Heart Condition!

That is when the heart is not 'conducive', when we end up into a 'heart condition'! (It is so inspiring, to see that we humans still look at heart as a potential to remain 'unconditional' under 'ideal-conditions'!)

Where as when we say it is 'in condition'(about most other things), it indicates a 'health'!

I talked to the spouse of a person whom I knew very closely, to learn about the 'present-condition' of that person, 'as she saw him'... She happened to 'borrow' a very common expression that she had heard of... in order to some how convey... an observation of hers, a perception of hers, which remained elusive to her own judgement... this 'expression' made a reference to 'praana finding its way to sustain life in the body, amidst all the 'logically-negative clinical conditions prevailing in an aggravated manner' ... Most of these aggravated conditions came under the scanner when a medical examination was sought, and the obvious monitoring too happened at the ICU...!

This 'observation' of hers... amazed me! 'Oh!' I felt... 'if only she would take notice of this phenomenon of a 'non-judgemental-perception'... but, she is not available even to have such a wish, the way she (her mind) is positioned right now! Spiritual tools and techniques strive to enhance this style-of-perception. A good teacher would also strive to incorporate a safety-valve, where such perception does not itself become a 'commercialised-tool' (One of the teachings of 'the form' of Krishna during the Mahabharata, during the 'freeze' scenes where he has the exclusivity of a subtle 'unfrozen-motion' of articulation to Karna during the last few moments of Karna's life... Krishna explains, cites the improper application of 'knowledge', its sanctity.. and the result thereof... where knowledge fails to 'befriend' the person who possesses it, in times of crisis! The reference is towards degradation of that 'knowledge' into looking at it as 'yet another materialistic tool'... If one can capture this symbolism in its 'intended-sense' , not getting trapped into the veracity of the epic-story itself,... it does provide a key to several lock-blocks within, 'opening the bridge'.. not just 'opening the doors'... happens! The dramatisation of the story provides ample clue here to explain, why the 'hither-to' inimical-outlook towards the assailant-to-be transforms into a 'love-for-the-being-now'---what we get to see is, there is a warmth in the 'approach' when Karna later says, 'please behead me' to Arjuna, and yet proceeds to intensely strive at that 'mission-impossible' of removing the stuck wheel of the chariot... A logic-defying scenario indeed!)

When I was keeping 'track' of the clinical 'procedures' for the heart condition of that person, I was suddenly reminded of how the 'ancient pharmacologist' would have performed, at the behest of the physician! Somehow, the personal experience with spiritual practices thus-far, nudges me to 'believe' that it was not a coincidence that the ancient pharmacologists were 'preferably' females! There is a vaidya, who would prescribe to that 'femininity' inherent in that female, the 'methodology' of the approach(customised to suit the patient), towards the 'life-content' in the individual raw ingredients(usually herbs), which were in-itself, an amazing composition even individually, yet-individual, and holding a potential to release the nascent life energy latent in it, as a closely guarded potential, waiting to be released in its 'nascent' form, when carefully guided into a 'compatible' receptacle, under stringent lab-conditions and then, proceeding to invigorate the feeble, fatigued and weak 'prana' in that human being, to then-on proceed to re-vitalise the vital organs, etc! Where, there is not a female in the proximity, the vaidya himself does the invocation of feminine aspect within (and vice-versa, in those rare-cases of a female-vaidya, who does the analysis, while invoking the logical aspect of 'reasoning' to arrive at a fair-diagnosis, and then she already has that ingredient for a feminine-pharmacologist!)... Obviously, the beneficiaries are going to be a little ignorant about such intricate details, and the common word to refer the phenomenon in an aggregate fashion is.... to call it a 'miracle', and the performer's hands as 'kara-punya' ('Kara' symbolises the hands too... with which karma-kriya/performance... is usually 'hand-led/handled'!

Quite a long narrative already! I have to hold back a few more observations of mine for a spacious arena which might be available some time later (while 'we know'.... already... that the mind is going to 'only look at' a word at a time... the attention span, its miserly size, tends to blame it on the 'length'... all the time!. And as goes the saying, 'beggars cannot be choosers'... I have to outsource the 'choice' to the charity-giver here, while I beg for that 'attention-span'.. But someday, hopefully, when somebody decides to become 'choicelessness' as their very-way-of-being.... the 'well-being' of the being is ......not going to now-depend-on ... the 'being-well' of .....everything else.... about that being, which only belongs to that being, but never was a part of that 'being'!

Heartily conditioned, yours,

psn(26th September, 2014)

The 'Making' of a disciplined!

“Discipline, obedience.. (uske baad.. “something, and something” ... else.. I forget... while in NCC the ustaad tried to make us remember... Dilip Kumar jee gave that idea of 'beech mei 'something-something'.. in a dialogue... “Rangee ko Naa-rangee kahe... Doodh mei bana 'Khoya'.. {the ironical contradiction... Na-rangee is a citrus fruit, and it has 'a' color.. why call it na-rangee/non-colored?... something made out of milk is very much tangible, though a little compressed/concentrated, but why call it 'khoya'/lost?... beech mei 'something-something'... dekh kabira roya')....

Why do we need a 'discipline'? I used to wonder, when elders 'mention' it, ... while the teacher tries to 'enforce' it... (but, the teacher is not 'so-insistent' after her-working-hours... that is our school-hours!... The 'freedom-culture' of the west... 'in-its-making'.... ! Wah! Apna wala/our-own... reverence-culture... drained down the stream, in our shishtim/system of 'education'! All they do is just to make us literate... seldom to do anything with education!)...

Little do we realise... that disciple is the one who ever needs some discipline.. ... Others have to only 'adhere' to the nature's rhythm, and enjoy 'life' like a beautiful song, with karoke-sing-along style! If we are 'equipped' with a drum, do not try to look for strings of a violin inside it... just beat the drum, but cohesively with the 'violinist' next to us... Match making was not about making the same noise together, 'a-little-louder'! It was about harmony between two dissimilar instruments, to make the song.. the music ... a little more brighter, smoother, and a little more less-fatiguing!

Anyway, when the question came up... “What makes a person disciplined?( What is the secret behind being disciplined?)

at the forum: https://in.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20130810045304AAfQsbh

I came up with a diluted version of...

what occurred in my mind thus: “ Any refinement of any kind, involves.... some kind of self-imposed restriction...”

but the diluted version was : (what I gave out on the 'answers' forum of Yahoo bosses)...

“When the defects/disadvantages of an in-disciplined life-style comes too much in the way !
Other wise, mere sermons-listening is a good pastime.. why bother with 'needless-restrictions' when life happens the way we like!
Now, somebody suddenly takes a liking to 'feel' how it would be on Moon! The discipline starts... health fitness to withstand a space travel, the ability to walk carefully at 1/6th of gravity, ability to conserve even breathing air (tension increases breathing, and depletes oxygen!!!)...
...
A surgeon who is going to sew up a nerve of brain which is thinner than a hair (seen only thro' microscope), without blocking the passage of blood through that nerve, has to ...
has to... 'discipline' by abstaining even a cup of 'coffee' , one week ahead of the operation... the tiny hand shake due to 'caffine' needs such a discipline!
...
Suppose my doctor says, you will live only one more day... why waste time trying to have discipline! Enjoy!”

Discriminately disciplined, Yours,

psn(22 September, 2014)

Life is happening here and now!

There is a certain kind of 'vulnerability' that comes with certain stages of life... People usually call it as 'that-age' of a person, instead of looking at it as a 'stage of that person, where the age could fluctuate, waiting for that stage! Where the 'stage' is badly overlooked, the possibility of that person 'surprising' the onlookers with an expression “At this age(even)???...!!!!” ... such possibility is more!

In some rare cases, this 'stage' is all mixed up (there are even 'mystic-like' reasons, where we find that 'old head on young shoulders), etc...

When I found myself surrounded by those who were at a certain age, and also the 'stage-managed' freedom could not be curtailed, there was an offer : “Hey, are you interested to see the 'other-type' of films... those 'prohibited' ones?”.. and I said, “No thank you! I finished that long ago and have seen it 'live'!” And they asked me, “Arey baap re! So 'forward'?”... Now, they are asking for that...'trouble' ! (Left alone, I usually don't try to induce others into my-kind-of-thought-process!)..

I explained, “ I got to hear this phrase... 'Even dogs have a season!'.... That set me thinking.. I started with 'what are they talking about?... season for dogs?' Now I made up my mind, (at that kid-age!), to start observing dogs... Fortunately for me (rather, my experimentation-now-undertaken)... stray dogs were in plenty... and right on the roads... All that was needed was my own focus on them! They try to smell, before they try to mate! The curiosity about using this data-input-device... the sensory organ... persuaded me to focus a little deeper! They are usually driven by basic-instincts, unlike us, who are 'usually driven by a quixotic mind'.. So, the faults or the plus-points... if any, accrues to the 'natural way they are'... So, with that open mind, I can see their limitations (decided/designed by nature ofcourse), and their capabilities... I extended this 'observation' to other animals (and the field of survey.. was obviously constrained to remain confined to observing only domesticated animals, like cows, bulls, he and she buffaloes.. The pattern was with striking-similarities, and a few subtle distinctions! What baffled me was the 'absence of any gynecologist !' And nature .. also, their own nature.. actually 'befriended' them, guided them... even prior to conceivement! The right time to carry out that conception was decided prior to the act... Their antenna was 'deployed' towards fulfilling the nature's wishes! (I had to wait for my right-age, not even the 'stage' to ... later on observe, how we humans end up abusing/misusing this 'technique'! Why and where did we go wrong? Was the immediate-next question... That entailed that... the next observation needs to be towards, how we handle this 'self-awareness', from which evolves that 'conscious-choice-making' faculty! The rest of it becomes quite clear, when we find out where we took a 'wrong road' at the very first cross-roads!). It is not that 'none of the humans' ever did anything ... about right time to effect conception.. In fact they went way beyond the animals even when planning a healthy conception.. The ritual of deciding about a Muhurat for that too, is indicative enough when they tried to take help of astronomy, and deploy it via astrology, to tame the influences of gravity, etc... Science has explored enough to guess, that gravity is not just about earth... through subtle magnetism, far off celestial bodies too have their subtle-but-strong influences... (now we find such observations only while 'launching a space-rocket! The season, weather and climate has to be optimum!. The ancients look at 'launching a baby' ... It is a matter of choice, whether to sophisticate the raw materials, or the best product available out of same-raw-materials!!!.. If we 'unanimously' decide to award a same-side-goal.. we simply rewrite the rules of the game, not just shift the goal-posts.. that is perhaps, our-true-meaning of democracy and freedom.. we simply make it 'now-legal' about same gender relationships! A way of 're-defining' that emotional satisfaction!... Anyway emotions are unavailable to logic! )

Responding in an erroneous manner to some biological phenomenon, did not really seem to matter too much, for a spiritual evolvement (when there was an epic story to symbolise this, where a lady tells the husband “If only you had turned towards the 'supreme' with even half-the-intensity with which you came chasing me,..... misconstruing a corpse to be a wooden log, to cross that swollen hazarduous river, ..... misconstruing huge long snake to be a rope to climb down the tall overhanging branch of the tree, when the gates were not going to be opened at the dead of this night... if only half that intensity which caused so much 'blindness of vision towards sensory perceptions', perhaps, your other vision would have opened, to 'see' the supreme!”)....!!!

Then, what else to do?.. All I could do is to be 'available' where life was happening so intensely! Well, that simplified the matters... life , for me... has to happen only where I am situated now! It is my mind that often renders me oblivious to life happening so intensely with me.. The clue is now perhaps, into making myself more and more receptive to life's happening to me, with me! The needless insulations ought to be removed (when we buy gadgets, sensitive parts, like data ports, etc are well packed, to ensure its full functionalities, when unpacked, assembled, and made operational).. Sleep insulates me from 'experience of life' (at that age, that was the observation!).. So do everything to keep that sleep-duration to optimum needed levels! Food pattern decides the body's rest and recuperation dependence on sleep (when food fails to provided the needed energy, the body turns to seek it 'through sleep', to whatever possible extent... That feast, heavy lunch, loaded with junk-items... makes us drowsy too soon! That food, for which nature designed this body for, makes the body more alert after an intake of food! As an incidental benefit the sleep quota reduces, does not become zero or near zero!.... Much-much later, the same inquisitiveness and intensity of that 'search' led me to the techniques where the same 'sleep' quota can be reduced further, apart from the help received from food-pattern to reduce it... We may call that technique as 'meditative-process', though it is not a mandated thing that a 'process' is needed to become meditative... it can creep in naturally too (by itself), once the mind gets tamed (by whatever means, due to what ever reasons.. natural or otherwise too!).. the benefits, the easily tangible and noticeable ones are at .... even the physical level... the sleep quota gets reduced to such a level, that if an equanimous mind of a medical expert would observe, they would grasp the subtlety in the anatomy too! (The person himself, on the other hand is blessed with an experience itself, which he would struggle to express!)...

Oh! The length of the blog reminds me here that it is going to now test the patience of the reader!

Here and now yours,

psn(2nd September, 2014)