lady KNOW???🤔) I quizzed that grandpa “how does she know, you are reaching the gate, when visibility from backyard is impossible?” He just chuckled saying “it's like that !”( I crosschecked it a few more times, during each of my summer holidays visits ….. to confirm the ELEMENT OF REPETITIOUSNESS, before shaping it in my mind, as a scientific Postulate.  It repeated 🙏😓😓😓).

35 years later…. 😜

A co-participant of a spiritual yoga-program suggested “hey psn, shall we try/test? Our teacher said that thoughts can be communicated!!!”. He added “you send a thought to me

 You are better at it”

He responded on a Sunday evening, by diverting from his errand(to carry jewels to his relatives far away on his motorbike).

He only ‘felt’, he should reach my home, where I was idling on a recliner chair😜. He confessed “something in me drove me to you house. No logic, no reasoning, no emotions, nothing. …. Now I recall, we had decided to ‘experiment’ 🤣… damn thing worked! Only tragedy is, no VERBAL format of your thoughts. But far-more FORMIDABLE than words🙏… don't do it again! It's not comfortable at all ☹️”

That was the ONLY one time, when I experimented it CONSCIOUSLY, and at will. 

I am thoroughly convinced about the flawless technology.

It doesn't matter, if it lacks appeal to logical minds. 🙏

Communicatively yours,

psn( 10 Sept 2025)

Setting up a Marker

 Setting up a Marker

Most of us ‘think’ only about a ‘goal’ and plan about chasing, reaching or tracking it.

Markers are Unavoidable for sportsmen, bowlers in cricket, because there is an authorised eye to ‘disqualify’ them, if they overstep that marker.

As a MEGA-example of true-sportsman-spirit, I felt unduly Lucky to find a TRUE story in my English text book lesson at my school, and it became a “marker” for the rest-of my-life 😜

The link for that story ( if the reader has tolerance for long narrative)....   https://www.bbc.com/sport/athletics/articles/cd1xlr5ewrro#:~:text=It%20was%20an%20instinctive%20sporting,athlete%20jogging%20arm%20in%20arm.

My school text book highlighted the ‘gesture’ by a German lad, who lost a gold, because of his sense of ‘fair-play’ 🤣. The better one, though a ‘black’ found a life-long friend and an indebtedness to him, that…. never_can_be repaid 🙏

As a kid, that text book lesson, ended up into ‘more than’ a marks-scoring exercise 🙏

That German became a Guru in teaching me a spiritual sense of,  what “inclusiveness” means.

Markers for me:

I was nervous about using EXACT markers. The reason was damn simple! 😜… The outside_situations of our life are NEVER predictable. 

So,

1)school timings 8:45 am ( assembly) my marker used to be within 8:15 am 😜…cushion of ½ an hour. Never I was “late”! ( At workplace, I reached an hour earlier. But couldn't escape that mocking remark from the sweeper_lady who pronounced me “you are Late_today” when I reach 55 minutes earlier, instead of usual 60 minutes ‘before’ time. I humbly ‘acknowledged’ her taunt🙏 ( my_marker, she was referring to, and therefore she is an unpaid-Audtor, shaping me ‘towards’ discipline/perfection 🙏)

A friend in State Bank of India, spinned money, using my ‘faked punctuality’. We plan a movie. I tell him:” I will be there at 6.00pm/18:00 hours” I note upto the center_second needle of his_office_clock. I adjust my marker to sync with that clock. Arriving 10 minutes earlier at the Gate, I walk in 3 seconds to_6 pm . He noticed it a few times, and offered a ‘bet’ with his colleague seated next. He “Exact 6, psn will be at the door, Bet?” The other jumped in “₹10… I bet,  nobody is that_punctual. We are “Indians” 😂”.  I walked in when that fastest needle of the clock touched “12” on the clock at 6 pm, unaware of this ‘bet’ 😥.

My friend, that evening, said ,”PSN our tickets were paid for by Mr x, today. We have 6 rupees for snacks etc during interval too😜”( an abuse of my ‘marker’...I felt inwardly 😭)

When it came to “taking spiritual lessons, the programs, intensive practices for 7+ years etc, the private+personal ‘design’ of the software I had as “my_markers” took away a huge ‘load’ off_my_FRAIL_shoulders 😂. Goal chased me ( often using my spiritual teacher).... instead of the usual “we chase our_goals” 🙏

I dunno….if I managed to ‘persuade’  my reader to take atleast a casual_look at his own markers 😳😓😓😓

Markedly yours,

psn(9 Sept 2025)

Honesty without transperancy

 Honesty without transperancy 

Honestly is good, but transparency in honesty may create embarrassment for a few😜

A joke ( true incident)

1962 war 

Our school's Principal echoed the "call' of the prime minister to contribute for 'National Defence Fund".

He told us in the assembly at 8:45 am "collect whatever you can. Coins okay. Money order to NDF is free in post office, by gourmet order"

The same evening, I went around the neighborhood of my home. Uncle & aunt of the same house I requested "small coins okay". Thus a long list of names, with 5 or 10 paise against each name.

My dad had said "come to me in the last"

Dad looked at the list, counted the coins, converted it into rupee-notes, and added his own ( 4 or 8 annas, not sure🙏)

Total was ₹ 4.65

Princi surprised at 8.30 am when I submitted the list with ₹4.65

He decided to announce in the assembly "one boy is very prompt. He collected ₹4.65. with a list. For his age, it is admirable"

In the evening, I showed the list to all the donors ( I had to convince them, I didn't swallow their five/ten-paise.

Joke : one uncle( childless) said :" If I knew, you will SHOW-AROUND that list like this, I would have given ₹1/- 😥" 

At that age, I didn't understand why he said this. ( But after reaching 10th, I understood my stupidity. I should have shown only "Gave ₹4.65 total amount to Principal"(princi acknowledged on copy of list🙏)

Secretly yours,

psn(30 Aug 2025)

online conversion of hurdles into opporChutney

 Modi is perhaps the only leader who speaks about “converting hurdles into opportunities”.

I am not any where near Modi to even appreciate him loudly 🙂

I had a rare occasion to suggest, “hurdle into opportunity” during my days of volunteering (1992–95) as a ‘back up support ‘ for freshers in yoga programs.

A lady “sir, I am a housewife with lot of work in the morning & evening, to look after my family of two kids, hubby, and parents-in-law. Instead of supporting, they all have turned into critics already, saying “who will do the cooking, washing, cleaning etc, if your yoga business is in the morning– evening hours?😡”

I am zero in house management. Incompetent to give ‘tips’ 🙏

Instead, I thought, “let me cook up a bogus story, and clandestinely infuse a concept, NON-INVASIVELY( medicos try non invasive, non intrusive examination of physiology 😜)

I told her:

“ Madam,

Your query is 100% genuine, practical & real.

I am not good at giving solutions. Instead, let us go through a BOGUS fictional story, invented by me, and I pray, you may feel INSPIRED to figure out the solution for your problem, by yourself 🙏

Story:

Imagine, you are a teenager, Good at sprinting 100 metres race, and selected at district level, and given 3 months to prepare for state level selection of 200 metres race. You are stinking_rich. A driver takes you to the “tracks” each morning at 5 am for a 3 hour practice, and at 4 pm for 2 hours training. At the end of 3 months, you are short of just 2 seconds to reach old records of 23 seconds for 200 metres.

Imagine, a tribal kid, impoverished, poor, but accidentally a competitor from his tribal hilly region. He too, ‘hopes’ to practice 🙏

His hurdles..

1)no track near his hill to practice.

2)his mom says “you can't go beyond my visibility range for your nonsense ( running 200 metres to-and-fro in vain). “

3) the immediate 200 metres from his hut is full of rocky boulders, pits, and uneven slope!

That kid, due to his tribal innocence, decides to give a try👍

He too managed to measure his-200 metres after 3 months….. 30 seconds 😅🤣 

He knows, 23 to 25 seconds is ‘good’ to participate in selection rounds. But, having ‘invested’ 3 months, daily 6 to 8 hours, he ‘braces’ himself for a defeat at ‘trials’ not without going for trials.

Trials

You did as ‘clocked’ on those tracks already 

That tribal kid 😳😳😳 21 seconds! ( Absence of rocks, pits, etc on groomed-track felt like chewing Halwa( a soft sweet dish🤣). 

The timekeeper equally surprised, STUPIFIED!!! ( unofficially, the kid & timekeeper both decide a private re-run for fun. That kid betters by ½ a second 😜)

Story over. ( My inspiration for manufacturing this bogus story was a true incident. A tribal lad, holding last van of a goods train in African jungle, noticed by a British officer, was picked up for olympics. His long-strides to keep pace with goods train helped him win a gold. His German competetor helped him to walk back from white marker, to leap from exact-marker, unmindful of losing to a better-fellow-competitor! )

Madam, an example for “hurdles can-be an opporChutney too! Matter of Perspective only🙏”

That lady, a moment later “okay 👍… I will wake up ½ an hour early, and sleep ½ an hour late. Thank you sir 🙏 “

I felt glad. My mind whispered silently ”exactly what we-too-were doing. Use sleep quota hours for spirituality“( any way MeditaShun reduces sleep_requirements)

Covertly yours,

psn(30 auGust, 2025)

Namaskar bijness

 Desi design : seeking blessings by touching the feet of a fellow elder by age.

The main criteria: whether there was any "elderliNess in that elder?" That criteria got extinct 😜

[27/08, 2:49 pm] PSN: My personal concern was, when I touch the top of the head of a kid doing the ritual of vandanam/namaskaram, 

I should be "response_able/responsible"....not a mere "show bijness"( ignorant of EVEN the distinction between anugraham & asheervadam 😭)

Something "positive" needs to be transmitted to that "innocent" kid ( reasonable, isn't it?)

Subtle spiritual energy, preferably 😥🙏

I had to strive for it. Slog .

That kid is-not going to question me, if I get_away with a stupid meaningless touch, as-if I really 'blessed' him 😂 ( I am accountable to my atma/spirit/karma/whatever. None others concern me. A purely personal affair 👍🙏).

( There is a negative aspect as well. Traditional belief is : if that namaskaram accompanies a voluntary_surrender, which is rare, then, I acquire the karma of the fellow bowing/prostrating to me😓. I needed to learn to pass on that karma elsewhere 😜)

Karma is a sort of energy flow too. If I bow to an undeserving fellow, just because he a more aged donkey than me, I acquire his negative energies 😜)

[27/08, 2:53 pm] PSN: In epic stories,

Heavy symbolism is loaded.

Rama had to take the form of a 'normal' human being. But the loophole was, he can 'acquire' the energies of evolved fellow's. Thus, Rama is found doing 'namaskarams' to all & sundries, with utmost humility 😜. Ravana doesn't 'bow' to anyone 😥

psn

27 August 2025

Water effects

 A friend wrotted( wrote to me, a forward he got)

[27/08, 9:05 am] friend:

 I did not *apply for anything*.

*No one recommended me*.

Yet, I was *gifted this miraculous body*—

*Without an interview, without merit — pure grace*.

*Blood flows ceaselessly from head to toe*,

Every *heartbeat a silent drum of life*.

I don’t know what kind of *divine technology powers this system*,

But the *heart never tires, never rests, until it's time to go*

Two eyes, like cameras of a *thousand megapixels*,

Capture the ever-changing *beauty of this world*—

Colours, light, emotions—etched into memory.

A *tongue that performs ten thousand taste tests with precision*…

*Skin, a living sensor, feeling heat, cold, love, pain*—

A miracle of sensitivity.

A *voice box* that *expresses thought and emotion*

Through sounds of infinite variety. And *ears* that decode *every frequency*—

From whispers of the wind to the laughter of loved ones.

This body, made of *75% water*,

Holds firm, no short circuit no leakage. Despite millions of pores.

*I stand tall, unsupported by anything*.

Rubber tyres wear out on roads,

But the *soles* of my feet carry me through a *lifetime*—

Still holding strong.

What an *astonishing, divine creation*!

Nothing *man-made can come close ever*

You are the Giver, the Operator, the Designer.

Every memory, every thought, every ounce of strength and peace_—

All come from You, O Sustainer.

This is Your divine play,Your masterpiece.

Let me not just exist, but participate

In the selfless joy, the divine rhythm of Your Creation.

Bless me with good sense and pure awareness.

May I never forget even for a moment

Let gratitude be my constant companion.

Let awe fill my every breath.

This is not just a body — 

It is a temple of Your presence🙏🏻 🙏🏻 🙏🏻

[27/08, 9:43 am] PSN: A freak that I am....

I decided to hold the terminals of my battery powered voltage_meter... Using my finger tips.

Turned the switch to show 2000m( milli-something, of voltage). It showed 5 to 12 wavering, unsteady touch on red & black terminal)

Now,

I wanted to CHECK the reason for "आपो उप स्पृश्याम" chant 😂

Smeared  H²O( water) on the palm and fingers, just a little wetness, nothing more. 

With this "moist" fingers, फिर से, held the terminals.

The meter display now shows 36+. 😜😜🙏🙏🙏

साला 😡 

यूं ही नहीं, हमारे ancients.... बीच बीच में पानी से खेलते थे 😳😳😳

Input devices के लिए 

gratitude in your 'forward'....

persuaded me to tell you about my सर फिरा experiment ( हालांकि, That voltage tester इतना exhaustive device नहीं है, to reveal "all the secret reasons of our chants🙏😭)

Effectively yours,

psn(27 August, 2025)

Stiff neck

 Stiff-neck 

😂

Very few of us are born with a defect, which prevents us from turning our head sideways, at will.  When our neck becomes stiff( some unfortunate medical condition, spine malfunction, often) we need to turn out body above waist, to enable the head to turn sideways and allow eyes to ‘view’ something 🙏

I heard that Sunflower has no stiff-neck like other plants and trees. Flexible neck( stalk of that flower), allows the ‘sensitivity’ of_the_flower to keep_receiving the Positive rays from sun, throughout the day 😜 ( we know, sunflower doesn't need yoga-asanas to maintain flexibility 🙏😜).

We humans are under a compulsion to choose “which way to think & act”. Our “potential” for sensitivity goes dead, remains dormant, retains its capacity or….. keeps_Growing_too, as per our Choices 🙏

Simplest available EVIDENCE of ancient wisdom is…… we bow to the Most_energetic celestial body available to_us. Sun.  And the ‘best’ time is during the 4 meeting points of day and night 😂.  3 of them was ‘practical' for familied/gruhastha folk. Hence the term “triKaala-Sandhyavandan”.  ( We have a choice…. to be like a sunflower or a stiff-necked flower)

More discreet ones decided to use a natural “antenna”  which keeps accumulating PLUS reflecting towards earth, whatever kind of energies it ‘gets’ from……EVEN  far away celestial bodies.  Moon 🌙 

Among the other bodies, planets around the sun emit energies which affect us in some way. Moon, like a dish_antenna, reflects such energies. Powerful stars also emit their subtle energies. The sum total of all these emissions from out outer world, became a science by itself ( astrology, astronomy) for the enlightened desi saints of ancient Bharat 🙏 ( Yes, we can choose to ignore or accept this).  Lunar_calender got it's added significance ( alongside Sun, not ignoring it), and therefore, a concept like “moon represents the Mind”, in astrology 😂😜).

Becoming UNAVAILABLE to strong external influences, ( unavoidable negative energies) became a skill ! Spiritual bijness monopolised this skill 😜. Not that this skill is unavailable to non-spiritual people 🙏 . A choice again.

Stiff-neck.

I find, tensed people having their neck muscles “stiff” most of the time. After a certain point, it turns ‘default’ stiffness. Dunno why they CHOOSE to ignore own_neck?  ( A little massage can relax neck muscles. Head ‘feels’ relaxed for a few minutes at least 🙏😂).  Forget that STIFF-competition from that (flexible_neck_wala)sun flower🙏 . Own head is valuable, isn't it, with 4 input_devices located there?

Your choice 🙏 ( today, Vinayaka chaturthi, not advisable to be available to reflected emissions from moon. )

Inflexibly yours,

psn(27 auGust, 2025)

Loneliness

 Loneliness 

Oldies feel it more.

Not that the youngsters are rid of it. Just that, they are yet to confront it, because there is something else to keep their minds busy.

I wondered “can my_Mind can invent problems” 😜……. 

I tried “logic” in the exclusivity of my_emotions. 

Why did we miss that loneliness while inside a toilet or bathroom?  Oh! If I ‘know’ that there are three more waiting outside, to use that toilet after I come out, I can “feel” being pushed/jostled right inside the toilet, though alone and locked up!😓

A soldier keeping a watch at the border, alone, in a bunker, in pitch dark, doesn't feel lonely…. He knows, a whole platoon is waiting to hear him whisper into the walkie-talkies, if there is a firing from the other side. So? 🤔. That same soldier  can create his_loneliness post retirement 😜…. It must be my_mind, failing to experience and extended_inclusiveness, while alone 😳, which “breeds” that loneliness 🙏😓

Desi ascetics confine themselves into a cave to practice meditation, for years, being all_alone!  

Ancient Bharat had coined a phrase “vasudaiva Kutumbakam”( did they expect me to EXPERIENCE this phrase, which was to extend the universe into my_family?). Those ancients even managed to invoke the presence of ancestors, in a very subtle way, using powerful spiritual chants!  Egyptian mummies were kept embalmed to keep_out that loneliness in living ones? Dunno!

Deep sleep insists that I miss EVEN my own presence, if I wish to restore my mind and body to their normal health each day😜 ( sleep is the only state, that OBVIATES company to keep loneliness away😜🙏)

Inclusiveness, seems to be the daily_dose of medicine, to be felt CONSCIOUSLY, especially during old age, to avoid loneliness.  Otherwise ‘fighting’ loneliness while alone seems a vain attempt 😥 

Inclusively yours,

psn(20 Aug, 2025)

A.I. dream

 A.I. dream

I (badly) had a (Good) dream…

Badly affected.

Good-ly enjoyed.

A.I. is the in-thing now 🙏😭

I dunno ‘how to RESTORE the earlier version of humble-gooGirlSarch’ , after it became AI enabled🙏😥

So Garbage in, garbage out( GiGo) happened with my dreams too 😭

My dream :

( no need to ‘throw’ a suspense like movie/serial makers who declare later “it was a dream”)

Some western scientist decided to use me as a guinea pig, for his experiment (probably my 800+ blogs worked AGAINST me, when he decided my OI (human, Original Intellect) to be most-perverted, and ideal thing to ‘experiment’.

Kidnapped, sedated, I was boxed in a metal container and opened in that AI lab. 

2 chips were implanted in me 😭🙏

1.a tracker( of course, AI enabled) for that lab to tag me

2.an AI chip ( ultra sophisticated, cost effectiveness under ‘test’ to replace the robot_design and it's cumbersome mechanical parts).

Then I was let_loose back in India.

I felt persuaded by strange thoughts, flowing in at millions_per_NanoSecond speed 😳( thought, I would swoon, but didn't. Only that “my_own” mind squeezed itself, like a street dog which confronted a full grown bull-terrior.)

I decided ( not me, my AI chip), to go shopping. The salesman got baffled at the break-down of product details, cost components, GST-cheating, etc in a second, and humbly requested me to leave his shop.

I tried a vakil next. I ‘posed’ as a witness of opposite side, and asked him to cross-examine me. He got SCARED at the revelations I reeled out, pointing out all the weak points of his client.

On the road, I met a desi_scientist( only 1 thesis , that too a copy-paste, for his PhD 😜). He escaped into a by-lane. I didn't like to chase him, as I felt ‘pity’. Yes, my mind happened to retain the ‘faculty’ of self-pity, DESPITE that AI chip inside me😜.

Roadside cricket. Young kids didn't mind me trying the bat a few times. They got SCARED of losing the ball, and asked me to bowl. Their desi_wicket sticks broke. I left that place.

Some private TV fellow’s camera spotted me. That anchor forgot what_he_asked!!!! He blurted “hey! You sound like the latest Google_search! 🤣🤣🤣"     ( ROFL).

His laughter shook me out of the dream.

The joke is…. I scrambled to the mirror at the wash basin to check my “face” 😂.  Nah! Face isnt gonna reassure me that I am naarmal/normal.  I felt confused.

First time in my life, I needed “extra minutes” after-waking up, to reassure me, it was a dream. ( Only toddlers keep crying for 5 more minutes, after waking up from a ‘bad_dream’)

I am off to a psychiatrist, just to ask “any way Sir, to PREVENT an AI_enabled dream¿ ???”( I hope, he doesn't get scared😜)

Dreamily yours,

psn(19 aug 2025)

A teaser: If, by any stray_chance a western techie gets a freak idea to try an implant of AI chip, 

He confronts a problem: How to by_pass a human mind?

He may be good at program coding. 

But, for design of that software ( Bypass surgery), he "may" have to seek help from a ....

desi, half-baked spiritual_Nut (like me😜).

No joke, to bypass a 'mind' 😓

Did we realise?

 Did we realise?

We often used the word “realise” without realising it's true significance 😜

‘i realise that you are right/wrong about what you said about me!”( Really ‘realised’ or merely understood/grasped/etc?)

A “realised being “( AI enabled Google search) :      "Realized being" refers to an individual who has attained a deep understanding of their true nature, often associated with spiritual enlightenment or self-realization. This state involves a shift in consciousness where the individual transcends ego-identification and experiences a sense of unity with the universe or a higher reality. It's a state of being free from the limitations of the mind and its associated suffering. 

unquote:

🤣

Whatever we “realise” …. very reasonably, it ought _to_be, the ultimate level of knowing about ‘that’ thing isn't it? 🤔🙏

Real_iced_ly yours,

psn(18 Aug 2025)

Mridangam student from USA

 Mridangam student from USA

I was fortunate to meet a few like me, once in a while.😥

My aunt lived at small village "nelluvaya"( famous Dhanwantari temple).

A mridangam teacher lived close by and was a regular visitor to my aunt, as a family friend.

Once an American landed there, keen to learn mridangam from this illiterate malayali 😜

( Fees wasn't any issue. ) But this mallu did everything within him to get rid of this incompatible foreigner. He was a contended soul, with no temptations for $ 

Somehow, mallu had to agree to teach. 

Now, left with only one "weapon" -----heavy, tiring homework, mallu asked his disciple to practice just 4 beats for a month ( don't show your "face" to me, till you can do like this/me----demo)

That guy returns on 6th day, demonstrated that 'beat' exceptionally well 😳

A translator was there. American said "well, I had no other work! Entire waking hours, except eating, bathing and toilet... spent in practicing"

Next level was "meant" to take 2+ months.

This guy came back in a week again 😥. 

Now, the mallu understood what he is "against". A deep bond got forged. ( I was told....that American didn't need 2 years to grab, whatever his Guru could teach. He left, seeking higher level teachers. )

busily yours,

psn(11 aug 2025)

Epilogue: I had a family to look after. A job with responsibility of cash-keys. Couldn't afford “all the waking hours” of intense practice of what I “loved” to do! ( Therefore, a compromise —do that “little a day” with high intensity. )

Prologue: ( a bogus story 😜 It's a “fashion” to mock and ridicule Hindu-epics, when the underlying symbolism seems tough to imbibe,🙏, therefore call it “bogus👍”) The story: Narada boasted to his deity “am I not your Best-devotee?” Vishnu said “nope!😥 A farmer down there, in the”Human world” is better than you”. Narada rushed to verify that farmer. The poor farmer was ploughing his small field by himself, toiling hard, barely able to make both-ends-meet. Busy whole day, eats megerly & sleeps tired. Narada reported”I checked. He chants you name just thrice a day—before ploughing, before lunch, and before sleeping at night…. I chant 24/7 “. Vishnu said “okay, take this oil cup, walk thrice around this small temple and come to me. Not a drop should spill”. The coconut shell was full of oil, with upper-curvature holding extra oil above the edge, due to viscosity, molecular affinity etc. very tough to “hold” it without spillage. But narada had to “walk” thrice 😭. He “managed” somehow, without spilling a drop of oil. Vishnu asked”how many times did you CHANT my name while-walking around thrice?”..... Narada: “😡 nonsense. I had to focus 100% on the oil-cup, to avoid spilling. How can I chant???” Vishnu: EXACTLY…. That poor farmer managed to chant THRICE, despite his family burden, poverty, etc. isn't he the “better” devotee???”

Design of human life

 Any new gadget we sight upon, fascinates us at once and we get nudged from within to find out "what is this?, what is its purpose? How do we use it( in its best possible way?)?" etc.

When 2 look-a-likes in the story of "Prince & the pauper" exchanged places for a few days, that pauper"found" the "use" of the Royal-Seal as 'useful to crack nuts'!!! ( His perception had only a limited range).

Human life ...... Most sophisticated gadget EVER.  🙏 ( If this piece of 'life' doesn't fascinate us enough, we end up using it to "crack nuts'" only😜)

Ancients of Bharat, decided to pass on the legacy of their prices less discoveries, related to Human form, its highest potential etc...

Therefore they summarised it in words ( & also transmitted it genetically, when they "saw" in their wisdom, that humans cannot be trusted upon for their "minds" whereas, they can do very little messing up, with their 'genes'). It is "thus" that our IRRELIGIOUS Hinduism got preserved in its "available" form.

Mahavakyas (4)

Prajñānam Brahma, 

Aham Brahmāsmi, 

Tat Tvam Asi, and 

Ayam Ātmā Brahma. 

Verbal grasp is useless. Experience of these 4 is ultimate wisdom 🙏

About the "genes"....  Only perception beyond sensory level can possibly help to wake up those genes to reveal itself 🙏 

DesignAtedly yours,

PSN(10 August 2025)